I Will Ruin It

Indie canon divergent RP blog for Paxton from Eli Roth's Hostel. Est. Nov. 2016. I watched Hostel on Feb. 19, 2017 Please read Rules and About pages before following. Three sheep walk into a den of wolves. Two perish. One escapes. But what becomes of a sheep without a flock to follow? If it is stubborn enough to refuse to be broken, and determined enough to fight for its survival, even a simple sheep can be forced to become a wolf itself.

[amsterdammotherfucker]

Update

Hey guys!! I am so so sorry for disappearing on you, unfortunately I’ve had some technical issues and will be unable to continue using this blog for the foreseeable future. However, anyone still wanting to write with me, I’ll still be writing for Paxton over on my main blog, @jennathearcher It functions as both my personal blog and my main RP blog so I understand if some of you guys don’t want your dashes cluttered :3 Regardless, thank you all so much for following me and interacting with Pax, you guys are the best. I’m gonna miss you <3

[amsterdammotherfucker]

decthsentence:

                  Interesting. Frank studies the other in silence, gaze unwavering or giving so much as a hint of what thoughts had been running through his mind. He knows Paxton’s telling the truth. But now he’s curious. To get your revenge and then be so calm after; a raging storm inside now silenced. How did he do it? Frank’s just about made his round, gone after those he’d learned to be involved in the murder of his family. But still —– he’s angry. Still, he’s got an hunger to continue, long after he’s completed his mission and ended his personal war.

      ❝ Aside from the runnin’, you finished? Just like that? ❞

Pax sighs, and for a moment he avoids the other man’s gaze. He barely knows Frank well enough to call him a friend, and yet...there’s an unmistakable kinship between them.

“It happened years ago,” he went on, by way of explanation. “I was angry and scared then, and, well...I’m still angry and scared now. I just figured it was easier to run and try to stay alive, than try to hunt down every last one of them and make it easier for them to kill me. Like they tried to do in the first place.”

He was silent for a moment, before he spoke his thoughts aloud. “Sometimes I wish I’d made a different call. If they were all dead...it wouldn’t just be me who could sleep better at night.”

[decthsentence-archived-deactiva]

                  Frank knew from the moment he’d met the other that there was something hidden there. It took a bit, but he eventually caught on. He knows the look of a man who has lost so much; a man who had been wronged in the worst of ways. Frank can relate. And the only difference between them? He’s doing something about it. And wonders when —– if, Paxton will ever reach that point.

      ❝ Then why don’t you? Make them suffer. Make them pay for everything they’ve done. ❞

@amsterdammotherfucker | continued.

[amsterdammotherfucker]

Frank’s words resonated straight through to Paxton’s soul. He felt his pulse quicken, just for a moment, and his fist clenched. He knew all about the feeling. The rage. The agony. He knew exactly what it felt like to take a life out of revenge. He wondered if Frank already knew that, if he could see right through him.

“I already have.” His voice was scarcely above a whisper, and he dared to meet the other man’s eyes once more. “I’ve been running ever since.”

[amsterdammotherfucker]

I’M OFFICIALLY BACK IN

Sorry for the sudden disappearance guys, I got into an altercation with my boyfriend’s cat and spilled pop all over my laptop

He was kind enough to loan me a temporary replacement but it took me a bit to figure out how to set up different profiles and log into my other active blogs

I’m still not 100% sure how it works but I’m back on Pax for now, but activity will likely stay low or stagnant until I can either get a new laptop or by some miracle my boyfriend can fix my old one

[recaidasretumbantes]

The first rule of trauma club: we dismiss our traumas because someone else has it worse.

[sagalion-deactivated20171110]

Muns of female characters deserve to be protected

Muns of female characters should be allowed to express their character without other muns treating them like an object.

Muns of age and female characters should be allowed to smut with whomever they want and without judgement.

Minors with female characters deserve to feel protected and safe in an environment that keeps them away from predators.

[sparknshinerpmemes-blog]

Reblog this if you’re 18+ or 21+.

[bengalisms]

IN LIGHT OF TODAY’S EVENTS

Please reblog this to show your support for OCs FIGHTING BACK. Please reblog this to show your support of all OC’s everywhere and to say that you are a safe space for OC’s in this very canon oriented community.

Canons; its okay to reblog this because we ( slightly ) love you <3

[hocksister-blog]

This blog is brand new, so hit that like button for a starter!

[amsterdammotherfucker]

So I may have done a thing.

[winterfellswolfqueen-a]

makopoisoned:

Please reblog if you are okay with random starters, pre-established relationships and responses to ask memes. I need some new people to bug with starters & what nots. 

[chasingjustiicearchive-deactiva]

This has been on my mind for long but I’m gonna do this - please reblog this if you’re comfortable with pre-establishing relationships. I do not mean “met at the grocery store two weeks ago” or “have a common friend”, but rather stuff like “have been best friends since kindergarten”, “go for a beer every friday”, “friends with benefits”, “dated in highschool”, “hate each other’s guts because -insert reason-”  etc. Something meaningful (but not necessarily shippy) and I mean with muns/characters you have not interacted with, because I cannot believe I am the only one who prefers jumping right into the heart of the human interaction

[ask-sivir]

Send me a fandom and I'll tell you a character I'd roleplay from that fandom.

[vvhiskcy]

on the subject of female characters and oc’s in particular

for a community that does everything in their power to be 120% pc, preaches acceptance and equality and urges everybod to tw-tag their pomegranates;; y’all pretty damn fucking shady when it comes to how you treat female characters in RP, especially original characters. “Noooo”,I hear you say, “Haven’t u seen the thing i reblogged about how much i appreciate female ocs?” Lemme break shit down;  ……………………… I’ve seen people - myself included - questioning their skills. Maybe I’m not a good writer? Maybe my portrayal is crap? Maybe my character is just too boring and not very well rounded? Maybe she doesn’t fit into the fandom? BULLSHIT. I constantly see people reblogging one of the SUPPORT FEMALE MUSES/OCS posts, but how many of these people do I ACTUALLY see writing with said muses in question, or female muses that aren’t run by their long time ooc bffs? Few. Very, very few.  The people who usually are willing to give a female OC a chance are OTHER FEMALE OCs. I annot even recount the number of times I have dropped asks in male blogs, only to get either ignored completely or, upon messaging them about plotting, get told a variation of ‘sorry my muse is gay’ or ‘sorry, my muse is in a relationship already’ Let me translate that for you; “Sorry, my muse has no need your your muse for she is female and therefore only good for and interested in one thing; romancing and sleeping with my muse.”  … and let me translate that for you:  - you cannot be friends with a woman, their friendship is invalid  - women don’t have personalities  - women are not of enough value to exist on their own without being merely an accessory to men  - the only thing women want is sex and romance. They have no other interests and serve no other purpose. — there are so many things implied in all of this, I couldn’t even list them all if I tried to. But funny enough - I don’t have to. Because I am sure y’all getting my point. What makes this whole fuckery even more shitty is the fact - and correct me if I am wrong, as this isn’t an official statistic but merely my 16 years of experience in the online RPC  - that the majority of the writers on here are, identify, or used to identify as female. So please, for the love of God - why on eath do you hate other women so much? Why do you have so little respect for your fellow ladies? And how on earth do you, ever, expect men to take us seriously as we demand equality and respect, when y’all cannot even fucking respect your fellow females?! FUN FACT ;  The way I see it - the way you treat fictional female characters on here  - and I’m talking ooc, not ic - reflect, imho, the way you view other women outside of tumblr. Outside the internet. In real life. Y’All might wanna take a moment to reflect on that. edit ;; feel free to reblog and signal boos the shit outta this post. 

[amsterdammotherfucker]

hallowedbethyname:

          “Yeah, this place is fucked.  I guess that’s why I fit in so well.” There was her signature DARK HUMOR again, dry and deadpan to the nines.  Anyone who paid Derry a visit was able to pick up on the vibe of DREAD that seemed to WAFT off the entire place, missing posters or not.  It was like the entire town sat on a portal to HELL, an outlandish idea that Theo ALMOST agreed with, “And, uh.  Yeah.  Mom died when I was little.  Dad split a few months ago, he’s probably dead too.  Luckily, he was rich as fuck so I’ve got enough dough to pay the bills.  I was forced to grow up pretty quick.” She said it all so NONCHALANTLY that it might’ve been STARTLING to anyone who didn’t know her (hint: this guy).  The absolute disbelief in his voice when he spoke to her was beyond ENTERTAINING.  She wanted to see how much more she could get out of him before he got used to her, the little ENERGY VAMPIRE, “I was actually on my way home now, you could just trail along behind me like a lost dog.”

True to form, it was surprising and a little unsettling just how casually Theo spoke about her deceased parents. But then again, at this point he probably shouldn’t have been all that surprised. Even then, he had to scoff at the young girl’s quip, lifting himself up to stand at last. “Works for me,” he told her, quickly regaining his bearings. “Just lead the way.” The more he thought about it, the more he was looking forward to getting a shower and a decent meal and somewhere warm and comfortable to sleep, even temporarily. Besides, it seemed like this girl could tell him something about this town, regardless of what it was. “If it means anything, I’m sorry about your folks,” he went on. “You must at least have some friends your age?”

[amsterdammotherfucker]

(Tossing up another starter call since there’s been an influx of new mutuals! Like this post for a short starter!)

[rppanda]

Dear RPers who have wanted to interact.

I feel like i need to address this because i find it’s an issue many people, especially newcomers, have in RP.

PLEASE. DO. NOT. BE. SHY. TO. SAY. HI.

There’s no reason to be anxious or hesitant if you want to talk to me. I will happily accept a random starter, or a random tag, or an inbox message! Even if we’ve never interacted or even acknowledged one another, i will still HAPPILY interact with you!

You’re not bothering me. You’re not annoying. You’re not making me uncomfortable. I LIKE to interact with new people, it’s very exciting and fun!

Please, PLEASE, don’t be hesitant when sending in ANYTHING. I’m having a lot more fun than your anxiety tells you!