The Becoming

I created this blog and decided to start sharing my work online instead of hiding it in a journal, so hopefully someone will find it who needs it. And perhaps, no one ever will. But if you made it here, know these words were meant for you to read. This here is all for you. This here is me, raw and honest to the core. Please don't remove any of my credit.

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I will always follow the light I will always follow the light Even when it is dark out

Yahweh, My Guide // m.h.

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You are just flesh and bone. How did you invade such small parts of me? How did you get in my veins?

“sometimes letting go feels like an exorcism.” // m.h.

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Here’s exactly what they don’t want you know: You own the right to say “I care for you, but I care for me more.” You own the right to cut off people that hinder your growth even if it’s painful for them. Even if it's painful for you. You own the right to say “No” and not explain yourself afterward. You are allowed to be exactly whoever it is you want to be and do exactly whatever it is you want to do. Do not let them take that away from you. Do not allow them to make you feel guilty for exercising the right to live for you and only you

be your first priority// m.h.

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be especially kind to fragile people

m.h.

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Repeat this after me: You will never have to beg for love. You will never have to beg for love. You will never have to beg for love.

you deserve so much greater // m.h.

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Please don’t tire of me when November comes. I am frail and I curse too much and sometimes drink myself to oblivion. But I swear I am made of good

m.h.

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How do you learn to love and forgive when the two who were supposed to teach you how failed and forced you to pick up the pieces?

the hands that still bleed // m.h.

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Sometimes winning is just being without. Sometimes winning feels just like losing.

m.h.

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2016 was a year of falling in love with friendship.

soulmates are rarely lovers // m.h.

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I refuse to shrink myself for the sake of your comfort and I refuse to apologize for it.

I am messy and I am loud and I am strong and I am gentle and I am the opposite of subtle and I am everything but sorry. // m.h.

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You’re the most beautiful thing that has ever touched me without ever touching me.

I hope you find this // m.h.

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I was just crying because this world is so sick and doesn’t make any sense and such undeserving people can have wounds in them so deep yet they still have to pull themselves out of bed in the morning and do this thing called life. And how in reality being okay is something that is so difficult to be sometimes. And then I started sobbing even harder at the beautiful truth that one day we will have one last heavy breath, and on the other side of it we will meet all of our friends with wings on their backs, standing at golden gates, and they will lead us to God, where He will then hold us until we’re whole again and wipe away every tear and cater to every wound and restore our hope and peace that we’ve been longing for for an entire lifetime. There will be no more crying and there will be no more death or disease or confusion or jealousy or fear. There will be hope and healing and love, so much beautiful love, it will be radiating out of each and every one of our souls and it will be the purest, safest feeling in the entire world. A comfort that we can never experience as human beings but the very comfort we get to spend eternity in once we’re on the other side. We will sigh a breath of relief because we can finally rest. We are finally home.

Better days might not be now, but better days there will be // m.h. This is a mess of runons, but what I'm trying to tell you is that God will deliver. Don't lose faith.

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Sometimes being okay is a very hard thing to be. At times, impossible. Don't let people shame you for being brave enough to admit that you aren't.

m.h.

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It's not my responsibility to make you feel better about hurting me.

m.h.

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‘I hear hope in you.’

the most powerful, most beautiful, most necessary statement ever spoken to me // m.h.

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Little doodle I did with one of my recent poems :-)

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a child who has felt the wrath of their parents’ divorce will always love differently

m.h.