Han

24 | F | ig: @Hahanoui

[hahanoui]

“I wish i can stop giving away my trust like it’s something i can constantly spend.” -3/8/2018 

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inktober day 27: “spark” //2021

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"No more crumbs." - 08/31/2021

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Another day; Another 9-??? // 2021

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"Crybaby" // Mixed Media

(Melanie Martinez Inspired art)

[hahanoui]

I'm sorry it took me "A" year (coz' it's 2021 now, lol) to reply but I wanted to say how grateful I am for letting us know what 'hahanoui' means. I really admire your mind, art, craft, you're just simply great! I wish you success in whatever passion you may pursue 'coz you got that thing, dear! You got what it takes just keep on believing in yourself!! you have already proved what you got tho. 👑 👌

Haha no worries! Thank you! This really warms my heart up.

For everyone reading this, i apologize if i haven't been active lately. I've been really busy with work, and if i am to be honest with all of you, my mental health hadn't been the best either.

HOWEVER! I still do art from time to time but only on a different form. For those who'd wanna check it out.. i write my own songs! I mean, i write and record them and stuff. I'm still new to editting audio so it's not amazing quality but i post them over on youtube! I have a lot of songs i want to record and post so if you ever find it in your heart to subscribe or even check it out ahhh please check out my stuff below as well! It would mean a lot to me!!

Lanah

Hello, g/u/rls! Song-chan, at your service! (*´∇｀)ﾉ I try really hard and produce mediocre results. Bandcamp: https://lanahh.bandcamp.com/

I can only play the ukulele as of now but i'm earning up to get a guitar so hopefully it helps diversify the content in the future! :)

Thank you everyone for supporting and looking forward for my stuff through all these years. It genuinely means a lot to me. I hope you're all doing well.

[hahanoui]

Hiiiiii, Hahanouuui!!!!! You made me so happy, I was able to view your reply to my message. Please don't feel pressured to draw if you don't feel like it. Your response was enough for me. ~T_T~ I thought I'll never get a response but I patiently wait and voilaaaaa, aaaaaaa!!! └(^o^)┘. I'm glad I was able to made you a little bit better. I'll look forward to your future posts and will remain a fan of your works. *^O^* I just have a question, is hahanoui your name or what does that mean?

aww it’s great that you’re happy! Thank you. I’m taking things one at a time so all the support that i STILL get despite my inactivity is something i sincerely treasure. The icons you use are very cute haha 

Hahanoui is complicated tbh it’s originally Hanoui but there’s already someone else who took the name so i can’t use it anymore. :( “han” came from a portion of my name spelled backwards, then “oui” just meant “yes” so it’s kind of idk something that i want to put into my life i guess. To say “yes” to decisions or outcomes that come my way that makes me happy or gives me great opportunities. (i’m gonna spare you from the complicated self-esteem issues that i have haha) but yeah! It doesn’t make sense now that i type it out, and it’s quite silly. I hope you got the answer that you were looking for. :) 

[hahanoui]

Lemon Boy // Cavetown

[hahanoui]

HI HAHANOUI,~I really like your artworks. It affects me in an unexplainable way. I've been struggling with depression and I would really appreciate if you could draw something inspiring or anything. Badly miss an update from you! Please keep safe and i luv u and ur art. (*^﹏^*)

Aww that's honestly really, really sweet!

Thank you so much!! My apologies if i haven't been active at all. If I am to be honest, i haven't been in a good place for a while now. I'm so drained that I couldn't even bring myself to draw or vent about it! Existing has been difficult that's why your kind words genuinely mean so much to me. Don't worry, i'll check every nook and cranny of my heart to see if there's still a spark of hope or happiness in there and hopefully, i'll be able to fix something up for you. :)

It means a lot to me that you reached out like this. I never assumed that people still look forward to the things that I do or post. It's a nice reminder. I hope you cheer up a little bit over the fact that you made someone else feel a little better today. Thank you.

[hahanoui]

"There is a time for everything,

but sometimes i wish that time would

have ended for me."

[hahanoui]

"So life came to mean nothing to me,

because everything in it had brought me nothing but trouble.

It had all been useless;

I had been chasing the wind."

Ecclesiastes 2:17

[hahanoui]

I'm brimming. Just. Brimming.

Constantly on the brink of something that i don't know.

Always stuck in the middle of all the chaos.

What do i need to do?

Should i explode?

Do i need to burn out?

I'm never sure.

But whatever it is,

whatever i'm waiting on,

Or whatever needs to be done,

I hope it finally happens.

Mess me up already so i can finally start dealing with the aftermath of every freaking thing.

//Get on with the show that's called "my life", 2020

[hahanoui]

"We humans have lost the wisdom of genuinely resting and relaxing. We worry too much. We don't allow our bodies to heal, and we don't allow our minds and hearts to heal."

-Thich Nhat Hanh

[hahanoui]

"It is not God who kills the children.

Not fate that butchers them

or destiny that feeds them to the dogs.

It's us.

Only us."

-Rorschach // Watchmen (1986)

[hahanoui]

“ Been exhaling heavily lately; Like i’m breathing out the remainder of my days.”

4/6/2019

[hahanoui]

“What a waste of time; to look for oneself in the comfort of someone else.“

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