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Hoshino Ame Illusionist. Idol. OC. Another lost kid searching for his soul. Another Peter Pan searching for his Neverland. Faceclaim: Tamamori Yuta.

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She is not quite sure if passionate was the right word to describe her since she does not exactly go out of her way or going above and beyond to get the tickets because even she knows that is not a great importance for her to go such lengths for people that do not know her but if he thinks of her to be passionate, then there is not much she can say is there? She does not know if a next time would be possible for her cause by then, the money she has gathered would be used for more important things like groceries and everyday transportation but the thought of her being able to attend the next concert is a nice one nonetheless. At best, all she has to do is wait around for a kind soul to upload the DVD rip of the concert or if she was not able to wait long enough, search through the page results of any fancams taken by fans during the concert. Even if it comes nothing close to watching it before you, beggars cannot be choosers. 

“Maybe I would have to work on my clicking skills the next time.” She has heard and seen of people waiting by the laptop anxiously and rapidly clicking on the seats they wish to buy as soon as the sales are online, never having seen people being so intense about something that is typically so mundane. “Or get nice friends who can get the tickets for me..” 

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“Clicking skills,” Ame repeated quietly, his face slowly going from a rather blank expression to one of amusement. “Somehow, that sounded kind of cute. Become a champion clicker and get the tickets next time.” A joking comment, though he did sincerely wish her the best of luck next time.

Actually, he hadn’t even asked what concert or artist she wanted to go see. Maybe it would be nice of him to ask specifically who it was, though he also didn’t want to pry. Surely, though, it wasn’t an inappropriate question given the current conversation. “If you don’t mind me asking,” he began, his hands still resting on the cup that his bubble tea was in. “Who were you wanting to go see in concert? Do they usually sell out so quickly?”

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maybe we were born with our hearts broken. maybe learning how to be a person was learning how to love. we learned of dogs and of stars and of stars named after dogs. we learned of homes and cereal and butterflies. and we sewed ourselves up with everything, maybe, we became so full of love that when we looked down, we were empty of it, and our patchwork was awful, and we were no longer young. our dogs died and stars died and stars don’t remember their names. our homes became houses became full of shouting and sorrow, we choked on our cereal, we killed butterflies on accident.

and this, what we are, this emptiness or maybe bleakness or maybe apathy or maybe just a mold that grows in your lungs and refuses to leave: maybe we are taking apart those early stitches, undoing the work our young fingers learned, examining every scar we earned, holding it up and because it hurt - when we sew it up, we sew careful now, we take our time.

we are learning again. we are re-imagining our universe. we are trying to rebuild love so that it lasts, so that we can lean on it, so that it matters. so we can be okay. so we can give ourselves freely again. so we can breathe.

so maybe now it’s okay to be sad, because when we first learned to love, we did it so well. 

we loved so hard that it hurt when we fell. 

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"Hmm, I want takoyaki..."

“Takoyaki, huh? Sorry, is my accent making you crave Japanese street food?” The male joked, his hand coming up to cover his mouth and hide his slight embarrassment, as his accent was something he was well aware of, and something that he couldn’t help but be somewhat insecure about. It was part of the reason why he only did minor acting in Korea, and never released any music there and instead released music in his Native country of Japan. It wasn’t that he couldn’t release anything in Korea, but it was a choice he had made, because he was still the insecure high school boy inside.

“Takoyaki is one of my favorites, actually. But it’s best from the Kansai region. I always eat tons of takoyaki when I go to places like Osaka! It’s, like, something you have to do when you visit there, you know?”

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Japan: Kawachi wisteria garden, Fukuoka

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That is because it was jealousy but that would be too childish for her to admit. It was ridiculous the speed it took for all the tickets to be sold out after five minutes the tickets were on sale, wondering how many of them were actual fans and how many of them were scalpers looking to make a profit from innocent, oblivious fans. She wanted to see the concert, certainly, but she was not desperate to the point where she would pay a big amount of money to get those tickets. What more when more often than not, the price that it would be sold again is unreasonably higher than the original price. There were limits to being a fan and this is one of them for her, sighing as she takes a sip of her bubble tea to cheer herself up. 

“Well, I would not necessarily say that I dislike them because I do not know them. Rather, I just dislike them for being able to attain a ticket to the concert I wanted to see.” Especially when it is a concert with Hirose Daisuke involved, having loved him and his portrayal of Souji Okita in the Hakuouki Musical. “Maybe next time.”  

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As if reminded that he also had something he could drink, Ame pulled his bubble tea closer to himself as well, sipping idly on it while he waited for the female to respond. As someone in a group, one who often held concerts every year (though their debut had only been a year ago, the agency had confirmed with them that there would be at least one concert per year if possible), Ame couldn’t help but wonder if there were fans of ASK’s who were also this passionate about getting tickets to see them live. In a way, it made him happy, but also slightly disappointed. If it were possible, he’d like anyone who wanted to attend, to be able to.

“Ahh, I understand what you mean.” He lifted his head some as he spoke, reaching up to push his glasses back up after they had slid down some when he leaned forward to sip his drink. “I’m sure those who you wanted to see in concert would have wanted you to attend, especially as you’re so passionate about it. Saying ‘maybe next time’ though is a positive way to look at it. Next time, try even harder! Or, actually, saying that sounds kind of mean. I just mean, next time maybe you’ll find a way to get a ticket before they sell out.”

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Gonna make me feel alive. 

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❛ my neutral expression makes me look like i’m always in a bad mood which is convenient because it’s usually true ❜

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“In that case, please let me know which it is beforehand. Whether it’s a bad mood, or simply your neutral expression.” Ame lifted his eyes from the cup in his hand to look at the female, his expression seeming to be something near a pout, though it wasn’t necessarily on purpose. He naturally pursed his lips often, a habit he had gotten from his mother who he looked so much like, as well as narrowing his eyes or furrowing his brows when in thought on something. “I am at a record breaking low in terms of reading people’s emotions. And I don’t just mean my own records. I mean, like, in general.”

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❛ why do good concert tickets happen to bad people ❜

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“Hm... Probably because these ‘bad people’ tend to either have clever ways of getting what they want over anyone else, or because they have their own fierce determination.” There was a pause in his speech as the male stopped to think about his own words, his head tilting some and his eyes narrowing as if he wasn’t even sure about them. “But maybe I’m mixing up really determined people with bad people? Perhaps... Is this jealousy?” It was meant as a joke, though there was a hint of truth in what he said of himself.

“Anyway, did someone you don’t like get tickets you wanted or something?”

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