We sat in the airport's parking lot, still in his car. My hand moved up to his soft hair, while he leaned in front of me and deepened our kiss even more, that already lasted for long minutes now. Her tongue kept played against mine and as soon as I wanted to move away he bit my lip, groaned quietly and pushed me even more to the seat to kiss me again even harder. After a few minutes I tried to put myself together again and pushed him away with a light giggle.
" Mmm don't pull away, not yet. Just give me one more kiss" he mumbled to my lips.
"You said that five kisses ago baby" I smiled and moved my hands down to his nape to caress his soft skin.
"I know I just don't want you to go" he replied. Hearing his words my smile faded a little, but before I could do anything else he invited me to a soft kiss again. I sighed to our kiss one last time, put my other hand to his face too and tried to kiss him more hard and more passionate than before. Our tongue fought for dominance, and it was music to my ear hearing his quiet sighs because of my actions. I enjoyed one last time every single one of his touches and the taste of his soft and plumed lips before I moved away for real now.
" I have to go" I said and opened the car's door.
Grayson come with me to the airport waiting place. As soon as he let my suitcase's handler he put his arms around my waist and lifted me slightly to move around in a circle. I laughed loudly and tilted my head back, there was not a chance for me to be sad or to cry more. Every single one of my moments with him was pure happiness, our last moments needed to be happy as well.
"Don't forget about me" I looked up at him after my foot touched the ground again and I tried to balance on my tippy toes as I crossed my arms around his neck. One last time I took a deep breath to feel his sent, and tried to enjoy how his eyes sparkled as he looked down at me and a smile spread to his face.
" I am probably gonna remember you if I ask you to marry me the next time you come."
"Oh shut up" I shook my head. Our moment was distracted by the announcer, that announced my flight. I bit my lip as I moved away and I really craved a last kiss from him, but I didn't wanted to start a war on twitter so I just grabbed my suitcase and one last time I looked up to his eyes again.
"Please don't say anything, I am not gonna be able to handle it right now " I said with a small giggle. There was no way to hold myself together if he would have said something emotional.
"You are mine forever, angel " he smiled down at me and placed a long kiss on my forehead. I shut my eyes and let this sentence to go under my skin, so I can remember this and these moments forever and I could relive them every time I wanna do it in my head. Instead of a real kiss I kissed my finger and then put it on his lips with a light giggle before I turned around and left.
That sentence still rang in my ear one hour later too. I sat on the plane and Los Angeles was already under us. I hold in my hands a polaroid, that he probably put to my bag in the morning and I didn’t even seen it yet. The picture was taken a few month ago. He hugged me from behind and kissed my cheek, while a huge smile was on my face as I closed my eyes. Probably Ethan took it. My heart beated fast in my chest when I turned it around and saw his handwriting on it.
Every moment is ours, I don't care how far you are. Promise me you never gonna forget me, you are my angel. G
" I promise" I whispered to myself.
- fall in love √
And that was the last chapter. Thank you so much for being here and reading my book. It’s important to me and I enjoyed so much writing it. Hope you enjoyed💕
Let's get in before it gets cold " he said and placed a kiss on my forehead before he moved away and took of his shirt.
I know he saw me naked a lot of times before, but I still was a little bit happy when he went out for a second, so in the meantime I got naked, put my hair in a bun and sat down to the bathtub under the foam.
After he got back with his phone in his hands he put it on the shelf and switched to a different music. I smiled as I remembered how much I didn't liked the music that he listened to at first, but now I actually listen to Tame Impala more than him I think. My bathroom seemed so romantic and vibey. The candles filled the air with a nice vanilia sent and gave the room a warm light. I was so deep in my thoughts that I didn't even realized that Grayson joined me, till the water splashed around us and he set down in front of me. My bathtub was definitely a bit small for us, so he grabbed my legs, pulled it to his sides and started to move his hands up and down on my calf under the foam.
I saw on him how now he was the one who was deep in his thoughts. His head was turned to the side as he watched how the candle's light danced around and the light sparkled back in his eyes. I slowly analyzed every single thing on his face and just realized how perfect he was in my eyes. How his jawline clenched and he frowned his brows the cute look on his face totally disappeared and only let a masculine strong face, that maybe affected me even more than anything else.
Since I already said that I don't wanna see him being moody today I tried to collect foam in my hands, lifted it in front of my face and I blew on it. I laughed how the foam flew on Grayson, who flinched for a moment but as soon as he heard my laugh he smiled on me.
" Stop thinking, I am gonna visit you if you invite me" I shrugged my shoulders and draw a few circles on the side of the bathtub.
"Then you can already say that you are invited for the next week" he replied with a big smile, that made me laugh.
"Don't be so selfish, I haven't seen my family for a year now. Give them a bit from me."
" Okay, then you can come two weeks later" he added, and I decided to leave it on him, because I wasn't sure either what's gonna happen with us. " Come here" he reached his hands towards me. I moved closer with a light smile on my face, when I was close enough I put my hands on his stomach and leaned on him, but stopped when our lips was only a few inches away. I big cheeky smile spread on my face as he closed his eyes and took a deep sigh when my lips finally touched his. I brushed my tongue on his lower lip, and as soon as he parted his lips I deepen it up and made it to become a more passionate than soft kiss. His tongue moved and played against mine hard, that made me sigh into our kiss. It was a feeling that I couldn't get used to. My stomach always flips and my mind gets foggy. When our kiss is passionate I always feel a nice tingling feeling around my thighs, and I just couldn't do anything against it. He has such a big effect on me and on my body. "Turn around " he mumbled to my lips, after he broke the kiss.
As soon as my back faced him he put his hands on my waist to pull me close to his body. My back met with his hard chest and the soft kisses on my neck and his arms around my upper body was enough to make me feel relaxed. I moved lower a little in the water so the foam could cover my whole body, while I closed my eyes and enjoyed Grayson's closeness. My calm breaths got a lot heavier, when one of his hand moved from my chest to my boob. He nicely started to massage it, and I needed to press my thigh together because of the sudden tingling feeling. I know he noticed it, probably that's why he giggled next to my ear and he bit on it.
"Grayson."
As a response he just hummed and his other hand moved down to my thigh. He started to draw small circles on the inner side of my thigh, and slowly moved upper and upper. My body tensed up and I needed to hold onto something, so I grabbed his tattooed thigh and moved my nails up and down on it. I smiled on his soft humming between his kisses as a response to my action and that smile disappeared from my face when his hand moved up. My stomach flipped, he only touched me for a second, then moved his hands up and down again on my inner thigh and finally found my clit. I closed my eyes and leaned my head back on his chest because of the sudden good feeling, but he moved his hands away again to move around on my thighs. He made me crazy with the teasing and I saw fireworks, when his fingers moved back and now he started to draw small circles on my clit.
" Oh god, Gray" I breathed as his fingers moved more down and he started to move in and out two of his fingers.
"I love how wet you are always for me, angel" he mumbled to my skin and bit on the skin on my shoulder before he added a another finger that made me moan. My whole body heated up. My hand kept hold his tattooed thigh, while my whole body tingled and my breathing got a lot faster and heavier. As his fingers started to move more fast my breathing got filled with quite whimpers and moans. " Feels good?" he whispered and kept left kisses on my neck and oved up to my ear. I just nodded as he curled his fingers and my whole body twitched because he hit a good place.
"Yeah, uh yeah " I whimpered. I was not sure if it was a response to his question or a reaction to the feeling, but I wasn't really able to think about it on that moment.
"gonna cum for me, baby?" he whispered again to my ear, that made this whole feeling even more intense. I loved when he was communicative, some kind of reason it turned me on even more and made me lose my mind for him.
I was only able to nodd, since the knot just kept tightening in my stomach as his finger kept move in and out in a fast rhythm between my hot folds and I kept clech more and more around his finger, since my whole body started to shake as I came.
He kept his fingers in me till the moans and whimpers faded, my heavy breathing got normal again and the pulsing feeling stopped around his fingers. I laid in his arms, tok a big sigh and just enjoyed his lips on my neck and shoulder till my body completely calmed down again.
As he pulled out his fingers he touched my still sensitive clit for a moment and my whole body twiched. His hands were wrapped around my waist tightly when I opened my eyes again and I needed to blink a few times to get used to again for the lights in the bathroom. At this moment I could feel his hard on pressed against my lover back, and when I moved for a bit and his breath got heavier next to my ear I knew he is really hungry for some attention.
As carefully as I could I turned around to see him. Like I forgot how he looked like as I looked at him and his eyes sparkled up just reminded me how beautiful and handsome is he. I felt like my heart is about to explode because of the love I felt for him and I wanted to make him feel as good as he made me. For a few seconds I moved my gaze around his face. His gaze was strong, his lips were plumped and looked so soft.. he really was a masterpiece.
"Let's got to my room" I mumbled.
As I stepped out from the tub Grayson followed me quickly. We only for seconds put a towel around our body to not soak up the bed, and I didn't even had time to think because he grabbed my hands and pulled me after him to the bedroom. He watched with a cheeky smile on his face as I followed his movements and dropped the towel next to the bed before I climb up.
I opened my legs when he leaned on me to make room for him and I already pulled him lower by the back of his neck so I could kiss him. As small moan left my lips, I heard how he took a deep sigh and started to lose his patience. I didn't wanted to tease him more so I broke our kiss and grabbed a condom from my nightstand. Grayson's eyes were filled with desire while I placed the material on his length and positioned him to my entrance. A loud sigh left both of or lips when he finally started to slid into me.
"Fuck" he groaned mixed with a deep moan after he fully bottomed out. He shot his eyes tight and stayed there for long seconds.
"I love you " I whispered and put my hand on his face.
"I love you too" he replied and moved closer again to place a soft kiss on my lips. A quiet moan left my lips as he finally moved his hips, but just in a really slow rhythm.
"Mm don't say too. It's seems like you are just agreeing " I broke our kiss and pouted. I really tried to look at him with innocent eyes when I realized what he said. My words made him immediately smile.
" I love you "he mumbled and hid his face to my neck to bit on the skin. " More than anything " he added and moved his lips to my mouth again to invite me to a kiss.
Both of us felt that we need to broke our kiss to catch our breath while he continued the slow motions with his hips. As I wrapped my leg around his waist a small groan left his lips, because like this he could go even deeper. He put his hands on my waist and lifted me for a bit so he can wrap his arms around my back. Our bodies were impossibly close to each other, every single inch of us touched while his hips in and out motiones switched more to circular motions. He was so deep in me, my mind got foggy because of the intensive feelings and I felt like he made me crazy with the slow but really hard and deep thrusts. He filled me up inch by inch, minute by minute then moving out again and starts from the beginning. He moved my legs even more up on his waist and I was not able anymore to hold back the loud moans while I pressed my head back to the pillow and shot my eyes.
"Look at me angel. Look into my eyes " he whispered and pressed his forehead against mine. A cheeky smile spread on his face when he looked deep into my eyes and saw how my face twitches after every thrusts because of the pure pressure.
I felt like his hands wanted to touch every part on my body next to his hips slow motions, while his lips left small kisses on my lips, cheeks and neck. The room were filled with our quete moans and the sounds of our bodies as they met because of how deep he thrusted and how wet I was.
" I am close" he whispered and was only barely understandable. As a response I just moaned and brushed my hand through his soft hair and pulled it for a tiny bit. Even just the look, how he bit his lips and concentrated to the intensive feeling that built in him just made me push even closer too to my orgasm. As he grabbed the back of my knees to lift me up even more I pressed my nails to his back. I almost hurt how deep he was in me, while he barely moved just did circular motions with his hips against mine.
"I'm gonna cum" I whimpered. My legs started to shake around his waist and my muscles tensed before I lost the control totally over my body.
He put his forehead on mine and looked deep into my eyes as we both came and it was probably more intensive then even before. Both of our body shook and we breathed fast as he watched the other's every single movements. My high moans were mixed with his deep groans till they faded and left heavy breathings. I put my legs down to the bed from his waist while he let most of his body weight to be on me as he laid down and pressed me to the mattress. He placed a few kisses on my cheeks, and put his head on my chest to hug me even closer to his body. He was so touchy and cuddly.
After our heavy breath got normal again and he rested his head on my chest before he pulled out made us realize that maybe that's it. Maybe that was the last time when we were that close to each other both physically and mentally. Maybe that was the last time now for the next few months, or years or maybe forever. The whole day today were filled with fear from the future. I even tried to not think about it as I started to play with his hair. Even in the the last day's last minutes I tried to ignore the future to protect myself and him as well.
After he pulled out and got of from me I realized how tired I was. I felt like the muscles in my thighs are tense and even if I wanna get up it would be impossible. That sex was way too intensive to do anything after it. That's why I just pulled the blanket over my body, while he throw out the condom then climb under my blanket too. I giggled as he leaned on me again and started to gave me a lot of kisses on my face.
"Mmm" I frowned my brows and tried to turn to the side to avoid his lips, but he wasn't too bothered. If I turned my head and can't kiss my lips, he kissed my nose or even my eyelid, forehead or cheeks while I just chuckled loudly. "Stop" I put my hands on his face. As I opened my eyes I could saw how that big smile spread on his face, that made me smile too. "Promise me it could work" I whispered.
"I don't care if it could or not. It WILL " he replied firmly and leaned closer to place his lips on my lips for a small kiss before he laid down next to me and pulled me on his chest. Both of his hands hugged my upper body while my head rested on his chest and I could hear his heartbeats under my ear.
I loved to believe that it was true and it can work, even though I don't really saw it in my head. I know there are a bunch of people and couples who's long distance relationship is working, but we were so used to being so close to each other and we are gonna be so further suddenly, that I can't really see how could this go. At that moment I hated my fate for giving me a man, who lives so further from me. How much easier it could be if he would be my neighbor or something.
"What are you thinking so deep?" asked Grayson, that pulled me back to the reality again where I was still in his arms.
" It's uhm..whatever" I shook my head and looked up to him with a smile when our brown eyes met. I always loved his eyes, in fact what did I not adored on him? Every time I looked at him even before I know him I thought he is a fucking masterpiece. Every single part on him is attractive from head to toe. And this gorgeous look just meets with a even more beautiful soul. " Do you remember when we first met?"I asked and giggled, when I remembered as I stepped into the salon and saw him there.
"God you were so stubborn back then too" he sighed.
"No, you just simply hated that for once in your life you didn't get a girl's number just like that."
"I just didn't tried enough, I already knew you were into me."
"Agh, shut up" I rolled my eyes and he chuckled. And yes it was probably true, my body reacted to him even before he even touched me.
While we talked his hands kept moved up and down on my arm, that sent shivers down my spine because of his soft touches. Our eye contact never broke, I felt like we wanna enjoy our last opportunity, where we were still in each other's arms. They were moments, that noone could even took away from us in the future.
We laid there for hours, and just talked about the last two years. It was funny but interesting at the same time to hear Grayson's side too, what he felt or thought in different situations.. Maybe I just know him even more after these stories.
"No, please stay" he said and his hold get tighter around me when I wanted to move away so I can put my head down to the pillow instead of his chest and sleep, because it was already around 3 in the morning.
Grayson's reaction made my heart beat faster in my chest and I didn't tried anymore to move away from him. I just placed a few small kisses on his hard chest before I took a big sigh and shot my eyes. I already knew I am not gonna be able to sleep. There was a bad feeling in my stomach that didn't let me and I just wanted to enjoy these moments awake. How he hold me tight even in his dreams, how I can listen to his steady breathing or how he warmed up my whole body with his body heat. Even after months when I was in his arms it seemed like a dream. I never got used to it.
And as I suspected I really wasn't able to fall asleep. I draw small circles on his chest next to my face when the sun came up and filled the room because we forgot to shut the blinds at night. Most likely I would have raged and cried because I didn't wanted this day to come, but it wouldn't change anything. I felt like I needed to keep myself together in front of Grayson, I already saw in his eyes that he was hurt too and I don't wanna make it even harder for him seeing me suffer. So I just kept it back and tried to not show it even though I was sad and angry.
I didn't showed it when I looked up at him after he woke up and smiled at him as he wished me good morning next to a big yawn, placed a kiss on my forehead and asked me how I slept. I just smiled and cuddled closer to him.
I didn't show it when he made me breakfast in the kitchen while I run around in the apartment to put together my staff, and close everything to my suitcase. I saw on myself in the mirror, that nothing is okay. Huge dark circles were under my eyes that I barely could cover with corrector from the lack of sleep that I got and maybe from the little crying in the night when no one saw me, and it was just obvious that my eyes were sad.
"The breakfast is done" said Grayson from the kitchen so I took a deep sigh and after I put my make up bag to my bigger bag I went out from the bathroom to the kitchen.
I still didn't show anything even when I sat in Grayson's car and waited for him to put my suitcases to the back. I bit my lip as I watched how the seconds went by on my watch and I kept felt the knot on my throat that wanted to make me cry, and I needed to be the strongest to hold myself together.
" Are you ready?" looked at me Grayson after he sat to the car and closed the door with a loud slam. I just nodded and wasn't able to look up at him. I felt his strong gaze on me for a few seconds, but I was relieved when he started the car and didn't asked anything.
We were only on the road for a few minutes. We were quiet, only the radio's music filled the car while my head started to hurt and I kept moved my legs up and down because I was nervous. I know it's not normal how fast my heart beating was and I felt like I am torturing myself to hold back the real cry that wanted to escape from me since yesterday night.
"Can you stop for a bit? Please" I asked Grayson. My voice was quiet and cracked when Grayson turned to my direction with concern in his eyes and put his hand on mine in my thigh.
" Are you okay?"
"Yeah, just give me a second" I nodded and still refused to look at him.
As soon as he stopped the car in a quete parking lot next to the road I jumped out from the car, slammed the door behind me and I immediately started to sob. It was a cry that I never in my life experienced and I was terrified from Grayson, who stepped in front of me, to see me like this. I still didn't look at him, just hugged my upper body with my arms and squatted down as I felt how my whole body shook.
"Love!"
My heart just broke even more when I heard Grayson's nickname before he knelt down next to me and pulled me to his arms. His whole body covered me and I felt like he hugged me so tight that he wanna took away all my pain while placed small kisses on my forehead, cheeks or where he reached on my face. Maybe in that moment I realized that sometimes it's a lot easier just to show my emotions, rather then try to hide it. Or to be more specific, it was easier to show HIM my emotions. In the beginning my goal was to keep the cold look in front of him, but now I locked him into my heart so deep that I just felt worst for trying to not showing and saying what really is in my mind and heart. As much it was hard to hide everything, it was as much easier to just let it out, cry myself out in his arms and relief. The crying in his arms slowly faded, and he held me close to himself till I calmed down completely. In fact, he didn't let me yet. He stood up with me still in his arms and just looked down at me while he pushed my hair behind my ear, and swiped down the tears from my cheeks. The sadness what was yesterday in his eyes now were mixed with concern.
" I am fine" I mumbled.
"You acted like a stranger the whole morning, I know you hate showing your emotions but I thought you trust in me enough for now" he said. I felt like his gaze touched my soul, while he kept caressed my cheek with his thumb.
" I am, I trust in you I swear. I just thought it's gonna be easier to both of us like this" I sighed.
"There is no way to make this easier. I feel like my heart breaks, because you are leaving. Nothing's gonna change that. Yell at me, be angry at me, cry, laugh, anything. Just show me, angel. I honestly don't care how you act in front of others, but I know the real you and I want you to be yourself in front of me" he smiled, after he saw that because of his words on my sad face a light smile started to spread.
"I love you" I said quietly. This sentence still sounded strange to me. I can't say this without a weird feeling. But the more time a spent with Grayson, I felt like this was the only thing that could describe what I felt for him even if it sounded strange from me. I can't say other ways how much I love him, and I always see how his eyes sparkles up when he hears it from me. In the end of the day, he teached me what this sentence really means, and what it is really like when you love someone without doubts, roles or masks. He really meant the word love to me.
My plan was to spend my last full day in Los Angeles like I spent most of them in here. I didn't wanted to do anything special or make a big deal out of it. That's why after I woke up in the morning I was on my way to the Adams household first. I spent a few hours with Sophie, and signed the paper which said that I ceased my working relationship with them. Of course Veronica tried to convince me to stay for a few more months, but I felt like it's unnecessary. A few more months not gonna change anything. It would hurt exactly the same like at this moment.
Before I left I gave Sophie a long hug, who as the months went by I loved more and more every day. I was proud of myself as I heard how she said a few things to me in hungarian as a goodbye. I felt like I did a good job with her. Of course I didn't become a millionaire, mostly what I made money in here I spent it in here too. My bank balance is almost the exact same like when I traveled here two years ago. But I still felt like it was worth it.
Before I got home I stopped in a Starbucks to buy myself a drink and to keep me alive today because I needed to go sign off my apartment, met with my friends and even pack my stuff too. The adulting stuff was still difficult to me, but definitely not as much when I came here. I've had proper anxiety if I had to do these things by myself, while now I am fine with it, I just don't really enjoy it. I can say that I become a proper adult in this two years. I learnt how to live alone even if it was hard and lonely in the beginning, but I got used to it and enjoyed it in the end.
It was around two when I got home again. I tried to have a fast launch, before I changed into some comfy loungewear and started to pack my suitcases. My stomach flipped when I looked at the suitcase in front of me and realized it is really the end of this journey. I'm gonna fly home tomorrow, but Corinna and the boys gonna come over and hopefully Grayson is gonna stay for the night and bring me out tomorrow to the airport. Since later I only wanna concentrate to them I needed to hurry up and try to fit my whole entire apartment in that two suitcases. I tried to plan out what I am gonna wear tomorrow to go home in, and what else do I need in the morning, so I can put away everything else.
The time went by way too fast, the door bell woke me up from my deep thoughts a few hours later. I got up fast and excited from my bedroom floor next to the clothing piles around me and went to the door to open it for them. I laughed when I saw Corinna between the boys with a cute white teddy bear and as soon as I opened the door she jumped into my arms for a hug.
" If I pay for one of the boys to marry you please say that you would stay " she said. I laughed on her words and as I looked at Grayson and saw that light smile on his face, I know him enough to know that it was not the most genuine smile ever from him.
"I don't think I am ready to get married, babes" I laughed and pulled away from him to greet the boys as well. I gave Ethan a big hug as well and he went to the house too after I stepped away and looked up at Grayson. He pulled me closer immediately for a tight hug. He crossed his arms around my waist and hid his face to my neck. "Promise me that on my last day you are not gonna be that moody" I mumbled.
"For real I marry you right now, if you stay" he said now with a lot more honest smile on his face after I pulled away.
" If I say yes to you one day it's not gonna be because of a fucking green card" I rolled my eyes and reached for his hands to pull him to the house with me.
The calm and quiet apartment was filled with loud laughs pretty fast. Loud music came from the speaker, while we sat around the cafe table and started to play jenga. My back was pressed against Grayson's chest, so everytime he laughed I felt it in my whole body. That's exactly what I wanted. I just wanted to spend the time with the people who are the closest to me in here and just have fun. I didn't wanted to cry or be sad, this trip worth so much more than a few tear drops.
A few hours later we left my apartment, sat to Ethan's car and went to the ocean. As we walked quietly closer to the water in the sand I tried to save the view in my memory forever. Since it was winter, the wind was quite cold that made huge waves on the ocean. I really gonna miss this part of LA too. A lot of time I came down here even by myself and just enjoyed the view and the sound of the ocean for hours. It’s always calmed me down and helped me to switch of my thoughts. Of course today it was impossible to delete that bad feeling in my stomach though.
From my thoughts Grayson's touch on my waist pulled me back to reality. I looked back at him with a smile after he stepped behind me and hugged me from behind to rest his chin on my shoulder as he leaned down a little bit, since I was still so small compared to him. The cold wind was not even that cold after I felt Grayson's body heat and he warmed up my entire body. I couldn't even enjoyed the moment fully, when Ethan come in front of us with a cheeky smile and hugged me. I laughed loudly between the boys as our bodies were pressed together and because of the height difference I completely was lost between them.
"Aw, that's cute" said Corinna and I could hear how he searched for her phone and took a quick picture of us. I already saw myself at home in Hungary as I cry looking at this picture a few month later from now.
" Okay, that's enough" groaned Grayson and he started to poke Ethan's side in front of me to move away.
I just laughed on Gray's jealousy and on Ethan's eyes roll after he pulled away. I loved seeing their relationship. They were so close to each other, sometimes it even felt like they are the exact same person. I was glad I met them and I got a best friend too next to love. I was so thankful for both of them.
The sun slowly started to rest and painted a orange line where the sky and the ocean met, while we sat in the sand and talked. The sound of the ocean was the background noise as we talked about a few memories from the past two years. As we talked I kept bump into Grayson's strong gaze, who was quete and with a light smile just watched me and listened to the stories. There was something in his eyes, that made mine sparkle and everytime I looked back at him it made me smile. I loved seeing myself in his eyes as the resting sun's shine painted his soft skin. When I looked at him for the fourth times now and he kept did the same thing and didn't broke the eye contact for minutes I just shook my head, put my hair behind my ear and giggled as he made me blush.
"What? " I asked. Ethan and Corinna looked at me with a confused look, and when I saw that our gaze with Grayson was hooked, they looked at him, then back to me again. A light smile spread on Gray's face when he saw how blushy I was.
"How are you even real and all mine?!" he replied. My stomach flipped immediately because of his kind words and I could complietly zone out and just saw the corner of my eyes how Corinna tilted his head to the side and pouted.
Without saying anything I just giggled, shook my head and stood up to go to Grayson and sat down to his lap. I crossed my arms around his shoulders and hid my face in his neck. His arms held me tight around my waist and he made sure that he didn't left any space between us. We were so close to each other both physically and mentally. It was a really tight hug filled with pure love, that we felt for each other and was filled with a little bit of fear because of the future. We wanted to stay there in each other's arms, holding onto each other till I disappear and a empty distance stays in my place.
Later I only turned around, but still stayed between Grayson's legs and in his arms while I talked to the others. I just enjoyed how his hands kept drawing small circles on my arms, and how he kept pressing small kisses on my neck and cheeks. I just enjoyed being close to him till he was there and till I can.
What was funny, is that E and Corinna didn't mentioned or teased because of our actions. In a normal case they would have freaked out, they would roll their eyes and they would keep saying how cheesy we are, but today was different. I felt like they knew that as much as I wanna spend the day with Grayson, I still wanna spend it with them too and there is no way to me to do it differently.
From the beach we went to the Mel's Drive in to have dinner. Basically that was the place, where all four of us first met. Well if something, the foods are not gonna miss from here. I already knew that I loved hungarian dishes, but spending time here just made me realize that I actually adored it compared to the American stuff. The fast food places, hamburgers and chicken stuff were exciting at first, but they got boring pretty fast. At the same time I still wanted to enjoy them one last time. Of course we have fast food places in Hungary too, but it's completely different.
The colorful neon lights filled the place, while loud pop music came from the speakers after we sat down to a table with our dinner.
"Do you stay for the night at mine?" I looked at Grayson, who sat next to me after I finished my dinner and I only ate the rest of the fries. I tried to hide my cheeky smile when he looked at my face and I slowly put a fry to my mouth. It was funny how I could tease him so easily even with a funking fry.
"Yeah, I just need to go somewhere first " he put his hand on my thigh under the table. I frowned my brows as I looked into his eyes. It was already around eight at night, I thought he is gonna spend the whole night with me and I got a little disappointed, especially when he suddenly got up from next to me and put on his jacket.
"Where are you going?" I asked. I tried to hide the disappointment for him leaving, but he just angelicly smiled at me and leaned in front of me for a quick kiss.
" I am gonna hurry, see you at your place" he mumbled to my lip and before I could say anything he was out from the whole diner. I looked at Ethan with a confused look, but he just shook his head and put his hands in front of his chest to show that he has no idea.
I ended up not thinking too much about it. Before we went home from the diner, we walked for a while. As I looked around and saw the lightened palm trees, my heart broke a little agan as I remembered that I am leaving tomorrow. I never in my life felt that bed for something in the future, I always just accepted if something bed come and tried to stay positive, but today I was not able to do it.
From my thoughts Corinna pulled me out pretty quickly as he jumped to my back, I laughed and tried to make my turn to Ethan's direction so he could take a picture of us. After that one picture at least twenty more come. We did different poses, and switched too so I’ve got a few one with Ethan too. I laughed as he made me sit on his shoulder and slowly got up. I was so high but I guess I trusted in Ethan enough that he could carry me and not gonna drop me on the floor. I laughed and screamed as he turned around a few times, before he put me down again. I tried to lock every single moment with them to my heart.
" I am gonna miss you so so bad" hugged me tightly Corinna, when we arrived to my apartment and got out from the car. Tomorrow only Grayson gonna be there with me in the airport so I already needed to say bye to them, and it was everything just not easy.
"Thank you, for everything" I mumbled and bit my lip to hide my feelings after I saw the teardrops on her face.
"Just call me and I am gonna be on a airplane" she giggled, mixed with the cry and hugged me again.
" Of course you will, and I am coming too I promise " I replied with a big smile and stepped in front of Ethan. I stood up on my tippy toes to cross my arms around his neck while he hugged my waist and pulled me close for a tight hug. I saw behind his shoulders that Grayson arrived too and a light smile spread on his face when he saw me in his brother's arms.
"Take care of yourself" whispered Ethan to my ear. He really was someone like me, who doesn't really liked to show his feelings and emotions, maybe that's why how quietly he said these things, so only I could hear them.
" You too, and don't forget about me" I replied and moved around my hands on his large shoulders. " And take care of your brother too" I added after he moved away and looked down to my eyes. As a response he just nodded and wiped off a tear from my face.
"Hey, we promised that we are not gonna act like we never gonna meet again. You just gonna be a bit farther from us" he shrugged his shoulders, that made me smile again.
After two last hugs Ethan and Corinna left and I looked down to the ground with a big sigh. I soon saw Grayson's shoe in front of mine as he came closer and pulled me in for a hug. I felt like my body was filled with love with these hugs in the past hours. As much as I was sad, I was so loved as well. And it felt really really good.
After he pulled away he grabbed my hands, clasped it with his and he pulled me after him. I giggled lightly as he stood behind me in the elevator, hid his face in my neck and bit and kissed the sensitive skin. I just wanted to enjoy his kisses more, when the elevator opened and we got to my apartment's floor. As we stepped in front of my door I started to look for my keys in my bag, but Grayson stopped me and showed my keys that were in his hand.
"What? How does this get to you?" I asked. Without answering he opened the door and let me go first. I looked at him with a confused look again, but as soon as I stepped to the apartment my heart started to beat a lost faster in my chest. A few rose petals were on the ground, that went to the bathroom. " Oh my god, you are crazy" I looked back at him. The bathroom was filled with a few candle, light music come to the speaker and the bathtub just waited for us with the foamy water in it. The whole mood there was so romantic, and it is really warmed my heart when I thought that he did this only for me.
" I know you don't really like the cheesy stuff but.."
"Hey " I turned to his direction and placed my hand on his face." It's perfect, thank you" I said and looked deep into his eyes. I hugged him with a big smile on my face and enjoyed how my body got lost again in his large arms.
" Let's get in before it gets cold" he said and placed a kiss on my forehead before he moved away and took of his shirt.
Today this was not the first time when I thought I don't even deserve these things, these people and these moments that they gave to me. I was thankful, was filled with love and I felt like it is enough till I come again to get even more from them. I know that maybe nothing's gonna be the same, since I am not gonna live here, but I still didn't wanted to close these relationships. I was not able to do it and I believed they can work even if we are hundreds and thousand miles away from each other.
I don't really went to parties recently. I always find something else to do at nights on my own or even with Corinna or Grayson. But since Corinna talked about her birthday in the past one week every day, I was sure I am not gonna miss it. At the same time I've had a light gut feeling. Grayson and Ethan are gonna be there, and of course Jeff, and Corinna's other friends too. We trust in each other with Grayson, but both of us loves to show that we are each other's.
" Are you sure this dress looks okay on me?" asked Corinna for the tenth times, while I tried to do her make up for the night.
"You look fab, what else do you want?"
" I am just excited, I never planned a birthday party for myself before."
"It's gonna be fun, don't worry" I said with a smile. I tried to do a nice smokey eye and added some sparkles too, since it's her day and she can be extra. After I finished her makeup with a light pink lip gloss I started to curl her hair and to make it stay curly longer I pinned up the sections. It was funny how we looked. I only wore a pink hoodie, no make up, messy hair while Corinna at this point looked like a bride.
"Oh it looks so good, thank you" hugged me Corinna, after she stepped in front of the mirror and checked out her makeup. "What am I gonna do without you?" she sighed.
" Hey, it's your birthday we don't talk about that today. I am still here for a few more weeks and I am not gonna die after I go home either. We can still see each other" I replied. With these stuff I tried to convince myself and her too to be honest. Maybe staying friends with Corinna and with other few people is gonna be easier than staying in a relationship with someone..
While I sat down in front of the mirror and tried to do my make up and curl my hair, Corinna kept dancing around in the room with a glass of vodka in her hand. She was crazy. I tried to deepen up my eyes with a brown color and put a red lipstick on to make my make up more exciting. I knew Grayson loves the color red on me and I also kinda liked it on myself too, so I thought why not.
One hour later I checked myself out in the mirror for the last time and put on my perfume. I ended up wearing a white highwaisted trouser with a white blazer and a black lace bralette underneath. I looked kinda sexy and still sophisticated at the same time, it depended on how much the blazer opened on me.
We arrived earlier than everyone else to the place with Corinna to check out everything to be perfect for the night.
Almost half an hour later the guests started to arrive slowly. I knew Corinna was a popular girl, but I was still surprised how the people started to fill the whole place that she ranted. There was a lot of people who I knew, there was some who I saw a few times but most of them were strangers for me. The loud music and lazers filled the place, while the neon lights danced on everyone's faces, who danced around to the music, while I said hi to a few people with a drink in my hand. When I finally saw the twins I went to their direction, but Kristen stood in front of me and pulled me to dance with them. Grayson caught my eyes, sent a light smile to me and to be honest I rather would have went up to him, but I didn't wanted to be rude so I joined to the girls for a dance after I finished my drink. I pulled Corinna to come with me too and laughed how she needed to have a few minutes to catch her balance before he left my hands and started to dance. I moved around my hips with a big smile on my face and sang the song's lyrics with the girls around me. I wasn't even surprised when I looked to the twin's direction and they both watched me then smiled when they sew that I am looking at them and just shook my head because of their strong gaze.
A few songs later it's really become a torture to not going to them, so I escaped myself from the crowd and tried to went to their direction. I needed to laugh when Zane, one of Corinna's friend caught my hands and pulled me to their squad's direction. When I ended up facing with Jeff I knew it's gonna be interesting. I tried to act normal as much as possible while I said hi to everyone with a quick hug and asked them what's up. I still felt like Jeff's hug was a lot tighter and longer then the other's, but I didn't really payed attention to that and tried to answer nicely to his question about where was I since he doesn't saw me in ages. I didn't really went to parties where we could meet and he wasn't too bothered about reaching out to me since that new years eve kiss.
" I haven’t really went to parties recently and everyone knows that's the only place to meet you guys" I said. He was about to answer when Zane stepped close next to me and put his hand around my shoulder before he started shouting to my ear.
"What do you drink with us?"
" You shouldn't drink anything more, that's for sure" I laughed and stepped away from him. Jeff noticed what I did and with a light laugh he put his arm around Zane's shoulder to make him step away from me and not to be so close to me.
"Hi guys, finally you are here" come up to us Corinna thank god, so since every boy started to listen to her I was able to leave them and finally go to the twins's direction.
" Finally Miss popular is here" said Ethan with a grin on his face, while I just rolled my eyes on his comment and hugged him.
As soon as I moved away from Ethan and looked at Grayson, he grabbed my waist and pulled me closer to his body to give me a hard kiss. His kiss was way too passionate and hard for just a welcoming kiss. At the same time it was such a good feeling to finally be in his arms and feel his sent.
" Someone is jealous " I mumbled to his ear when we broke our kiss but I was still close to his body.
" I'm just showing you where you belong " he said while looked deep into my eyes and one of his hand moved down to my butt.
"Oh, god" I shook my head with a light smile because of his jealousy. Before we even came here I already knew that he is gonna hate the fact that Jeff and I are even under them same roof after that new years eve party. But I couldn't blame him, I would probably act the same - or even worst- if I would be in his shoes.
I spent the rest of the night mostly with the boys. I wasn't really in the mood to dance around or get drunk with Corinna, so I stayed next to them and still enjoyed the party. It was nearly two am when we decided to leave. Before we could step out from the door we met with the boys's few friends, or I don't even know who they were. Since I didn't wanted to stood awkwardly there for the time they spoke I went out to in front of the building and rather wait for them there. As soon as I stepped out I froze for a second when I saw Jeff there, with Zane next to him, who sat in the ground and probably were out of this world.
"Wow, he really went off" I shook my head. It would be really awkward if I just stand there in silent.
"Yeah " he sighed." I didn't know you have a boyfriend" he added and looked deep into my eyes. I felt like his dark brown eyes stared into my soul, and he almost seemed like a little puppy who's feelings are hurt. It was funny, because since that party we never met, he never texted me or anything. He didn't know I was with someone, so there isn't really a explanation there. He just only remembers me when we met I guess. Maybe that's why I don't even felt bad for him seeing me with someone else. It's been long months.
" Uhm, it's complicated " I crossed my hands in front of my chest and stood awkwardly from my one leg to the other. I was still not too sure about how to talk about Grayson for others. People who are close to us are know what's the drill, but I don't know what to say to other's. I don't wanna say it's nothing, but at the same time I don't wanna create a whole ass twitter drama or something because of saying staff to people who I should not trust.
" I mean we should meet sometimes, if it's not serious."
" It is serious, so don't even dream about it dude" said suddenly Grayson, who just came up next to me. As I looked up at him and saw how angry he was for nothing I just took a deep sigh.
" Gray" I said to try to make him understand that it's not a big deal and we just talked. I understood that he was jealous, but Jeff didn't really deserved this situation because of me. He was always nice and never intrusive to me.
"Okay, I got it " put up his hands in front of his chest Jeff, but there was still a smile on his face. He probably thought that Grayson's acting was funny or I don't know, but this whole thing started to seem bad and I hated it.
"Just try to hit on her one more time and.." started Grayson and wanted to step closer to Jeff, but Ethan grabbed his shoulder and pulled him back. It was scary to see how angry he was. Somewhere deep down I liked that he is annoyed when he see's me with someone else, but at the same time I was angry at him because he didn't let me handle this situation with Jeff on my own.
"Grayson, come on let's go" I said more emphatically.
I saw how he took a deep sigh while he still wanted to kill Jeff with his eyes, but he let Ethan to pull him away then angrily pulled out his hands from Ethan's hold when they were a few meters away from us and was on there way to the car.
" I'm sorry"I said to Jeff.
"It's okay, I would probably act the same if I would have a girl like you" he responded with a light smile. I shook my head with a quiet laugh and said by to him to go after the boys to the car.
Our way home seemed way too long. I still saw on Grayson how tense he was, but I didn't wanted to start anything in the car, while Ethan doesn't even wanted to get involved in this situation and just put the music's volume more high.
My plan was to get home, I mean to their house, and immediately go to bed, but Ethan decided to stop in a drive through to buy some food. I wasn't too hungry but didn't wanted to be rude either, so I joined them to the livingroom after we got home. I felt Grayson's strong gaze on me as I placed my blazer to the chair and sat down there with the fries in my hands. In a normal night I would have probably chosen the place next to him, but I was still a bit angry so I decided to stay away from him for a little. From the awkward silence Ethan got himself out pretty fast. He ate his launch as quickly as possible and soon went to his room to leave us two alone. I was way too tired to even start to talk about what happened today, so I went to the room, grabbed Grayson's hoodie from the bed and closed myself to the bathroom to take a fast shower.
After I came out from the bathroom Grayson sat on his bed with the phone in his hands, and lifted his head when he heard me coming out and in silent went to the bathroom. I took a big sigh as I tried to figure out what to do, since I feel how he started to make me more and more angry. We were both stubborn and of course if one of us acts like a child and don't talks to the other, the other's gonna join and even gonna be more in silent.
After he came out I still sat on his bed, while he laid down next to me but turned to the other side to not even face me. It was so annoying to see his strong gaze on me but he still doesn't said a word. It would be better if he would start to yell at me or something to say what is on his mind, but the silence killed me.
"How long are you wanna act like this?" I asked and saw how the muscles tightened on his back when he heard my voice.
"Don't even try to say that this is because of me" he replied in a cold voice. I could feel how the angriness fills up my body and I could scream at him even because of the way he talked to me and wasn't able to even face me.
"It is because of you. I don't understand you, I only talked to him like two sentences."
" But what did you talk about? It wasn't a really friendly conversation and I didn't even mentioned yet how that asshole looked at you the whole night " he said now a lot more angrier and sat up in the bed just to look at me and I could saw his hard gaze.
"And why are you angry at me for him looking at me like that? What can I do with it?" I rolled my eyes.
"I am angry at you for you acting like this. Like I am the bad guy for even saying anything about the whole situation " he shook his head and laid back still facing the other side of the bed.
A big sigh left my mouth and I was already way too tired at three am for this, so I stood up, grabbed my pillow and blanket and went out to the living room. I don't know what was this all about with us today. I liked that he was jealous and he wanted to make me feel safe, but at the same time I hated the fact that he doesn't trusts in me. If we ever really end up in a long distance relationship, it's gonna kill us if we keep thinking about where is the other one, with who and why. Okay Jeff was different, probably he was the only men who caught my attention in the past one year next to Grayson, and he knew that. But it could be still better if he keeps this to us and doesn't do that in front of him.
The sofa seemed really comfortable in the living room after I laid down and pulled the blanket on my body. The only issue was the huge window. The moon's light was bothering me, who only likes to sleep in complete darkness but it was alright for tonight, I guess. I stared to the ceiling for long minutes. One of my part wanted to go back to bed next to Grayson and cuddle with him, while the other was stubborn and doesn't wanted to do that at all.
The door's opening noise surprised me, and Grayson's figure maybe surprised me more as he came to my direction. He run his hand through his messy hair before he ended up next to the sofa and he squatted down next to my body. He stared for my eyes for a few seconds before saying anything, and even pushed back my hair behind my ear. He knew how to melt my heart in seconds and knew how to stair to my soul and make my body shake only by looking at me.
" Do you wanna come back?" he broke the silence, but as a response I only shook my head. "You are not easy " he sighed. I pressed my lips to a thin line to hold back my answer, which is yes but he loves me like this. When he realized that he's not gonna convince me to go back with him he stood up, put his hand on my waist and pulled me to the side of the sofa.
"What are you doing?" I asked, but now he was the one who left me without a answer and just climbed over me to the inner side of the sofa and laid down next to me. He pulled my body as close to his as he could and put my blanket over our body. When he got comfortable his hand still rested on my stomach to make sure I don't pull away.
I took a deep sigh when I felt his warm breath against the back of my neck, then I felt how his soft lips met with my skin. The fact that he came after me already melted my heart, but these soft kisses and touches were my weakness. I closed my eyes and let my body to finally relax in his arms while I pushed myself even more back to be as close to him as possible.
"I am sorry, for acting like that today" I whispered. I needed time to admit that in his shoes I would have acted the same, but I was way too stubborn to say this earlier.
"You are my angel, even if this angel is a brat sometimes" he mumbled to my skin next to a light giggle, while his hands moved under the hoodie and didn't stopped till he touched the tattoo under my boob. A light smile spread on my face because of his words and his touches. We were each other's. And yes sometimes we acted crazy, but in the end of the day we always knew that there is no way to fall asleep while we were angry at each other.
The next morning I needed a few minutes to figure out where I was after I woke up and the sun's shined directly to my face. I felt like my whole body was numb since I woke up in the same position as we fall asleep yesterday. Our legs with Grayson tangled under the blanket, his hand held me close to his body still while I felt his study breathing in the back of my neck. I started to get used to that he holds me even closer when he is asleep and every time I thought about that my heart warmed. As well as the memories from yesterday. Grayson handled that situation in such a cute way and yes I am aware of how much I am not an easy type, but he knows how to handle me that's for sure.
" Mornin'" he mumbled a few moments later next to a big yawn Grayson. I carefully tried to turn to the other side to face him without falling of from the sofa. As soon as I looked at his cute morning face and messy hair a light smile spread on my face.
"Good morning, handsome" I replied and pulled out my hand under the blanket and placed it on his unshaved face. That smile just got even bigger on my face when I saw how he leaned more into my hand as he felt my touch and closed his eyes next to a sigh. Yes he was a large, strong man but there was this cute side of him, that always wanted to cuddle and feel my touches and I absolutely adored that side of him as well.
"Oh my god, I thought you are having sex where I used to eat, fuck " said Ethan from the kitchen and a few moments later he came to the living room and frowned his eyebrows at us. I just giggled on his words and his confused face.
"Bro, we just slept there" rolled his eyes Grayson and stretched his arms, but later he wrapped them around me again and pulled me even closer to his chest.
" I swear to god you two are not normal" ended the conversation E, and went out to the yard with his phone and cafe in his hands.
We still laid there for a few minutes. Gray's arms moved around on my back and my butt, I didn't really payed attention that much till his left hand moved to my stomach, then down to the side of my pants and he pushed me to my back.
"Gray" I warned him. My voice was still quiet and sleepy and I didn't even lifted my head from his chest, until he touched me exactly there. "Grayson?" I looked up to his eyes, while he had just a cheeky smile on his face.
"Shh, just enjoy " he leaned down, mumbled to my ear and left a few kisses and bites on my neck. I tried to hold back my satisfied sigh, when he pushed his hands under the material and started to write slow, small circles on my clit.
" Ethan is in the yard and the door is open" I whispered. As much as I am protested with my words, as much my body showed him how much I enjoyed it. I felt how my body tensing up and slowly burning. My stomach tightened and a nice tingling feeling moved around on my body because of his steady movements on me.
"Then you need to be a good girl and stay quet I guess" he said with a grin as he saw that I bit my lip and pushed my head back to the pillow.
"You are an idiot" I rolled my eyes. Hearing my words he moved his hands lower, and pushed in two fingers and immediately started to move them in and out. I was already so wet and I really needed to hold back the moans that wanted to leave my month.
"It's not the best time to roll your eyes on me, princess " he mumbled to my ear, and started to move his fingers deeper and more fast. My whole body started to shake and it was a torture to not scream because of how good it felt. Everything was so insensitive. I wasn't prepared to do this in a random morning and the spontaneity and the thought that we could get caught in any time just made it even more good and exciting for me.
"Oh, fuck" I hid my face to his neck when I started to feel the knot tightening in my stomach. Gray kept his steady fast rhythm and even tortured me as he slowed down, pushed his fingers deeper then started to move fast again. I wish I could moan out his name loud, but all I did was quite whimpers that made him smile as he watched my face and sometimes left a few bites on my neck." Yes, right there " I breathed when he hit the perfect spot. I closed my eyes tight, my hands were in a strong fist as the feeling bult in my body, till my whole body shook because of my intense orgasm. A quiet moan left my mouth that I couldn't hold back, but it was still quite enough to Ethan not hear it.
" Let's go somewhere to get breakfast " came back suddenly Ethan to the livingroom and my heart stopped for a second. My breathing was still heavy and I looked deep into Gray's eyes who's finger still moved in me slowly to ride out my orgasm.
"Give us twenty minutes to get ready then we can go" said Grayson and I could tell how he tried to hold back that huge grin on his face. His hand slowly left my body under the blanket while my legs still shake a little bit from my orgasm.
"15 maximum, I am starving" replied E and set down to the chair with his phone on his hands. The thought that if he comes back one minute earlier he would have caught us killed me and made me laugh. It was crazy. Compared to the fact that he acted so normal,I was sure he doesn't suspected anything, thank god.
When I felt Grayson's touch on my thigh I immediately sat up and. My body was still too sensitive to not have a reaction to his hands on me. He just smiled as he looked after me, while I just stood up and went straight to his room and to the bathroom to get ready for the day.
Our relationship was everything just not boring. We were crazy people with crazy things. We fought, teased each other, then apologized to each other. One thing for sure, he loved each other day by day more and more. I could be a woman one hundred percent next to him, and even though I was annoyed for him doing this to me in the morning, I still liked it. I always hated when someone tried to tell me what to do, tell me to not say or do what I did, but in bed I loved when he was the one who dominated and Grayson for sure knew and enjoyed it.
While I started to get ready I was deep in my thoughts and started to think about yesterday again. I felt bed, maybe that's just showed even more how much I loved him. I didn't wanted to make him feel unsure about me being honest or faithful to him. We can be in the same place or hundreds and thousands of miles away, i would never be able to be with someone else. Of course I ended up overthinking it. In the end I've had a full nervous feeling in my stomach, even though we already closed it yesterday. Since I didn't wanted this feeling to get even more into my head, I wasn't even ready, my make up was just half done, but I went out to find Grayson. Their deep voices came from the kitchen, so I went there and as soon as I stepped to the kitchen I went in front of Grayson and crossed my arms around his neck on my tippy toes. Gray look down at me with a confused look but still put his hands around my waist and hugged me back.
" I love you" I mumbled quietly, and already felt my face heating up as I started to blush. I was not that type who did these kind of things, especially not in front of Ethan. Grayson knew that maybe that's why he hugged me tighter when he heard my words and a light smile spread on his face.
" I love you too, but should I understand this? Where is the girl, that I know and is my girlfriend?" he asked and made me giggle.
" I..mm It's just, whatever" I shook my head and moved away from him. I wanted to go out as soon as as possible from the kitchen, but Grayson caught my wrist and he pulled me back. As he looked into my eyes his face was a lot more serious and it almost seemed like he was worried as he looked down at me and clasped our hands next to our body.
"What's wrong?"
" Nothing, I just thought about yesterday and I felt bad" I replied and looked away and started to stare to the floor instead of his beautiful eyes.
" Angel" he sighed and pulled me closer again as I hugged his waist and enjoyed how his sent filled my nose and his body heat warmed up my body. "Nothing happened yesterday, stop thinking about it. We were both angry and dumb " he mumbled and placed a kiss in my forehead before I moved away.
"Wow the ice queen can do this too? " teased Ethan, and got a angry look immediately from me.
"Shut up" I giggled.
This side of me was new to me too. I was never that emotional type, but now I was not as scared to show it as before. I felt like my heart was icy when I came here to America and Grayson slowly started to melt it down. It's crazy that in this huge word you only need one person, who can turn your whole life into a different direction and make the everydays magical.
I woke up really tired and drown out the next morning. I need to admit that our conversation really defined my mood last night. I couldn't fall asleep for hours and kept switched positions while I tried to not bother Grayson too much or wake him up. The knot was still in my throat and I really needed to calm myself and don't let my anxiety power over me even more. And these feelings were still there the morning when I woke up. I was up earlier then Grayson, like always, and when I just layed there and started overthinking again I decided to get out from bed without waking him up yet.
While I brushed my teeth I checked my phone and saw that it was only only seven o'clock. I did my natural everyday makeup and I even had time to dress up too. I decided put on a band tee with jean shorts, put my hair up in a ponytail and grabbed a few necklaces to make my outfit a little bit more exciting. After I grabbed my favorite perfume too I felt like I am already ready for the day so I went downstairs. I decided to sit down in the balcony for a while and just chill there till the boys wake up.
The sun already shined bright on the sky, the birds voices filled the air and I felt like at least this started to calm me down a bit and my negative thoughts in my head. I always needed something that distracts me in these situations. I already know myself and I am aware of the fact that I can overthink anything in seconds, especially if it was about the future. At this point I feel like I know how to handle this.
Something that helped in seconds and made me smile was my family. It's sucks to wake up this early, but that means it's only around 11 am in Hungary and it's more comfortable to talk with my family. I giggled to the screen when I saw how my mom scolded my sister for messing up the whole kitchen with the flour as she tried to help her bake. I really do missed them and wished I could mix my life here with my life at home even though it was impossible. I can't say to my friends in here to move with me to Hungary, and I can't say this to my family either and throw everything away at home. It's a thing that I need to handle and figure out alone.
" Are you okay?"
I flinched a bit when I heard Ethan's voice behind me after I ended the call with my parents but a light smile spread on my face when I saw his messy hair and still sleepy face.
"Yeah I just couldn't sleep. Why are you up so early?" I asked.
"I was just thirsty and I planned to go back to sleep but you scared the crap out of me when I saw you sitting there" he laughed, sat down next to me to the chair and opened the water bottle in his hand. "Are you sure everything is okay?" he asked again after we sat there in silence for a few seconds.
"Yeah, I'm just a little tired."
"Why are you lying to me? " he frowned his brows that made me laugh.
" I am not, I swear everything is fine, daddy" I rolled my eyes.
"Ew, keep this in the bedroom with Grayson."
" Oh my god shut up" I shook my head and at this point it was impossible to hide my loud laugh.
"Okay now that I saw you laugh can I go back to sleep for a bit more?" he stood up. " Go back to Gray, knowing him he is gonna wake up soon."
"Why is it so important to go back?"
" Because I don't wanna leave you here alone and I am sleepy. Come on " he reached for my hand, that I ended up accepting with a light smile.
I didn't really understood Ethan's concern, but it was nice from him to look after me and be that angel to me, who he always is. I went to the second floor with him and didn't stopped till I ended up in Grayson's room. When I opened the door I saw that he is still in bed, but started to move around and slowly opened his eyes.
"Sorry I didn't wanted to wake you up "I said quietly as I closed the door behind me and went to the bad to sit down next to his waist.
"Where were you? Why are you dressed up, in make up? What time it is? " he asked so many questions that made my giggle. I put my hand on his unshaved face and caressed his cheeks with my thumb while he just looked confused to my eyes till I answered.
" I just couldn't sleep and I was downstairs in the balcony. It's around half nine I think.
" Come here" he put his hands on my waist and before I could do anything he pulled me back to the bed next to him and hugged my body tightly to his. Sometimes it's still surprised me that he moved me like a doll and acted like I don't have weight.
I faw lazy hour later I ended up in their car's passenger seat next to Grayson while we were on our way to have breakfast with their mom. The bad feeling from yesterday turned into more excitement. I was excited to meet his mom and now the whole thing didn't seemed as bad as yesterday in my eyes.
Maybe it was mainly because of Grayson, and because of how he acted. After he parked the car and got out he reached for my hand to clasp them and pulled me after him to the cafe's entrance. On his face there was a excited smile, that made me smile too everytime I looked at him. I really wished I could read his mind in those moments. Is he excited because his mom's gonna see me or is he excited because he is proud to have me and he can introduces me or am I just overthink this again and maybe he is not even that excited? Before my mind could be full with these thoughts I just realized that Grayson stopped in front of me next to a table.
"Hi, ma " said Grayson. A big smile spread on my face when I heard the cute nickname for his mother and my smile just got even wider when he pulled me to his side.
" Good morning, Mrs. Dolan" I greeted her nicely. Grayson's eyes sparkled as he looked at me and to his mom while she stepped closer to me and hugged me for a moment.
"Aw I am so happy to see you finally. You are even prettier then on the pictures" she said as she pulled away and moved around her eyes on my face. " Call me Lisa."
She was a really pretty and nice woman, that was for sure my first impression of her. Her blondie brown, middle length hair was decorated with a few wave and gave his face a nice frame. She was really youthful and so open to get to know me. I really started to feel bad because how I acted yesterday with Grayson. I was just afraid.
"Do you like being in here, in America? I am sure it's really different from Europe" she asked after the weiter girl took our order and left our table. Me and Grayson set next to each other, his hand rested on my thigh while Lisa was in front of us on the other side of the table.
"Yes and yes, it's really different " I nodded. " I feel like when i'm finally gonna use to it fully I have to leave."
" Oh yeah, Grayson told me that you are gonna go home on the winter. You are not planning coming back?" she asked again that made me ,and looking at Grayson, him smile too. It's a question for sure that Grayson wanted to hear too and talked about it with his mom, who was not afraid to ask it. I always loved direct people, who say out loud what is on their mind without even thinking. It made me feel less tense since we didn't needed to talk about the weather or anything to start a conversation.
" I don't know, it's not that easy. The girl who I'm babysitting gonna go to school next year and it's really hard to find a job without a green card. And the whole green card thing by itself is a crazy process so.. But I can come to visit I guess" I sighed and my attention moved down to my hand that rested on the table.
" Don't get sad, I am sure you two are gonna figure it out" she placed her hand on mine that made me look at her again and tried to reciprocate her genuine smile. It's just got even easier when Gray leaned in and placed a kiss on my cheeks suddenly. Her mom started to giggle when she saw how surprised I was while Gray just grinned and the hold on my thigh got a little stronger. "Where did you left Ethan? " asked his mom.
"He is asleep, I didn't even saw him yet today " responded Gray.
"He was up, but he went back asleep when I met with him in the morning."
"It's cute how you get on with him too. Do you have a sibling?"
From that on basically we only talked about me. His mother was interested about my family and even about Hungary, so mostly I told stories even after our breakfast arrived. It was surprising how opened I was with her in such a short time. Most the time it's easy to me to talk to even strangers, but I thought I am gonna be more tense because it is his mom. It was nice how I could laugh loud with her even if we only knew each other for twenty minutes.
"My mom loves you" said Grayson with a wide smile after we went out from the cafe to the car. I looked up at him with a surprised face when we ended up next to the car and he pushed me a little to it and stepped in front of me.
"She still sees us from the door, so please don't do a show " I put my hands on his chest next to a light giggle. I only shook my head as he looked back over his shoulder and waved to his mom while his whole body was pressed to mine. In a normal case I would never push him away, especially because of how my body reacted to his closeness with a nice tingling feeling, but it was different. I didn't wanted her mother to see a make out session next to his car. So before he could do anything I pushed him away and hopped to the car.
Lack of better Ethan was the one who brought me to the closest mall a few hours later, and I was even able to convince him to join me to shop a nice dress. As a exchange I was ready to listen to his tantrums about how much he doesn't like shopping with me. I tried to target the shops that I thought I could find a nice dress or something, but at the same time I had no idea what I wanted or even where Grayson wanted to go. I knew it's gonna be more serious than a driving around date, but at the same time I loved those type of chilled dates too. I just love spending time with him, no matter what we are doing.
I just shook my head and laughed as I looked up at Ethan while I looked the dresses on the hangers. Of course he acted like a dramatic queen and tried to show me how bored he was when he wasn't on his phone and basically that's what he repeated in every corner where I stopped.
" Tell me at least that you know what you are looking for" he sighed after we left the third store still with nothing in my hands.
"I have no idea" I replied. I was confused and wanted so many things at the same time. I wanted to look different and hot, like he never saw me before but at the same time I wanted something that fits my style and I could enjoy wearing it the whole night. I only went to the dressing room in the last potencial store with two dresses in my hands. First I put on the light pink one and opened the curtain to show Ethan first before I even looked into the mirror.
" It's cute" said Ethan. I would rather heard a it's terrible or something comment than this, since it was the worst that he could say to me. The color looked awful on my skintone and I really hated it on me.
"I can't" I sighed and looked at E who just stood in the door and laughed at me.
"Try on the other one, maybe you gonna like it" he said in a nice way probably the first time today. He probably saw on me that I am over it. After he closed the curtain I switched to the other dress and like the first time I open the curtain first and Ethan was in the door when I checked the dress on me in the mirror. It was a amazing satin red dress, first I didn't even paid that much attention to it on the hanger, but I kept going back to it. The material and the color was different from me but as I looked myself up and down in the mirror I liked it more and more. " That's a lot better" said Ethan a few moments later.
"That's all? Is it bad?" I frowned my brows.
"You are my brother's girlfriend, I can't say you look hot " he rolled his eyes and made me giggle.
"You already said it. But you can because since you two are twins, he probably gonna think the same."
"No, he is gonna think about when can he take this off of you, since I only said that you are hot. But now dress up and let's go" he said and closed the curtain. I just shook my head with a light simile on his sentence and tried to dress up quickly to not make him wait even more.
A few hours later I was in that dress again, but now in Grayson's bathroom. I curled my hair as I looked at myself in the mirror. I never wore a dress like this before, the color and the nice shiny material was so nice and feminine. I never even thought I can pull of a dress like this. This is definitely something too, that I am thankful for Grayson. I love that women, who I am next to him. I love the women who I became next to him. I feel like I am even more confident then I was before and I keep stepping out from my comfort zones and keep getting to know a new side of myself. I always wished for a men who don't wanna change me or pull me back. I wished for someone who supports me and makes me feel loved so I can be one hundred percent a women next to him. Maybe that's why I was so angry a few years ago, when every time I got heated or angry and started to yell at my parents, they said things like: you are gonna change when you are gonna have a boyfriend. I never wanted this and I never will. I know Grayson is someone who loved me with the negative stuff too and I really do feel like I don't need to change in anything for him. And I feel like that's the key in a relationship. To love someone as she or he is.
Of course I needed to bring back a little my style to this dress, so I put a leather jacket on my shoulders after I put on my black high heels. As I looked into the mirror and put on my perfume a smile spread on my face. My hair fell on my chest with big and poofy waves, and I pushed it back in one side so it's doesn't cover my dress so much. I was excited for Grayson to see me and what is he planning for the night.
My heels capped on the stairs as I went down and as soon as I was down Grayson stood in front of me. His gaze burnt my skin and I bit my lips as I looked up and down on him. He leaned against the kitchen counter, while he whore a full black outfit. His pants and button up were black too, but it looked way too hot on him that's for sure. As I looked into his eyes I saw how his eyes kept moving around on my body in that red dress. My stomach flipped as he pushed himself away, licked his lips and came closer to me.
" You are breathtaking " he said with a light smirk and placed one of his hands on my waist to pull me closer to his large body. Even though I wore heels, he was still a lot taller than me.
"Thank you, you look hot too" I looked up under my lashes to his eyes, while I put my hands on his chest and softly moved it around.
"Stop looking at me like this, because I swear to god we aren't gonna get to anywhere" he said and tilted his head back to close his eyes for a moment. I just giggled and leaned closer to him to place a soft kiss on his neck, and as he looked back to me I pulled away slightly. " Give me a kiss."
" Gray, let's save this for later " I stepped away from him, but he caught my waist again and now he pulled me even closer to him then before.
" But you look so fucking good. Just one " he mumbled to my lips and when he saw that I don't even wanna protest he pressed his lips against mine. I didn't wanted this kiss to deepin too much, especially when I felt on him and on myself too that we are way too much into each other, but when I felt his tongue on my lower lip, it would have been a torture for myself to deny it, so I let him meet with my tongue and start a passionate kiss. As the minutes went our kiss just got more and more heated. My hands slowly were around his shoulders, while his hand moved lower from my weast to my bum and grabbed it hard, as hard as he kissed me. His deep and muscular sent mixed in the air with my more sweet sent and we got lost on that moment and on each others heated kiss.
"We really not gonna get anywhere if you don't stop " I mumbled to his lips and looked deep into is eyes. Both of our eyes were dark and hungry for each other. They were filled with pure desire and fire. Well my dress choice went way too well.
" Let's go" he pulled away with a deep sigh. He looked back at me with a light smile as he reached for my hand. My hand got lost in his as he clasped them and pulled me after him.
On our way I really tried to calm myself down. That kiss and the gazes in the kitchen were so heated, that I was only able to think about his lips's taste even after minutes. And as I looked at him and saw how he looked back at me from the road for a second, I knew he felt the same way.
After he parked the car in the side of the road he opened the door for me and looked deep into my eyes as he helped me get out from the car. The city lights filled street was quete, only my heels knock made noises as I walked next to Grayson. My left hand's fingers were clasped with his, while I kept caressed his hand with my thumb and kept getting his gaze on me for a second then looking away again.
"Why are you looking at me like that?" I asked with a light smile, when he did it for the fourth time now. In the meantime we went right to a smaller street that brought us to the main street. The breath caught in my throat when he suddenly stopped and pushed me against the cold rock wall.
"Because you are stunning and can't take my eyes off of you" he mumbled a few inches away from me, while he leaned against the wall behind me next to my head. That cheeky sparkle was still in his eyes, that probably didn't even gonna disappear this night. In fact, it is just gonna be even more strong. I saw how his eyes moved down to my lips, then up to my eyes again and took a big sigh. I liked how I wrapped him around my fingers. Maybe that's why I placed my hand on his chest, moved it up to his face and brushed through his plump lips with my thumb.
"Let's go, I am hungry" I mumbled as I leaned closer to him. My lips only touched his for a second before I moved away and came out between the wall and him. I looked back at him with a cheeky big smile and now I was the one who reached for his hands. His smile, then loud laugh made my heart warmer. I adored him when I saw him laughing.
"How do you know he are going for a dinner?" he asked after he stepped next to me and we walked again.
" Where else would we go like this? " I rolled my eyes.
My question got answered pretty quickly when Grayson stopped in front of a restaurant and opened the door for me. He just shook his head with a light smile as I looked at he before I went in, in front of him. The restaurant was nice and fancy, but not too much. I was afraid that he is gonna bring me to some fine dining place, where I don't even know how to act. None of us were really that type, we were a lot more chill than that.
After the waiter seated us next to the window, he gave us the menu and left us alone. I smiled as I saw that since I took of my leather jacket, Grayson kept tried to look away and concentrate to the menu but somehow his eyes always ended up on me.
When the waiter got back I told him my order and totally zoned out as I watched Grayson in front of me as he spoke to the waiter. The lamp's lights kept sparkled in his warm eyes and I really liked how he kept the beard on himself and still not shaved. He seems more sexy than cute like this and maybe that's why I always end up wondering around when I look at him. His lips seemed so soft and pink and they looked so so kissable. I really felt like I started to lose my mind over him. At this point I was so in love with him, I didn't even believed that I am capable of this. It was still so new to me.
"What?" he asked with a light smile, after the waiter left and it was only two of us again.
"Uhm.." I smiled and bit my lip as I looked away. ".. nothing " I replied. My thoughts were so messy to say them out loud. And I kept them to myself even after he kept looking to my eyes deep and tried to figure them out. Every time I looked into his eyes I felt like it's only two of us and the whole world disappears around us. It was only him and I in those moments.
" I wish we did this earlier " he looked around and placed his hand on the table. I put my hand on his with a smile, and that smile just got wider when he lifted it and placed a light kiss on my hand.
"Hey, our Hollywood sign date was iconic and I really enjoyed the motel weekend too. I am not that type who wants this all the time. Sometimes it's nice, but I never even thought that we should come to a fancy place" I said. Probably if we would come here in a earlier place in our relationship I would have been a lot more tense. In a romantic dinner date you really only can focus to the other and have a serious conversation with them. I even have anxiety if I though coming here with a strange men as a first date. I could never do that. With Gray it was different now. I know him well and he is close to me and my heart. I can't even think of a situation at this point where I would be tense next to him. It was still crazy how open I was with him. I let him get under my skin, get to know me and at this point I was a open book for him. It was his success though. He somehow figured out how to do this.
The whole night seemed like a movie or a fairy tale. We just chatted about everyday things, made each other laugh and enjoyed each other's company. Everytime I looked into his eyes a smile wanted to spread on my face and my stomach flipped when he returned it. God when did I fell in love with him that much?
"Come with us, for real" said again Grayson but now he stepped closer and hugged me, probably to make his plead work even better.
" But why? You go to visit your family and spend time with them."
"Yeah we do, but we could still show you so many place where we grew up. Come on, it's gonna be fun to break away from LA and it would make me so happy" he continued to try to convince me.
"For real M, come with us" joined Ethan too, and at this point all I could do is laugh and agree to them. Of course if one of them is not enough to get something, sure enough the other one is gonna join and make your life ten times harder.
05.07.'20
So that's how I ended up in New Jersey on friday afternoon with the boys. I was courious as I looked out from our taxi's window to the foreign city. Grayson kept holding my left hand, while he talked with Ethan about something, but I was definitely somewhere else in my thoughts. Traveling was always a big dream for me and I was so happy to see new places. At the same time I felt terrible when I called Veronica for a few days off, even though she was totally fine with it. I didn't want to let her down but at the same time I didn't want to let down myself either. I was excited to see where the boys grew up and what do they mean when they say home. When Grayson said they have a house here somewhere deep down it's reassured me. I wasn't sure if I was ready to meet their mom and get a question about who am I? A friend, love? I guess we never put a label on it.
A few minutes later our taxi stopped in front of a white house. It was a really chill street, we could hear how the kids played in front of their house a few miles away from us. Their laugh reverberated between the houses and I giggled when Grayson caught me looking at them with a big smile on my face and reached for my hand to pull me behind them to the house. I love children, simply everytime I say I am childish I still feel like I would be ready to be a mom, but of course I have time. I still enjoy the parties too. Maybe that's what really strange in our early twenties. There is still in you that you wanna have fun, go to parties, travel, but at the same time there is a picture in you too about the future. Some people in this age are already parents, while others still get drunk every weekend, study in a university or build their career. It is a strange stage in our life's, I would say this is really the time when you feel like you start to really become an adult. One thing is sure, you are exactly where you should be. You are not late, or further. Everyone has their own time.
I really loved the twin's house, it was homie with huge windows and big spaces but it still felt more like a home then every house in LA. They were cool, but I never felt like I would live my entire life in that city.
I was not even surprised when after they showed me the house, the last thing was the balcony with a huge garden in front of it and a little forest next to it. It was a typical house where I pictured them being when they come here. It's really fit their personalities.
"I love this house" I said and looked to the woods. The birds chirping filled the air while the sun's warm shine lit up the forest. It really was a nice view from the balcony.
"It's always refreshing to come here from LA for a while" replied E. " You are the first girl ever who come with us to here."
" Aw really? " I giggled but flinched a little bit when Grayson suddenly came out and pulled me closer to his strong upper body as he hugged my chest from behind.
"Are you ready to go?"
" Where? We just arrived " I asked and looked back at his face.
"To have fun " he shrugged his shoulder and I already knew from their grin to each other that the rest of the day is gonna be eventful.
They only gave me time to change into something more comfortable on top of a swimsuit, so I picked up a black jogger short and a basic white crop shirt over my white bikini and I was ready to see what's the boys plan was.
I felt like our whole day was crazy, and all I did all day is laughing. I laughed loudly when I set behind Grayson on a quad and I needed to bend down to my hair not get filled with leaves from the trees. I laughed too when I stood up on the quad and tried to keep my balance next to Gray's crazy speed and sat down fast when I felt my legs started to slip.
I didn't laugh that much when I stood in a bridge's inner part and tried to overcome my agoraphobia and looked down to the boys, who already jumped down to the water and kept yelling to me to join them. I closed my eyes, pushed myself away and screamed before I landed in the warm water with a huge splash. I laughed loudly again as Grayson hugged me under the water while I gave Ethan a high five for being brave enough to do it. Okay maybe I was not daring enough compared to the boys, when I just watched them keep going up and jumping down again and again. They were like two children and I really saw them in a way like never before. I never seen them being so happy and free and it was just even more surprising how much it made my heart throb from seeing them like this.
" I've never thought you are gonna be this open to try these things" said Grayson while we were on our way home. We sat on their pickup's open trunk. He leaned against the side, while I sat between his legs and my head was pressed against his chest and Ethan drived. My hair was a mess from the wind, but it was a another new thing that I've never thought I should try, but it was worth it.
"Of course I am, I've had so much fun today" I replied honestly, and tried to move more to the side in his arms so I could look at him. The charming smile that was on his face still not faded and the light of the setting sun gleamed in his eyes. I loved the fact that he was the type of men who can be cute and romantic, but he can be crazy too to make me feel like he is my friend, not just my love. Today when we went to these adventures we didn't even think about hugging and kissing. We don't wanna make Ethan feel awkward and we definitely not that cheezy type anyway. Sometimes we could seem like we are kinda cold to each other, but there is definitely a fire between us, that only we could see.
He probably laughed at me for zoning out while I looked into his eyes and thought about him, so all I did was laugh with him and placed my hand on his face and gave him a long kiss on his soft and pumped lips. He looked cute how his sill slightly wet hair was messy because of the wind, but that cute look faded quickly when I looked back down to his face from his hair and saw his beard and strong jawline that made him look more masculine. Either way, he was perfect.
"Why are you looking at me like that?" he frowned his brows.
" I am just.. whatever " I smiled and I was glad he didn't questioned me more and just pulled me closer to his arms. I hid my face in his neck and placed a soft kiss there. I didn't want to tell him that I'm trying to enjoy every small moment, so I can remember them when I am not gonna see him for months, or years or maybe never again. I don't know what's gonna happen in the future, but I am sure I am gonna remember every single moment that I experienced here and I am sure these memories and moments gonna make a smile on my face no matter what.
I spent the night alone in the huge house. The boys went over to their mom's and there was not a chance to convince me to go there with them. For me it's really is a serious thing in a relationship when you meet with the parents, even though I wasn't the biggest expert in relationships. I am sure I was afraid from it because I never experienced a situation like this. There was that bad thought in my head where I stand in front of their sister and mom and they look at me in a weird way because of my complicated relationship with Grayson, or because they think he deserves someone else. Someone prettier, better, anything, just not me. Is it really surprising that I ended up overthinking it? I don't think so.
In the meantime I called my mom to have a little chat with her. Later I looked around in the living room and smiled on their baby pictures and then sat down to look around on my social medias. I took my time picking pictures what Ethan took earlier of me next to the river and I uploaded it to my instagram.
I just stepped out from Grayson's bedroom when I heard the front door's opening and the boys arrived with loud noises. I already took a bath, so all I wore was Grayson's shirt. I smiled when I heard how Grayson started to call my name a few seconds later, so I went down fast on the stairs and jumped on his back with a loud giggle.
"Mom sent you dinner" said Ethan, and placed the bag on the kitchen counter.
" Aw she is so cute" I replied and really made me feel good for her thinking of me. Of course since it was about food I got excited and as soon as I came down from Grayson's back I wanted to go next to Ethan, but Gray got my waist and laughed as he pulled me back to his arms. "Stop, I'm hungry" I giggled, when I felt his lips on my neck. The feeling sent shivers down my spine and it really was a thing that I couldn't got used to now matter how many times I felt his lips on my skin. My body always reacted to him.
"Can you please leave it to the bedroom?" grimaced E, so I moved away from Grayson and shook my head on his dramatic brother and set down to the bar stool with a fork in my hand.
" Do you wanna get cafe or something tomorrow with me and my mom?" looked at me Grayson. The food almost caught on my throat when I heard his question and I stared at my food instead of looking at him.
"And how are you gonna introduce me? Like it's complicated, but I still want you to meet with her, I guess?!" I frowned my brows. Ethan could tell from my voice that Grayson stood on a sensitive topic, so he went out from the kitchen leaving me alone with Gray.
"Babe she is my mother, not a stranger" he said and laid against the counter in front of me. " She already knows everything about you and us. Of course she wanna meet you."
My heart melted from the thought that he talked about me to his mom. I can always think about the worst things and scenarios in my head, and I really should learn by now that Grayson is not someone, who wanna hurt me or take me to a awkward situation. He is probably the first person in my life, besides my family, who I trust one hundred percent.
"We just go somewhere to have breakfast or have a cafe or something. I am sure it's not gonna be that bed" he said and he couldn't hold back that light smile in the end of his sentence.
" I'm sorry, it's just new to me again" I sighed.
" I know" he leaned closer and placed a kiss on my forehead. "And after that maybe you should do some shopping because I wanna bring you somewhere else tomorrow too" he added.
"And why do I need new clothes for that? " I frowned my brows.
"Because I forgot to mention it earlier to bring something nicer" he laughed and made me giggle too.
"Are we going on a date, Dolan?"
"I realized I've never brought you on a proper date and.."
"..and your mom probably made a comment about it" I finished his sentence with a laugh.
"Maybe" he smiled. Our relationship is probably not going like everyone else's. We never really went to dates, never labeled our relationship or anything because we are afraid of the future. We just let our feelings to control. I mean it is worked, but maybe that's why it's surprised me that he wanna introduce me to his mom and even bring me on a date too. I didn't expected it and it came really suddenly. " Jacuzzi?" he asked.
"I already took a bath."
" And? Please" he asked again with a light smile and of course who am I to say no to this man?
After both of us went to the bedroom I closed myself to the bathroom with my swimsuit and I was not even surprised that when I ended up being ready, he was already downstares in the jacuzzi. Instead of the white bikini that I wore today I picked a red one piece, that I wore before already on the boy's pool party thingy. Well on that day I had no clue that one day I am gonna end up in Jersey with him.
Grayson watched me with a light smile as I threw my hoodie to the chair and I went slowly closer to the jacuzzi to join him. I sat down in front of him. Because of the steam I only saw his face faintly, but I felt his touch under the water on the back of my knee and he pulled me to sat on his lap.
"I love this on you " he looked down to my chest and then up to my eyes again.
" I know" I replied with a confident smile. As a light smile spread on his face his lips caught my attention. They looked so soft and pink.
" I don't wanna force anything.." he started to talk but I still concentrated to his lips and I started to place small kisses on it and I basically didn't let him to continue his sentence. " Babe, I'm trying to talk please " he mumbled between my kisses, but I just smiled and kept press soft kisses on his lips, chin, cheeks then lips again when he started to talk because his lips were so sweet and kissable.
"Hey" I pouted when he sat down from his lap to in front of him where I set before.
"Angel, for real."
I already knew from the way his words sounded that it is something serious. I really needed to be in the mood for deep talks. I am not good at it, it's always hard for me to talk about my feelings still and I felt like it's started to be too much for this day since they came back. I kind of enjoyed that not labeled thing between us, but I knew at this point he wants more.
" I just want you to be mine, like officially my girlfriend. My plan was that I'm gonna ask you tomorrow on the "date", but I can't wait more "
I sighed. I saw that he was tense and of course hearing his words I was too. As I looked at him all I felt for him is pure love and all I wanted is to be in his arms without saying anything to him about what he said.
"Gray, I.."
" You know how important you are to me right? Even the thought kills me that you are with someone else. I can't do this anymore. I wanna talk about you, about having a so beautiful and cool girl in my life" he said. I bit my lips while listened to his words. He said so amazing things to me, it's almost felt like some kind of dream what I just watch from the outside and I am not even a part of it.
"It's july. That means only five months left. Grayson, in december I am gonna be hundreds and thousand of miles away " I said and a little I broke my own heart too when I said these things out loud. He just shook his head and looked away from me like it's hurt him hearing it. "We don't know what's gonna happen and I don't wanna hold you back when I leave."
"How could you hold me back?" he snapped. His lips were pressed in a thin line while he looked back at me agan, deep into my eyes.
"I don't want you to be faithful to me, while we barely even gonna see each other, and you could find someone who could make you a lot happier, someone who at least leaves in the same country with you" I replied quietly. It hurted to say out loud these things, and the picture in my head even hurt more, where I saw him with someone else being happy, while I am at home being sad. Without him.
"Bullshit. Just say that you would be happier with someone else at home who is closer to you, but don't say that you hold me back, don't turn this on me. I see things different, if I understand you well."
"Oh yeah, I am probably fancying a boy at home so much, if I was not able to find one there in twenty two years " I rolled my eyes. I didn't even sew the picture that I find someone at home, who makes me feel at least half the same way as Grayson does. I probably put up my standards with him so high that no one ever gonna reach that.
A awkward silence followed this conversation. These sentences hurt both of us. It's easier to just ignore the future in the everydays and concentrate to the moment, act like we can stop the time and not stress.
Exactly that's why I learnt to appreciate every single moment and minute and I didn't wanted this whole thing between me and Grayson to take any longer. I just moved closer to him without saying anything, sat down back to his lap where I was ten minutes ago and crossed my arms around his neck to hug him tightly. As soon as we touched I felt how the tension fading. He crossed his arms around my waist to pull me even closer to his body and after he placed a kiss on my neck I hid my face to his neck and tried to enjoy that I can still be there, in his arms.
" I didn't say those things because I don't wanna be your girlfriend. I just don't want this to hurt even more, when I leave" I mumbled to his skin.
" I know" he whispered and he moved his hands up and down on my back, that sent me shivers, like always, all over my body. "Just please don't push me away."
I closed my eyes and in that moment, I let myself to be weak. There was a knot in my throat the whole time, but these words from him pushed me to the point where I felt how a salty teardrop run down on my cheek. First I hoped there's not gonna be more and he doesn't even gonna notice it, but when a lot more followed that one and I quietly sniffed, Grayson pulled away enough to look at my face. When he saw that I am actually crying his gaze softened and lifted his hand to wipe of the tears from my cheeks.
"Hey, It's okay. We are gonna figure it out, but please don't cry because seeing you like this breaks my heart" he mumbled and looked deep into my eyes. His eyes were a little unclear in front of me because of my tears, but I just nodded to his words and tried to take big and deep breaths to calm myself down. It is really scared me how deep is my love for Grayson and I almost felt like it was too much to handle and came out in tear forms. I never thought that one day i'm gonna love someone as much, as I loved him.
" Can we go up? " I asked. My voice cracked for a moment and I hated how I showed to him that I was still not okay. That's why I wanted to stand up from his lap fast, but he grabbed my waist and pulled me back. He placed his hands on my face, leaned closer and pressed his soft lips on mine. First he just placed a long kiss on my lips, but as soon as I parted my lips to show him I want more he deepened it. His kiss was soft and affectionate, but intensive enough to feel how my body slowly gave in to the kiss and the tension started to fade again, like a few minutes ago when I hugged him. I took a big sigh, run my hand through his hair when I fully added myself to the kiss and fully switched off my mind because of our passionate kiss. In that moment it doesn't matter where we were, how long we are gonna stay there and what's gonna happen in the future. All what mattered was us.
"'Hi, E " I hugged Ethan with a big smile on my face after he opened the door for me. Days went by since I saw him and his brother. Most the time when I was free they were busy, or when they were free I was at Veronica's or out with the girls. That's why we planned that this night I am gonna come over no matter what. " What are you up to?" I asked after I saw in the living room that the backyard door is open and realized that he is shirtless.
"Grayson is in a dad mood again and he figured out he’s wanna grill, when he comes back so I'm trying to put it together" he rolled his eyes. I laughed on his dad mood comment for long minutes while I placed down my stuff and went after him to the yard. From the speaker loud music came, it was probably one of Tame Impala's song and the sunset was beautiful in front of us, behind the pool.
"Where is Grayson?"
"He needed to go to a meeting, he is gonna be there soon " said Ethan and stepped next to me with a cheeky smile. I just frowned my brows, I was confused about what he wanna do but when he picked me up and run with me towards the pool I realized it easily. I didn't even had time to scream, because we already landed in the warm water.
"You are an idiot, I put this on like ten minutes ago " I said in a freaked out voice, and he just laughed on my dramatic actions but as soon as he realized I'm attacking back and I started to splash him he tried to escape.
" Stop" he laughed, when I caught him and poked his sides since he was extremely ticklish and with my other arm I tried to splash him with the water. When he had enough he simple grabbed both of my wrists and held up both of my hands with a confident grin.
" It's not fear" I pouted at him and as soon as he left my hands I went out from the pool. "Look at me now " I spread my arms. My hair and hoodie was extremely wet and I looked horrible.
" There is my shirt, if that helps " pointed to the chair Ethan after he get out from the pool and went back to build the grill.
I just shook my head and grabbed his shirt to go to the bathroom with it. As I looked into the mirror it seemed exactly like when I wear Grayson's shirt, maybe it was a little bit smaller than his. The main different was the smell, I was so use to Grayson's perfume that it was weird to wear a foreign men fragrance on myself.
Ethan probably not deserved it, but I still went out to help him with that grill, or tried to when I didn't concentrated to sing to the songs that came from the speaker. He of course kept made fun of me because of my voice so basically we ended up fighting on it for some kind of reason. He really was like a brother, who was annoying sometimes but I adored him for it. We could say the craziest things to each other without getting really mad. It was just a game.
It was already dark and passed eight when Grayson finally came home. I stood up with a huge smile when he came out from the living room.
"Hey babe" I reached my arms for him and giggled, when he grabbed my waist and pulled me close to his body. I crossed my arms around his neck and tried to balance on my tippy toes so he doesn't needed to lean down that much.
"Hi, angel " ha mumbled to my neck that sent thrill on my spine. His ordinary muscular smell made my head already dizzy and just showed me how much I missed him in the past days. " Wait.." he caught my hand after I moved away and he pulled me back."..is that Ethan's shirt?" he frowned his brows. In the back Ethan started to laugh, that made Gray even more confused while I just rolled my eyes.
"Yeah, your brother tossed me to the pool as soon as I arrived."
"And? There is my wardrobe filled with my shirts, why did you have to pick his?" he asked indignantly. I needed to laugh on how much he was annoyed by it.
" It was the closest, it doesn't matter " I shook my head and went back to the living room for my phone.
"Take it off" he came after me.
"One, as I said it doesn't matter and two, I don't have anything under this, so.." I said and looked up to him from my phone while I bit my lip. Before our eye contact would turn too heated I looked back to my phone to answer to my sister's massages. I was pretty good at ignoring him until he came behind me, trapped me between him and the dinner table and his hands started to move from my thighs slowly higher and higher. " Gray " I rebuked him when his hands were on my ass then moved to my stomach and from there higher to my boobs. Even though his touches made me feel good and sent shivers down my spine I still knew the whole thing was because he was jealous and he tried to show where I belong. And that's the part, what I didn't like.
"Take it off " he mumbled to my ears again. At this point I didn't wanted to change it because he wanted me to do it. Of course my stubborn self jumps out every time she has a chance.
"No "I replied with a light smile and tried to free myself between him and the table. As I was on my way out from the living room I looked back over my shoulder. His eyes sparkled in dark colors, his lips were pressed into a thin line and he looked up and down on my body before I disappeared behind the curtains..
The whole night I felt Grayson's burning gaze on me whatever I did. While he grilled the vegetables I just chatted with Ethan on the patio chairs. A few times he joined us too, but something was definitely weird with him. He was more serious and more tense then usual, but he doesn't seemed angry. I just couldn't figure out what is it. Even if I went up to him and hugged him from behind next to the grill, he just looked back, smiled at me but it was still not the same. Every time I looked into his eyes I knew he could tell that I was curious about what is up with him, but all what he did is smirked at me and looked away.
After we finished our dinner Ethan of course disappeared to his room and didn't even thought about helping us with the cleaning or dishes. I wanted to bring the plates to the kitchen when Grayson came after me, took the plates out of my hand and placed them on the table before he hugged me. I thought he is finally acting like himself and trying to be cute and soft, but he suddenly lifted me from the ground and run towards the pool with me, like his brother did a few hours ago.
"No, no no, my hair just dried" I screamed, but it was too late and I landed again in that stupid pool with the other twin. " Honestly why are you two feel the need to do this?" I rolled my eyes after I came up from the water and tried to push my hair back from my face. Grayson didn't responded, his face was still serious while he pulled me closer to his body and I felt how his hands grabbed the shirt's material on me and he started to lift it up on me.
"Take it off " he mumbled to my lip.
" Oh my god, you are seriously still bothered by this fucking shirt?" I asked with a light giggle, but that smile quickly disappeared when he suddenly took off the shirt, so now I stood naked in front of him in the pool. I shut my eyes and tilted my head to the side when he moved closer and placed a few kisses on my neck and his hands moved to my ass and thighs, to encourage me to cross my legs around his waist under the water. "Gray" I breathed as he started to suck on the skin to give me hickey and he moved to the edge of the pool and simply sat me there and he stood between my legs still in the water. " Ethan 's gonna see us " I mumbled quietly while his lips still tortured my neck's sensitive skin. He knew how sensitive it was and how much he could turn me on only by kissing my neck.
" At least he's gonna know who's are you " he groaned to my skin. His hot breath sent shivers down my spine and my stomach flipped probably because of him and because of the location too.
"He knows I am yours " I breathed. My mind was way too foggy to even think about what he is saying because of his touches. As a cold wind came, it made my body shudder but at the same time Grayson's lips moved down to my chest and boobes and made my body heaten up again. I took deep sighs as I enjoyed his tounge's play on my nipples, while I arched my back to push myself even closer to him as the desire for him just built and built in me.
In the meantime his hand started to move lower and lower on my stomach, his soft hands brushed softly on my skin till he reached my inner thigh. Since he was still in the pool, and I sat on the side his view as he opened my legs was pretty good, maybe that's why he licked his lips as his gaze moved there from my eyes, and when he looked back I could read from his eyes how frustrated he was. He wanted and desired me, and probably saw the exact same thing in my eyes too.
"Fuck you are so wet" he smirked when he brushed his thumb on my pussy for a second. My chest grew as I took a big sigh because of his sudden touch.
"Probably because I was in the pool two minutes ago" I replied angelicly, like I had no idea what is he talked about, but in reality I was way too sure about it. My whole body tingled and desired him to be finally in me or at least do something.
The air got caught in my throat when he suddenly grabbed the back of my knees and pulled me back to the pool. Our body pressed together as he pushed me against the side of the pool and grabbed my ass as he slowly let me to get lower and be in the water again, till his cock was against my entrance. I didn't even realized when did he removed his pants but it really bothered me that his mascular body was covered by the wet white tee that was pressed on his soft skin. Before anything happened I grabbed the hem of his shirt and removed it from him.
I bit my lip and looked deep into his eyes while be slowly started to move inside me. A satisfied moan left both of our lips as he stretched my walls and moved deeper and deeper till he bottomed out and stopped for a second. His lips met with mine again, his kiss was hard and passionate and a I moaned to his lips when he slowly moved. In and out. My whole body heated up, his touches burnt my skin wherever he touched me and my brain started to get foggy. I didn't cared where we were or who could hear or see us. The full feeling was so incredibly good, and his heavy breaths next to my ear that mixed with a few masculine groan just turned me on even more.
" Why did you acted like that today?” I asked. I barely found my voice, and my words were quite.
"Since you sent that fucking picture I am waiting for this moment" he sighed and he thursted even harder and deeper till he got a quiet moan from me. " I was frustrated.." he added as he groaned to my neck, then looked into my eyes with a smirk. " You can't even imagine how good it is to finally be inside you, angel" he said.
His dirty words made me blush, so I looked away from his face that made him smile a bit. He held me by my bum close to his body as he started to move his hips faster.
"Oh" I moaned loud when he hit a good spot with every thurts and my body slowly started to shake because of how good it felt.
"Here?" he breathed. At this point my mind was so foggy that his deep voice just added to the pleasure.
"Yes, exactly there" I whimpered as I started to feel the knot in my stomach and since Grayson perfectly hit that spot harder and deeper, my orgasm built fast. I hid my face in his neck to try to cover my loud moans mixed with his name, till I cum. My whole body shook, tensed, then got relaxed and left behind heavy breathing.
Only a few seconds later as I tried to catch my breath I watched as Grayson fast placed me on the pool's side again, grabbed himself and a few strokes with his hand was enough for him to cum on my stomach. I bit my lip as I watched him. He was so hot how the muscles on his wet body tensed and he shout his eyes as he came.
When he opened his beautiful eyes again he immediately looked deep into mine and leaned over to place a soft kiss on my lips.
Since the weather started to get really chilly because of the wind, we quickly stood up and decided to go back to the house. Since I didn't wanted to go back naked and risk to meet with Ethan, lack of better I put on Grayson's wet shirt. The cold and wet mettirial sent shivers down my spine, and Gray quickly realized how cold I was and stepped closer to me and hold me in his arms for a few seconds. Before we went into the house I looked up at him with a wide smile and balanced on my tippy toes to give him a small kiss on the lips.
"I'm fucking moving out. Ew" said Ethan when we suddenly met with him in the kitchen on our way to Gray's bedroom. I bit my lip as I tried to hide my grin and crossed my arms in front of my chest, since the white wet tee doesn't do much to cover me. "I never wanted to hear you moaning his name" he shook his head dramatically that made me giggle.
"Get used to it" grinned Grayson and immediately started to run when Ethan went to his direction.
After I took a shower it was nice to get under the covers in the bed. Even after the hot shower I was still cold because of our crazy night on the yard. As Grayson joined me to the bed I used the opportunity to toss my blanket to the side and went under his instead to cuddle. His skin was still hot from the shower when I hugged his body and rested my head on his chest.
"Who are you and where is the girl who I know and don't like cuddles?" looked down to my face Grayson with a big smile on his face before he placed his phone over me on the nightstand.
"I'm cold" I mumbled to his chest and took a big sigh when he hugged my body even closer to his and pulled up the blanket to cover us completely. I instantly started to warm up because of how close I was to him.
I've never thought that one day it's gonna be that easy to be that close to a man in such a short time. In the beginning I was tense around him, but as the time went by the tenseness turned into a excitement every time I saw him. Maybe that's what butterflies in the stomach feels like in the romantic books..
I wasn't even surprised that a few moments later Grayson's breath got steady and he already fell asleep. I was always jealous at him for being able to fall asleep that quickly, but to be honest next to him it was a lot faster and easier to me too. I honestly have no idea when did I turned into this girl who is obsessed with a guy, but I kinda liked her. It was new to me, but for the first time in my life it was nice to show my emotions and gave myself fully into it without concerns.
"You need to tell everything" said Corinna probably the 5th times today. I felt bad for not spending as much time with her like before, so I thought we could have a little girly day. We went to get our lash extensions done first, and later went to a restaurant for launch.
" What do you wanna hear?" I asked while we sat in the restaurant's balcony and read the menu to try to pick something for myself.
"First are you together? Like official?"
"No, I mean I don't know. We never said we are a couple, but we act like it" I replied that made her frown her brows. " I am gonna be gone in less then a year Corinna, maybe it's gonna be easier if it's not official or I don't know. It's hard" I sighed.
"A million and one people lives in a long distance relationship even from their husbands. It can work" she shook her head. "Of course it's not gonna be easy, but I think you two can work it out. "
"We will see I guess."
Our depressing conversation thank god was interrupted by the waiter who took our orders. I hate that I always need to worry about something in every single one of my life stages. I can't wait for the moment when I live with my husband in a happy relationship while I am pregnant in our home somewhere and I don't need to worry about whats gonna happen in a year or two.
Everytime I thought about the end of the year, when I am gonna go home, I wanted to stop the time and didn't wanted to realize that the weather is started to get warmer as we went to the spring. I don’t even wanna think about how fast time can go and all I’m gonna realize soon is that it’s summer and there is the winter when I leave everything here. I always tried to not talk about it to anyone, and even if I thought about it I tried to distract myself. It was easier like this.
"When you first mentioned Grayson as a "celebrity crush" I've never have thought that he is gonna be your almost boyfriend a year later" grinned Corinna and took a sip from his limonade.
"I secretly hoped" I bit my lip, while my eyes moved from Corinna to the streets behind her. I saw myself from one year ago on those streets, I was so lost and didn't know what's the future is gonna bring. She would probably look at my today self as I laugh carefree in a restaurant's balcony and be jealous as hell. " You know I always love to get what I want."
" You need to teach me this" she laughed.
"You should be more confident first. The boys love that, and the girls gonna hate you for that " I said. I really thought this is the case though for real. I realized when I started to take care of myself and of my body it had a good impact on my life. I hate hearing things from teenagers like, omg I hate myself, I am ugly or anything. I never in my life said the word ugly to myself, I love myself way too much to say that and no one should do it either. If you don't love yourself first nooe can either. You need to accept how you look and then show the word how unique and beautiful you are. No not perfect, but beautiful. And it's not about weight, height or hair or skin color. It's about you.
After we finished our lunch we ended up going to the mall. We looked around in a few shops and bought some things, since the spring and summer was already on our neck. Every time there is a gap between meeting Corina I always realize why is she my best friend. Maybe if she wasn't here, I would have never end up with Grayson and my life would be a lot more boring in general. I was glad she was in my life.
Our last destination was a Victoria's Secret store. Corinna already teased me for even coming here, but I just tried to handle her and say I only wanna see the Pink sanction for some lounge wear to the house. Her grin was not even surprising when I ended up at the sexy lingerie section after the hoodies were in my hands.
" Is the prince has a specific desire?" asked Corinna jokingly.
"I buy this for myself, you fool " I rolled my eyes. I didn't even wanna mention that her sentence made me remember that Gray's favorite lingerie color is red, so I looked in that direction more. When I found a really cute and scandalous two peace and searched for my size, I gave my stuff to Corinna and went to the dressing room with it in my hand.
I really liked how the lingerie fit me, after I put it on and looked at myself in the mirror. It had enough push up to make my boobs look bigger and rounder, and since the whole thing was lace, from close not much left to the imagination either on the high waisted thongs, but maybe enough to Grayson to make his imagination move around a bit. So with these thoughts in my mind I picked up my phone from my bag and stepped in front of the mirror. I pushed my hips slightly to the side, squeezed my stomach in and placed the other hand in my hair that I throw to one side. After I took a few picture I dressed up and I ended up sitting down in the dressing room to pick my favorite photo, that I could send to him.
Me: I like this set :) - I added the innocent massage next to it and bit my lip as I pressed the send button. I ended up putting my phone in my bag and was not even surprised on Corinna's angry look, because she needed to wait for me so much. I just took my stuff from his hands and went to the cashier with her on my side.
We spent the whole day walking around, it was not surprised that we ended up tired a bit so from the shop we went straight to Corinna's car.
While she concentrated to driving I took my phone again and opened Grayson's massage to my photo.
Grayson: how many times do you wanna cum today?
His massage made my stomach flip and I needed to press my thighs together while I tried to hold back my giggle. I bit my lip to cover that stupid grin on my face, and shook my head because of his crazy massage.
Me: since I sleep at Corinna's today, ew none - I replied since I promised her that this whole day is hers without boys.
Grayson: i hope you wish i was in you right now, angel
First I just saw the massage but then when the picture popped up I thought, fuck it, I am coming over for an hour. For real though, his massage and the picture sent tingling feeling all over my body. He really knew how to hit back because of my picture. He looked like a fucking goddess, and even the thought that he was sweaty from working out but he probably would look like this after a few hours with me in the bedroom too, made me really wish to sleep in his house today instead of Corinna's.
"God, M" said suddenly Corinna.
"Hm?"
"I need a man he makes me grin on my phone like you now " she looked at me.
"Shut up. How do you know I'm not texting to i don't know, my mom?"
"Probably because it's in the middle of the night in Hungary and I am sure you are not blushing from your mom's massages" she laughed.
"I am not" I giggled and checked myself in the car's mirror to make sure my foundation covered my red face well. "I don't know what you are talking about" I added when I saw everything is fine and the coverage saved me from getting caught.
"I fucking know you" she rolled her eyes and just shook her head while laughed at me for not admitting that she was right. I was glad he didn't saw Gray's massages.
Me: fuck..i wish - I replied to Grayson and ended up putting my phone away before anything else happens. I didn't wanted to talk about it more with Corinna either.
We planned that our night is gonna be a lazy chilling night. We watched a movie, but we basically didn't even payed attention because we kept talking next to our glass of rose. We really needed to catch up in a lot of things even though we always talked on the phone every day, but it was not the same.
Our night turned a bit crazy probably around two am when we got tipsy and went down in our pjs to in front of Corinna's house, where were a playground with a swing. It was probably ten years ago when I set in a swing the last time, but I really enjoyed how the wind caught my hair when I pushed myself away. That's why I loved being around Corinna. I never had to control myself, I just knew I can do anything, she is gonna understand it and probably do the same thing. We completed each other and I was really grateful for her stepping into my life. There was a phase in my life when I haven't really had real friends. I've had a lot of buddys, but I felt like if i would be in trouble the only people I could have called is my family. Now I know the error wasn't in me, I just didn't searc in the right place.
"Are you in love, like for real?" she asked now in a more serious voice. I smiled and slowed down with my swing till we both stopped and just sat next to each other while we talked.
" I am really into him. It's crazy " I giggled.
" It's fine, I am happy for you. You really deserve it finally."
"It's just new and weird. I don't need to play around and I just know he loves me and I never experienced anything like this " I replied. The light smile never faded from my face every time I thought about him and I wished he would be in front of me just to give him a big hug. Only a few days went since we saw each other, but I already felt like I started to miss him. We loved that both of us had their own life, we don't spent every single day together and still had time to everyone else around us.
"The strong and independent M, who is now melting from a boy. Who would've thought?"
In the morning I wasn't even surprised how hot I was again. The blanket was on me and basically Grayson laid half on me as well. I smiled slightly when I lifted my head and saw how he laid on his stomach and his left hand and half of his body covered me. It's always made my heart flutter when I thought about that he wanted to be close to me when he was asleep and wasn't aware of what he is doing. We always fell asleep close to each other, sometimes we cuddle but no matter what I always wake up tightly in his arms, or me pressed under him while he holds me close. And what's surprising is how much I love sleeping with him. When I was alone I always said how much I love sleeping alone, my whole bed is mine etcetera, but it's so different when someone who means so much is there with you. You can hear his steady breathing and you can tell how much he loves to be close to you too.
Sometimes I think I am just the one who loves to be in his arms and basically I am fangirling over him, but then he does something or looks at me in a certain way that shows me that I am just overthinking and should show him my feelings. Basically he is the one who teaches me to feel and to love.
After I waited for a few seconds without moving to not wake him up I lifted my head up and saw that he still slept deeply. I bit my lip as I tried to slip out under him. When he took a deep breath and moved to a different position I thought he woke up, but soon enough his breathing got steady again and I smiled how he calmly still was asleep.
In the bathroom I quickly brushed my teeth, took a shower - because our shower was last night everything, just not a proper shower - and I wrapped a towel around my body before I went out to the room, where Grayson was finally up and he lifted his head up when I opened the bathroom door.
"Good morning" I smiled and sat down on the side of the bed to lean in for a kiss.
" It would have been better if you would still in bed with me" he said in a grumpy voice that made me giggle. His hair was messy, voice was deep, looked super hot and it was funny how it mixed with the cute grumpy comment.
"I always wake up before you" I shrugged my shoulders and went to my beg, picked up my makeup bag and placed it in front of the mirror. " Look at me " I turned to his direction. "First these." I pointed to my hickey covered neck "..or these" I turned to the side to show him the purple and green spots where he held my thighs last night. He frowned his brows for a moment as his gaze moved all over my body and probably remembered how I got these, and a light smirk spread on his face.
"Come here" he reached for my arm. As I walked closer to the bed as soon as my hands were in his, he pulled me in to the bed. Since I was on him he moved to the side and now he was on top of me. First he just looked into my eyes with a cute smile, but then he got serious when he looked down to my neck and brushed his hands on my thighs." I am sorry " he mumbled to my neck and placed soft kisses on my skin.
"Babe I didn't even noticed them before I looked into the mirror. I was joking" I said while I brushed my hand through his soft hair a cressed his nape with the other. I didn't wanted to make him feel bed, especially when I looked back and remembered how good he made me feel when he gave me these. The whole day was yesterday steamy but still dreamlike.
"You are so beautiful" he said quietly, after he lifted his head and looked at me for a few seconds. I just bit my lip and turned my head to the side to avoid the eye contact. I hated when he made me blush. "And you still can't handle compliments " he laughed. That was true. I just blush and then I got annoyed because I hate the feeling of it and in the end I always just laugh or try to escape from the situation.
"Can I go now?" I asked when he placed his head on my chest and got comfortable again. His response was just a quiet humming, but he still didn't move to anywhere and it made me laugh again. In the meantime I felt how the towel is only inches away to slip down so it was a another reason for me to wake up. I tried to move around under him and tried to grab the towel on my chest to stop it from sliding down.
" I don't mind if it's gone" he grinned and moved his hands under the towel and moved them up and down on my naked body under it.
"Gray, let me go" I giggled and tried to push him down from me, but it wasn't a surprise that I couldn't move his large and heavy body.
Finally after a few moments of pleading and a long kiss later he let me wake up from the bed. I went to the mirror, while he went to the bathroom. My hair looked awful after the ocean swimming and that shower at night, so lack of better I tried to do two french braid. The end result was everything, just not perfect but I felt like it still looked better, then before when it was all frizzy and bad.
When Grayson came out from the bathroom he got my attention in the mirror's reflection. The towel was super low on his waist, his skin was glowy and still a bit wet from the shower and I didn’t even wanna talk about the muscular smell that he brought with himself. I really tried to concentrate on my brows, that I tried to do but I kept looked to his direction where he started to dress up.
"Like what you see?" he said suddenly. I bit my lip as I tried to hide my cheeky smile for getting caught, while he turned to my direction to buckle his belt.
"I don't know what you are talking about" I rolled my eyes that made him laugh.
"Agh, just admit that you are into me" he shook his head.
"I would never do that" I giggled and continued my make up to show him even more that I am not even interested in what he is saying. I just smiled when I saw the corner of my eye that he is a little bit annoyed for not getting the answer what he wanted. He knew how much impact he has on me, but he knows too that talk about these stuff and about my feelings out loud is hard for me. I feel more safe if there are things that I am the only one who knows, and I really need to trust someone to open up and change these things.
After I finished my make up I went to the bathroom. I picked up a high waisted ripped jean shorts with a white ribbed top and my leather jacket. We put our stuff together in the room, gave back the keys and was on our way to the bike in the parking lot.
"Hey" I poked his waist when he slapped my bum as I walked in front of him, and he just grinned on my giggle and placed a long kiss on my lips. I am kind of used to the fact that his hands somehow always ended up on my ass, but for real I liked it. I mean they belonged there, don't they?
Less than half an hour later we ended up in a typical american diner place to have some breakfast. It was a nice and quite place, only two table was reserved besides ours. It was a relief compared to most diners in Los Angeles, that were always busy.
While I ate my breakfast I wasn't even surprised when my thoughts were all over the place again as my gaze moved around on Grayson in front of me. I remembered that I saw this white tight shirt on him when I first met him in the salon. Goosebumps run over my spine when I thought back to how much I desired his touches even then and how much I got what I wanted for example yesterday. I needed to close my thighs together under the table, I hated how much impact he still has on me, It's enough to look at him and my body is reacting immediately.
" I love this shirt on you " he said. As I looked into his eyes I saw how his eyes moved down to my boobs for a moment, before he looked up again and a light smile spread on his face.
"You are so annoying" I rolled my eyes and put my hands in front of them.
"You don't wear a bra next to me and it's drives me fcking crazy" he whispered, so no one around us could hear it. His words made me giggle and of course deep down I liked his words. I would never rock a no bra look, if he wouldn't be next to me to be honest.
"I want a new tattoo" I diverted the topic. I thought about this in the past few days now, I just never mentioned it for anyone yet.
"What? Where?" he asked and took another bite from his pancakes.
"I have an idea, but I am not sure yet" I smiled. " I want something that reminds me of LA."
To be honest I already knew what I wanted, I was just afraid of telling him. It's something that reminds me of this trip and LA, yeah, but there is something else behind it too..or someone else, and it is him. I know a tattoo is something that's gonna be there forever, but I knew I wanna remember these months no matter what happens in the future. It teached me so much about myself and my feelings, I felt like I am a complete new person. And of course I wanted it because I knew I sound crazy and maybe I shouldn't doing it. I am a mess.
From the diner we ended up going to Daniel's salon instead of home. Since I said out loud the tattoo, I wanted it even more and I got all excited for it. At this point Grayson is probably used to my spontaneous crazy ideas, but he never said no yet so he probably enjoyed it.
"Come on, tell me what you want" asked Grayson for the 10th times after we parked the bike in front of the tattoo salon. Since our breakfast all he talked about was my tattoo and to figure out what was my plan, but I just laughed at him and kept it as a secret.
"You will see" I replied and placed a kiss on his grumpy face before we entered to the shop.
I already called Dan and since he had time to do a quick little tattoo for me,he welcomed us with a big smile on his face.
"Hey, what's up? What's the plan?" asked Daniel after he gave me a hug and a high five to Gray.
"She wants a tattoo, but she doesn't tell me what" said Grayson with a big sigh that made me and Dan laugh out loud too.
"At this point I'm not telling him on purpose" I shook my head. Grayson just rolled his eyes on my words and sat down to one of the beds, while I went with Daniel to the table to explain him what I wanted.
Grayson stood curiously next to the bed after I laid down. I saw how his jaw clenched as I turned to my side and pushed up my shirt. I really tried to do it in a way to not show anything, but I had to push it really far up, so Daniel had the place under my boob to the tattoo. I wanted it to be under my left boob, in a place where even if I have a bra on the tattoo still shows. I could tell that my actions made Grayson even more grumpyer then he was before. He was so jealous.
He crossed his arms in front of his chest and watched Daniel sitting down next to me to the chair and placing the sample on my skin. I bit my lip while I watched Grayson's reaction, when Daniel lifted the sample and Grayson saw what he planned on tattooing on me. ANGEL. He frowned his brows after he stared for a few seconds to the tattoo, then looked up to my eyes. I sent him a light smile, that made him smile too, but I knew he was still super surprised.
"Are you two still "just friends", like you said in San Francisco?" asked Daniel, while he picked up the tattooing machine and placed it on my skin.
"A few things changed since then" replied Gray and I could tell that he was deep in his thoughts. The tattooing wond's feeling was a little uncomfortable on my skin, but it wasn't too bad. I already knew what it feels like. " How much time do you have after this?" he asked Daniel. I thought maybe he wanna invite him for a cafe or something to talk. " I want a new tattoo too" he added and now I was the one who was surprised.
"What?" I asked.
" You will see" he said like me in the past few hours and now I really knew what it is to be grumpy and annoyed by this answer. " Is it hurts?" he placed his hand on my thigh and looked up to my eye from the machine.
" It's alright" I shook my head,but honestly felt nice. He always knew how to say something that has the biggest impact on me.
Since my tattoo was pretty small and easy, a few minutes later I was in front of the mirror to see my tattoo. I really loved how it looked on my skin and my stomach flipped when I thought about the meanings behind it.
"Let me see" I stepped between the boys where Daniel draw on the table and Grayson watched his movements. I thought he is not as evil as me and let me check the paper after he placed his hand around my waist. On the paper there were angel wings and my heart started to race in my chest. "Why angel wings?" I looked up to his eyes, and he just laughed and placed a kiss on my forehead.
"Now you gonna be there with me always, angel " he mumbled to my ear. I bit my lip, my whole body was covered in goosebumps and I didn't even knew how to react. I ended up hugging his upper body till Daniel finished the draw on the paper.
"See I already said in the trip that it's more, but you acted like a crazy chick for even saying it "shook his head Dan. "And now you doing a tattoo with him."
"It's..complicated" I replied with a smile. It really was to be honest.
While Daniel started to work on the tattoo on Grayson's thighs my eyes moved around on his other tattoos on his thighs. I loved his tattoos, all of them was unique and fit him. I always find it cute how he is not brave enough to do a upper body tattoo and all of them are on his legs. The small angel wings almost got lost next to the other tattoos, but it was big enough to catch the attention and it was really weird to know that from now on it's gonna be there forever and every time he's gonna look at it, he is gonna think of me and this crazy weekend.
A few hours later I laid on Grayson's bed. The white top rode up on me because of my position and exposed my tattoo under my boob. I saw how Grayson's eyes moved there, and he ended up moving on top of me. I laid down my back on the bed with a light smile, and that smile just grew even bigger when he placed a really soft and gentle kiss on the sensitive skin. I got goosebumps from his touches and kisses, and even because of his gaze that was so strong when he looked up into my eyes.
"You know I love this tat right?" I mumbled, and his eyes moved to the tattoo again. " Love seeing you getting goosebumps because of me. You are my girl."
The air got caught in my throat for a moment when I heard his words. Am I really? In the first place my answer would be no. I am my own and I don't wanna be anyone else's. But in this situation everything was so intimate and their words sounded so nice. I let my bed thoughts to fade away and smiled at him after he looked up again to my eyes a few silent seconds later. He moved upper and I giggled as he hid his face in my neck and his hands moved between my body and the bed so he could hug me and hold me tight to his body. When he moved his head and looked deep into my eyes again in silence I started to blush and wanted to ask him what is in his mind, but he was faster and he said them out loud.
"I love you" he whispered. My lips parted from being so surprised and my whole body tensed up. I remembered back to my last night thoughts when exactly that was in my mind too and how much I was scared from it. I opened my mouth to say something, but he shook his head to show that he wanna say something else. "You just mean so much to me.." he started. "..I know I never said this earlier but I was afraid that you gonna toss me away or you don't feel the same way."
I really tried to handle this situation well but my thoughts were so messy and foggy. He scared me and made me happy at the same time. My thoughts raced in my head, while he just stared deep into my eyes and tried to understand me. It was hard for me, but I know I would never wanna hurt him. Don't wanna hurt him with the lie or with the truth. He meant so much to me, but I always was a cold girl who struggles to open up.
"You mean so much to me too" I said with a big sigh. He frowned his eyebrows and I got disappointed, when he moved to the side from me. For showing that I don't wanna say anything bed I moved closer to him, placed my hand on his face to make him look into my eyes. I know he is afraid from me saying it's not something I feel. He knew me, he knew that it is a really big work to melt me but he was on the right way for sure. "A few years ago I've had a vow for myself. In that time I kinda started to lose hope in love and I wasn't even interested anymore that much, but I was still so disappointed. I felt like everyone finds someone, while I am not able to do it and not able to like a guy enough to start a relationship or have deep feelings. And since I was afraid, angry and disappointed at the same time I've had a thought that I don't even wanna say it to anyone, only for the men at the altar for the first time in my life next to the I do" I said and it's kinda sounded stupid saying it out loud. " But I really wanna say it in this moment, and I already wanted yesterday night too but I was afraid" I bit my lip and saw how a light smile spread on Grayson's face.
"You are so special. I don't want you to say it just so I can feel better. I can wait till our wedding" he smiled, and a light giggle escaped from my mouth. " But you need to know that if I am there, there is no need to be afraid of anything. I thought you already know that you can open up to me about anythi.."
" I love you" I said it suddenly cutting him of. There was still a huge smile on my face, that got just even wider when I saw that sparkle in his eyes and he pulled me to his arms. " I love you so much" I mumbled to his chest. " But it's still different in hungarian."
"How is it sounds in hungarian? Now you need to say it too" he whispered to my lips, and gave a small kiss before I could responde.
"Szeretlek" I said. It almost felt like my body is shaking a bit, the word sounded so foreign from my lips, and meant even more to me then saying it in english. That was the real world that I was afraid of, but now I can't take it back and it genuinely felt nice to say it out loud to him.
" I love you too" he responded in his own language. I felt like no one ever knew me as much as him.
Summary: exploring each other’s body, shower sex mixed with some fluff in the middle of nowhere in a motel.
5.01.'20
We set on the beach for a while in silence in each other's arms. We were both deep in our own thoughts and we just enjoyed each other's company without saying anything. Later we were on the bike again. We were in a really calm street, only a few cars were there where we stopped in a shop to buy some snacks and drinks, and continued our road. When I saw the motel neon sign I almost felt like I am in a movie and I got excited again. The lady who was in the office was probably around her sixties and she welcomed us with a huge smile on her face and she picked up the old book to check us in. She seemed super nice and looked excited to have us here. She probably doesn't have too many guests even though the place seemed quiet nice and had good vibes there. It looked exactly like the motels in american movies or music videos.
"You are such a nice couple, hope you enjoy your time here" said the lady and a light smile spread on my face while my hold tightened in Graysons hand.
"Thank you, have a great night" replied Grayson after he signed the paper, grabbed the keys and pulled me after him to our room's way. I jumped on his back with a loud laugh in the silent parking lot and I even tried to not scream too loud when he pretended to lean back and throw me down from him but still held my leg so I couldn't fell off.
" I am finally taller than you" I looked down at him when he sat me down to a metal box that was on the wall. I run my hand through his soft hair and pulled it a little to lift up his head so I could kiss him. First I just wanted to give a kiss on his lips, but I smiled to the kiss when I felt his tongue on my lower lip and let him deepin our kiss. He always did that, a small kiss on the lips was never enough for him and I adored it. Before our kiss could turn more passionate he tried to move away, but I bit his lower lip, and it made him groan into our kiss.
"Come on" I jumped off from the box and now I was the one who grabbed his hand and pulled him after me. " I can't open it if you do that " I giggled in front of our room's door what I tried to open, but he kept kissing and biting my neck and his hands were all over my waist and bum.
A few seconds later I finally was able to open the door. Our room was small, but quite cute. There was a big double bed with two nightstands, an old tv next to a dresser and a mirror and a door to the bathroom. Since both of our clothes were still wet from the ocean we started to took of the wet clothes a few minutes after we arrived.
" Can I wear that? I don't think you need it" I said when Grayson stepped to his bag and pulled out a shirt. There was a cheeky smile on my face while I asked it, I already liked being in his clothes and it was just a plus for me, if he needs to be shirtless the whole time because of it.
He shook his head with a light smile and reached the shirt to me, but when I grabbed it he didn't let it go, he pulled me closer to him with it. As soon as I was in his arms his lips touched mine, our kiss got deep and he sat on the bad and pulled me to his lap without even breaking the kiss.
" I don't think you need it either" he mumbled to my lips, and grabbed my t-shirt 's material and pulled it out from my jeans. I let him to remove it from me, I saw how his gaze moved down to me boobs that were covered in that cute lacy bra, but before he could enjoy the view too much I put his shirt on my body. I had to laugh how he frowned his brows to show me how much he hated it, but I just stood up from his lap and took off my wet jeans too since Grayson's shirt reached down to my thighs. In the mirror's reflection I saw how Grayson watched my movements as I tried to put my hair in a bun. I couldn't read in his mind but I could tell that in thoughts he was somewhere else and he totally zoned out.
" I am hungry " I said after I was done with my hair. " Can we order something to here?"
Lack of better Grayson called the lady in the reception who gave us a number to order pizza. While he was on the phone I put the snaks that we bought to the bed and opened some sweets.
"Catch it " I said and tried to throw a gummy bear to his mouth and laughed how the bears keep landed on his face and chest, but never in his mouth where I tried to throw them even if he leaned and tried to catch them.
" Try to aim" he grunted, but there was a smile on the corner of his lips as he looked at me.
" I'm trying"I said and laughed again when he clapped when the bear finally landed in his mouth. "Let's take pictures, I wanna remember these moments" I reached for his hand and pulled him to the mirror that was next to the door on the wall. I bit my lip as I looked at ourself in the mirror and he immediately hugged me from behind and held me tightly in his arms. He hid his face in my neck, while one of his hand was on my waist but the other one pulled up the shirt slightly on my stomach when I took the picture. I just laughed and shook my head when I checked it on my phone.
" Now take one for me too " he said so I stepped back in front of him and stared surprised at him when he tried to took off the shirt. That cheeky smile on his face made me give up pretty quickly and let him to remove it from my body. Now I blushed even more, so I gave the phone to him and turned my back to the mirror. Now Gray's hand moved down to my bum on the picture.
" Is it enough?" I asked and picked up the shirt from the ground. When I saw the smirk on his face I already knew he wanted something more, and this whole thing got way more heated and fun then I expected when we came here just to take some innocent pictures. "Hey " I laughed as his hand moved to my back to undo my bra. " You are crazy " I laughed and grabbed the phone from his hand to take the picture. Grayson stared at me for a few seconds in the mirror when I let the bra to fall off of me, but later he placed one of his hand on my waist, but the other moved up to my boobs to cover them. That picture was the sexiest and coolest thing that I've ever done. Grayson's hand gave my boobs the right amount of push up to look good in the picture and even though half of my face was covered by the phone, you could still tell how sexy and confident is that smile on my face, oh and Gray? He looked like a absolute goddess behind me with that deep gaze to the mirror.
" That's hot " I looked up at him after we checked the picture. " I keep this" I giggled.
"A-a, that's mine."
"Then take another one " I rolled my eyes. We could have just send the pictures to each other, but of course it was more exciting like this. Of course he was in too, so we went back to the position for the pictures. It was weird how comfortable I was in front of him half naked while his hands were on my boobs. I was his. " Okay now enough" I giggled.
"Now you have to help me out with this " he looked down to his boxer and when I moved down my eyes there too I saw how exciting our actions were for him and his grey sweatpants did nothing to cover how hard and big he was.
I bit my lip as I went to the bed, sat down on it and looked back at him with a defiant look. My heart beated so fast in my chest when he came closer and set down next to me. I sat on his lap and pushed him by his shoulders to his back meet the bed. His eyes sparkled and there was still a cheeky smile on his face as he looked up at me. I really would have love to admire him more, but instead of this I placed my lips on his for a hard kiss. First I just placed a long kiss on his lips, then I deepened it to make it more passionate. When I felt him getting more into it and his hands moved down to my ass I broke our kiss and moved lower and lower with my lips on him. I let tiny kisses first on his jawline and neck then on his chest and stomach. I looked up at his eyes for a moment and when I saw how turned on he already was I just wanted to do it more. I bit his soft skin on his stomach, that made him breath heavier while my hands moved to his pants. He lifted his hips slightly to help me remove his pants and boxer too. I was excited from this situation. It was new to me again but I wanted to make him feel good even if I was not one hundred percent sure what to do. My lips roomed down to his thigh first to press a few kisses here and there, closer and closer to his cock, till I grabbed it and licked it from the base to the top.
"Oh fuck " he sighed. His hands grabbed the sheet next to him when I started to move my head up and down first only slowly. As I looked up to his eyes he was way too hot to handle it. His hair was messy and he kept closing his eyes as I moved. When I started to move faster a deep groan left his lips that just made me more confident in my movements. He was so attractive how he parted his lips, his skin become sweaty and kept throwing his head back to the pillow. Compared to his size there was no way to put his dick entirely in my mouth, so I pumped the rest with my hands, while I caressed his thigh with my nails with my other hand. " Oh my god" he moaned and moved his hand to my hair and pushed my head down gently. Giving him what he wanted I took him down more almost on my throat and swallowed around it that made his whole body tense up for a moment so I repeated it again. "Fuck baby, I'm gonna cum" he warned me that just motivated me to continue what I was doing. I pumped him harder and moved my head up and down a little faster too. His jaw clenched, his breathing got heavy and when I looked up to his eyes angelically he immediately came, that I swallowed and sit back down on my calf with a confident smile before I looked up at him.
The moment was disturbed by loud knocking on the door. I laughed quietly how fast he threw the blanket to himself, while I stood up, picked up the shirt from the floor and went to the door. It was the lady from the reception with our pizzas in her hand. The whole situation and timing was way too funny, even if I thought about the fact what if she comes five seconds earlier.
"Thank god she didn't come earlier " laughed Grayson, while he put on his boxer after I sat down next to him with the pizza boxes.
My growling stomach really showed me how hungry I was when I opened up the boxes. Grayson probably felt similar, because we ate in silent and just enjoyed that we finally has something normal to eat.
In the meantime my thoughts moved around, like always. As I looked back for the day I did things, that I never in my life before. I felt like I am not the same person as I was a few months ago, something changed. I am a lot more relaxed and I just tried to enjoy every moments in here without overthinking anything. The biggest surprise probably was Grayson, he was open for anything that I wanted to do. I think he never said no to anything that I came up with. Sometimes I feel like we are similar, like he is me in a men form. We have a similar humor, we interested in similar things and we love trying new and exciting things. Maybe the only difference is that he is a lot more ambitious, seems his goals more clear while I love living in the moment and not really worry about the future. It's kinda scary to see yourself in someone else and ask yourself where was he before? Then you realize probably that's why it never worked before with anyone else. Because they were just not him.
I took a big sigh when I layed back on the bed and held my stomach. I barely finished half of my pizza, while Grayson took his last slice from his to eat and just laughed at me.
" I can't eat more stop laughing " I giggled. I am that typical girl who loves to eat, but I can feel full with the tiniest portions.
After Grayson finished his pizza too I put away the boxes and let him close me in his arms while both of our attentions was on the tv. Gray took deep sighs as he switched between the programmes and I just laughed when he stopped on Spongebob. I think both of us were still children deep down. There is a saying, that I read before: the ones who god loves keeps children forever. Well it is sounds nice. I just enjoyed laying there in the middle of nowhere in a old motel room between his arms at two am while we watched a stupid cartoon and laughed on the jokes, that we probably already heard. I felt like everything's perfect, again.
"What are you doing?" I giggled when he kneed up on the bed and grabbed the back of my knees to pull me, so my back met with the mattress and made me spread my legs.
"I return the favor" he mumbled to my neck's sensitive skin and left soft kisses there.
I felt how my body tensed up then relaxed again because of his light touches and soft kisses. I bit my lip as I looked up to him when he removed his shirt from me and his eyes moved around on my body. Everytime he sees me naked his eyes darken and in those moments I feel like the hottest girl in the world. There is something in his gaze that makes fire in my body and boosts my confidence.
My thoughts got foggy quickly when his lips roomed from my neck to my boobs. He spoiled one with his hands while he moved around his tongue on the other. I closed my eyes and took big sighs and moved my hand to his soft hair and tried to switch of every thoughts in my head and just let him do whatever he waned to do with me.
" Everything on you is so beautiful and perfect for me" he mumbled to my skin and all I could do is giggle to his words. He looked up to my eyes with a light smile because of my reaction to his words and he moved up again to give me a long kiss on my lips. Before I could get into it he broke the kiss, moved lower again and I didn't even had time to think about anything because he already grabbed my thong and removed it. He laid down between my legs and tried to keep the eye contact with me after he spread my legs. I bit my lip, and really tried to not look away, I know he enjoyed that I am a bit tense and blushy because it was a new situation again for me. And I know he enjoyed it because he is the first ever who sees me like this and no one ever can took this away from him.
" Okay I feel like you stared enough, now you should do something" I said and he laughed on my sentence. I was sexualy frustrated. My whole body tingled and waited for him to do something since I gave him head and at this point I started to lose my patience.
"Are you excited, angel?" he grinned while I just rolled my eyes and took a deep sigh.
"I hate y..oh" I breathed when I felt Grayson's finger on me.
"Hm? What did you say?" he messed with me again, but all he got is a few quiet whimper. I bit my lip when I felt his hot breath on me and I started to lose my mind for him to finally do what I wanted. When his lips finally touched my pussy my lips let out a moan and grabbed the sheets next to me. Grayson lifted my legs by my knees to give him more space and sucked on my clit before his tongue started to play. My whole body relaxed for finally getting the feeling what I craved. As he got into a rhythm and looked up deep into my eyes I felt like my body grew weak. I whimpered and tried to move my hips for even more pleasure, but he placed his big hand on my stomach to push me down to the bed and keep me in place. Fuck, I loved when he controlled and dominated in bed. Nowhere else, but there.
" Oh god, Gray" I moaned when I started the feel the knot in my stomach and moved closer and closer to my orgasm. Grayson's groan sent vibrating feeling on my body, that caused my legs to shake, my muscles tensed up and moaned his name now even louder when I came. I closed my eyes tightly, my body flinched till it relaxed again with heavy breathings.
Grayson climbed up on my body with a confident smirk next to a few kisses on my body, till he hid his face in my neck and layed down on me, but still tried to keep his body weight on one arm to not crash me too much. My breathing was still fast from my intense orgasm but the soft kisses on my neck made me smile.
"You taste good, and you made me hard again" he mumbled to my skin and pressed his hips down to me to feel how hard he was again.
"Grayson " I giggled, while he just grinned and looked deep into my eyes. I tried to hide that moan that wanted to escape when he bit my lips and grabbed my bum to hold me close to his body as he grinded his hips against mine. " Do you wanna shower with me?" I asked. My voice was deeper than most of the time and sounded a lot more sexier. It was not a surprise how a light smile spreaded on his face while he stood up and reached for my hands to follow him.
As soon as we stepped into the bathroom he throw down his boxer and went to the shower to start the water and I just laughed on his excitement again. I quickly followed him too and looked up at him as I bit my lip while closed the shower certain behind me. It was a pretty small shower, so we already were close enough to feel his body warmth. Since he stood to the side to me I slowly placed my hands on his muscular arm and chressed the soft skin up to his shoulder, then I stepped closer to him to place a gentle kiss on it. A light smile spread on my face when I saw how he closed his eyes because of my touches and his chest grow from his big sigh he took. My body started to tingle even because of the way he looked, how he pushed back his wet hair or how the water drops played around on his wet and shiny skin. Before I could admire him even more my breath got caught in my throat as he placed his hands on my hips and pulled me to in front of him.
I felt like these moments were more intimate then any what I experienced with him before. The water splashed loudly on the floor while we stood in front of each other in silence and looked deep into each other's eyes. It was written on our faces how much we desired each other and how much we were obsessed with every single touches that the other person did.
As I stepped further a bit now the water reached me too. I tilted my head back, so the nice and warm water wet my hair, while Grayson took the opportunity and pressed his lips on my neck's sensitive skin. I tilted my head to the side to still give him space, and enjoyed with big sighs the kisses that turned to bitings and then hickeys. I bit my lip as I closed my eyes and moved my hands to his chest, till his lips left my skin leaving a burning feeling. As he looked into my eyes again I tried to keep the eye contact a while, but then my gaze moved to his lips that I desired to be on mine. Moving closer to me his hands hugged my waist, he moved his face closer to mine, close enough to chress his nose against my heated up cheeks.
"You make me fucking crazy" he mumbled a few inches away from me and it started to feel like this is a torture at this point. All I could think about was his kiss but at the same time my stomach flipped because of his words.
"Kiss me, finally, please" I whispered. I could see how his brown eyes turned to darker colors again and he did what I asked, and placed his lips finally against mine. The kiss was already hard and passionate. As soon as his tongue met mine a sigh left my lips, and that sigh turned into a moan when he pressed my body against the cold tiles behind me and captured me with his large body. I crossed my arms around his neck and tried to move closer to his warm body then to the cold tiles, and as my boobs pressed against his chest he groaned to our kiss and made it even more hard and passionate.
His hands started to move around on my body. He touched every single one of my curve, grabbed hardly my ass till he placed both of his hands on my thigh. I needed to break or kiss to catch my breath when he lifted me up and his length pressed against my folds. Both of our chest moved up and down fast and we looked deeply into each other's eyes again. There was fire between us. I bit my lip again when I looked down and see him grabbing himself and placing his cock into my entrance.
"I wanna feel you so bad" he said when I gave him a confused look, and I tensed up when I felt him in me, moving deeper and deeper. He hid his face in my neck while he continued his movements. It was new, but amazing to feel him without anything between us. "Oh fuck, so tight and warm" he breathed to my ear. I enjoyed the full feeling with closed eyes. I felt on him that he is so tensed up, his breathing is heavier than anytime before and he tries to hold back his moans. He was only able to do it till he started to move back and forth. He hid his face still in my neck and I knew that's his technique to try to hold himself together. Unlike him I moaned loudly and tilted my head back to the cold tales from the feeling. I tried to hold him close with my legs around his waist while my arms moved around on his shoulders. He drove me crazy when his hands moved down to my ass and hold me close to him against every thrust. He was so deep in me and it felt like heaven.
"It feels so good " I breathed that he replied with a quiet moan and started to move even more faster. There was fire in my body, and I felt like I am in the clouds when the intense feeling overwhelmed me and the knot tightened in my stomach with every thrust.
"I know baby..fuck I know. You are so perfect" he said. I was already way too overwhelmed by his action and now from his words too. As I looked into his eyes my mouth shaped an o form when I felt him touching my clit and moving his finger there in a circular motion to give me even more pleasure. It was just too much to handle. My legs started to shake and I felt how I lost the control over my body. " Look at me" he said when I closed my eyes because of the intense feeling.
I looked deep into his eyes, his hips moved even faster, my breathing was messy and I couldn't hold back the loud moans that escaped from my lips. My orgasm was intense, I was not able to control myself I just enjoyed the feeling and how my body tensed up then relaxed and my legs shook around his body.
A few more thrust later he pulled out and I reached down quickly and jerked him fast that was enough for him to cum intensly. I felt how his whole body flinched and a deep groan left his lips.
A last moan left my lips when he pressed his lips on mine suddenly and clasped our hands next to my body on the tiles. His kiss was way too hard and passionate, I felt like a couldn't breath so surprisingly now I was the one who tried to make our kiss slower and softer. I felt him smiling into the kiss, and that smile grown even bigger when he moved away and looked into my eyes.
He placed his hands on the back of my knees when I left his waist with my legs and I smiled how gentle he was as he just slowly let me move down on the tiles till my feet touched the ground. I just couldn't held back the quiet giggle when he placed his hands around my body and pulled me in for a tight hug. In this moment for the first time in my life ever a thought come up to my head. I never in my life wanted to say I love you to anyone, and I never said it, but now this was the only thing that could describe the feeling that I felt. It scared me. Grayson just knew how to be passionate but cute to me at the same time. I felt like he is my friend and my love too. I was afraid from this thought, but I didn't wanted to hold it back anymore. No, I didn't said it out loud but I accepted it in me that he was able to tattoo his name to my heart and it's gonna be there forever.
The next morning I woke up to the sun, that draw different shapes to the sheets. I needed a few seconds to realize where I was, especially when I couldn't even move. Grayson's heavy arms were tight around my waist, our legs were entangled under the sheets and I could feel his steady breathing next to the back of my neck. It was surprising how he held me so close to himself even when he was asleep.
It was weird to fell asleep in his arms again at night. To smell his masculine cologne, that poured from him and from the shirt too, that he gave me to sleep in, to feel his soft touches and to hear how his breathing got steady as he fell asleep slowly. It was not surprising he fell asleep a lot quicker than me, I tried to not move around to not wake him at night as I tried to not move around too much in the morning too, but it was a lot harder now. We probably spent most of our nighttime in this position, my whole body craved for moving to a different position finally. But at the same time I didn't wanted to wake up yet. It felt so nice to lay there in his arms and just listen to his gently breathing next to my ear in the morning sunshine. Filled me up with happiness and calmness.
A few seconds later I ended up moving around, and I was able to move to my back from my side without waking him up. His breathing got deeper and he moved his hand more to my stomach from my waist and then got steady again. A light smile spread on my face as I looked at him and saw his calm face. Seriously who am I and why am I so obsessed with a men? It almost felt like even my own thoughts were from a stranger, but I just needed to realize that for the first time in my life someone is closer to me then anyone even before him.
"You are gonna make me blush" he said suddenly, what made me jump as he scared me. A big smile spread on his face because of my reaction while he opened his eyes. " I'm sorry" he giggled and pulled me closer again to his body. His morning voice was raspy and deep and his movements were guiet slow too.
" Don't fall back asleep " I said so he opened his eyes again and turned his head to my direction.
"Why?"
"Because I am bored and my arms are numb. I am not used to a man controlling my movement while I sleep" I said and a smile showed up in both of our face. Everytime I referred to that he is first to me in anything, it almost seemed like it makes him proud and happy. His eyes always lights up and his smiles are always so genuine. Basically he acted like he didn't even heard what I said. He pulled me almost under him, hugged my body close to his and hid his face to my neck. " How are you so cuddly?" I giggled.
" I missed you" he mumbled to my neck. It was not a surprise how my stomach flipped while warmth spread in my body because of his words. I felt like I just keep falling to somewhere, and can't stop and save myself from it.
"I missed you too" I replied and I put my arms around his neck. The words sounded strange from my mouth, I never said it to a boy before. The whole love language was foreign for me that I tried to learn next to him till the day when it's gonna be more natural.
We still stayed in bed for a few minutes before Grayson finally woke up and went to the bathroom. I looked around on my social media profiles while he was there, and then took his place as he went to the kitchen to make some breakfast. I used the toothbrush that I bought yesterday, after Grayson plead me to stay over for the night and tried to create a decent face from the make up stuff that were on my bag always. I didn't minded myself without makeup, but I always tried to look better especially when I was with him. I put concealer under my eyes, bronzer on my face and to my lid and a mascara. It was simple but I already looked more awake and put together.
I still wore Grayson's shirt when I went to the kitchen after him from the bathroom and sat on the counter next to him to see how he moved around in the kitchen. It was quite a nice view I wasn't complaining, especially because he only wore a grey sweatpants.
After he put out the breakfast to three plates he turned around to face me and he came closer with a light smirk on his face. He put his hands on my thighs, and pulled me lower on the counter to our bodys to touch. I crossed my legs on his waist with a confident smile and put my hand under his chin to lift up his face and to kiss him. I only wanted a fast kiss on the lips, but as soon as his tongue brushed on my lower lip I let him to deepin it.
"Ew, it's way too early for this" said Ethan who just entered to the kitchen. Gray pulled over with a loud sigh while I just smiled on his and his brother's dramatic behaviour.
"We made breakfast to you, you can't say anything" I said.
" I did" rolled his eyes Grayson. I just laughed on him and grabbed a plate to go to the table with the two boys after me.
"So everything is okay with you two?" asked Ethan mosty looking at me a few minutes of silent eating later.
"I guess" I nodded and immediately felt Grayson's hand on my thigh.
"Thank god, my situation was so messed up in the past weeks."
He was right, that's why I never really talked or asked about Grayson from him. I know how close they are and I would never stand between them or say shit about Gray to him. I love their relationship and happy that they have each other no matter what.
After our breakfast I was the one who did the dishes for gratitude and put away the plates. We just were on our way to Grayson's room when I looked out from the front door and saw the two motorcycle there.
"You have a motorcycle?" I looked at Gray and he just nodded. " I didn't even know you have a licence for it" I continued to talk about it even after we went to the room.
" I do, but I thought you are interested in this" he sat down to the bad and pulled me to his lap.
" Let's go somewhere in the afternoon."
" Where?" giggled Grayson when he saw how excited I got.
"I don't know. Just go and maybe stay in a motel or something for the night. Only two of as" I mumbled to his ear and bit on his lobe. I felt his holding got tighter around me when he heard my sentence emphasis and I definitely enjoyed how he reacted to me. "Hm?"
" I'm in" he said and I jumped of from his lap and clapped with a loud laugh.
"But I need to go to work, and then home to grab some stuff and I come back later, okay?" I said after I remembered what I needed to do today.
I was already a little late because of my lazy morning with Grayson, so I needed to dress up fast and after I pressed a light kiss on Grayson's lips I was out from the house. The uber brought me to Veronica's house and I laughed how excited Sophie was when he saw me stepping in the door. She welcomed me with a big hug and I was happy to see her too. I missed her and I really was blessed with this job, for sure.
It was already around half four when I stepped in my apartment. After I took a shower lack of better I went to the room with a chips in my hand and sat down in front of my mirror to get ready to our little exciting trip. I just did my everyday makeup and put my hair in a ponytail because I was way too lazy to wash it again. I looked around for a few seconds on my lingerie drawer before I found a nice lacy black set, and I put on a black pants with a basic white tee and what a surprise, with my leather jacket. To a black backpack I put my stuff that I needed tonight and the next morning, and I felt like I am ready. The whole day I was miserable. I didn't even processed what happened yesterday with Grayson but I was way too excited for the night and what's gonna happen in the future.
After I got out from my uber I already saw Grayson in front of the house next to his motorcycle, while he did something on it. I felt the luckiest person in the word because of the fact that a men like him choose my company day by day. I always was a confident girl, but I felt like in America next to Grayson I just got even more confident in my skin then ever before.
I was behind him as I got closer, so I tried to go near him silently before I put my arms around his waist. I felt how he flinched for a second, but after he looked behind his neck and saw that it was me a wide smile spread on his face and he turned around.
" Hi " I smiled and crossed my arms around his neck now, while he just placed a kiss on my neck before moved away.
"What's the plan?" asked Grayson and zipped up the leather jacket on himself. I bit my lip as I looked up and down on him, this was the first time when I saw him in a leather jacket and since everyone knows how much I love this on men, the big smile on my face wasn't a big surprise. He was already a goddess in my eyes, but now he is even more. I already adored this trip.
" I don't know, drive around, maybe see the beach at night before finding a motel to sleep?" I explained what was in my head and it was really cute to see that excited smile on his face after my words. He was similar to me in this, he loved new adventures and spontaneous plans just like me. " The last time when I sat on a motorcycle I was six and I was with my dad" I said, while I brushed my fingers on the motorcycle leather seat and in my thoughts I saw myself sitting in front of my dad on his red motorcycle around fifteen years ago.
"That's cute, I didn't know your dad can drive a motorcycle."
"He can since he was seventeen, they loved going on trips with my mom. They even went when my mom was pregnant with me, and everyone in our family freaked out because what if something bad happens.."
" No way " he smiled. " I already like your family."
" They won't like you if something happens with us today, I hope you are good at riding this " I giggled.
" I am pretty good, but I am gonna be careful. I would never gonna forgive myself if something happens with you because of me, babe."
" I trust in you and it's gonna be fun " I said more silently after I stepped closer to him and crossed my arms around his neck. In this moment he was the only one who I trusted enough to sit on a bike besides of my dad. Biking can be dangerous, there is nothing around you that keeps you safe, but you sure get a experience that you never gonna forget.
I waited for a few seconds while he set up the bike and put away our stuff, and then handed me a helmet. I smiled back on his cheeky grin as I accepted it and let him help me climb up to the huge motorcycle behind him.
" Okay, you can hold onto this.." he pointed behind me to a metal thing in the two sides of the bike "..or me" he grabbed my hands and placed them on his waist.
"That's not a question" I smiled and placed a light kiss on his neck. I felt a lot safer feeling him than holding onto a metal thing on the bike.
"Bro, be careful but have fun" came out Ethan after Grayson started the engine under us. Ethan sounded like our dad, or big brother but it was cute from him. They did their handshake as a goodbye, while I put the helmet on my head.
"Are you ready?" looked back to me Gray, and I just excitingly nodded. I saw the light smile under his helmet before he winked and closed the helmet. As soon as the bike started moving under us I felt the adrenaline spread in my body. Till we still were in the yard Grayson hold my hand with one of his, but as soon as we ended up on the street he grabbed the handlebar with both hands and stepped on the gas pedal.
We've had a really long time to get used to the bike because of the huge traffic on the streets. We had to stop in every single red light and it was funny to see how people stared at us from the cars next to us. We probably looked pretty badass.
When we finally hit the highway and was on our way out from LA I took a sigh of relief a smiled as Grayson went a lot faster now in a really exciting tempo.
It's really hard to explain that feeling. You feel free, you can feel the speed on your own skin and all you wanna do is scream how exciting is this whole thing.
"That's so cool" I said and as Grayson moved his head a bit I knew he heard me and he probably smiled as big as me under the helmet.
I think that was the time when I really understood my parents. It's so different then sitting in the car, you are so close to each other and you trust each other when you sit on a bike with someone. In my head I saw my parents in 1996 in the same position as I was right there with Grayson. It touched me a little, especially because my parent's relationship is the biggest goal in love for me. They are so purely in love still with each other and I wish I am gonna end there with someone too. I know it's more complicated to me with Grayson, but I knew too that he has a special place in my heart already. He brought so much to my life and I am always gonna be grateful for these things, no matter what happens in the future.
As we went on the highway the sun went lower and lower and painted a amazing sunset in front of us. The whole world around as was in orange tones and looked breathtaking. I was grateful for being there and experience those moments.
Grayson ended up pulling over from the street half an hour later and I already heard the sound of the ocean after he stopped the bike under us in the parking lot. We put down our helmets and sent a big smile to each other as soon as we looked at each other.
"I can't believe I haven’t tried this earlier" I shook my head. I mean I never really had a opportunity and probably with someone else it wouldn't be the same but still. Grayson just laughed lightly and grabbed my hand to help me get off from the bike.
First we went next to each other to the ocean's direction, but soon enough I started to run with a loud laugh. The beach was dark, the moon's reflecton on the ocean was just beautiful and peaceful. I quickly took off my shoes and went closer to the ocean and let the water cover my feet then go back again. It was a little cold but bearable compared to the fact that it was january. In the meantime Grayson ended up next to me too and like me he bare feet went more to the ocean to feel the water on his foot. A few second later I placed my phone on a rock with the camera timer on. I pulled Grayson closer to me in front of the camera and tried to look decent on the photo, I knew these pictures gonna mean so much to me later on.
"Are we on it?" I asked Grayson, after he checked the photo.
"Yeah, kinda. Let's do another one" he said. As soon as he came back to me he grabbed my waist and had a weird smirk on his face. After I posed for a few second he started to laugh.
" Is it a video?" I rolled my eyes at him. He just nodded and gave a kiss on my neck but I had a crazy plan. I pulled over from him and took off my shirt. I needed another check on my bucket list and it is the perfect timing.
" What are you doing? " he asked, his face looked so confused that I needed to laugh while I undid my belt and went to my phone to the camera.
"That's enough to here " I said to myself before turned off the camera. " Come on, join me, babe. "
" Ah man, you are crazy" he shook his head but started to took of his shirt. He needed to catch up because I tried to took off my underwear as quick as possible and run to the water with a loud giggle. Swimming in the ocean naked was such a different feeling. I felt free and crazy but I loved every single second from it. " I can't believe I am doing this" grinned Grayson after he finally swam next to me and pulled me closer to his naked body under the water.
" Me either" I laughed and placed a long kiss on his lips. Our body was cold because of the cold water but I still felt like us soon as we touched there was fire between us, that warmed up our entire body.
The dark and silent beach was filled with our loud laughs while we swam around and splased each other every now and then. Of course there was no way I could win, his palms were twice as big as mine so most the time I just tried to escape from him before I splashed back again.
" Enough, I give up " I said while tried to catch my breath. The laughing and swimming made me tired quickly.
"You are weak " giggled Grayson, and hugged me tightly next to a long kiss on me forehead. This whole day was the craziest day that I ever experienced but it was way too much fun to complain.
Putting on our clothes to our wet skin was definitely not the most comfortable thing ever, but lack of better we needed to accept the thing. I thought we gonna go, but Grayson just sat down in the sand with his legs spread, and grabbed my hand to sat down in front of him. He pulled me close to his body, my back touched his muscular chest and he rested his chin on my shoulder. I took a big sigh as I tried to picture in my mind everything around us. The view was beautiful next to the ocean's calm sound.
"Can we just stay like this? For a bit " mumbled Grayson to my ear. My stomach flipped from the thought that he enjoys these moments as much as I am.
" I think I never in my life felt like this before" I said quietly.
"How?"
" I am just happy, I don't have anything negative in my mind" I replied. It was almost creepy to say this. Is it possible to have a state on your life when everything seems right and perfect? When there is nothing that you would wanna change, because everything seems perfect. I could feel how Graysons smiled against my neck and hugged me tighter. Maybe the only thing I would change is to live at least in one state with him. " I wish I could stop the time in this moment ." I added and it was so weird to say it out loud. I never really talk about these things and about my feelings, but now I felt right to say truly what is in my mind.
" Me too, angel. Me too" he took a shigh. Everytime he called me angel my stomach flips and a smile spreads on my face. This word means so much to me, and means so much because I hear it from him. The whole day felt like a fairytale and I was so glad he was the one who was there with me. I already knew this thick on my bucket list is gonna be a memory that always gonna be funny and amazing to look back. Not because of the thing we did, mostly because it was with him.
The next night I sat next to Grayson in his car. We didn't wanted to talk in the club and get all serious there, so we just hang out and later he gave me a lift home and we decided to meet today. I literally felt like a teenage girl in high school, who her crush asked out for a date, I was way too happy and excited to see him.
Maybe that's why the road to the place, where our first kiss was, was so awkward and long. The silence between us killed me and made me so uncomfortable. For a few minutes I tried figure out how should I break it, but I ended up looking out from the window, while he concentrated to driving and somehow the music tried to make the silence less awkward. For me it still was.
"Let's sit to the back" he said after he stopped the car. For a moment I was surprised because of his idea, but I ended up climbing to the back with him. As soon as I set down next to him he grabbed my legs, and placed them in his lap so now I turned fully towards him."You've never been that quet next to me, ever" he looked to my eyes while draw small circles on my thigh with his fingers. I was not surprised how his movements sent shivers down my spine.
" It's just weird to be with you again after all this time" I said.
"Nothing changed" he replied. Oh yea, I just fell in love with you since then.. That thought was in my head for long moments. Maybe these were the thoughts that made me realize how attracted I was to him and felt the sparkles again between us. And this was the moment when I didn't wanted to overthink or or lose the opportunity, so before I could change my mind I climbed into his lap. I smiled on his surprised face that turned into a smirk pretty quickly and placed his large palms on my waist." I though we came here to talk" he said cheekily, while his hands moved lower to my thighs then upper to my bum and because of the fact that I only wore a longer hoodie as a dress, he pressed the material with his hands too.
" I don't know what are you talking about, we are talking" I smiled and grabbed his hands to put them back to my waist, but I didn't minded the hoodie, especially not when I saw how it got his attention before he looked back to my eyes.
"But it's a torture like this" he tilted his head back, and made me giggle slightly.
"What is this between us?" I ended up finally asking what I planned for long days now. I was afraid to hear something that I am not ready to. I didn't wanted to lose him again.
"What if.. " he started, while his hands moved down to my knees and slowly moved upper on the back on my thighs. ".. we didn't think since you are afraid of a relationship" he continued and grabbed my thigh, what made me bit my lip. " and just do anything we want with each other and see where we are gonna end."
"Anything we want?" I asked and moved lover on his thighs to sat exactly on his most sensitive area. I bit my lip and smiled how he took a big sigh and moved his hands again to my bum.
"Anything " he mumbled to my lip, but hesitated for a moment. "Can I kiss you? " he asked, like the last time when we were here and he kissed me for the first time. I felt how my belly flipped while I nodded and he pressed his soft lips on mine. It felt like when after a long drought it's starts to rain. My whole body warmed up that made me sigh into our kiss. Because of that my lips parted and Grayson used the opportunity and his tongue touched mine to invite it to a strong and passionate kiss. It was more like a make out then a regular kiss at this point. It was too intense, I couldn't hold back my silent moans, that made Grayson smile into our kiss and just pulled me even close to his upper body and hold me strong against him. When his hands moved lower again and grabbed my bum, my hips moved further from the sudden movement and grinded myself to him, that now made him moan into our kiss. We both were so hungry for each other.
Light music played in the car, while we gave everything to our kiss, what was passionate but affectionate at the same time. Sometimes I moved my hips to create some friction between us, while his hands didn't stop for a moment, and kept moved around on my body. He caressed my face first, moved lower to my neck and shoulders, then to my boobs to give them a little more attention. My shighs got faster in our kiss as he started to massage my boobs, but my hoodie's material were still between his touches and my skin.
Then he roamed lower to my hips where he grabbed me strongly and pressed me more down against him. For a moment I forgot to breath when I felt how hard he was, and my confidence boosted up from the thought that this was all because of me. At the same time I was way more hornier then him I felt like. The way his hands moved around it seemed like he didn't know where to put his hands, because he wanted to touch me everywhere. And the way he did these touches made me lose my mind and want more and more from him.
When his lips left mine and moved to my neck I tilted my head to give him more space. He left long kisses on my sensitive skin while his hands moved again now to my legs and touched me through my pants for a moment. Only for a moment to tense up my body, but not longer. He really made me lose my mind.
" I can't " I groaned. I didn't even understood myself why I was so into it in that moment, but I felt like I can't wait more. My whole body tingled and my muscles kept tensing.
"Who turned you on so much, baby?" he mumbled to my ear, when he moved his hand closer to me again and pushed my thong to the side to feel how wet I was because of him. I just rolled my eyes and grabbed his belt to unbuckle it and tried to push his pants down at the same time with his boxer. He grabbed a condom from his pocket after he did the same thing to me with my panties and looked deep into my eyes before he did anything else. " Do you wanna help?" he asked with a slight smirk and gave the condom to me. I tried to open it slowly on purpose, while I moved my hands up and down on his length and enjoyed the view as he tilted his head back and tried to hold back the moans that wanted to escape from his lips. When I placed it on him I moved to position and realized that I am again the inexperienced and never in my life were in a position like this.
"Just do whatever you want, don't think " he smiled when he saw I got a little unsure. His words made me calm down a little and I slowly sank down on him and enjoyed the full feeling how he got deeper and deeper in every movements. I bit my lip, while he hold my waist and let me do anything. He just tilted his head back and pressed his eyes together.
" Oh fuck " he moaned when he bottomed out and I started to move more up and down now, first slowly but then a little faster. I got surprised when as I moved more the tingling feeling came into my stomach and the knot got tighter and tighter that made me move faster. I was definitely not ready to cum yet, but apparently my body was.
"Oh my god, yes" I sighed into his neck and as soon as Gray realized how much I clench around him he moved my hips upper so he could take the control and thurtsed up in fast movements. I moaned his name while I grabbed his shoulder and enjoyed how my body is shaking from my intense orgasm.
"I can't believe you came that quickly, you really do missed me, huh?" asked Grayson cockly while he made my hips move and don't stop. I honestly had no idea how, the fullness and everything felt so good I couldn't hold it back. Grayson didn't let my body calm down even for a second. He kept moved my hips back and forth, while I lifted my body up from his upper body and looked to his eyes with a slight smile. " We don't stop until you cum again" he said that made shivers down my spine and moved closer to him for a kiss, while tried to keep move on top of him even if I was still sensitive because of my orgasm.
As soon as he pulled over from the kiss he slid out from me, lifted me slightly and put me to the seat next to him. I didn't even had time to process what happened, because he already was on top of me and moved himself back inside. I moaned because of the way his thrusts were so deep and intense already, and even made the feeling better as his lips moved to my neck and he tried to move the hoodie upper, till my boobs were free.
"Without a bra?" he looked sharply into my eyes.
"I don't need them next to you" I replied cheekly and as a response I got a even more deep and strong thrust. My breathing got heavier when his lips moved to my boobs and moaned because he pleasured me in more and more places.
He moved his hips in a fast rhythm, the car moved slightly under us and the windows got a little foggy from the hot air, while all we cared about was each other and how good every movements were. That how good is it feels to be so close to each other and make love to each other without words. The car was not the most comfortable place, but at the same time it was more exciting and different that made it more enjoyable for both of us.
" God, please tell me you are close" he mumbled to my neck, while I felt that his thirst got more sloppy and his hold got stronger on my hips as he tried to hold himself back.
"I would love to say that, but that wouldn't be the truth" I replied, and tried to move around a bit under him maybe to find a more comfortable place for myself. His response was a hard kiss. His tongue fought for dominance against mine, while his hands moved lower to my bum, to my knee and lifted one of my leg to his shoulder. The new position made his thrust even deeper and I started to feel the knot again in my stomach, but now even more intense. I hold his upper body close to mine while he kept touching a spot in me that made me wanna cry out out from pressure. "Oh, now I am" I gasped to his ear and my breathing got heavier and heavier and the orgasm built in me.
"Come on, angel. Cum with me " he gasped to my neck, and gave a hickey under my ear while my whole body shook under him and the intense orgasm came. He hid his face in my neck and moaned while I felt his muscles tensing under my touch and his thrusts got slower but deeper. "Yeah, keep clech around me, just like that" he whispered. His words made my body shake even more, especially when I felt him twitch in me as he come with a deep moan and kept my body close to his the whole time. His upper body shook a little from his orgasm, his lips shaped a o, and I am sure it was the hottest thing that I ever saw.
Both of our chest moved fast up and down, while we tried to calm down. Grayson's smile to me made me smile too after his deep gaze and I felt how those butterflies came back to my stomach after months of sleeping. First I quite enjoyed his small kisses on my cheek, neck and forehead but soon enough I turned my face to the side.
"Enough" I laughed and tried to push his face away as I put my hand on his lips. " Ew" I laughed even harder when he licked it and tried to move around to move off from me. "Your car is uncomfortable" I said when I sat up and put my hand on my waist, where the bucket was pressed to me.
"It wasn't made for sex" he grinned and handed me my pants from the ground. I just rolled my eyes on his confident smile and started to dress up as he did and we finally got out from the way too hot car.
As I looked to the view I thought back to our first kiss and it was crazy how many things happened since then. Including the fact that we didn't set awkwardly next to each other. Grayson leaned against his car, while I stood in front of him in his arms. My back was pressed to his chest, his arms were crossed around my upper body and he placed his chin on my shoulder. From the outside we really did looked like a cute couple. From the outside. From the inside it was a bit more messy. We fought against our own feelings and we had no idea what's gonna come in the feature. Not love, not a relationship, but more than a friendship? Or maybe all of them mixed together? It's complicated, maybe that's why I hate so much to think about the future.
"What are you thinking about?" I asked.
"You."
"Me?" I looked back to him with forned brows.
"Yeah, like in the past weeks always. Sometimes in clothes, sometimes not. Depends " he said and I could tell from his voice that there is a big cheeky smile on his face.
" Hey" I poked his side, but at the same time it was good to know that he thought about me. And today I did something again, because of that sentence he said earlier. just do anything we want with each other and see where we gonna end. I slowly turned around in his arms, placed my hands on his chest, then moved it upper so I crossed my arms around his neck and moved even closer to him, so I could cuddle into his arms. Me, who hates cuddling.. Under his black hoodie I felt his hot body temperature, that made my whole body warm up and his nice masculine smell was all I could think about. His arms hold me tightly to his body, while his chin rested on my head. That's how small I was compared to him.
"A few months ago I haven't thought I am ever gonna be in your arms again" I mumbled to his chest. "There was a point where I hated you so much I’ve rather were anywhere else then here" I added and felt how his hold got stronger and pulled me even closer, like he was afraid that I'm gonna disappear.
"You hated me?" he pulled over and as he looked down at me his face was serious but our body were still so close to each other.
"It hurt,Gray" I mumbled and looked away from his eyes to his chest where I draw small circles. " I felt like for the first time I was so open with someone and then you just disappeared without any reason or explanation and acted like I don't exist" I said and my whole body tensed up again as I thought back. As I pulled over from him he reached after me, but I slipped out from his arms as I moved away from him before I looked up again to his eyes. His eyes were filled with repentance and I almost felt bed for even saying these things to him. "Ethan didn't said anything?"
"No, I begged him but he didn't said a world about you " he rolled his eyes.
"He is an angel " I bit my lip. He really did hold his promise. I wouldn't even be mad if he would have said anything, but like this my trust for him got even more higher.
" I know it's late and I fucked up everything but I really do sorry" he started while he run his hands through his hair and took a big sigh. Now he was the one who looked away from my eyes before he continued." I just didn't know what to do with the fact that I lose my mind every time you are near me. I've never met with woman who made me feel this way and I was not sure if I am ready."
" What way? " I asked and bit my lip with a light smile.
"You know well.."
"No, I can't read your mind " I shook my head. I thought this is the perfect time for me to understand him. To understand why he did things, his feelings, his thoughts. Am I really as important to him as he is to me? He just took a big sigh and stared to the view for a few seconds behind me before he started to talk.
" I can't be near you, if I don't touch you" he said and reached for my hand. My stomach flipped as I placed my hand in his and let him move me closer to him again." And the way you look at me.. fuck " he shook his head, as I looked up to him under my lashes and bit my lip.
" Why? I just look into your eyes" I smiled and tried to not show how blushy I got. I was even worse talking about these things then him.
" I noticed that you only look at me like that, no one else" he responded seriously. Every single sentence made my body react. His gaze was so deep, his hands caressed my hands next to our body and it was so nice to see how he blushed a little because of the things he said.
" Do I? " I smiled.
"Angel, I see that you keep this strong and confident look around everyone but every time you are with me it's gone.It's enough to see your reaction to my touches" he said with a confident smile as he lifted his hand and placed it on the side of me neck. He caressed the sensitive skin slightly and moved more up to my face, as he left goosebumps there.I felt like I melted into his soft touch. "See, you have goosebumps."
" I love the nickname, angel" I mumbled. I never said this to him, but every time I heard this world from his month my heart beated faster. It's a nickname that at home - in hungary - is not really common and even here people always call each other baby, babe or something. It was different, cute and made me feel some type of way.
As a response I got a light smile from him while he looked deep into my eyes and his gaze moved lower to my lips. At this moment I would have die for his kiss and could't wait for him to finally move.
His hand from my face moved to my nape and he pulled me closer so he could place his lips on mine. When he deepened it and my tounge met with his the tenderness stayed. It was such a slow kiss, I felt like it made my legs shake a bit. That really was our first deep and emotional kiss, instead of passionate. I wanted to stuck in that moment forever. In the past, every time he kissed me the feeling that I felt the first time when he kissed me came back, but now it was different. It was something deeper. I wanted to shout out that I am the happiest person in the world because of having him in my life.
After all those months that was the first time when it felt like I was home. I was still in a foreign country, but I felt like in Grayson's arms I was safe, loved and trusted like at home. He was my american home.
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The next day after we finished breakfast I stood in front of my dresser with a big sigh. I thought maybe I should try to look cuter and put more effort into my look, but at the same time it would be cringe, since I just go over to their house to chill and hang out. I ended up wearing a black leggings, with a cropped hoodie and a beanie, basically my everyday winter wear in America. After I put on my everyday makeup Corinna already waited for me in the front door. The first plan was just her bringing me over to the boys' house, but as soon as he stopped the car in front of the house I invited her to come with me, so I don't need to deal with any weird situation alone.
After E opened the front door he said hi to me with a long tight hug and we went to the living room to talk a bit. We haven't met in weeks, so it was quite a lot that we could talk about. All three of as spent the holidays in different places in the world, so it was interesting to meet in one point and talk about it in the end. It's so interesting how the destiny brings together people who are gonna mean so much to you, even if they live so far away from you.
" And how was that party last night?" brought up Ethan that just made Corinna grin immediately as he looked at me. "Who was that guy on that snap?" he added. Of course from Corinna's face it was obvious that something happened and now he is curious. And when I wanted to answer I saw Grayson from the corner of my eye, who went from the hallway to the kitchen and my whole body froze for a few seconds.
"Nothing serious, he was with us" I replied quietly and tried to answer shady because I knew that Grayson probably hears everything from the kitchen. " Stop looking at me like that, seriously I don't even know his last name or anything."
" She doesn't know his name, but still got a new year kiss from him" said Corinna with a loud laugh that made me giggle and E laugh too. I was sure Corinna or Ethan didn't noticed Grayson, and to be honest I don't mind if he would hear anything at this point.
"You kissed him? Are you fucking kidding me?"
The air stuck in my throat when I heard Gray from behind me after he slammed the kitchen counter and came closer to as. I bit my lip and took a big shigh to put myself together before I turned around in the armchair to look at him.
"Yeah" I nodded and acted like it was not a big deal for me. Of course Corinna and Ethan just watched our performance quietly while I freaked out inside for even talking to Grayson after these long ass months. And somewhere deep inside I was happy for him being angry because I was with someone else.
"Come to my room" he said irritably, after he stared into my eyes for a few seconds. His gaze was strong and I felt how our eyes met, my heart started to race in my chest but I still tried to keep the eye contact even if his eyes burnt my skin and I could tell how angry he was.
" We were in the middle of a conversation" I frowned my brows, I hated that he tried to tell me what to do in such a douchy way.
" Come to my fucking room" he said again now louder and angrier. " Please" he added, but even from the way he said it I knew he only did it just so he could make me go and not freak out because he is trying to order me to do something. I shook my head before I took a big sigh and stood up to go after him to the room. The door behind us slammed loudly, so loud that I was afraid it's going to break in a half.
"I really don't get what's your problem right now, Gray" I crossed my arms in front of my chest. I never in my life saw him that angry and mad.
" No? You don't get It? "he asked and spread his arms like he was really surprised from my worlds. "What's wrong with you lately? You are drinking, trying drugs, kissing stranger assholes, what else?" he added and I could feel how I got angrier and angrier because of his worlds.
" Oh my god " I said scornfully and tried to go out next to him but he stepped in front of the door to stop me.
"Don't leave just like this" he snapped.
"Why? I don't wanna talk to you."
"You don’t wanna talk to me? While you are the one who acts like this?! " he continued the fight. I tried to be the smarter one and handle this situation well but I felt how I got just more mad because of the way he said things. I wanted to slap and kiss him at the same time and low key hated myself for it.
" Like what? Why are you so jealous after you were the one who doesn't gave a fuck about me in the past months? I can imagine how many girls you fucked and tossed away like you did with me" I replied now a lot more louder and angrier then before.I wanted to scream and shout at him, and I knew if I don't stop, the pain of the past months is gonna come out and I didn't wanted it to happen in front of him.
" I can't believe you actually saying these things " he shook his head and run his hand through his hair, like he always did when he was frustrated.
"That's the truth, Grayson."
" No it's not" he replied quickly.
"You say that I kiss assholes while you are the one.."I started my sentence loudly but I needed to stop to take a big sigh and contonoud. ".. who broke me. I drunk, because I wanted to forget you and everything that happened between us "I said. It hurted to say these things out loud, especially when I saw how his face changed and I could tell that my words hurted him. That's who I am. In fights I can say the ugliest things, even if they are not even true. And unfortunately Grayson was the same.
" I hope you managed to then" he said derisively. I bit my lip to try to calm myself down a little. I never cry from being sad, but sometimes I cry when I am so angry that I can't handle it in a different way.
" I wish I've never met you" I mumbled, but I was not able to say it to his face. I turned my back to him before I said it just because it was pure lie. I flinched and looked back immediately when I heard a loud hit from Grayson to the door."Gray" I said his name, but he just shook his head and went out and slammed the door behind him.
My chest moved briskly up and down. I sat down to the ground and leaned my back to the door and tried to calm down. I was angry at Grayson for the past months, but I was angry at myself too for saying these things to him and hurting him with my words. Yes he deserved it, but at the same time he didn't. He gave me so much more happy moment and even if he would've done something more bad with me I would still never say that I wanna forget him. I am stubborn and he is too. We can go way too further in a fight and I just hoped that he is similar to me in forgetting about things quickly too. I could scream at someone and five minutes later laugh with them like nothing happened, because I can't be angry for too long to someone.
"Mir.."
"Not now" I replied still a bit angry when I heard Corinna's voice from the other side of the door. Now I wasn't ready to talk to anyone, maybe just to Grayson. I felt like he missed me so much in the past weeks, that even if we fight it's not that bad because at least we are talking and we are in the same room. That voice in my head made me stand up from the ground a few seconds later to go and find him. I had no idea if he went to somewhere or how is he handling this situation, but I was way too curious and I wanted to see him.
Corinna: i had to leave, but text me if you need something
I replied to Corinna's text with a quick thank you then took a big sigh and opened the door. There was silence in the house. Ethan probably went out or was in his room when I looked around and didn't saw him anywhere in the livingroom and kitchen area. My heart started to race in my chest when I looked out in the huge window and saw Grayson in the yard. He sat on the stair and even though I only saw his back, I still could tell that he looked down. I opened the door quietly, went up to him, and just sat down next to him. He didn't looked at me and my heart broke a little for seeing him like this because of me.
"You really meant what you said?" he broke the silence but still didn't looked at me. He run both of his hands through his hair and leaned with his ebow to his leg as he talked to me.
"You know I didn't" I replied quietly. "Why have you disappeared just like that?" I asked. Of course I was not able to hold back what I wanted to know for weeks now.
"It's..complicated" he sighed. All I could do is roll my eyes and I immediately got tense again. Before I would start to argue with him again I stood up and went back to the door. "You're not easy" he shook his head.
I was the one who felt bed for saying things, while he ghosted me for months and still acted like nothing happened. I needed to be alone for a little. First I thought I'm gonna go home but I didn't wanted this situation to close like this and maybe not talk to him for months or ever again. I really needed to hold back my ego and be smarter, so lack of better I went back to Grayson's room and laid down on his bed. His whole bed and room smelled like him and it was quite surprising that that was the first time when I was in his room, before the fight of course. I didn't wanted to look around and act weird so I just stared to the ceiling from the bed and tried to put myself and my thoughts together.
I laid there in the silence for long minutes, before I heard the door opening and I saw Grayson entering the room. He was surprised at first when he found me there, but he just quickly went to the other side of the bed and laid next to me, so now it was my turn to be surprised.
"You look good in my bed" he said and I needed to bit my lip to hide my smile, before I turned to my side to face him. "I thought you left."
"I didn't wanted to go and don't talk to you for months again" I said honestly. I felt like I shouldn't be so open to him, but at the same time in that faze it was whatever.
"You don't think it was fucking hard for me too?" he asked with a shigh, that made me frown my brows.
"Then why don't you texted me, or called me or come to my apartment? You would have so many opportunities" I asked the question that I asked outside again, but now in a different way. I hoped I'm gonna get a answer now and the answer is not gonna be complicated or something bullshit like that. I saw how he got tense and moved to his back to stair to the ceiling instead of looking at me.
" It was still easier to not see you, then try to hide everything when you are near me" he said quietly, I really needed to concentrate to understand his words.
"What everything?"
"M, when I am with you, and I can't touch you it kills me" he replied. " And the thought that you were with someone else.. agh" he shook his head.
"Gray, I am gonna leave in a year, you just make it so much harder" I said and now I was the one who looked away from him. It would have been so easy to continue from there, where we stopped. Like we were friends, with a little bit of benefits but now it scared me that he wanted to make things more serious. I am not that lover type. Or maybe am, just not admitting it.
"Don't tell me you don't feel it " he elbowed next to me and put his hand on my waist to grab it gently. " I see how you flinch because of my touch and how you reacting to me since our first kiss, you can't deny that."
"But I shouldn't feel this way" I said while I looked deep into his beautiful eyes. I felt how my heart raced in my chest and hurted from my own worlds. I wanted to push him away and be closer to him at the same time.
" I shouldn't either, but here we are."
I started to bit my lip and tried to look away from him to calm down and try to find a way to come out from this situation. My thoughts were messy and I probably chose the worst thing, that I could. I shook my head with a big sigh and got up from the bed from his hands, but deep down I really wanted to stay there.
"Why don't you let me to love you?" he asked. It was such a hard question and it hurt too bad to hear.
"Please just give me a little time " I looked to his eyes and before he could say anything I come out from the room, grabbed my stuff from the livingroom and left.
A thought a long walk is gonna make my mind clear, so from their house I didn't call a über, I just went towards the city even though I knew my apartment was far from here, but it's okay, I thought I am gonna call a über later when I get tired.
He was right, I don't know how to let people love me and I am afraid of getting hurt and open up. It's scares me that me, who hates cuddles and not the emotional type, everytime I look at Grayson I wanna be in his arms and just hug him for hours. I am a different girl next to him, somone, who is a stranger for me too, someone who I like sometimes, but wanna hide too.
At the same time there was this weird feeling in my stomach, because of the things what Grayson said. I never talked about my feelings so open before to anyone, I thought maybe he would laugh at me for falling for him so easily. Maybe that's why it was a huge surprise to me, when he said that I am more for him then just friends. I always thought that the hugs and kisses, or the way he pulls me closer are weird and not something that friends do, but I enjoyed it too. And now here I am in the streets alone, instead of being in his arms because I got scared again from my feelings.
I always hated planning for the future, I always loved being and living in the moment but now every time I thought of Grayson I remembered that I don't live here. I could count down my days and if we make this something that is between us deeper, it's really fucking gonna hurt when this american dreams disappears and I need to fly home.
I was so miserable as I walked on LA's streets that was filled with people around me. I didn't paid attention to anything around me, kind of surprising that a car is not hit me or something. All I could think about is that living in the moment type of girl now worrying about the future, about what's gonna happen a year later. At this point I felt like it's too late to go back to Grayson and tell him how I feel, and at the same time I was still scared.
Why is it a thing that the confident, independent strong girl turned into a weak girl, who suddenly wished she could be in a relationship because of one men?
04.01.'20
To be honest as the days went bye I was not as brave as I thought. I didn't responded to his massages, now I was the one who ghosted him and even though it was just three days, I still felt horrible for it.
And of course I did what I was the best in in the past weeks, when I was sad.. I went to a club with Corinna. I felt like maybe if I put myself together I am gonna feel better in myself.
"I admit that i'm a lil messed up, but I can hide it when I all dressed up"
I wore a black tight dress, my hair was in a ponytail because I was lazy to wash it and I tried to do a nice make up on my face. When I put on my high heels Corinna whistled and I just rolled my eyes and was ready to go.
Nether me or Corinna were in the biggest party mood. We sat in a bar stand with cocktails in our hands as we looked around in the place and talked.
" I need a men in my life" said Corinna, that made me smile and looked around to find her a good looking guy. " You need too."
"Nah, I am fine" I took a deep sigh and took sip from my cocktail. "Who are you texting?" I asked when she kept looking at her phone.
"Just Kristen, they are on their way and asked where we are" she said while typed on her phone. Lack of better I turned to the dance floor's direction and watched the people who had fun there. There were some people who were already drunk and just moved slowly around, while there were a bunch of teens too who just enjoyed the music and didn't cared about anything else. I smiled as I thought back to the days, when I did the same and turned back to Corinna who just jumped of from the stool. " I am ordering another round, stay here" she said. I just rolled my eyes, I hated when she did that. She always disappeared from next to me in clubs and I don't find her for hours after.
I took deep sighs as I played with my straw in my drink. I needed to admit that this party was not the best idea, I kept thought about Grayson and I wished I would have go over to his house instead of coming here.
"Someone is beautiful tonight."
For a moment I flinched from the sudden deep voice from near my ear. First I thought I lost my mind and I am hallucinating, but when I turned around and saw Grayson in front of me I was surprised but so happy at the same time.
"What are you doing here?" I asked and felt how a big smile spreads on my face without even noticing it. I knew he is not the partying type, so it was impossible to just run to him in a club." You lied again?" I looked to Corinna when he showed up behind Grayson with a big grin on her face.
"No, he just asked where are we and I replied."
"Oh so the Kristen thing was not a lie? " I frowned my brows, while Grayson started to giggle.
"Okay maybe I lied a little bit, but now I am really going for another round " she said and left me with Grayson.
The feeling that I wanna touch him come back again, like everytime when he was near me, but now I didn't tried to hide it and took a step closer to him to hug him and put my arms around his neck. I felt on him that it's surprised him, but he put his arm around my waist and pulled me even closer to his strong body.
" Quite surprising welcoming after not texting me back" he said to my ear.
" I am sorry" I said and moved away from him a little, so I could look up to his eyes. His gaze was strong, as he looked down on my body then back up again. I felt how a tingling feeling come back to my body and I needed to look away from him, my body's reaction to him was already too intense. I felt like way too much time went bye, since he kissed me or something more happened, and I was hungry for him and wanted to spend the whole night making love with him. But maybe that wouldn't be the smartest idea. " Why are you here?" I asked, and tried to clear my thoughts from the dirty things.
" I wanted to see you " he replied and my heart already started to race fast in my chest. I just can't remove him from my heart and even if it's really gonna hurt when I go home I still wanna enjoy my time here with him.
i love that your book is relatable. not even as a fan more like in general, you know what i mean.. the girl is cool and badass and grayson is just like men in general, they can be assholes sometimes. im curious about what’s gonna happen. and i love that the language is easy, like not everyone in the fandom is english and it’s easier to understand. i guess you can tell that i love this fanfic
Thank you so much angel, it’s makes me so happy to hear that.
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