30th Anniversary
July 17, 2017 Today is the 30th aniversary of the day that Gail and I pledged our lives to each other. It was at her church and with her priest. We had talked to him about doing the ceremony and then he was unexpectedly transferred so we finalized our plans for the ceremony quickly. It was just her and I and her daughter, who plainly had very mixed feelings about the whole thing. Gail had been quite active in the Episcopal Church for all of her life and the religious ceremony was important to her. I was not a Christian but was happy to do the ceremony in the religious way that was important to her. I cried while making my vows because I was so overtaken with emotion, pledging myself to her. After the ceremony, we went to the Hilton with her daughter, who still clearly wanted to be just about any other place in the world. After, we spent the weekend at a B & B in the Sandias. We remained the love of each other's life for another 26 years, when a train abruptly brought that all to an end. I still love her and think of her daily. I still miss her every day. My life goes on. I have a house and a dog, two cats and my small flock of hens and volunteer several times a week and see friends and attend meet-ups and that keeps me fairly busy but there's a gaping hole in my life. I miss her, I miss loving her and I miss being loved by her. I was happy then. I don't think I will ever be truly happy again. I'll just get by. I try to be kind to people and bring a little light into other lives because I think that's important and that's about all that I can do. So life goes............














