don't turn me down

[nat-weston]

Her heart began to beat faster against her chest as he threw question after question at her. Not even giving her a chance to process what was happening in that moment. Everything else was a blur, only memories of him were clear. “No.” Her voice cracked, trying her best not to fall apart over the phone. She had wanted to talk to him again, but not like this. “I didn’t mean to hurt you, I loved you. I love you. I was stupid back then, you know that. But I needed to just hear you say somethin to me again. I’m sorry..” She sniffled, lowering her head as she softly cried into the receiver. 

[andre-jones-blog]

He could easily hear the emotion in her voice and even though he cared he willed himself to at the very least act like he didn’t. He was going to show her he was doing just fine without her. He couldn’t let himself fall back into what felt like a trap to him. They had always broke up to make up but when she left he had decided that there would never be a make up, not with how she left him. He felt used and disposable and he wasn’t going to allow that to happen again.  “You don’t love me,” he snapped before regaining his composure. “You don’t love me, if you did you wouldn’t have just left me for him like it was the easiest decision in the world. Maybe yu never loved me, just the idea of me.”

[nat-weston]

There was nothing but dead silence. Had he hung up after figuring out who it was? No, he wouldn’t have answered the call to begin with. He already knew. She had been a complete and utter fool to let him go. Dre had been there for her through all her best and worst moments. They had gotten close after she broke up with one of their high school peers. She hated herself for leaving him, all confused and betrayed. His voice was harsh, and it stung her heart with each word he spit at her through the receiver. He hated her, and she couldn’t really blame him. He had every right to. “I don’t know..” She whispered, hoping he would stop yelling at her. It was true, she had no clue why she found the need to bother him every single day. “I needed to hear your voice.” 

[andre-jones-blog]

Her answers to his questions just broke him further, making his anger elevate. He just stayed quiet on the phone, wondering why he was even still on the phone with the girl that kept breaking him. “Why are you doing this to me? Do you enjoy hurting me?” he asked trying to keep the pain in his voice at a minimum. He couldn’t be seen as weak to her. But he kept thinking back to how things were between them in high school. She was his best friend and was always there for him as he was there for her. But now they were complete strangers that happened to have a shared past. “I don’t understand you Natalie. You chose this, you chose to leave. Why do you want to hear my voice then?”

[nat-weston]

She dialed his number for the third time today. It was a everyday thing for her now, she didn’t even remember picking up the phone and dialing Dre’s number, it was just out of habit. Call her ex-lover three times a day before going on with her daily schedule. She wasn’t sure why she was still bothering him after so many years of being apart but just felt necessary. Like she would loose it if she didn’t call him. There was no point really, he never answered. It could be a number that had been used and forgotten. She could be calling somebody else for all she knew. She was getting ready to leave another message on his voicemail when she heard someone talking back, harshly muttering her name. That didn’t sound like the automated female voice she had been so accustomed to. It sounded like him. Her heart began to race, he had never answered her calls before, so why would he start now. “I-uh.” Her voice was caught in her throat, unsure of what to say to the person she loved but left for somebody else. Somebody who ended up leaving her anyways. “Hi.”

[andre-jones-blog]

Dre rolled his eyes and almost hit the end button but his curiosity stopped him. She sighed and thought back to the day she left him. Originally he thought she just left him for a job or something. But when he saw her with someone with another guy, it hit him that she really dropped him like a bad habit. Natalie broke him in ways he never thought possible and now that she was on the phone, he had to know why. “I’m only going to ask you this one more time before I hang up on your ass. What do you want? Why do you keep calling me? Why do you keep leaving me messages?” He questioned growing frustrated. “Don’t you got someone to fuck or do god knows what with other than calling me every damn near fucking day you left for that fuckboy?”

[andre-jones-blog]

Hearing his cellphone sing a distinctive song for the third time today was beginning to get the Dre. He knew exactly who it was, it was the same person who’s been calling him over the years. He thought that with her fame, she’d forget about him and in the beginning it seemed like she had. But that was years ago. Why she was still calling him, he didn’t know. He had never even listened to her voicemails, knowing he’d break down and call her back. But right now he wanted answers to why she was still calling. Why she left him as well. He looked at it ringing before sighing and for the first time in years, he answered her call. “What do you want Natalie?”

[ovoxdreamville]

He is so fine 😍

[himfahn]