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For over 3 years now i have been struggling with demons and insecurities. I was always looking to be the best at something, to look and feel the best during modeling. To draw and act the best at tattooing. I always felt like i was proving myself to other people. Always creating something for them to see, instead of just showing them myself. I hid my personality, i always looked my best trying to create a persona that really wasnt me. Then when it came to it, i cracked! I had a major melt down and was signed to anti depressants. My hiding got the better of me. I quit it all, i got rid of the modeling and i stopped the tattooing. I had nothing holding me back. Nothing creating a major preassure. This sent me into a deep depression. I had nothing to focus on. Nothing to keep the demons at bay. I had to face them head on. It was possibly the best thing to happen to me. The moral to my story dont lock away your demons because they are eating away at you on the inside.