A New Dawn in Hungary

Two women who retired from their high- stress jobs in law and finance and moved, along with two dogs and two cats, from the desert southwest to Hungary. This initially chronicled our adventures and observations in our new home. Unfortunately, after 11 months in Hungary, as we were on our way to our new home site with our builder, our car was hit by a train. My partner, who was driving, was killed immediately. I suffered serious injuries and spent months in Hungarian hospitals. I have since returned to the US. Albuquerque is now my home, so I'm now documenting my return to the US and my new life as a widowed/newly single person.

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30th Anniversary

July 17, 2017 Today is the 30th aniversary of the day that Gail and I pledged our lives to each other. It was at her church and with her priest. We had talked to him about doing the ceremony and then he was unexpectedly transferred so we finalized our plans for the ceremony quickly. It was just her and I and her daughter, who plainly had very mixed feelings about the whole thing. Gail had been quite active in the Episcopal Church for all of her life and the religious ceremony was important to her. I was not a Christian but was happy to do the ceremony in the religious way that was important to her. I cried while making my vows because I was so overtaken with emotion, pledging myself to her. After the ceremony, we went to the Hilton with her daughter, who still clearly wanted to be just about any other place in the world. After, we spent the weekend at a B & B in the Sandias. We remained the love of each other's life for another 26 years, when a train abruptly brought that all to an end. I still love her and think of her daily. I still miss her every day. My life goes on. I have a house and a dog, two cats and my small flock of hens and volunteer several times a week and see friends and attend meet-ups and that keeps me fairly busy but there's a gaping hole in my life. I miss her, I miss loving her and I miss being loved by her. I was happy then. I don't think I will ever be truly happy again. I'll just get by. I try to be kind to people and bring a little light into other lives because I think that's important and that's about all that I can do. So life goes............

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Elk in Yellowstone | Tupulak

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12/12/15

It snowed tonight. Wonderful, thick, silent snow falling on the cactus outside my window. Cleansing in a way. A couple of hours later, it's still coming down.

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Starbirth in Tarantula Nebula

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Levi | markotapio

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Photo via Playbuzz

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Lynx by P. Lindel

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Really weird looking eyes, below.

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It always creeps me out...

…that no matter

how close

you get

the pupil

seems to

devour light

like a black hole

it reflects no light

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That’s because the pupil is literally a hole in the iris that lets light enter the retina. No light is reflected by the pupil because it is either absorbed directly into the tissues of the eye, or it is absorbed after it is refracted around the inside of the eye.

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Then black holes are merely the eyes of the universe

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Whoa

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Once you're happy, it can be taken away from you. I tried to repost Kellykatastrophic's post but couldn't. I know that I should feel good about being happy for so many years but I just feel the pain of loosing it.

I want to love and be loved again.

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She won’t break you like those other girls will. That’s exactly why you’re terrified of her. She could make you happy. And you know being happy is the most terrifying thing in the universe. Once you’re happy it can be taken from you.

The girl who terrifies you (via hopelessly-counting-stars)

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12/10/15

I haven't written in so long! The longer I go without, the harder it is go go back. I compose postings in my head all the time but don't do it because I feel self-conscious. Today almost restored my faith in this life, though. Started out pretty boringly calm. Got up late and drank coffee and watched the news. Got a call from someone who had been referred by someone I hadn't spoken to in weeks, so I forgot about the whole thing and when he called I couldn't understand him very well. A customer at the thrift store told me about this guy several weeks ago and I haven't seen her since so I forgot all about it. He had an accent, too, which didn't help the understanding part. He turnen out to be a handyman and I had him come over to get the shelves out of the garage and into my bathroom and had him change lightbulbs up by the ceiling, where I can't reach. He was a nice and interesting guy to talk with and later on, I discovered that I knew his mother from long ago and far away! She sold Gail W's house and then my house and showed us some houses in Placitas. We didn't use her out there as we ended up building a house from scratch. We kept in touch, though, and she gave us a wonderful house warming gift for the house we had built. I really liked her a lot. That was back in 1988, though, so it had been a long time. She is still alive and her son was going to say hello for me. When I wrote down our names for him, I told him what had happened to Gail (both of us hit by a train in Hungary, with her dying). Prior to that, I had just told him that I couldn't reach up to the ceiling because my arms had been broken but, since he was going to talk to his mother, I told him the story, so that he could tell her. It turns out that he does non-traditional chinese healing and offered to help me to deal with the accident and all that it wrought. I haven't talked about it in so long and was suprised that I kind of choked up when I told him what happened. He says that he can help me deal with both the emotional and physical stuff in a couple of hours. That seems pretty remarkable but I believe him! It has been three years now and, although its now nothing like the intense physical and emotional pain I had for the first year, I'm still carrying scars. I told him I'd call him next week. All this while I'm still trying to deal with the recent high drama of breaking up with my current wife, who can't, it seems, break up without dissing me in absolutely every way that she can think of----yelling and screaming and insulting me in every way imaginable. I think that i finally figured it out last week----a DSM diagnosis that actually fits. Having that figured out made it easier but there is still the emotional toll of all the abusive drama and there's still the lies she's spreading about me, which is damaging to my reputation, which is really all that I have now. I'm looking forward to meeting with Karl next week. In the meantime, my friend, Judy, is being sworn in as the newest Justice on the NM Supreme Court tomorrow so I'm going to that ceremony. Good news and a new good Justice for the NM Supremes.

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#GOWILDForEveryKid: BLM Colorado’s Dominguez Canyon Wilderness has Amazing Trails, Waterfalls and Petroglyphs!  The Dominguez-Escalante NCA is nestled within the Uncompahgre Plateau, where Cottonwood, Escalante, Big Dominguez and Little Dominguez Creeks tumble through red-rock sandstone canyons to empty into the Gunnison River.

This area includes Dominguez Canyon Wilderness, where water running year-round through Little Dominguez Creek provides habitat for birds, mammals, lizards and other species. Desert bighorn sheep can also be spotted grazing beside cliffs.

In addition to excellent rock climbing in the area, the rugged canyons and bluffs hold geological and paleontological resources spanning 600 million years. Rock art on the canyon walls and archaeological sites on the mesas are evidence of thousands of years of Native American hunting and travel. In addition, the Old Spanish National Historic Trail passes through this region. 

Photos by BLMer Bob Wick.

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A picture taken by a camera trap near Villa Carmen Biological Station, southern Peru. From the Amazon Conservation Association Facebook page (x).

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blood moon eclipse if you have missed it!

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