Back on the internet again. Girl. 18. Still sex repulsed. Don't be my friend. I don't deserve one.
Though I probably will try to be "friendly" anyway. It's just how things have always been.
Oh, and don't directly interact at least if you're a minor.
Here I am, desperate enough to make an actual social media blog after years of none of that. It's so funny. The (self inflicted) loneliest bastard on earth finally posts.
Anyway, hi. I guess you could call me "Voidia" or something. I've got lots of names.
I'm a girl, and honestly that sucks when people expect you to be some reproductive vessel or toy for their amusement. Can you tell that I'm bitter? Maybe. I'm not sure. I'm basically talking to the void at this point because I'm shy and have zero guts to do the usual algorithm boosting crap.
Don't know exactly what my sexuality is (Maybe asexual or aromantic asexual, that's most likely) but I'm sure as hell sex repulsed. If you're overly sexual all the time it's fine in your own space but please stay away from me.
I'm not religious. Tossing between being agnostic or atheist. A lot of zealously and asshole-ishly religious people annoy me.
I'll post stuff here I guess. Maybe I'll finally share my art in a normal fashion. Why am I doing it? Validation? Attention? To interact with anyone else my age? Who knows.
Vents might also be here.
I'm actually not a consistent uploader, nor do I really want to be. I have bouts. (Hyperfixation sometimes pushes me)
If you're triggered by depressing, low energy, whiny, cynical, undiagnosed mentally ill people this isn't the place for you. Sorry.
The only good thing is I'm not CONSTANTLY negative or unhappy, I guess. I can be a little whimsical and "funny". (Whatever counts, in people's view.)
Also, I don't want to talk with any minors, please.
"Bleheheheheh IT IS TIME MINIONS! The prophecy is coming to a close! The heroes draw near..."
"Ayem scottish lemme kill em er somethin"
"YAY! MURDER TIME! It was getting a little TOO chummy around here! Mimimimimimihwuskje!"
"Ahahaha! I'm so obviously going to stab you in the back, it absolutely astounds me you hadn't fired me sooner!"
"Oh Dimmy, you're so funny with your weird metaphors and words that most children won't get at all."
"Cease calling me 'Dimmy' or I'll blast you into oblivion just like [Spoiler??? HEY! You just wanted to censor m-]."
"MEMEMEMEMEMMEMEME!!!!! XD okay ill leave now take me with you to off screen town O'Chunks"
"ehh in teh mineds of teh fandom ayem always there..."
"It's true, I hog all the screentime on purpose. :)"
"Ah but wait, hey there BLUMIERE, I heard your name was BLUMIERE, right, BLUMIERE?"
"Fuck you, said Count Bleck."
"Ragebait successful. Ciao!"
"Count, we can't seriously be going through with this, right? None of this was worth it."
"But we gotta... the book said it..."
"You have to be bullshitting me."
"Look, Count Bleck needn't listen to your whining! If you have nothing good to say about his murder suicide plan, go take a long walk off a short pier into the Void like a good girl.
...Ooooooh Timpani, my beeeaUteeful Timpani I'm going to angst about you again for several hours (even though you're alive and by this point I know it) because I will literally kill everyone and then myself instead of find a new girlfriend :("
"... Count, I'm standing right her-"
"Shut up, inferior woman."
"..."
" 'K, you know what? I'm gonna tell you something. I really, really hope you listen for once.
You don't have to love me like you did Timpani. You never had to. I respect your autonomy and the relationship you had with her, that's all good. But this?...
I loved you Blumiere. For whatever reason, I STILL love you. I don't know if you really understand that or not. I've stupidly revolved my entire life around you because you found me by chance in some gnarly woods when I was at the lowest point in my life for that time. I really was going to die... but now? Hahahaha... I wish you never found me, Blumiere. I wish the only state you found me in was a rotting bat corpse fusing to the floor of that cage. Maybe then the Chaos Heart would've never come into existence in the first place.
I'm almost envious of you, not her... You had a loving partner. Someone you adored just as much as she adored you. You went on romantic little runaway dates together on hills and felt the warmth of eachother. Yeah, she isn't exactly "with" you anymore, it sure was something though. You got several people similar to me who devote themselves to you and your cause only every single day.
But- But what about me, huh? What about Nastasia? Oh, the assistant? She exists, I guess. WHAT DO I HAVE BUT GUILT AND FAILURES? I FAILED TO CONVINCE YOU NOT TO DESTROY EVERYTHING AND I FAILED TO REIGN THE MINIONS IN AND I FAILED MR. L... I-... I have NOTHING Blumiere!... Nothing but you, in the inevitable fucking end...
... I'm so alone, Blumiere... how many amazing, lovable things did she have that I just can't...?
I'm done with this. I'm done trying to help you and comfort you and get you on the right track. I am at my limit with this life.
When the Void finally comes to swallow us whole, I'm going to embrace it... like I wish anyone could've embraced me..."
"Hm- Apologies, Count Bleck didn't hear you. His mind was elsewhere. He needs a repeat of that. Huh?"
Since Israel and the US have started bombing Iran, Israel has bombed Gaza almost every single day. Conditions in the strip grow even rockier than they were before. Food scarcity is a huge problem and the medical needs of the people are not being met. People are dying.
I am a father and a husband trying to keep my family alive in a place where survival has become a daily battle. I lost my leg, and even the simplest movement is painful for me. Yet I still try every day to find food for my wife and my child. Sometimes the only food we have comes from charity kitchens.
My child cries from hunger. My family sleeps in fear every night as the bombing continues. We are not asking for luxury, we are asking for the chance to live with dignity. My campaign and my story are real, and my only hope is that someone will hear our voice before it is too late.
Confession... I really want to disappear. Like, into thin air. Or sparkles, or vapor, blood and gore... doesn't matter. If I starved myself to death, would I even be considered some "tragedy"? If I were the people running this place, I wouldn't.
God my creation was a mistake. A blunder by people who didn't know how to raise a child in the slightest. Oh, sorry, was I sounding too ungrateful there?
Well, doesn't matter. I can't feel alive and I can't die because it'd traumatize people. Except oh man. I remember when my death was a gag among friends and strangers too. Yeah I know how that sounds. The friends I had. I miss them. I shouldn't though, monsters don't deserve to feel.
Even less unemployed ones. I was always a waste of space and time. It's just been made clearer year after year. I'd say I can't take it anymore, but I'm too used to it all.
Easter passed and Palestinian churches were, once again, unable to celebrate due to the genocide. Regardless of faith, people in Gaza are all suffering from horrific conditions and constant fear.
Under these conditions, Hamza's sister Layan is having to endure pain from severe anemia. If you can, please consider donating to their family. They're currently at 62% of their fundraiser, and anything helps.
How are you all? I hope you are well. Gaza is suffering greatly. Families have no shelter, no safety, no stability. My sister is suffering terribly. Any donation will go towards meeting my very sick sister's needs. Please share this so everyone can see.
technically if you think about it carbon's quote 'truth is , i'm gonna end my father . him . all .' from book of mario thousands of doors also basically summarises count bleck's entire motivation / plan
The Persona and the Self: A Super Paper Mario Ramble
Super Paper Mario is an artsy game with many themes you can interpret in it. Mainly love and all its types, which is straight up said by the story.
But here's another theme I feel I pick up in it;
Personas. What is the face you show to the world? The person other people see that is only but a shallow surface to the true self beneath?
Here, in my hyperfixation, I'll ramble about how this concept relates to everyone in Team Bleck... through three characters. The other members I'll go through briefly since I have less to say haha..
First, I'll start with Count Bleck. The big man in charge as it were.
In the beginning of the game, what does Count Bleck look like? That's right. A stereotypical Count Dracula-like villain who just wants to destroy everything for no reason at all with a big EEEEEEEEVIL grin on his face. Golly, his ego must be so enormous! Look at how he refers to himself in the third person like a large ham! I bet he beats up all his minions when they do even the slightest thing wrong...
Except... he doesn't. Nastasia is put in charge of that type of thing and even she doesn't assign that bad of punishments. They're comedic and silly things like "sing the Count Bleck fanclub anthem". Count Bleck isn't so cruel as to do that. He barely even seems to care at all if anyone succeeds.
And then you find that no, he didn't do this for no reason. He didn't do this for the sake of some inflated ego or inherent evil. Count Bleck, or Lord Blumiere, is simply a man warped and broken by grief for the woman he loved more than anything in any world.
His goal, in the end, was suicide. Whether everyone else shared the destruction with him or not, he felt so numb from his depression that he stopped caring. And don't get him wrong, he used to care so deeply. For the world. For life. For love. So much so that even in the numbness of his villainous deeds, he still feels a pang of regret and longing for a world that didn't make him come to this.
After all, he calls the heroes of the prophecy "heroes" for a reason.
Nastasia.
What would be anyone's first impression of this woman? Obviously uptight. Cold. Kind of a Bill Lumbergh you would hate deeply working in an office space with. Strict. Boring. Yet horrifying, with a seemingly untouchable power. All she cares about is doing her eeeevil work for the sake of a power trip! Gosh she should just go into a hole and DIE!
Nastasia is middle management given superpowers. Besides Adrian Andrews, Pearl from Steven Universe, and Nathalie Sancoeur (who I think was inspired by her since the game is older), I liken her a bit to manager Gangle in episode 4 of the Amazing Digital Circus.
I don't think she's a naturally confident or egotistical person whatsoever. Farthest from it, actually. I think she might be rather shy. That demeanor? That's just the way she presents herself so she can get her job done without falling apart, especially in the events of the Void consuming everything.
If you look close enough, she's actually one of the most selfless members of Team Bleck. (I admire that, in a way.) When she basically has a nervous breakdown about Sammer's Kingdom (Which, at the time, was about to be swallowed by the Void) that partially pushes everyone into leaving, she doesn't blame the other minions. She blames herself. Everything she does is for the sake of Count Bleck. For the sake of others. She doesn't even appear to care if she dies in the process. She pushes every doubt, every apprehension about what they're doing, every painful feeling holding her back away. Down into herself.
It's not professional enough, you know?
Every day, she suffers in silence to serve and please others, because she has no sense of self. No love for herself. Even if, deep down, there is a part of her that yearns to feel loved. Without them, she is nothing. No directions, no purpose.
In a terrible irony, despite her power being mind control, she feels the least in control out of anyone.
(Also, sorry, off tangent, but she's kind of a cutie. Have you LOOKED at her animations? Her unused design? Her PUNS in Super Mario Kun? Bwahhhhhhh I love my girlfailure disguised as a girlboss)
Next, Dimentio.
Unlike the last two, you might not have a steady first impression of him. He's jovial, he's dramatic, he steals the spotlight and the show away from the other characters.
Yes, he's funny,
but then there's moments like what he did to Fracktail... Oh, well, that must just be COUNT BLECK'S orders. Of course he'd make one of his minions do such a wicked deed! After all, look at what Dimentio is doing to HELP the heroes!
Teleporting Princess Peach, teleporting the heroes to the Underwhere for the Pure Heart, telling them about Count Bleck's true goal gosh he must be a stand up guy deep deep deep deeeeeeep inside.
If Nastasia is Adrian Andrews, then Dimentio is Matt Engarde. Her complete opposite in every way possible besides controlling minds.
Every piece of the story, he was there. Manipulating the strings with his flexible words and laughable similes. The "Villains"? The "Heroes"? Both fell for it. Even some viewers fell for it. He feigns dislike of Blumiere's plan for sympathy points, but in the end he only cared for himself. HIS enjoyment HIS rise to complete power as king of all worlds.
For that, he'll step on others carelessly with a grin. He'll test his acquired Floro Sprouts on a poor, emotionally defeated man. He'll pretend to murder innocent people in order to toy with them as he sends them to the land of the dead for the sake of doing the sweaty labor for him. He'll kill the silly assistant instead of the Count and mock her for her sacrifice to his face. He'll use Luigi's body like a mech suit for his goals. He'll throw a tantrum when he dies so everything goes with him.
He wasn't a numbed, broken man pushed into doing this by tragedy. He was very aware of what he was doing. And he smiled about it. Every step of the way.
That's why he's so sickening.
This is why Dimentio is the true villain, and why, in my opinion, it's best he's never redeemed.
The rest of Team Bleck? They follow this same theme in other ways.
O'Chunks looks like nothing but brainless, brutish brawn at first, but is one of the most friendly and tender-hearted members. He hides his true self the least out of any character, though.
Mimi appears to be innocent, cute, and polite, but in truth she's cruel. She's childish, selfish, greedy, she's quick to anger... and she's one of the most scary, uncanny things in the game. Almost as terrible as Dimentio. (The difference there though is she feels SOME affection for others.)
Mr. L may not be a conscious part of Luigi, nor will Luigi ever willingly act like him, but I suppose in a way he applies as a persona. Or even a shadow, depending on how you see the creation of Mr. L.
So, I guess that's the end of my ramble.
(I had a meme here to express a little frustration but I feel like maybe it sounded a bit mean so I removed it.)
feeling nostalgic. here's my hypothetical super paper mario sequel where bleck's minions are now on your team & are dealing with the aftermath of losing him
is that female character really that uninteresting and irrelevant and lacking personality or do you just choose not to read any of her scenes as deeply as you would with a male character
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