inked my love on your skin

anastasia caldwell-moore. 45. lawyer.

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[anacaldwell-moore]

gabe--thompson·:

“ Yeah. Yeah, I hear that. But do talk to him. And soon. He’s already been hurt because of us, no point dragging it out now. ”

“I will. I promise.”

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gabe--thompson·:

“ All you’re saying is that this step would have consequences. Well, yeah. Everything we do in life has consequences. What we’ve.. been doing already has consequences. For me, for you, for Liam, Avery. And now for what, nothing? No. That can’t be what you think the right way is. You and Liam are all that matters and one thing I can promise you, absolutely promise you, what you’re worried about here is never.. never going to happen. Risk losing me? Come on. In what world. You can’t always help hurting other people along the way. That doesn’t mean it’s not the right way. ”

“But if there’s a way of avoiding it, I’m going to take it. You’re right. I might’ve not been happy with Avery for a while, but I can’t and won’t give this another thought without having spoken to Liam. You and Liam are all that matters for me too, but the wellbeing of my son is always always going to come first. [..] I love you, Gabe. I just need some more time. Please. Can you give me that?”

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gabe--thompson·:

“ [..] Then we get another chance. One we maybe didn’t take before. And I fucking don’t want to miss it again. [..] Ana.. it’s here, isn’t it? You feel it, too. I turned fifty this year, we’re not gonna be getting any younger. There’s no point in playing games or pretending anymore. Might be the last chance we get. ” 

“Do I feel it? [..] Of course I do, and it scares the shit out of me. Having you in my life has always been more important to me than going after what we could’ve possibly had and then lose all of it. That was never a sacrifice I was willing to make. I’ve felt it for some time, some moments less prominent than others. Gabe, taking that chance means more people we love getting hurt and risking losing you. [..] I couldn’t bear that.”

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gabe--thompson·:

“Hearts get broken sometimes. That’s the nature of life. What about your heart? Your heart’s not in it, how’s that better? Ana.. look at me. What about you? I know you don’t feel for Avery what you maybe once did. [..] Right? 

“ [..] And then what? Let’s say I was telling her tomorrow morning. What then?”

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gabe--thompson·:

“ Eh, win some, you lose some. On a good day it’s still four hours. Well, something is off. You two don’t have a future like this. Or at all. So you need to talk to her. ”

“I can’t tell her about what happened between us yet. Gabe, Avery’s my wife and we have a life, a son together. It would break her heart.”

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gabe--thompson·:

“ Ah, well. You know me. I’m grand if I get three hours a night. I’d do better if we could figure out a way out of this mess. So, Avery. She still doesn’t know? ”

“Three hours a night? That’s not long. Few years ago it was four a night. You’re going to develop a full on sleeping disorder by the time you’re 60. She doesn’t. She suspects something’s off, though.”

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gabe--thompson·:

half an hour later, gabe’s apartment

“ Here you go. Double, look like you need it. ”

“Thanks. Too kind. You look like you’ve seen better days too, if we’re already being honest. How’ve you been sleeping?”

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gabe--thompson·:

“ I’m not here to lecture you, you know that’s not the way I roll. I’m here to talk. But you’re right, a talk’s best company is a drink. Mine? ”

“[..] Let me grab my coat.”

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gabe--thompson·:

“ You’re working on it. Uh huh. Right. And how’s that working out for you by hiding yourself away in the office and drowning yourself in work? Girl, come on. How is this supposed to continue like this? ”

“I’ve been trying for weeks now. I’ve tried talking to him, but I’m not getting much other than one word answers. If you’ve just come to lecture me, I’m not in the mood tonight. Avery’s doing that enough. Let's have a drink instead.”

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gabe--thompson·:

“ Well, here I am anyway, not worrying, but telling you to get your head out of your ass. I take it things at home are still unresolved, then. ”

“And I’m telling you I’ll be on my way soon. I'm... working on it.”

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gabe--thompson·:

“ Of course you should’ve known that wouldn’t stop me. Sorry again, Fabienne, darling! [..] I was a little harsh with her out there. What brings me here? The fact that you have been hibernating over your case, not been returning my calls and look like you’ve spent more time here than at home. ”

“She’ll survive. Fabienne, may you please come in? [..] I will see you tomorrow morning, you’re free to go for tonight. Thank you. [..] I had my phone muted, sorry, I didn’t see you called. I didn’t mean to worry you, but you didn’t need to come by in person. Especially when we agreed to breakfast tomorrow. I’m only finishing this up. There’s no rush for me to be home.”

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gabe--thompson·:

tuesday, 7:39 pm, ana’s office 

 [ “ Yeah, yeah, thanks, darling, it’s alright. She’s expecting me.. Oh, c’mon, don’t kick up a fuss, Fabienne, you know I’m alright to go in. What are you even still doing here? It’s late. Don’t let her overwork you, go home. ” ] [ … knock, knock ] “ Hey, girl. Still hard at work, I see. Did you actually tell your assistant not to let me in or how should I interpret her little seizure out there? ”

“Don’t take it personal. I told Fabienne to not let anyone in. Anyone also including you. Should’ve known that wouldn’t stop you, though. What brings you here so late?”

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averycaldwell-moore·:

“ I see. It’s on Saturday, around twelve he said. So I presume he means around 12:30. I’d be very glad if you could tell me right away if you don’t plan on making it. ”

“I do plan on making it. Like I said, I can’t tell yet how much work and time the case will require. I have a meeting with my client on Wednesday, so I should know more by then.”

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averycaldwell-moore·:

monday, 8:37 am, the caldwell-moore residence

“ Good morning. There’s coffee in the pot. [..] By the way. My brother invited us for lunch next weekend. Can I tell him you’ll be joining us or would that be hasty? Again? ”

“Good morning. Thank you. [..] Next weekend? Possibly. I took on a new case this week and I can’t tell how time consuming it’s going to get. Still got a bit of time until then, so I’ll let you know.”

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Is there something you've always wanted to tell your son but haven't had the courage to?

“If I don’t have the courage to tell my own son, I’m not sure why you think I would tell a complete stranger.”

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What does a perfect life look like for you at age 40?

“At 40? I’m not one to plan that far ahead and I hope that mindset stayed with me when I’m 40. I like the idea of having my own law firm one day, but I can happily live with being partner. I want to be successful, shock everyone. I’d probably live in the city and share a place with Gabe. A much nicer place than the current one, bigger too. Kind of like the one I saw in that magazine the other day. I’d like that. We’d go out on Fridays and still watch films, but with a little more grown up things to talk about. We wouldn’t have partners, just ourselves.”