I dreamt of you calling me, telling me everything that had happened to you. But, of course, the words sounded muffled, since I didn't know what had actually happened in reality. I listened in silence, and when you stopped speaking, I simply replied "I understand," without saying "I'm sorry" or anything else. I did it simply to give you room to breathe. Yet I still showed you interest, genuine interest. Just as I always have. Because I never stopped. In any case, that is how I would handle it in real life, too. I know how to listen and understand without applying pressure. Not anymore. If you decide to reach out to me again, I’ll show you how I’ve changed. I don’t waste opportunities. I know I might have seemed pushy, because I was hoping you’d reply right away. But I swear, it was just the excitement of the moment. I was happy you’d reached out, but, I admit, impatient to hear from you again. Still, I swear, even if you had spoken to me, I wouldn’t have pressured you or acted the way I did a while back. In any case, if you decide to do it, I will truly listen to you, but without dwelling on the past. Let’s leave that behind us. What’s done is done. It really doesn’t matter anymore. It hasn’t mattered to me for a very, very long time; that’s also why I wanted to close this blog. Because it belongs to the past. Because it doesn’t matter what happened, you just have to look ahead and think about the future. Maybe I was a bit harsh about some things yesterday, but I felt hurt, as if you had shut me out again. But reading everything over, I understand now. In any case, I don’t know if you’ll do it, or if I’ll ever have that opportunity. But I hope so anyway. You know I do a lot of introspection. I did quite a bit of it last night, so much so that I didn't get to sleep until 3 a.m. I’m capable of reflection and understanding. Anyway, I’m really taking care of myself these days. I’m training hard, and I have plenty of projects in mind, though I’m not talking about them yet because I want to put them into action first. I just hope you’re taking care of yourself, too. I’m staying positive☺️🍀✨️
amandla
gummygunk
blakekathryn
andulkaphoto
ellievsbear
origamiaround
