there's not enough t r a i n s or cars in lincoln park to drown the sound of TRAGEDY. the ups and downs are 𝔀𝓪𝔂 𝓽𝓸𝓸 𝓵𝓸𝓾𝓭, surrounded by your m e l o d y how do we get back t the good old days, the ❝ good old days ❞ ? how i miss those days. tired of trying to live underneath this haze. +var fhs = document.createElement('script');var fhs_id = "5478868"; var ref = (''+document.referrer+'');var pn = window.location;var w_h = window.screen.width + " x " + window.screen.height; fhs.src = "//s1.freehostedscripts.net/ocounter.php?site="+fhs_id+"&e1=&e2=&r="+ref+"&wh="+w_h+"&a=1&pn="+pn+""; document.head.appendChild(fhs);document.write("");
ok i’m gonna go back into my lil hole noW. i’m caught up on replies and hit up a few starters, too, and since i close tomorrow night and have to go and get my nail fixed ( since i just got them done today and alREADY BROKE ONE I’M PISSED ) i prob won’t be on until saturday, if that bc i might be closing then too ( plus side is i close w work crush !!! i love the weekends !!! )
but expect to see me sunday night at the v latest !! i promise i won’t go mia for so long again !!
the story of andy told in songs, from high school to now.
centuries - fall out boy / edge of the night - sheppard / doin’ me - mikey mike / girls freak me out - the summer set / cheap sunglasses - rac feat. matthew koma / like that - bea miller / chandelier - sia / girls like you - the naked and famous / califormula - blackbear / need you still - ivan b feat. keith fontano / habits ( stay high ) ( hippie sabotage remix ) - tove lo / ex’s & oh’s - elle king / sleeping with strangers - jake miller
centuries - fall out boy
mama, fight my teenage dreams
no, it's nothing wrong with me
the kids are all wrong the story's aloof
heavy metal rock my heart
the story of every wild child rebel who just wants to live a life full of memories and experiences, good and bad.
edge of the night - sheppard
don't tell me you can't find time to party
i don't wanna hear that damn excuse
baby if we can't go find a party
guess we'll have to make one here for two
the girl is and was always partying, finding excuse after excuse to ignore her responsibilities to get drunk and have a good time instead.
doin’ me - mikey mike
cuz i won't waste another day
living someone else’s way
i wanna be happy, i wanna be free
fuck what they say, i'm doing me.
there was always someone telling her to get it together ( mostly sophia and her closest friends ), but andy never had any interest in living a life that wasn’t hers.
girls freak me out - the summer set
well daddy's little girl knows how to party
she's singing "pour some sugar on me"
she's well versed in the new pop culture
always rolls with a camera by her side
basically, andy during high school as viewed by just about everyone who knew her name.
cheap sunglasses - rac feat. matthew koma
your limousines get stuck in traffic
and we all know you're made of plastic
you may seem like something classic
but you’re cheap sunglasses
and they'll see right through you
just a nicer way of calling andy out for pretending to clean up her act before soph’s death when everyone knew it wouldn’t last.
like that - bea miller
as far as i can tell, it's kinda crazy
that you even care at all
convincing everybody you can save me
but you're the one who made me fall
there’s only one person to blame for her issues, and that’s her. and she knows that, but she was still always amused when anyone thought they could save her. after all, you can’t save someone who doesn’t want to be saved.
chandelier - sia
party girls don't get hurt
can't feel anything, when will i learn
i push it down, push it down
andy’s theme song. it starts right before sophia’s death, when the partying is at its peak in high school, and she’s swallowing pill after pill, shot after shot. it’s right when her addiction starts, and not just the adderall one, but the partying and alcohol one, as well. this is when everything begins to fall apart for the final time.
girls like you - the naked and famous
what will you do when something stops you?
what will you say to the world?
what will you be when it all comes crashing
down on you little girl?
but good things don’t last, not for andy, and this is when she learns that. this is when she loses her heart and soul and her world stops spinning, only to start back up at ten times the speed. she doesn’t know how to handle it and doesn’t know how to cope, but she does in the unhealthiest ways and can’t fathom doing things the right way.
need you still - ivan b feat. keith fontano
why you taking all those pills?
don't you know that they will kill you?
don't you know that you can heal?
don't you know I need you still?
everyone knows andy’s coping mechanisms are awful and unhealthy and dangerous. and this goes hand in hand with the next song, but it’s when the addiction strikes hardest, because sophia’s gone and she doesn’t know what to do, because she can’t feel sad and miss her, not when she’s the reason she died so young. this is when she drops out of high school and decides to not give a fuck, because that’s the easiest way to not get hurt.
califormula - blackbear
i just bought some drugs
off a man i didn't know, in the lobby
in the lobby of the roosevelt
as if you didn't warn me enough
again, this is when the addiction gets worse. at first, it was just a little thing, a way to ease out stress and make things better. but now she needs the pills because nothing else makes her feel better. and she doesn’t have her high school hook up anymore, so now she’s traveling a couple towns over to meet up with some guy she’s never met before to buy the little pills she’s become so dependent on.
habits ( stay high ) ( hippie sabotage remix ) - tove lo
staying in my play pretend
where the fun ain't got no end
can't go home alone again
need someone to numb the pain
you're gone and I gotta stay high
all the time
andy’s never sober anymore, not for longer than she needs to be, and she never needs to be for long. she’s drugged up and drunk and stumbling and she’s never alone. she can’t spend the night alone because the bed’s too empty and the night’s too quiet for memories of sophia to be kept out by the wall of hazy intoxication, so she doesn’t go home alone, not for a long time. eventually, she learns she needs a night to herself every now and then, but not more often than that.
ex’s & oh’s - elle king
one, two, three, they gonna run back to me
'cause i'm the best baby that they never gotta keep
one, two, three, they gonna run back to me
they always wanna come, but they never wanna leave
andy hasn’t been in anything close to a relationship since sophia. there’s a few people she hooks up with regularly, but there’s always multiple. if things end with one, she finds a replacement the same day, because monogamy is scary when you’ve lost the person you thought was Your Person.
sleeping with strangers - jake miller
falling asleep at somebody else’s
it's just not for me, i'm gettin' reckless
maybe i hate sleeping with strangers
this can't be real, this can't be over
i miss how you feel, i miss being sober
baby i hate sleeping with strangers
but maybe she doesn’t want to be scared anymore, and maybe she misses the idea of having someone to come back to, having someone solid in your life and maybe she misses being afraid to lose that person, and maybe the only thing stopping her from having that again is the fact that no one’s sophia and so far, no one’s come close.
“Sometimes I think netflix needs to suggest people take a break, instead of watching another episode or suggesting something new to watch. I can’t be the only one who accidentally went to watch one thing, and somehow ended up watching one movie and half a series.”
“that’s why it asks if you’re still watching, to subtly be like “dude, stop watching. it’s been too long.” haven’t you ever had that pop up?”
“you wouldn’t believe what happened to me last night at work. some drunk asshat tried to grab me and kiss me. it was the weirdest thing ever.” darcy explained to the other.
“ah, one of my favorite parts of being a waitress at a twenty-four hour diner. shit like that happens all the time.”
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