WARNING: This is a blog where I will be talking about a few topics that may be triggering, I will put trigger warnings on all those posts but please be informed that this blog might contain content you don’t like! Please just block me if you don’t like that! Ty <3
Hello! My name is Spoke/Angel! I am a SpokeIsHere fictionkin and a boundary breaker as well as a familial yumeshipper! If any of this bothers you, block me, I don’t care!
I’m Autistic, and I also have ADHD and Anxiety, although I am currently working with a psychiatrist to get evaluated/considered for BPD and/or Pure O OCD. I will be talking about my mental health and struggles that I have as a person, but any individual post about those topics will be properly marked.
I identify as gaybian and almondromantic, as well as aromantic, libramasculine, femspike, gendervoid, and transmasc! I support gaybians and other contradictory labels because they don’t harm anyone and I legit don’t actually care.
My entire DNI and BYF is that I don’t care unless you are actively harming someone/a group of people, and if you are a pedofile or a rapist I do not want to interact with you. I am also a minor and while I do not mind talking to people 18+, I will be cautious.
I am a familial yumeshipper to cope with childhood trauma, any my yumes are as follows:
MinuteTech (selective sharing)
LeoW0ok (selective sharing)
HannahxxRose (selective sharing)
Mapicc (selective sharing)
Doubles are okay to interact, and any romantic yumes of any familial yumes are okay to interact too!
I’m fine with any pronouns but I have a preference for the following:
xe/xem
he/him
it/its
voi/void
I also use masc and void terms (if you need any explanation for what I mean by that, I will be working on a pronouns.page for this account!)
I love how my access to survival depends on how happy I make my caretakers (One week away at summer camp where the last couple days I was holding back a horrible breakdown plus I’ve been ruminating a lot and overall I’m just horrible mentally and apparently I made her mad so I can’t eat)
if you don't mind me askingg, How do your familial yumes work? Are they all a big family with you or is it separate (for me personally it's a mix of both!!)
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I’d love to! I know for everyone it works a bit differently but for me personally my parents (Leo, Minute, and Hannah) are all together and my brother (Mapicc) is more of like just my brother rather than their son!
Names are SUCH a damn concept. Sure, you may have an attachment to your name and that’s fine, usually a birth name, but I don’t have that. I like being called Spoke and Angel, hell my irls usually call me Brandon or Will! Who the fuck needs one “name”, sure it makes everything easier but as long as I respond it’s fine. I don’t understand why people are so attached to names.
Umm umm familiar yume scenario where ur f/o listens to you complain about everything that bothers you and you don’t need verbal comfort so they just hold you and pet ur hair.
Umm hi hi hi
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Hii twin :]
You've had a long day and were basically at your breaking point; everything was just so annoying today, and the whole week- maybe even the entire month? You just wanted to have a decent rest of your day, at least you could get some type of alone time at home. Once you finally got home, you immediately went to your room, just wanting to sleep or just do anything to distract yourself at this point. Half an hour later, your f/o knocks on the door to your room, checking up on you. They ask to come in and you allow them, they sit on your bed next to you and ask what's wrong. You move over closer to them and start to talk about how the days are feeling longer, but also too short at the same time, how the week has felt terrible and everything was bothering you. You talk for awhile and you didn't even notice that halfway though talking, you had curled up in their lap, them petting your hair and combing their fingers through it, they continue to do this while you complain about everything that has been bothering you recently. <33
Umm umm familiar yume scenario where ur f/o listens to you complain about everything that bothers you and you don’t need verbal comfort so they just hold you and pet ur hair.
Umm hi hi hi
-🐾🪽
Hii twin :]
You've had a long day and were basically at your breaking point; everything was just so annoying today, and the whole week- maybe even the entire month? You just wanted to have a decent rest of your day, at least you could get some type of alone time at home. Once you finally got home, you immediately went to your room, just wanting to sleep or just do anything to distract yourself at this point. Half an hour later, your f/o knocks on the door to your room, checking up on you. They ask to come in and you allow them, they sit on your bed next to you and ask what's wrong. You move over closer to them and start to talk about how the days are feeling longer, but also too short at the same time, how the week has felt terrible and everything was bothering you. You talk for awhile and you didn't even notice that halfway though talking, you had curled up in their lap, them petting your hair and combing their fingers through it, they continue to do this while you complain about everything that has been bothering you recently. <33
i say im not open to pursue but like….. itd be nice…. 👀👀👀👀 wait but no romantic relationship please thats scary i just wanna be showered with affection and whimsy
Am I like the only person who doesn’t want CCs to know who I am… like I know some boundary warriors and we got onto the topic of being known by/meeting CCs and I was like the only one who was like “I actually don’t want that at all”. Idk maybe it’s my repetitive intrusive thoughts of being parasocial so I take the extreme but whatever.
On the topic of boundary breaking and its correlation to being parasocial: I DO NOT WANT TO KNOW THOSE PEOPLE AND THE THOUGHT THAT THEY MIGHT KNOW THAT I EXIST MAKES ME ILL I AM NOT SITTING HERE AND TALKING ABOUT MY YUMESHIP IN THE HOPES THAT ONE BRANDON MINUTETECH WILL SEE IT I HOPE HE NEVER KNOWS I EXIST