[an-r-bp]

⚖️ TW; Stats & Progress Tracking ⚖️

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📈 Progress in 2022 📉

67.8kgs - 1/1/2022 - BMI: 26.5 (Overweight)

67kgs - ???

66kgs - ???

65kgs - ???

64kgs - 11/5/2022 - BMI: 25 (Healthy weight)

63kgs - 21/5/2022

62.5kgs - 9/6/2022 - BMI: 24.4

62.1kgs - 30/6/2022

61.9kgs - 06/08/2022

60kgs - ???

59.4kgs - 20/10/2022

58.8kgs - 9/11/2022 - BMI: 23

57kgs - ???

56kgs - ???

55kgs - ???

54.4kgs - 27/12/2022 - BMI: 21.3 (Healthy weight)

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📈 Progress in 2023 📉

53kgs - ???

52kgs - ???

51.6kgs - 16/3/2023 - BMI: 20.2

50kgs - /2023 - BMI: 19.5

49kgs - /2023

48kgs - /2023 - BMI: 18.8

47.4kgs - /2023 - BMI: 18.5 (Underweight)

47kgs - /2023 - BMI: 18.4

46kgs - /2023 - BMI: 18

45kgs - /2023 - BMI: 17.6

44kgs - /2023 - BMI: 17.2

43kgs - /2023 - BMI: 16.8

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[an-r-bp]

16.2kgs (35.7lbs) down… 5kgs or so to go still…

[an-r-bp]

So I went to get dressed and felt like wearing my cute lingerie to make myself feel cute but I haven’t tried these on since before Lindon died and I am in utter shock at how much weight I’ve lost… like it’s been a month since he died on the 6th and I’m already not able to wear all my nice lingerie anymore because they’re too big??

Yet I feel like my bra since is still a 12 or over???

[an-r-bp]

Lack of sleep + lack of food = almost fainting

[fawne-deactivated20231002]

𝗍𝗁𝖾 𝖽𝗂𝗌𝗈𝗋𝖽𝖾𝗋𝖾𝖽 𝗎𝗋𝗀𝖾 𝗍𝗈 𝗋𝖾𝖿𝗎𝗌𝖾 𝗍𝗈 𝗌𝖾𝖾 𝖺𝗇𝗒𝗈𝗇𝖾 𝗎𝗇𝗍𝗂𝗅 𝗂 𝖽𝗋𝗈𝗉 𝖺 𝗌𝗁𝗈𝖼𝗄𝗂𝗇𝗀 𝖺𝗆𝗈𝗎𝗇𝗍 𝗈𝖿 𝗐𝖾𝗂𝗀𝗁𝗍

[an-r-bp]

I finally found the courage to weigh myself and I lost more than I thought I did… I’m shook…

I’ve lost 13.4kgs (29.5lbs)

I can’t believe how many inches I’ve lost around my bust, waist, and hips… I also can’t believe how fat I actually let myself get.

I haven’t binged in a loooong time.

I hate how proud I am right now…

[cocainek1nk]

pedos should be killed after their first offense because dogs are killed after they bite one child.

[rice-is-actually-going-batshit]

my brain whenever there’s a minor inconvenience

[rockbottomwithashovel]

I just wanna smoke again but can't find a way :((

[an-r-bp]

I’m at the point where nothing is appetising anymore…. Nothing is tasty enough for me to want to eat. Whenever I go to make myself food and start to look in the cupboards, the fridge, or in the freezer I end up coming straight back to my bed empty handed, and then I rinse and repeat that cycle till I’m literally physically ill from starvation. Work has been getting harder to get through without suffering the whole time physically and therefore I end up not being so “customer service friendly”. I’m so hungry right now and I want to cook something but I literally can’t bring myself to eat anything. I only want to eat things that I can’t have like all forms of take out such as sushi or noodle box, but I only allow myself to eat those things when I’m recovering from getting on, which is not even once a month. I wish I could do juice again because eating while juicy probably saved me back in the day because it was the only time when eating food was legitimately enjoyable and it made me want to eat but I can’t because I can’t go anywhere to do it and I can’t do it at home with my mum and sister around. If I haven’t lost a decent amount the next time I weigh I’m going to actually explode. I haven’t actually gained at all since January 1st, on slowly but surely lost since then so I know when I inevitably do experience a gain I think it will fuck with my ED brain so hard I’ll relapse a little harder.

[an-r-bp]

I’ve officially lost 9kgs!

That feels like it is a lot but also not a lot at the same time? Wtf

[an-r-bp]

Idk how the fuck I’ve been able to handle the nausea from fasting these past 2 days…

I’m honestly just too scared to eat at this point.

I will never let myself get this big ever again…

I plan on maintaining under 50kgs for the rest of my fucking life… that’s the limit.

[an-r-bp]

I’m back in the 50’s JUST 🤏

[an-r-bp]

I am so fucking confused.

My Apple Watch steps compared to my Fitbit steps as well as my calories burnt have a huge difference between them…

Idk what to believe… since my Apple Watch stats are lower I want to believe that since my Fitbit stats are wayyy higher.

I’m scared and confused.

[an-r-bp]

Going from an Apple Watch back to Fitbit feels weird, especially because I haven’t had a Fitbit in a long time.

I guess it will take time to get used to it and if I end up not liking it I’ll just sell it and then get another Apple Watch but I have a feeling I will like having a Fitbit again!

[psycho-mocha]

Why does my future depend on me I don't like this

[longnuts]

Does anyone know what to do

[dankmemeuniversity]