twenty three

~just a girlblogger with mental issues, be warned~

[anarchist-cunt]

I’m gonna freak out aaaaaah

[pointnclick]

the only way to tell if a man is truly gentle is if he has green moss and algae all over him from sleeping quietly, motionlessly, at the bottom of a crystal clear riverbed

[claws-in-my-back]

so who’s ready for loser queer summer

[claws-in-my-back]

happy pride!!!! loser queer summer has officially started!!!!

[caniborrowurlighter]

do u want to play Love eachother forever with me

[easel-eisel]

watching a show and it references a film so now i watch the film to understand the show and the film references a book so i need to read the book to understand the film and the book references another older book and now i need to understand everything that is unknown to me

[3rabbit]

i’ve been hearing a lot of sentiments surrounding the idea that you would be less ambitious if you heal which is positively false. “unhealed” ambition is you trying to achieve something to fill the gaping hole of unworthiness in your soul. it’s coming from a place of lack. “healed” ambition looks like you trying things just to see how much you’re capable of or rather the fun of it. it’s unattached to your self worth and therefore you try more things because you’re less afraid of the outcome and/or embarrassing yourself in the process. and that’s much more dangerous. also, there’s no such thing as “healed” or “unhealed”. gn.

[improvisedliturgy]

The fear of how you are seen, the fear of what you are, is solved by accepting it all the way: you are seen in all possible ways at all times, which means you really are all possible beings at all times.

Brook Ziporyn, Emptiness and Omnipresence: An Essential Introduction to Tiantai Buddhism

[werenotreallystrangers]

a lot of your suffering comes from treating your nature like a problem to manage instead of a design to understand

[anarchist-cunt]

creating structures, routines and processes that work along side your nature instead of against it and instead of trying to “fix” yourself, will create space for peace, creativity, self care, love & so much more. it’s really beautiful watching yourself morph in to the version that doesn’t suppress but rather nurtures and supports the self and those around it.

[vrtualdreamgirl]

we can’t talk here contact me in my dream tonight

[freakoutgirl]

This is how June is going to feel

[ceruleanheaven]

time to lock in everybody turn off the little screen and turn on the medium sized one

[ch4momile]

Does anyone know if we have the impending doom tomorrow?

[sicklyvicktorianboy-deactivated]

my nose is stuffy why must god torture me so

[anarchist-cunt]

need more tattoos AAAAH

[maxxie-or-smth]

Its interesting watching you fall apart but it sucks at the same time watching the shell of who you were

the girl i used to be wanted to kill herself at 7 and it didn't stop until i learned how to make myself untouchable. i'm performing better under unlivable circumstances than about 85% of the population doing it normalstyle AND i know how to have some good goddamn fun

[maxxie-or-smth]

how dare you presume you know me at all actually. who i was? do you think anything you know about me is true? i keep myself blank for a reason; leave what i say up to interpretation because it allows room for others to fill in the blanks however they like. walking advertisement for the fantasies of others. and no one thinks to question their own half-assed connections because i live loudly enough, take enough from others, that they think their perception of me can't possibly be flawed. that's the weird kid with weird hair and weird habits. hear me out though, i'd hit that, do you think she's into the freaky shit? do you think we can ignore the parts of her we don't like and focus on how skinny she is, or how she kinda looks like a boy, or how easy she is to fetishize? easy? do you think she's easy? she looks easy. do you think she sends? do you think she'd like it if i choked her? and i would, but only because masochism is an underrated manipulation technique. make them think they have the upper hand; they'll give you anything you want. i'll bribe you with a picture of my meat vessel scantily clad to get you to tell me everything about you. so i can act just like you, let you assume we're twin souls, but i'll remain a little superior in your eyes. indulge in habits you aren't proud of without facing consequences. tell you that even someone like me is disgusting like a rotten dog at times. relate to you just enough to seem human, to seem real, just enough to get you to latch onto me because there's nothing people love more than someone exactly like them but a little better. and this isn't necessarily harmful; it allows me to convince people they deserve better than what they're getting. because they love me, think that i deserve better, and if we're exactly alike then they must deserve it too. i'm no shell; don't be mistaken. i let others pretend to puppet a body i feel no attachment to while i dance over their insecurities and eventually become unsavory enough to leave before they realize any of it happened at all. let them think they won while i'm the one who has gained another facet of humanity to angle against the sun and into their eyes so that a flash of something terrible they secretly crave is all they see. how dare you presume you know me at all.

[creepish]

your honor, in my defense, you wouldnt get it

[maxxie-or-smth]

cant tell if im right or egotistical