I love you so much.. You only ever said it once, but that one time means so much more to me than a thousand “I love yous”. I’m going to miss you so much. Not a day has gone by yet that I haven’t thought about you, it hasn’t been long but you never leave my mind. You hadn’t been yourself in a long time and before it happened, I had kept having dreams of you. You were walking and smiling. There was bright yellow light surrounding you. I never thought much about them. God. I love you. You only heard me say it once. I said see you later the last time I saw you because I know you hate when people say goodbye. I hope I see you again one day. I’ve now seen so many photos of you I had never seen. I think you hated all the photos you looked the prettiest in. You are so beautiful, and I can’t help but feel like that’s how you look now, wherever you are. You had faith in God; I wish I had the same. Now that you’re gone, I realize you are everything I want to be one day. You are everything I ever wanted to be. You were so sweet. You loved animals.You told me how a student nurse pricked you so many times, and how bad it hurt but you still told her how good she was doing. I feel like there were so many things I still needed to know from you. It doesn’t feel real. I pass by your house everyday and it hasn’t gotten easier. I can hear the train go by during class and I hate it. You bought my cat little bowls made for children cause you thought they were cute. You made corn dogs and put them in hot dog buns and then laughed at yourself once you realized. You were the most relatable person I knew. There was nothing I needed to question about you. You are my favorite person. You loved cows. I hate you aren’t here, I knew it had to happen. I really hope you were proud of me. I just love you so much.
