our love will never die;

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The mood completely shifted once Daniel uttered those two words. ‘I’m ready’, and that’s all Blaine needed to hear. He worked to help Daniel with his jeans, kicking them off and pulling his fingers out of Daniel, kissing him to keep the romance alive and well. Once his pants were off, Blaine reached for the lube that sat at it’s permanent spot on their bedside table, pumping a bit into his hand before stroking his cock. He moaned softly at the way it felt before lining himself up at Daniel’s entrance.

He leaned forward, using his other hand to push some curls out of Daniel’s face, and gaze into his eyes for a second before kissing him. Once their lips touched, Blaine pushed his hips forward, slowly entering Daniel and filling him up. He gasped at the tightness around him, groaning as he dropped his head in Daniel’s neck. “I love you so much,” he whispered, breathlessly, giving Daniel time to adjust before he slowly began moving his hips back and forth, lovingly, and making sure every thrust was used to show Daniel just how much Blaine cared and needed him. “You’re mine and I’m yours, baby. Forever,” he whispered, kissing below Daniel’s ear before capturing his lips once again.

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Daniel’s heart began racing, feeling as thought it were ready to beat out of his chest. A number of emotions were running through him,  but currently, all he needed in that moment was Blaine. The need for his brother was apparent, it’s why they were currently naked and his brother was about to make love to him. Because Blaine knew. He knew what Daniel needed. The reassurance, the soft touches and kisses, his stomach tightening with a sizzling pleasure inside of him solely because of the man above him.

Eyes watched Blaine as he lubed up his cock, a shiver running through his body as  he wrapped his legs around Blaine’s waist, giving him easier access to his lower half. When he felt his lover pressing into him, he let out a gasp against his lips, the pain due to the stretch always made him think that Blaine wouldn’t ever fit inside of him. Sure enough, Blaine was eventually balls deep inside of him and holyfuck, it hurt so bad. He hadn’t bottomed in quite some time, but it was always worth it. Always. 

When Blaine began moving his hips, slowly pulling back before slowly pressing forward again, a shaky moan sounded from his lips. Hands ran down Blaine’s back, resting at the top of his brother’s ass, silently encouraging the slow thrusting of his hips. Another choked off sound fell from his lips, something between a whine and a moan as Blaine whispered those words to him. He didn’t want to cry. He really wasn’t a big crier. But the honest truth was that he thought he’d lost Blaine for good. He thought he lost the best thing that happened to him, which was one of, if not his biggest fear. “Forever.” He whispered in return, pressing a series of soft kisses to Blaine’s shoulder and neck, beginning to pant against his skin.

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Blaine continued working him over, wanting his fiance to feel as amazing as he possibly could. He loved Daniel so much, and he knew that Daniel knew he’d do anything to make him happy and feel good. After a few moments, he pulled off, kissing at Daniel’s hip and stopping to suck a small hickey into the skin, something to remind his love of their night together come morning. “When you’re ready, just tell me, love,” he whispered, pressing a few more kisses to Daniel’s hips.

He looked up at his lover, focusing on the faces Daniel made as Blaine stretched and fucked him with his fingers. “You’re so beautiful,” he whispered, kissing his way back up to Daniel’s lips. “I love you so, so much.” Blaine was so happy in this moment. Sure, it’d been a struggle to get here, but Blaine knew that nothing would ever tear them apart, that no matter what the struggle they’d always overcome because that’s what soulmates did. They stuck with each other no matter what because being together was so, so much better than being apart.

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Daniel let out a gasp when Blaine began sucking a hickey into the skin of his hip, skin tingling and his stomach tightening at the sensation as his cock twitched with anticipation of what it was that was to come. He nodded his head, eyes still closed and his lip still pulled between his teeth when Blaine told him to tell him when he was ready. 

The need to milk this for all it was worth was pressing, but Daniel was noticeably becoming impatient especially as his lover whispered loving words. A shaky breath fell from his lips as he opened his eyes to look down at Blaine as he began kissing his way back up his body. 

“I’m ready.” Daniel spoke after Blaine whispered that he loved him and kissed his lips. The taste of himself was strong, but so was the taste of Blaine as his tongue invaded his mouth. “I’m ready.” He repeated, hips thrusting upwards to emphasize his words. “Blaine, I need you. I-- I fucking need you.” He nearly whined, nails dragging down his fiance’s sides before his fingers found Blaine’s ass and gave a gentle yet needy squeeze. He pulled Blaine’s hips down against his own as he thrusted upwards, the friction eliciting a moan from deep in his throat. 

Hands then hastily moved to the front of his brother’s pants, fumbling to get them undone. 

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When Daniel began speaking, Blaine knew exactly what he needed. He shushed him again, kissing him softly before his lips began their path down Daniel’s torso. Once he got to his fiance’s cock, he smiled softly, not hesitating a single second before he sank down around him to distract him from the pain.

He kept his fingers moving at a steady pace, making sure Daniel was good and stretched as he continued bobbing his head. His cheeks hallowed out so he could give Daniel as much friction as possible. He didn’t wait for Daniel to speak before adding a third finger, knowing from experience that it was always easier to take when it came as a surprise. To balance the pain and pleasure, Blaine swallowed around Daniel a few times, humming to add to the sensation. He’d do anything to make all this just a little easier for the man he loved.

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When Blaine sank down around him, Daniel couldn’t bite back the breathy moan that the friction of those lips drew out of him. His eyes shut as his head fell back, basking in the state of ecstasy his fiance had the ability to put him in. A hand tangled into Blaine’s hair as he gave a few shallow thrusts of his hips, a gasp sounding when a third finger was added, while it hurt, his cock throbbed at the thought of Blaine replacing those fingers. It’d been so long, and the need for his lover to make love to him was strong.

“F-- fuck.” Daniel breathed out, lifting his head to look down at Blaine. He brushed a few stay curls that were poking out of the bit of gel Blaine was wearing tonight, and his eyes were fixated on the image before him. Those lips wrapped around his cock, and those eyes looking up at him had Daniel eventually biting down on his bottom lip, growing more and more eager the longer Blaine fingered him, but he wanted this to last. For as long as it could.

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Blaine noticed the tears, and kissed them away. “Shhh,” he whispered softly, letting Daniel know there was no need for him to speak. Blaine knew. He knew everything Daniel was feeling and thinking in that moment, because for the first time in a month, they were one again. “I know, baby. I know,” he spoke softly, kissing at Daniel’s neck.

When he requested the second finger, Blaine complied, pushing a second finger in slowly. He kissed Daniel, doing his best to take as much of the pain away as he could. “Relax,” he whispered as he began moving his fingers in and out of Daniel, scissoring them to stretch him out. Nothing could break them apart in that moment. They were completely invested in one another for the first time in a month, and Blaine realized it was the first time this month he’d actually been truly happy. Daniel made him happier than anyone ever would, and he was stupid to chance all of that. He knew that now, and he knew he would never make that mistake again.

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A breath of relief escaped Daniels lips when Blaine told him to sh. Just hearing those words of comfort whispered so close to his ear that he could feel his fiance’s warm breath on his skin sent a shiver through his entire body. He couldn’t deny how he felt the love his brother had for him even now, before they were truly connected and one. The way he touched him, the way those fingers pressed inside of him with care, and those lips tenderly pressed against his skin. Blaine loved him, and even though things were extremely rocky between them, he trusted that. He trusted Blaine and the way he was capable of making him feel how much he was loved.

Daniel nodded his head when Blaine told him to relax. He wanted to. But the intrusion of those fingers had his body tensing up and clenching down around them even when Blaine scissored his fingers, making it a little more painful for him. He could take it though. He would take it. Because he needed Blaine to make love to him tonight. More than anything else right now.

He hissed between his teeth when Blaine scissored his fingers a second time, and he need something to balance out the pain. “Blaine... your mouth-- please.” He whined, knowing that his brother knew what he was asking without vocally asking for it.

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Blaine listened to the sound of Daniel’s voice, hearing the complete heartache that he’d caused. It made him feel terrible. “You’ll never loose me,” he whispered, shaking his head as he pushed forward and kissed Daniel slowly. “I’m yours and you’re mine,” he whispered, kissing him once again before going back to singing softly to his fiance.

As he sang and kissed at Daniel’s lips, neck, and chest, he reached over, grabbing the tube of lube that had sat untouched for a month. It was only then that he realized that they hadn’t been intimate in that long, and he just felt even worse about himself. How could he put Daniel through this? Through all this worry and fear? How could he have done this to the man he loved more than anything? He felt like such despicable human being. What was wrong with him?

He shook the thoughts from his head for the time being as he squirted a bit of the lube and lathered it on his fingers. He moved then, watching Daniel’s face as he lined his finger up and then pressing forward to kiss him as it slid in. “I love you so much,” he whispered again’s Daniel’s lips as he slowly began moving his finger in and out, stretching him open. “I’ll never leave again. Cause you are the only one,” he sang softly as he pulled back to look into Daniel’s eyes, their foreheads resting together.

As Daniel returned the kiss Blaine initiated after telling him that he’d never lose him, a single tear fell from each of his eyes and he wanted to remember this moment. Because despite everything, despite the past month, he knew Blaine loved him. In this moment, he could feel it. “I’m yours and you’re mine.” He repeated, voice in a whisper before he listened as Blaine began singing to him.

He kicked off his pants and underwear while Blaine lubed up his fingers. His legs fell open, allowing his brother access and when he felt that finger press inside of him, the gasp that fell from his lips was quieted as Blaine kissed him. He let out a low whine from deep in his throat. He was tight. He was so damn tight. He hadn’t bottomed in at least two months. “I love you, too.” He replied, pulling Blaine against him and it was then he was aware of his throbbing erection pressed up between his and Blaine’s torso. 

Looking up into those eyes, after a few moments of that one finger pressing into him and dragging out, he was ready for another. “Another. Add another.” He uttered, hands already tightly gripping the sheets below him because he knew it was going to hurt. 

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Blaine knew Daniel would cry. In fact, he’d be shocked if he didn’t. He loved his brother more than words could say, which means he knew him better than anyone ever did or ever would. “Let it out. I’m here,” he whispered, kissing down Daniel’s neck. He’d do anything to make Daniel see that he was here forever. That no matter what, he’d make sure they were together forever. That they were destined to be together.

As his shirt hit the floor, he smiled softly, pulling Daniel close again as his fiance worked on getting his pants off. He kissed back, feeling all the emotion Daniel was putting into this kiss, and he knew he had to be strong for the love of his life tonight. He had to be the one to bring them back together, because he was the one who’d torn them apart in the first place. As his pants hit the floor, he dropped to his knees, undoing Daniel’s pants, and kissing at his hips as he worked his pants off. His mouth watered as he thought for a moment about taking Daniel into his mouth, but tonight wasn’t about sex. It was about bringing them together again and making everything okay, and Blaine knew making love to Daniel was the only way to do that. He kissed his way back up to Daniel’s mouth, backing him to the bed and gently pushing him back onto the mattress before crawling over him. “I love you so, so much, Daniel. Hold on, okay?” he asked softly, kissing him again before getting up and connecting his phone to the speaker they had in their room. He searched for a second before finding One by Ed Sheeran and putting it on repeat. It was the only song he could think of that encompassed how Blaine felt about Daniel in this moment. It held the only message he wanted Daniel to grasp in their coupling. He was the only one. No matter what, or who came up, it would always just be Daniel. Blaine returned to his position on top of Daniel and kissed him slowly before moving his lips to his brother’s neck, singing along softly into Daniel’s ear as his pushed his underwear down, taking the younger Anderson’s cock in his hand and gently stroking it.

When Blaine told him to let it out, Daniel could feel the tears stinging his eyes, but he kept himself together. Eyes fell shut at the feeling of his fiance’s lips on the skin of his neck, a shaky gasp tumbled from his lips as a shiver ran down the center of his spine. There was no denying the affect his brother had on him physically. Always had and always will.

His eyes fluttered open when Blaine dropped to his knees, thinking about how much he loved the image of Blaine on his knees for him. At the sight, Daniel felt his blood rushing down to his crotch, especially as Blaine placed kisses to his hips, leaving his skin tingling and him aching for more. 

Now on his back on their mattress, Daniel parted his legs so Blaine fit between them as he crawled over him. He nodded his head in response to Blaine telling him to hold on, and he did nothing but watch him as he moved across the room, putting on music and walking back to the bed. When Daniel heard the song his fiance chose, his heart nearly skipped a beat. 

Lips desperately kissed the other back, hands on Blaine’s back using it as leverage to pull him in close before one moved to tangle into the loose curls at the nape of his brother’s neck. The lyrics of the song sung beautifully in his ear was unexpected, and as the other’s hand found his erection and began stroking, the desperation emitting from him was shown in his touches, his eyes and kisses. He pressed his hips forward and into his brother’s grasp, a few low moans escaping his lips. “Blaine,” Daniel whined, pulling him in for a kiss before pressing his forehead against his and keeping his eyes shut. “I-- I thought I lost you.” He whispered, emotion heard in his voice.

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If there was one thing Blaine always prided himself on, it was knowing exactly what Daniel needed when he needed it, even better than Daniel himself knew. They were soulmates, and Blaine had Daniel down like the back of his hand. He knew everything about his brother. What he liked, what he didn’t, what he loved. Everything.

“I love you,” he whispered between kisses, slipping his hand under Daniel’s shirt and pushing it up over his head before dropping it on the floor. He dropped his head, kissing at this brother’s neck as he backed them towards the bedroom. “I need you,” he whispered, wanting to do whatever he could to make Daniel feel good again. He couldn’t bare being the reason for the love of his life’s pain. He needed Daniel, and more than anything, he needed Daniel to know how much he needed him. “Missed you so much.”

Daniel made an embarrassing noise when Blaine told him that he loved him. Something between a choked off sob and a moan, the noise muffled by the press of Blaine’s lips against his. He didn’t want to cry, but he knew it was inevitable. He felt too many emotions, and having Blaine back in his arms was enough of a reason to cry. 

He let Blaine remove his shirt and back him into their bedroom where he began tugging on his shirt, needing there to be way less clothes than there was currently. He couldn’t respond to Blaine’s words. Not now. Not when he was fighting to keep his tears at bay. Instead he just kissed him as if tonight were their last night together. With the help of Blaine, he pulled his shirt off, tossing it to the floor before his hands fell to the other’s pants, shaky fingers desperately fumbling to get them undone.

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Blaine was terrified at this point. He didn’t know what to do or say anymore. If this didn’t work, he was scared nothing would. He needed Daniel. He needed his brother, his fiance, his other half, his soul mate. They were in love. Blaine knew that much, and he couldn’t loose him. Not now or ever.

However, Daniel breathed out that one simple word, and Blaine felt the tears streaming down his face in relief. “Okay?” he asked, fear still in his eyes that maybe he hadn’t heard Daniel right, but when there was no protest, he simply grinned. “Okay,” he said softly, cupping Daniel’s cheek as he leaned forward and kissed him slowly, holding his fiance close as he put more love into that kiss than he ever imagined he could put into one action. He needed Daniel to feel how much he loved him. How much he needed him. He’d stop at nothing to make sure his brother knew that he was serious about everything he said. By the end of the night, Daniel would know that Blaine wanted to marry him. That he had never been more sure of anything in his life. He’d know for sure that no matter what, Daniel would always be the only one for Blaine. Always.

Daniel didn’t answer when Blaine questioned him, he simply gazed into those eyes he loved more than anything in this world. His brother seemed to see the answer in Daniel’s eyes, because without another question, he was being pulled in for a kiss. Daniel hesitated, but once Blaine’s lips touched his own, he melted into it. 

God. He was such a goner. Had been for more than twenty years already. This kiss just reminded him that he wouldn’t ever deny Blaine. He couldn’t ever say no to a kiss. To Blaine asking him if he could make love to him. Because this, right here... this is what he lived for. 

He dropped the blanket and pillow that was tucked under his arm, only so he could take two fistfuls of Blaine’s shirt. He gripped tightly and after a few moments, he pulled Blaine closer to him, the need to be comforted, the need for Blaine was overwhelming and now that they were attached at the lips, he didn’t dare think of pulling away.

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Everything Daniel was saying just had Blaine shaking his head, waiting for his chance to speak. He wasn’t loosing Daniel tonight. He had made his mind up about that. “Yes!” he cried, gripping Daniel’s shirt. “Yes! I love you enough to marry you. I love you enough to marry my brother right now if you asked me to! I don’t want a normal relationship! I want our relationship. You and me. With all our twists and turns and all the problems we may have. He’s nothing. He means nothing. I didn’t want to kiss him. I didn’t want to be with him. He just- He was different and new and I was tempted and stupid, but you are the one I want. Just you. I’m sure. I’ll give it up. I want to give it up. I want to give up everything that doesn’t fit into our life together. It’s just you and me. That’s it. Please, Daniel,” he begged, tears still falling.

“I’ll prove to you that I mean it. I’ll make love to you, and I’ll show you that I’ll never so much as even look at another guy. You are the man I love. You are the man I need. And you are the only man I will ever want to marry. I’m sure, Daniel. I’ve never been more sure of anything in my entire life. I made a mistake, but that doesn’t change how sure I am. Please, baby. Please. I can’t loose you.”

Daniel debated on stepping back and putting some distance between them, especially when Blaine tightly gripped his shirt in his hands. The part of him that was still angry wanted to yank his hands off him because he was just that hurt, but Daniel knew better than that. Even when he was angry, he was such a fool in love. Blaine was his kryptonite. Now and even when he was hurt and angry. 

He listened as his brother spoke, and while he believed him, he wanted to stay upset. He wanted to make Blaine think harder about what he wanted. He wanted to sleep on the couch for the next week, or do something even more drastic so he was sure this never happened again. But Blaine wanted to make love to him, and it’d been weeks since he made love to him. Weeks. 

He let out a shaky breath, hating that he couldn’t deny Blaine anything, and that he had such a power over him. He didn’t want Blaine to think he could treat him like shit, and then have him naked and below him when he wanted him. “Okay.” Daniel breathed out, cursing himself for giving in so easily. They could talk more after, he still had a lot he needed to say, but he’d felt so alone, so hurt and he spent nights dreaming of Blaine making love to him. He needed to feel how much Blaine loved him, he needed to be reminded because up until a half hour ago, he thought he’d lost Blaine for good.

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“I’m not leaving you! I’ll never leave you!” he shot back, trying desperately to make Daniel see. He’d never ever be able to walk away from Daniel. He was his person. His one. He loved him more than life, and he couldn’t be without him. There was just no way.

When Daniel started to walk into the bedroom, Blaine felt his heart pounding in his ears. What was happening? Daniel couldn’t leave. He couldn’t sleep on the couch. Take some time? No! How could this really be happening right now? “Daniel,” he whimpered, following his brother into the living room. “What are you talking about? I don’t need any time. I- I realized what was happening and I ended it. I shoved him away and I kicked him out. I don’t have any thinking to do. You’re the one. The only one. You’ve always been the only one. Please, Daniel,” he pleaded with his fiance, tears streaming. Suddenly, Blaine found himself running in front of Daniel and placing his hands on his chest to stop him. He could feel Daniel’s pecs through his shirt, the hard muscles were one of Blaine’s favorite part of Daniel’s body. “Let me make love to you. Let me show you how I feel about you. About us. Let me prove to you that there is no one and there will never ever be anyone else. Ever. I made a mistake, but I’m yours. I’m yours, Danny, and you’re mine. Please, baby. Just let me make love to you,” he whispered, his eyes staring into Daniel’s as he stayed as close to his brother as he could get, his hands resting on the other’s chest.

“Yeah, Blaine, you do!” Daniel replied as Blaine continued speaking, the words coming off with more attitude than intended. He kept walking despite Blaine’s pleas, that was until his fiance was suddenly in front of him, hands on his chest and talking about making love to him. 

The words that hit his ears caused a whirlwind of emotions to hit him. Earlier that day, Daniel wondered if Blaine would ever make love to him again. And here he was, proposing that he do just that. But it didn’t fix things. He didn’t doubt that Blaine loved him. He just needed him to be sure that he wanted to marry Daniel. It was a big commitment, and the fact that they were brothers and not two strangers whose lives crossed paths as a play of fate made it even bigger of a decision to make.

He looked at Blaine, meeting his eyes and simply staring in silence for a few moments before speaking up. “I know that you love me, but... enough to marry me? To-- to marry your brother? I-- I don’t really know anymore. You didn’t wonder what it was like to be in a normal relationship? Not even a little bit? Not for a second when you were with him? You could go out and flirt without people staring, hell, he tried to kiss you at a dinner party where anyone could’ve seen you... I guess I just... I need you to be sure you’re ready to give the chance of having that up for good.”

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“I can’t,” he said, the desperation clear in his voice as he shook his head violently. “I can’t love anyone but you. Stop saying things like that, please!” he pleaded, tears falling because all he wanted at this moment was to be in Daniel’s arms and forget all of this ever happened. However, he knew he couldn’t do that. They were adults. They were in a mature relationship. There was no just forgetting. They had to work through their issues if they had any hope of surviving them together. He sighed, his hand running through his hair.

“Can’t go through what? Daniel, no, okay? No. Whatever you’re thinking of doing, no. Please don’t,” he begged, tears streaming down his face. “Want out of- What? Daniel. No! It’s you! It’s always been you! Please! I don’t want a way out! Daniel, please just listen to me. I made a mistake. I screwed up. He doesn’t mean anything to me. He never did. It’s you. I know. I know it’s you. I want you. I need you. No one else. Please!” he pleaded, wiping his tears as he looked at Daniel. “It’s you,” he whispered, his voice cracking as he broke down. “It’s you.”

“Through watching you get close to someone else! Watching you leave me! I can’t go through that, Blaine! I won’t be okay!” Daniel snapped, yelling his words at Blaine and finally looking across at him. He saw the tears and he let out an audible sigh, dropping his eyes when his heart clenched tightly in his chest.

He wanted to reach out for Blaine. Hold him. Comfort him. And he hated it. Blaine hurt him. Not the other way around. Blaine hadn’t held him for days, Daniel wanted him to want him again. To want to be close not just because he messed up, but because he needed him just as much as Daniel needed him. 

 “Don’t say that. Don’t say it’s always been me. It hasn’t been me for the past month.” Daniel walked a few steps further into their bedroom, mostly just so Blaine didn’t see his face when the emotions he felt became too much.

“I-- I think we should just take some time. You obviously have a lot of thinking to do.” He uttered before grabbing his blanket off of his side of the bed, and grabbing his pillow. “Probably should’ve done this days ago, but I’m gonna sleep on the couch. You can have the bed.” He said as he moved to walk out of their bedroom and into the living room. 

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Blaine bit his lip, hugging himself as he shook his head. “Baby, no. I- I know I made some mistakes the last few weeks, but it never changed how I feel about you. How much I love you and I want to be with you. I screwed up. I- I’m sorry. I didn’t mean it. I love you so, so much,” he said, shaking his head. Julien had completely screwed up his life. What was wrong with him? How could he have been so stupid?

When Daniel started speaking again, Blaine felt sick to his stomach. No. None of this was happening. None of this could actually be happening right now. “You’re not- I- Daniel, please. Please stop talking. We’re not- You and me…I’m yours and you’re mine, remember? Nothing’s changed. I love you. You’re the only one I want. You’re the only one who can make me happy. I made a mistake and I got carried away, but you’re mine, Daniel, and I’m yours and nothing can change that. Please. He’s no one to come between us. You- You’re my soulmate, Daniel. It’s just you.”

“But things have changed, Blaine.” He interrupted, even thought Blaine told him to stop talking. “Now you know. Now you know you are capable of... of liking someone else, someone who could give you things I can’t. If you can like someone else, maybe you could love them, too.” Every word spoken nearly burned the tip of Daniel’s tongue. He hated saying this all out loud because it made everything feel so real, and he hated that this right here was now his reality. 

“I can’t go through this.” He started, speaking soft and slow as his hands began absentmindedly playing with the hem of his shirt. “I need you to be sure about this. About us. I can’t be married to you and have to go through this again. It-- it hurts, Blaine.” He cut himself off when his voice shook. “If you... I won’t be mad, ya know... if you wanted out of this. I-- I won’t be, and I know it’d hurt you, too, but-- but if you want more than I can give you... you can leave me. I--” Daniel struggled forcing the rest of his words out. Solely because the mere thought hurt more than he could say. “I just need you to be happy, and-- and if it’s not-- if it’s not with me anymore, it-- it’d be okay.” He paused, pressing his lips together to keep his sobs at bay and holding it together so he could finish. “I’m giving you a way out, Blaine... it-- it’d be a clean break. No mess. No arguments. I-- I won’t hate you for wanting what makes you most happy.”

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Being shoved away from Daniel hurt Blaine more than he could say, but the worst was hearing him say that he didn’t know if they’d be okay. What did that even mean? Of course they’d be okay. They had to be okay. Daniel was Blaine’s everything. Without him…Blaine just didn’t know how to function. He couldn’t loose him. He just couldn’t.

“What?” he asked, not sure if he’d heard Daniel right before shaking his head instantly. “No! I- I didn’t- I thought it was harmless. Just a stupid crush that I’d get over once I finished my run. I didn’t- I never thought that it would hurt you or that he would take it that far, I mean- I never wanted to kiss him. I never once thought about kissing him. I love you. Only you, Daniel. I made a mistake, but I’m trying to fix it right now. Baby, please!”

Daniel scoffed, tears stopping in this fit of anger that was fresh and unfamiliar. He wanted to blow up. He wanted to tell Blaine how much he’d been hurting over the past month. How scared he’d been and how every single day he didn’t do anything to make that fear go away. “Just a stupid crush? We’ve barely seen each other over the past month! You stopped inviting me out with you and you-- you used to care so much if we didn’t see each other every single day, but now, now you’d come home, barely even look at me and leave! It wasn’t harmless and you should’ve known that! Why wouldn’t he take it that far, Blaine?! To him, you’re a ‘single guy living with his brother’!”

Shaking his head and running a hand down his face, the tears started falling again as his next thought had the anger diminishing, replaced with the sadness he was far too used to at this point. “Blaine... this is why I left. I didn’t-- I couldn’t be around when you found someone else because I knew you would. I fucking knew it. And you know what? That’s okay, because as long as you’re happy, it’s okay, but I didn’t want to-- to see it happening. I didn’t want to be here.” He began sobbing again, hands shaking as he ran one through his hair. “Because I knew I wouldn’t be okay.”

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Love is a Battlefield

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Blaine didn’t know what do to. There was no fixing this. He knew he’d be in deep shit with Daniel no matter what happened from this point forward. He figured the best policy was to just tell the truth.

“He- He tried to kiss me and I shoved him away. Instantly. I didn’t let him. I didn’t want him. I didn’t even realize that we were breaching into that territory. I just- I’m so sorry, Daniel. Please, baby. Please tell me I can fix it. Say it’s going to be okay. That we’re going to be okay. I- I feel horrible,” he said, tears rushing down his face as he lunged forward and hugged Daniel burying his face in his fiance’s chest.

Daniel didn’t know what to say, or do. Julien tried to kiss Blaine, and how did he know if they really didn’t actually kiss and Blaine was just leaving that part out? He felt sick. His chest ached and so did his head. Suddenly, anger flooded Daniel’s veins, probably around the time Blaine started crying and embraced him. As if he had reason to be so hurt. Last he checked, he didn’t.

He wiggled himself out of the embrace, shoving Blaine away. “No, I won’t say it’s going to be okay because I don’t know if it will.” His voice broke a few times during that sentence, his heart clenching at the mere thought. “Do you--” He started but the words didn’t seem to want to leave his lips, nothing coming out but a choked off sob. “Do you want to be with him?” He forced out after a couple of moments gathering himself. He was scared to even look at Blaine, the fear of what he’ll see in his eyes kept him averting his gaze, unwanting to face the truth they might hold.

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Love is a Battlefield

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Blaine could instantly hear that something was wrong. It made him sick to think about. How could he have been so blind as to think that what he was doing with Julien was okay or even innocent? It wasn’t. There was nothing about it that was okay, and god, Blaine felt horrendous. “Daniel,” there were tears in his eyes and the sorrow and dread came through in his voice. “Baby, I got Liz to send everyone home. I need you. Please,” he said through the door, trying not to cry anymore.

He didn’t know what to say. How could he make this better? “I- I made a huge mistake. And I- I didn’t even realize that I was making it. I didn’t see how much my friendship with him was hurting you. I- I didn’t realize how deep I was getting in. Not until he- and I- He’s gone. I made him leave and I never want to see him again. Please, baby. Please tell me I haven’t lost you. I- I can’t loose the best thing that’s ever happened to me. You’re the only one. It’s you. It’s always been you. I love you. Please, please, please let me in.”

Daniel was hoping Blaine would leave him alone, go back to the party that he threw for him, but he knew that Blaine could see through the facade he was putting up. He wanted to insist. Tell Blaine to go away and that he was fine, but as his brother went on, a huge part of him simply wanted to open the bathroom door and let Blaine hold him until he was finally done crying. 

But he wouldn’t do that. 

Letting Blaine see him like this, so vulnerable, wasn’t something he wanted to do, but his fiances words registered it was inevitable. They had to talk about it. 

“Until he what?” He asked, a certain few sentences standing out through his internal debate of whether he wanted to let Blaine in or not. He wiped his face with his hands the best he could and he stepped back, sucked in a deep breath before he opened the door. “Do I even want to know?”

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Love is a Battlefield

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It was innocent. It was all completely innocent. Or…well…It had started off that way, and Blaine still thought it was. So he had a small crush! What was the big deal. It wasn’t like he’d ever let it go further than that. He’d be done with his run in Aladdin soon, and then he’d probably never see Julien again, and his little crush would fade, and everything would go back to normal. Sure, he felt a little bad about the way he’d treated Daniel, but it was just…being engaged to someone was an insane feeling for Blaine. He’d always dreamed about it, but now it was actually happening and there was a wedding to plan and he was going to spend the rest of his life with Daniel and officially be his husband, and that was a lot for the Anderson to let sink in. So he let him self veer a little off course. Call it cheating, call it cold feet. Blaine just needed to know for sure if this was the right choice he was making.

His crush with Julien had started off so simply. They’d have lunch together before the matinee or dinner before the night show, and on nights when Daniel seemed to be more interested in the shop than him, Julien took him out for coffee after the show and just talked to him. It was nice. They were friends. But soon enough, Blaine started to feel his heart beat a little faster when the man was around. He was tall and handsome and talented and smart and Blaine, though he’d never admit it, was smitten. From there, they started to spend more time together, and the more time they spent together, the less time he spent with Daniel, and the rockier that time actually spent together was.

Before Blaine even knew what had happened, his run on Aladdin was over, and as heartbroken as he was, he was even more excited to move on to the next chapter of his life. A new album, a world tour. A wedding. Everything was moving so fast, and Blaine was happy about it. He really was, but he was also nervous. So nervous. Which is why he was looking forward to this party Daniel had thrown for him.

It was wonderful. All their friends were there, as well as all of Blaine’s friends from the theatre, and most of all Julien. Blaine had been having a wonderful time, and even though he hadn’t seen much of Daniel, he’d been mingling and hanging out with a bunch of people until Julien came up to pull him away from the group.

Blaine smiled and excused himself, walking with Julien into the kitchen as they began talking. The usual small talk was exchanged, and Blaine was enjoying the conversation, but for some reason, this time didn’t feel like the other times they’d talked and hung out. Julien was a little close for comfort and Blaine could smell what seemed like a few too many beers on his breath. “Hey, Julien, you haven’t seen Daniel lately, have you?” he asked, suddenly realizing that his fiance was nowhere to be found. He didn’t hear the man’s response, instead only seeing him lean forward, and suddenly it all clicked. This wasn’t right. Not only was it not right, it might as well have been cheating. He’d been cheating on Daniel. He couldn’t believe himself. He shoved Julien away causing everyone to stare. “I think you need to leave,” he said suddenly. Julien tried to speak up, but Blaine was running on pure guilt and adrenaline now. “Now! You need to leave now,” he demanded, pointing to the door.

After he left, Blaine turned around, spotting Liz instantly. “Way to go, Bowtied Wonder. I thought I was going to have to beat you with your chinos by the end of the night,” she said, but Blaine didn’t have time for jokes. “Can you get everyone out, Liz? I- I need to find Daniel,” he said, shaking in both fear and anger. How had he let it get this far? How did he end up in this situation? How much of his life had he ruined by letting this guy get the best of him? He didn’t wait for Liz to respond before running off to find Daniel, knowing she’d do as he asked.

As he ran into their bedroom, he looked around, seeing Bronx, Thor, and Jazz laying on the bed. Then he spotted the bathroom door, and pushed forward, knocking loudly. “Daniel. Daniel, please, baby. Please let me in,” he said, the need for his fiance’s arms to be wrapped around him growing far too strong in that moment. “Daniel, please.”

The sudden knock on the door and Blaine’s voice visibly startled Daniel as he now sat on the bathroom floor, head in his hands and cheeks stained with wet streaks from the tears that he couldn’t keep at bay like he had for the past month. He was glad he’d locked the door because he really didn’t want Blaine to see him like this. When he heard another loud knock followed by Blaine’s pleading voice, he knew he had to say something. 

Daniel stood from his spot on the floor and quietly walked over to the bathroom door. He stayed quiet for another few moments, not trusting his voice to sound as calm as he was aiming for. “I’m not feeling well, Blaine.” He finally spoke up, before pressing his lips together, feeling proud when his voice didn’t blatantly betray him. He knew he sounded as if he’d been crying, there was no talking out of that, but his voice didn’t crack. He was somewhat holding it together. “I- I don’t want to get you sick...” His voice grew quieter, softer as he continued, taking on more of a sad tone than he started with. “I’m-- I’ll be fine. You should go back out there and-- and have fun. With your friends.”

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Love is a Battlefield

It’d been nearly a month now since Blaine told him about his ‘friend’ Julien. And it’d been nearly a month that Daniel has lived in his absolute worst nightmare. Things started off almost innocent, Daniel simply being way too jealous for his own good, but it wasn’t until Blaine found him and his need to be close  to him suddenly annoying that he knew. 

He and Blaine did everything together. Sure, they got on each others nerves, but it was never an excuse to put distance between them or not spend evenings together cuddled up in bed simply because they hadn’t seen each other all day. The couple of years they spent apart sucked, and now that it seemed his fiance would rather hang out with his friend than him, he felt his destiny shifting from the bright future he saw with his brother. Because he knew. 

He was losing Blaine. 

Blaine’s run in Aladdin came to an end and even though things had been tense between the two of them (so much so, it felt like forever since they’d had sex), he planned a dinner party in celebration. Daniel invited their friends, the only ones that knew about the two of them as well as a few other people that had been Blaine’s coworkers for the past couple of months. 

Unfortunately that meant inviting Julien. 

Daniel stopped voicing his feelings about Julien when Blaine blew up on him over it a couple of weeks ago. He realized that he was only pushing Blaine out the door faster than he was walking out on his own. His need to keep his fiance around for as long as he could, to just hold on until Blaine pulled himself from his grasp kept his mouth shut. Easily. He stopped protesting when Blaine insisted on going out with his friends after his shows, and he stopped asking to tag along, instead giving him the space he seemed to not just need, but want. 

The dinner party tonight, of course, was a success. His friends and Blaine’s came out to celebrate, and briefly, Daniel smiled a genuine smile for the first time in weeks when he saw just how happy his brother was. But when he remembered that it wasn’t because of him, his chest felt tight and that all-too-familiar lump began rising in his throat. 

“Daniel, are you okay?” He recognized the voice instantly as he and Blaine’s friend Elizabeth. She was one of the few people that knew about their relationship, and approved of it. “You barely touched your food at dinner.” He looked down at his untouched plate on the counter in the kitchen only he and Elizabeth occupied.

Daniel attempted to pull himself together quickly. He cleared his throat and mentally cursed himself when he heard his voice crack when he spoke up after tearing his gaze away from Blaine who looked to be having a good time with Julien in their living room. “Yeah. I’m fine, just-- uh, I-- I haven’t been feeling too well. Probably coming down with something. You know, a bug going around or whatever.” He shrugged.

Still, the girl approached him with a comforting hand to his back. He knew she knew. Elizabeth was often referred to as the mother hen of the group. When something was wrong, she just knew. Somehow. “Honey, I hope you don’t mind me asking, but... are you and Blaine okay?” She questioned with knowing eyes and Daniel hesitated.

“Yeah.” He answered too quickly. “Yeah, o- of course we’re okay. But I-- uhm, I’m really not feeling well, Liz, if you’ll excuse me.” He uttered avoiding the girls eye as he ducked away and escaped hopefully unseen to he and Blaine’s bedroom. 

As he locked the bathroom door, he let out an audible sob because he couldn’t hold it in anymore. What was he going to do without Blaine? He asked himself as he leaned his forehead against the wood of the bathroom door, the tears seemingly pouring from his eyes now beyond his control. He moved out here to New York with him. He gave up his apartment and his job back home in San Francisco. Without Blaine he didn’t have much money, which meant he’d probably sell the record shop to pay for his trip back home, and he could sleep there until he made that happen.

The thought had him clenching his eyes shut and letting out a series of sobs as he moved to sit on the edge of their bathtub, his knees too shaky to stand. He wished, with everything in him, that this wasn’t actually happening. But again. He knew. 

He wouldn’t ever stand in the way of Blaine’s happiness. If that meant them parting ways... he’d have no choice. He did it once. He could do it again. No matter how much it hurt.

Truth be told, he saw this coming. This was exactly why he left Blaine the first time. This was what he was trying to avoid. He didn’t want to be broken beyond repair because maybe like Blaine, he could find another happiness. At least that was his thought the first time around. This time around, he knew he wouldn’t ever be okay enough to be someone else’s other half. If only he’d stayed away. If only he never let Blaine convince him to fuck him the night of his concert in San Fran. If only he never so much as went.

It was another thought that only added to his tears, them nearly burning the flesh of his cheeks as they slid down. 

It was time he faced the truth dead on. Blaine was finding his happiness elsewhere like Daniel, one day, had hoped and god, he was so, so fucked.