He’s just said some stuff that clued me in. Mentioned a few things about the castle that you can only see in the dungeons, some stuff from the Slytherin common room. I’m positive he was Slytherin. You’re right, it’s very “noble Gryffindor” sort of recklessness. Let’s hope. I’m sure that’s why. The ones I do know I wouldn’t have trusted not to rat out anyone else to save their own skin. But it’s fucked, right? Maybe the same amount of fucked as the truth potion thing, I dunno. The traitor thing is true, though. It was one of Sirius’s idiot friends, actually. Peter Pettigrew. Always knew he was a creepy little rat. Just hope he was the only one, not sure there’s a way to get around truth potion though. At least I hope not. Wow, they really did that? That’s nice of them. Smart too. Ha! He would have us in phoenix masks, obviously. Red and gold phoenix masks. Yeah, they are. Glad to know they’re nice, at least. You think? I dunno, doesn’t really seem worth the risk. I don’t really feel like I fit with everyone else there, you know? I’m not fighting and I’ve been on the wrong side. Yeah. I feel stupid now that I ever thought I could do it myself, but I guess I wasn’t exactly thinking clearly. I’d been stuck in that safe house for so long and seeing the mark on my arm all the time was just driving me crazy. But yeah, Simon is a good bloke. Kiran’s a lot older than us. I remember him because he was Head Boy, maybe our second year?
Huh. I mean, that’s got to be a good sign right? Does she normally have more of an opinion on things? I don’t blame you for still not being sure though. But shit. I get what you’re saying but I’m sorry it’s something you’re having to think about. I’m glad she’s doing a lot better but you’re probably right. You don’t want to have any regrets about not sharing with her, not if it’s something you want to share. And you don’t live with her anymore so maybe it’ll be less awkward to have that conversation. Be nice if the blokes stop messing with you about her. I can’t believe they think that’s what your type would be even if you did like girls. I do think you’re brave. Braver than me. It means a lot that you told me. That you felt like you could tell me even though I’m not ready to Of course I’m cool with it. I don’t think there’s anything you could do that I wouldn’t be cool with. Except wear a clip-on tie, obviously, but we’ve covered that already.
That’d be nice. If you wouldn’t mind. But don’t ask them directly, I feel like if you can’t figure it out and we have to find out directly I should probably ask, I don’t want them thinking I’m too scared to ask. Even though I am. I just don’t want them thinking that though. That must make me sound like a loser.
Oh. I. A lot? Really? Like what? Is there? Like what? Yeah, exactly, weird to picture those two together. Dorcas and the willow bloke is weird though. Like really weird. I’m sure you read the situation right, but what the hell? That’s a good point, maybe Ravenclaw girls just don’t have any standards. I mean the McKinnon is better than whomping willow bloke, but still! I’m glad Ravenclaw blokes have better taste. Right, much more fun doing the gossiping. Kissing you in a room full of books would be nice, even if it’s not an actual full library.
That makes sense given how secretive it seems to be from your description. I’d trust your opinion over any others about it at any rate. It really is fucked. I don’t know how a group can function with that level of distrust. Though I guess the truth potion does make us seem nearly as distrusting. Really??? I’d forgotten Sirius had another mate. Maybe because that American is always around them now. That had to be a blow for them especially. A traitor is terrible but having one of my mates be it, sounds rough. You’re right about creepy though, there was something about him that always creeped me out. I haven’t heard of any way around the truth potion either so I hope that means we’re good. Yeah they did! It was really nice. Truthfully though it made me start to get a little nervous. It was before I really knew what was going on. Oh man, how did I miss that, of course it'd be phoenix masks. But yep red and gold phoenix masks. Could have also had us in red cloaks. I guess we got lucky in some ways. Yeah they are nice once you get to know them a little better. I do think. But I get it. Maybe if you were fighting it’d be easier. Still what you're doing feels important. It makes sense you weren’t thinking clearly and just desperate to get it off. From the sound of it you’d been through a lot. Glad it all worked out in your favor. That was him? I hadn’t realized. Not that I had any run ins in second year. I just remember the whole thing about a Slytherin head boy.
Sometimes. She once told me at her age it gets tiring having an opinion on everything so she likes to pick and choose what she bothers with. Thanks. She’s been sick for so long that it feels like it’s always been in the back of my mind. I remember being terrified first year that she’d die while I was at school. But here we are, she’s still here. I know I’ve got my parents but she’s the one who feels like my whole family. Well, her and you. That’s a good point about not living there. If the absolute worst happens at least I won’t have to worry about where I’m going to live. Wouldn’t it? Thanks for that because I was worried that I’d somehow given off the impression that I’d ever want to be around a person like that. Couldn’t figure out what I needed to correct about myself so no other terribly awful conclusions like that happened again. Thanks, that really means a lot. You’re the one I wanted to tell the most.The one I was most worried about telling. Ha! Yes we have, and that won’t be happening. I’m glad to hear it though. Me deciding to tell people doesn’t mean you have to make any declarations about yourself. What I mean is that everything we said before when I first came out, still stands. I don’t want you to feel like I might expect more now.
I don't mind at all. I hope I’m right about them. You don’t sound like a loser at all. I get how you feel. At least a little bit. It’s sort of how I felt talking to them about trying out back in school. Now they’re professional players, even more intimidating.
Wow ok you want me to tell you? For real? Like the face you get when you’re reading something really interesting. Is that creepy? Fuck I hope not! I don’t usually go in for the look but when we’re up on the brooms and your hair is all messy, your clothes are a little in disarray, and your smiling and breathing hard, your eyes lit up because you’re so happy, that’s pretty hot too.Feels weird to be telling you stuff I’ve found hot about you for so long. It was weird to see them together. Really weird is right, I was not expecting to see them of all people. But it really did look like when you’d catch someone coming out of a closet together back at school, I’m sure you remember that from being a prefect. Never thought I’d be catching Dorcas like that let alone with the willow bloke. Ha! They seem to right. Some of us do at least. Agreed! Yeah, I think it’ll be really nice.
