scene three: he woke but he did not remembering sleeping, slipping slipping, slipping. on his arm was the embroidery of the small pillow he had rested upon on â threads, gimp, tassels â and that, too, he did not remember having. what he remembered was that  it was morning ( or so he thought for he could not hear birds tweeting); simply machines humming and the occasional curses by a gang of co-soulmates sharing chairs, biscuits, and cigarettes in bathroom stalls that had clear, stark signs that said âno smokingâ - but morning still; for he thought he had woke from his strained slumber and replied in hazy lines of compliance to the text messages he had accumulated the night before. ( â yes, ryan; no, cole; i miss you, too, mom; iâd love to see you here with the gardenias, iâm sure theyâll brighten up the room. ) there was a nurse, too, with dark hair and the brightest smile checking his neighbourâs iv and stats and saying words that sounded very close to better and butter and exercise and tea and â
dreamgirls was playing on the tv box high up on the wall, muted for faux privacy and intimacy; undisturbed sleep was hard to fish in a drought, after all; and there were two other people sleeping on hospital settee, faux serene. his head was heavy and it found itself resting upon the embroidered pillow once again; settled  by the foot of the hospital bed and sat on a plastic chair; his limbs folded under. his neighbour was sleeping, or so he thought she would be for that was all she ever did when she was not ceasing banter or being part of them. he was not sure, but he thought he heard himself whispering âwhat time is itâ into the open space, sleep creeping slow through the haze of supposed music and the face of beyonce. he stretched his arms further into the bed, sliding over the smooth linen and bumping into his neighbourâs feet, ready to slip, to sleep, to dream gardenias over dark hair.
âit is afternoon, where the hell is my tea, francis?!â
kyle stood fast and frantic, his knees hitting the frame of the bed, the plastic chair falling behind him. one of the soulmates in tweed was by the door frame, hands deep in his pockets, hiding his pony mark, and demanding; and kyle could only pacify him with soft s h u s h. eliza - this neighbour - precise to the queue, snored fully below him; and he could here carl â âitâs mr. king, if you want to keep your stupid beard, boyâ - groaning from his rest with boots scraping the floor, saying through yawns of laze, âwho the hell even takes coffee at two pm, jacques?â a protest was forming on tongue, because no, it couldnât be two in the after: he had places to be, words to write, miles to run â- he had a text message from ana that he did not remember receiving. he had to run, he had to â
âwhatâs the matter, kyle?â the  deepest of voices from the biggest of men had the sweetest of thoughts and the largest of hearts â uncurling from one side of the settee, colored pink in the cheeks and clad in leather and grease.
kyle missed a few letter as he typed a quick answer, arguing between yes, no, yes, no, yes, no, yes â y e s. he sent his short message with a brief sigh before announcing to the room that his soulmate was about to come over and bring flowers.
eliza awoke in queue, coughing fits unmuffle before her laughter broke. âwell, you are not gonna have a soulmate for long if you look like you havenât showered for three days with your ketchup stains and unsexy bed hair. dumbass.â she unmted the tv and hummed to the tune of the dreamgirls theme song. s h i t .
the common bathroom by the end of the hall was small and blue and sparsely lit yet there were eight of them there, then, fitted shoulder to shoulder and fussing - someone was laughing, and someone was gasping, someone was howling and whistling an old tune, and someone had their hands over kyleâs shoulderâs, pushing him down to sit on the a plastic chair they had sneaked in. he breathed through his mouth, throat running dry, phone clenched between his fingers and forgetting about where he was until fingers started to make waves over his hair. he was incoherent and stumbling through his words until he was being shushed, consoling and pacifying; the eldest of the group - russell - had his arms folded in front his chest, half-perched on the small sink, recurring his words of âyou still look like shit, son; and weâre to fix you right upâ
he ended up with his beard freshly trimmed with scissors borrowed from the nursesâ station, clean blue shirt that was not his, and perfume that smelled older than he was; standing in a square of tile by the lobby, wishing he was the plant he was next to. shit, shit, shit â the confessional priest was going to smite him for the all the bad words he had just spouted, but when he saw her - afternoon light on her hair and d i v i n e - he forgot about god and heaven for a few seconds and just smiled.
he remembered how to breathe and give her the small flowers they had picked from the parking lot, though.Â