Day 18, 19, 20 Domagick.com Reflections Social phobia versus commitment
Well I really hate doing multiple days on a post, since it means I am not correctly giving myself enough time for reflection. I think thats true for most of us that struggle with journaling, this is a core issue. Too many things are going on at the same time. Writing is a style of self-reflection. The audio or videos is another. If thats not happening, I almost feel like half the magic is not done. I know that won’t be popular as an opinion.
The format of the domagick.com challenges, actually makes this somewhat harder, I know that is true, but I personally feel like there a couple social principles at work here.
the domagick.com challenge sets two social principles against each other in a way.
First, because of cultural issues with real world consequences, most people have a real fear about talking about their magical experiences or revealing too much. This is justified in my own personal experiences, but ( and I am sure I will get hate mail), it is more justified in the terms of occult practitioners and witches who actually do throw curses for reasons that really indicate more self-work is needed. Curses are useful, just not as often. Hell people throw curses at public figures all the time. Anything to not actually be honest with one self. Non-magical people do this too, almost as much, they just start with gossip or other weapons, but the “different is dangerous idea is a real problem”. I do recommend people take a pen-name for this reason, and the people who criticize pen names are usually assholes in my opinion. At least in the midwest, being a witch or pagan is not really ok even with the courts, jobs etc.
Now that said, I would strongly recommend everyone work on a personal universe where it can be ok ( aka your own business or whatever it takes). Thats greater magical work, for yourself, but doesn’t change the cultural biases. Yes you can get yourself to a place it does not matter, and that is the most rewarding magical work I think many people can take.
Second, it pits commitment to advancement against all that fear. To me,we live in so much fear all the time, that to not talk about it just kills something inside. I don’t want to talk about it as much as some people, but the commitment is helpful to make you make progress. Once you commit, once you know people are watching, you tend to follow through. This is a built in tool. Its a cognitive behavioral trick. When you see a whole bunch of others doing the work, you tend to do the work. I am already sure for everyone posting there is at least another person doing the work, inspired by the work, who just won’t post, but thats ok.
My personal opinion is, read my personal, is that ultimately magical orders do try to have the needed feedback loops and commitment, but ultimately fail based on the fact that the social aspects usually ( but not always), override and alter the purposes of the order or group. I haven’t seen any group overcome this as it is a fundamental component of the human condition. Social status and connections will always overcome or greatly influence purpose. The social control aspects also lead into a lot of tendencies for abuse. We all know the stories, I have many too in personal experience. Plus that, I am not a joiner and I don’t really like the social influence mechanisms ( in the Toastmaster group, theres a lot of these too, and thats something I want to practice).
Increasingly ( and I will be trying to work through this in the next challenge), I have found the social aspects of magical work to be wholly unsatisfying and unenjoyable. This is again a product of oh shit I have a lot to do and thats what happens. As an Introvert, its already not something I enjoy from the start.
The domaigck challenge to me is kinda a compromise experiment. Get the needed commitment boost but anonymously within some basic tenants of discipline but mostly all based on intrinsic motivation.
So I did all the work these days, usually still starting too late because I am stressed about work and school. Obviously the Goetic work is not de-stressing in any meaningful sort of way, and the muffling part of the magical work leaves me a little eh muffled. I am at the finals stretch, and thats always rough.
I have been seeing some oddities in the fabric of reality. I have been seeing a lot of car accidents like the kinda that just has happened before I drove by. I usually take this as a omen of sorts, of negativity misdirected, but I just don’t feel like there is a connection or anything else that would be like something is amiss. Now a shit ton of negativity is being transmuted across multiple people with this project, but it just doesn’t feel like ( and divinations), that the accidents are something to be concerned about. Usually I would get a little nervous ( see social paranoia of the occult world, Im laughing at myself right now). This is just an odditity, like an intuitive thing I look for .. like other omens that happen around me.. like crows being around all the time ( not a death omen for me haha not at all), thats happened to with a couple crows. Its like there are reality ripples kinda growing in intensity. Or just other weird patterns that come up when something is changing magically speaking. I took all that as the work is working, or the pattern of reality is changing ( breaking? ), and that allows for a different reality.
Day 18, 19, 20 Domagick.com Reflections Social phobia versus commitment was originally published on Andrieh Vitimus
