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[amieladah]

by @amieladah

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Victor Nizovtsev paintings ✩

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nana matching icons

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Witchcraft: The Four Elements

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As someone who had an eating disorder and identified as transgender for several years, there really is so much overlap between the two. The body checking. The body obsession as a whole. The fixation on certain “problem” body parts, the communal commiseration, the clique encouragement and competition to reach higher and more dangerous goals. Whereas with eating disorders you’re constantly monitoring your weight, diet, and exercise, with gender dysphoria it’s mannerisms, posture, inflection. The obsession with how clothes fit and the shape of the body is nearly identical. My eating disorder morphed into dysphoria so easily; it was the same sentiment in a different container. My pro-ana friends would encourage me to starve myself and share thinspo images of skeletal women; my trans friends would give me tips on how to bind my chest and scripts to get doctors to prescribe testosterone, and we’d mutually pour over pictures of people who were our transition goals. The painful mix of hope and envy I felt for their masculinized bodies was exactly the same as when I looked at those waifish women years before. Ten more pounds and I’ll be alright. When I get top surgery I’ll be alright. When I look like her I’ll be alright; when I pass like him I’ll be alright. But the ten pounds are never enough. Suddenly your thighs are still too wide; your hips are still too feminine. The target shifts. Ten more pounds…

The result of anorexia is so often death.

But what happens when you’re so readily encouraged, and spend years of your life- and thousands of dollars- chasing a dream, only to reach the finish line and realize all along it was an impossible goal?

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the big four

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Redraw Reigen

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Poster-Art for Hayao Miyazaki’s Studio Ghibli films.

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nana layouts pt 2 <3

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🐱 Studio Ghibli + Cats 🐈

[amieladah]

¿¿¿¿

ya no sé como lidiar con mis sentimientos

ni con el lugar en el que quedé parada

o con la posición que tengo en la vida del resto

sé que si fuera por mí, ya fue, dejo todo

pero no puedo, porque no depende de mí

porque no me puedo ir y dejar vacío

ese lugar que ocupo por defecto,

pero que nunca pedí tener

como hija o hermana

amante o amiga.

No me gusta esta vida

ni lo que yo represento dentro de ella,

sigo viviendo mis días

inundada en una melancolía

causada por la ausencia de mi partida.

Qué se yo, no sé, capaz algún día.

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Fena: Pirate Princess → Lord Abel