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“And then I felt sad because I realized that once people are broken in certain ways, they can’t ever be fixed, and this is something nobody ever tells you when you are young and it never fails to surprise you as you grow older as you see the people in your life break one by one. You wonder when your turn is going to be, or if it’s already happened.”

— Douglas Coupland, Life After God

Not everyone knows this except the four closest people on my work circle, but for the past four weeks, I have been going through a really really hard time.

Today, I have given up on the idea of anything happening because of everything that’s happening in my life. But one of my closest friend asked for my address saying she forgot to gave me her pasalubong to me which is not suspicious because she just got back from a trip and we barely see each other with how busy I keep myself to not be able to think at all.

An hour later, I got this…

Truly grateful for friends who show unwavering support, love and understanding.

Ako ang tanungin mo kung babalik pa ako after knowing what you just admitted to me..

Hindi ko kinaya. Malala ka na talaga.

After 3 back to back meetings, 6 hours straight.

i got lucky again. I’m still winning in the friends category. forever grateful

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Please don't take my non-responding days offensive. I happen to get drained easily these days and I just need longer days to recharge, thank you.

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Once i'm detached, that's it. You will never get the same version of me, ever.

Di ko kelangan ng pera mo. Not before, not now, not ever.

Kahit maghirap ako, pera mo ang hinding hindi ko tatanggapin.

You promised you’re never going to say this again. You promised.. You know how offended I was the first time you said this..

I don't wanna tiptoe, but I don't wanna hide

But I don't wanna feed this monstrous fire

Just wanna let this story die

And I'll be alright

We can't be friends

But I'd like to just pretend

Still you, Z. Still you.

It was weird sharing that moment with someone else. And I think deep inside you, you know what I did when you saw the story. That was nothing tho.

But it was even weirder when you did what you did in front of the same crowd we have been too careful with. If I am to be honest, I longed for that touch. I acted like it was nothing that I was not affected.. guess what?

…you’re still my favorite passerby.

9 years later, they were still looking for me - and damn it hurts. The bond with your family was never the same, your siblings grew up, hell, you both resembled them now. I can’t even look at your younger sister without seeing you.

I love you but I still hate you for putting us in this situation. It took us 9 years to finally had the talk on what transpired that day. The messages I received from your mom were read. The disclosure of what you’ve truly done.

You loved me more than anyone in this world, that we all know. Guess that’s where the guilt is coming from.

I still can’t visit you on my own but hey, I no longer cry whenever we visit you.

Miss na miss kita.

“Wala namang umalis? Hindi ako umalis. Busy lang ako…” aaaah tangenaaaaa. ☹️

Balik ka muna. Kahit isang oras lang. Kailangan kita ngayon. Kailangan ko ng makakaudap tungkol sa sama ng loob na ito… and you always know what to say.. how to deal with me when I’m feeling this low..

My brain and my heart cannot handle all the truth that I am hearing tonight.

San ko ilulugar yung sarili ko when everything that I have thought of was a lie. Everything I was made to believe…

Lies that I cannot comprehend and here he is telling it like I’m not sitting in front of him.

Tangina. Tangina. Tangina. Tangina….

Oks. I knew it. Time to back off.

Too sad. Too silent. Too much.

Ngayon ko lang narealize yung relevance ng January 19 saken. HAHAHAHAHAHAHA. Grabe. Ikaw pa rin ang kasama ko sa araw na to. Walang kupas. Galeng.

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