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This love is hurting me slow burn

I am confused right now. Tama ba tong ginagawa natin kahit may nasasaktan? Kahit na alam kong di ka pa handa? At hindi pa rin ako? Ano ba to? Tama ba? Ano bang dapat kong gawin? Natin? Nasasaktan ako. Sobra.

#buhayngisanghalaman

Message

The last message you sent me left me devastated

It started with my name which I haven’t heard for ages

It went on, continued with words piercing like knives

Then, it ended with "Sorry and goodbye"

Every word explained, but I refuse to accept

I thought I was good at comprehension,

Guess I never fully understand our relation

In your eyes I was a friend,

But in mine, my happiness, my world, my universe

Everything happened in a blink of eye

What have I done wrong?

Why did perfection turned into destruction?

Are we not meant to be?

Is it my fault?

Am I never good?

Am I demanding too much?

Am I still on my sound mind?

Oh God, I never know the answers

But I guess your decision is final

To end this relation: one-sided, and lethal

The pain was excruciating,

Unbearable and unending

I guess I lost the reason to smile

I lost the color of my life

I lost my everything

I lost you

#angdramangbuhayko #buhayngisanghalaman #diaryngsawi #diaryniIvy #POEMdaw

You

You were like my favorite book, Reading you slowly consumes me Into a paradise of words, thoughts but the time has come, I am on the last word, last letter But like my favorite chapter You were marked to be read without satiation A part I would never get tired of reading A part leaving me in happiness and pain

#angdramangbuhayko #buhaystalker #buhayngisanghalaman #diaryniIvy #diaryngsawi #poemdaw

Bakit?

Dalawang araw na nung huli kang makausap. Ilang oras na din akong naiisip kung ako na ba ang mauunang magpadala ng mensahe kase baka nag-aalangan ka. Inipon ko lahat ng lakas ng loob at tapang at isinulat ang dalawang letrang salita ng pagbati. Sobra ang pakiramdam ng kaba at sabik. Ngunit ilang oras na rin ang lumipas ay wala ka pa ring sagot. Bakit? Dalawampu't limang araw mula ng unang beses kong hinawakan ang iyong kamay at yakapin ka. Naisip ko nagawa ko iyon dala ng alak at wala sa katinuan. Hindi mo kami pinagsamantalahan at hindi ka naging bastos sa kabila ng mga ginagawa namin sa'yo. Hindi ko alam pero ikaw ang gusto kong parating makita at makasama. Labindalawang araw ang nakalipas ng una kong naramdamang muling tumitibok pa pala ang puso kong akala ko'y nangangalawang. Hindi tayo magkatinginan, tila ba tayo'y nag-iiwasan. Ano nga ba ang nangyare? Ilang araw pa ang lumipas na ikaw ang nasa isipan. Bakit nga ba? Parati mong ginugulo ang isip ko. Ano nga bang meron sayo? Maraming nagsabing baka nagkakagusto na nga ako sayo. Kaya ako'y natakot na baka totoo nga ito, natakot akong masaktan muli. Na baka ang aking nararamdaman sa iyo ay hindi tulad ng nararamdaman mo. Ayoko. Dalawang gabi na ang nakakaraan ng umamin ka ng iyong nararamdaman. Kaya pala sa bawat hawak ko ng iyong kamay, sa pagdantay sa iyong mga balikat at pag yakap sayong katawan ay hindi ka pumapalag. May nararamdaman ka pala para sa akin. Hindi ko alam kung bakit ngunit inamin ko din ang aking nararamdaman. Baka nga naman may patunguhan. Handa na ba akong sumugal? O sadyang isang aral na naman ito sa akin? Hanggang ngayon ay ewan pa din ang kasagutan. Ngunit isang bagay ang aking nasisiguro. Gusto ko parating nakikita ka, naririnig ka at kasama ka.

#buhayngisanghalaman #diaryniivy #malandingbata #parasayo

My feelings are fcked up

No I wont let this happen, to fall for some petty things we did. My feelings are reserved for someone special and permanent, not for something temporary. It just sucks how I remember you and your breathe, your voice, your laugh, the way you move. I don’t know. I am really confused of whatever I feel for you. Ugh.

#buhayngisanghalaman #malandingbata

I am on the verge of losing myself. I need to pick myself up and start being what I was back then. I need to regain my motivation and determination. I am on the verge of giving up.

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seeing a hot stranger in public is a blessing

seeing the same hot stranger in public again is a sign

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Oh gods

You

In the middle of the night, you are and always on my mind. I crave for your kisses, your warm touch and mesmerizing eyes. I am in dearth of forgetting you, for you lay in the bed of unforgettable bittersweet memories. I always find myself lost in thinking of numerous whys and countless what ifs. Still creating a fictitious future I where you and I will forever live and love will always reign. But then I realized things will never be the same. You already forgot the promises we made, the future we planned and the memories we shared, while I still in vivid memory. The person I love and forever will, you.

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Thankful for my friends

Siguro nga ngayon ko nararamdamang mahal na mahal ako ng mga kaibigan ko. Nasa ospital pa din ako ngayon for 6 days dahil sa dengue at pasalamat ako na week long, pinuntahan ako ng mga kaibigan ko. Napakasaya kase alam mo yun parang di ko naman kase inexpect na ganun pala nila ako kamahal at kamiss. Alam mo yung andami mong narereceive na text messages and chats telling you na magpagaling ka na. Ang saya saya lang sa pakiramdam na andaming nagmamahal sayo. Totoo pala na gumawa ka ng mabuti sa kapwa mo tas ikaw din naman ang aani nun. Its a good give and take relationship sa friends ko.

#ivyn-tures #kwentongisanghalaman #angdramangbuhayko #buhayngisanghalaman