[anandsitara]

Todos correm

Tem alguns que dançam

Envidentemente, alcançam a esperança.

Mas não tem moleza, tem que ter certeza.

Como uma firmeza

Algo majestoso

Que vem além do gozo

Algo que se crê

Mesmo sem se vê

Porque quem vê

Já não mais crê

E faz é apodrecer….

Cabeça erguida com sucesso sempre, mesmo naqueles dias mais indecentes.

Assim diria, aquele meu remetente.

[thoughtkick]

“I don’t think there is any truth. There are only points of view.”

— Allen Ginsberg

[hahanoui]

[crmsnmth]

Names I Still Carry (Always)

I have too many names that only exist in memories now

Too many numbers in my phone that will never light up again

Too many songs that have become impossible to hear without feeling a little less whole

Nobody tells you how strange it is to lose people your own age

How the world keeps expecting you to move forward while pieces of your past are buried behind you

I have collected funerals like scars

Collected empty chairs Collected unanswered questions Collected the last words I wish I could change

There are faces I still see in crowded rooms

For a split second my brain forgets

I expect them to walk in To laugh To tell me some ridiculous story like they never left

Then reality returns

And it hurts all over again

I wonder about the lives they should have lived

The birthdays they missed The jokes they'll never tell The people they never got to become

It's cruel how someone can be gone and still take up so much space

Their memories live eveywhere

In old pictures In old places In the quiet moments when I have nobody to distract me from missing them

People say "At least you have the memories"

And I do

But sometimes memories are heavy

Sometimes love is a weight you carry because there is nowhere else to put it

I carry every friend who couldn't stay

Every laugh Every mistake Every late-night conversation Every moment that mattered

I carry them because someone should

Because they were more than how they left

They were more then their struggles

They were people who loved who dreamed who made this world brighter while they were here

And even though grief keeps adding names to the list

I refuse to let the list be all they are

They were not just endings They were chapters They were music They were fire They were alive

And as long as I remember them a small part of them keeps walking with me

[vaniilabeans]

2019 will always be 1 year ago

[anandsitara]

O do think soo

[embroideredlyrics]

[anandsitara]

Are they? Seriosly?

[thegoodvybe]

[anandsitara]

Some How

[crmsnmth]

Finally, I Apologize

I didn't push you not with hands not with anything you could point to in a courtroom or write down in a diary and underline twice

I just opened the door to every dark room I had ever lived in and said, come see

You trusted me enough to step inside

I showed you how silence can rot how a night can stretch so thin it cuts your skin when you breathe how love can start to sound like a locked door rattling in the wind

And you stayed god, you stayed

I watched the light leave you slowly like a habit I couldn't break like something I convinced myself was just part of loving me

I told myself you were strong that you understood that you chose this

as if I wasn't the one teaching you how to sink

So this is it This is the part where I stopped pretending we just fell

I dragged

Not violently worse than that Patiently Carefully Like someone who needed company more than they needed forgiveness

And now you're down here too breathing the same heavy air wearing the same quiet ache I used to call mine alone

Finally, I apologize

not because it fixes anything not because it lifts you back up not because I suddenly became better

But because I see it now you didn't deserve to learn how to drown just to love me

And I am so sorry that I made it look like the same thing

[anandsitara]

Hard feelings……. What else….. if it was talking to me, i would would say “Okdok”

[crmsnmth]

Hangin' Out the Passenger Side of my Best Friend's Ride

I never drive in your car not because I can't but because I like watching the world fall apart from the passenger side

You keep one hand on the wheel the other tapping out some rhythm only you understand on the cracked vinyl like the road owes you something you're not done collecting

The radio's always too loud or not loud enough static stitched between songs like we're catching pieces of other people's lives and pretending they're ours

I watch streetlights smear themselves across the windshield gold turning into ghosts every time we pass under them and I swear for a second we disappear too

You talk about nothing and everything in the same breath old fights, new dreams that girl who never called you back like it still matters even though it doesn't

I nod but mostly I just listen to the engine humming like it knows something we don't

You car smells like cigarettes you said you quit and cheap air freshener trying its best to lie

Sometimes we don't say anything at all and those are the best miles just the road stretching out like it's got no end and us pretending we don't either

I think about how one day we won't be doing this no late drives no wrong turns we don't bother fixing

just separate roads we swear we'll meet again on

But right now you're laughing at something stupid and I'm watching your hands steady on the wheel like you'll always know where we're going

and maybe that's enough

Maybe the passenger seat is where I learned how to trust someone without asking where we're headed

[crmsnmth]

1440 Minutes

I won't ask for forever I've learned better than that

Forever is what we said right before everything started slipping

So I'll keep it small something the universe might ignore something it might let slide

just one more day

Twenty-four hours I won't even sleep I'll wring out like a soaked shirt until every second drips

We can wake up late like we used to sunlight already halfway gone you stealing the blankets me pretending not to notice

We can make coffee we don't finish talk about nothing argue about music and I'll let you win I swear I will

I won't bring up the ending I won't touch the bruise of it I won't ask you where you went when you started leaving while still standing next to me

Just… laugh at something dumb roll your eyes at me say my name like it still belongs in your mouth

Let me memorize the way you exist without the countdown breathing down our necks

And when night comes I won't beg it to stay I won't fight the dark I won't make it ugly

I'll just sit beside you quiet like I finally understand

And when the last minute comes to collect you

I won't hold on

I'll just ask soft enough that maybe something listening feels sorry for me

wast it really too much to ask

for one more day with you

[overclassy]

[thepersonalquotes]

[crmsnmth]

Slow Burn Beauty

It wasn't the kind of beauty you notice all at once

Not the loud, obvious kind that walks into a room and demands applause

No hers was quieter like something you almost miss if you're too busy being yourself

I think that's why it took me so long

I saw her every day but not really not the way light would get caught in her hair like it had nowhere better to be not the way her laugh always started small like she didn't want to take up space until it spilled out anyway

I didn't notice how her hands moved when she talked like she was shaping the air into something softer

I didn't notice how she looked at people really looked like they were worth understanding even when they weren't trying to be

And then one day something shifted

Maybe it was the silence or the way she wasn't trying to be anything at all

Just sitting there existing like it was enough

And suddenly everything about her made sense in a way that hurt

The curve of her smile felt like a secret I had been trusted with too late

Her eyes god her eyes they weren't just pretty they were honest and that's what made them dangerous

I realized then that her beauty was never meant to be seen quickly

It was the kind you grow into the kind that waits patiently for you to slow down enough to deserve it

And by the time I finally saw her

Really saw her

I understood that beauty like that doesn't stay

Not for people who needed to long to recognize it

[biodegrade]

if im being honest. every day is monday

[biodegrade]

somehow it is my birthday. they said it couldn’t be done

[walking-la]

hi i created a tumblr community called "cafe posting" i was wondering if you wanted to let me promote it here? its basically the exact same idea as this community but for cafes

Ok, sure!

[feelingsoflove12]

Some souls haunt each other forever..

#unknown