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i do

but i miss myself, too

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everything sucks lately

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does it get better? yes. yes it does. at first you feel too much and you’ll cry. you will cry a lot and it feel like the end of the world. you might even reach out and contact them a couple of times, but they won’t reply back. eventually you’ll stop thinking about them all the time but during the day you’ll stop and think about what they’re doing. did they eat? I wonder if they got any sleep or if they’re flying back home for the summer. but through it all, you will learn to love yourself. you will learn that suddenly you love the colour pink or that you have a new found love for a show you thought you hated. sometimes you’ll fall apart, don’t expect this to be a journey where you will only keep going up, sometimes you will fall, you will fall back down so hard and it will hurt all over again but you have to get back up. get back up and show them that’s you’re okay. you’ll be drinking coffee and suddenly you’ll be crying because the colour reminds you of their deep brown eyes. maybe you’ll be listening to that song they told you about and suddenly you want to run away. but when that happens, remember how strong you were before them and continue. healing is a long process, it doesn’t happen in 2 days or even 2 months. you just have to keep pushing until one day you look back and just smile. smile because it happened but you know what, it’s okay. its okay if it ended badly or maybe the fact that you’re back to strangers. but you will smile, you will be grateful for the time spent and when you can fully do that without wanting to go back to them, that’s when you have healed. keep going baby, you got this.

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there’s something about living life deliberately…wearing clothes that you actually want to and that you feel reflect you and your style not just because you’ve had them for years and don’t know what else you would throw on….listening to songs and creating playlists that excite you and represent your actual mood not just listening to songs that you’ve had downloaded for years that don’t make you feel anything special anymore…it’s VERY easy to stay with what you’re comfortable and it might take a bit of experimenting before you find what feels like a deliberate choice that reflects more of YOU but it’s absolutely worth the leap of faith you may have to convince yourself to make in order to stop feeling like a passenger in your own life