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“Let me tell you this: if you meet a loner, no matter what they tell you, it’s not because they enjoy solitude. It’s because they have tried to blend into the world before, and people continue to disappoint them.”

— Jodi Picoult

i wrote my final note again, for the first time in 10 years last week.

i wrote my final goodbyes again, for the first time in 10 years last week.

i wrote my final wishes again, for the first time in 10 years last week.

i wrote these things down with tears in my eyes, knowing there would be people begging me to stay.

i wrote these things down with a hollow heart as i agonized over all the ways people would miss me.

i wrote these things down in a journal, a journal no one knew i had, a journal no one would think to check.

i knew i could leave with no words.

i knew i could leave and everyone would understand.

#sad quotes #sad poetry #poetry #poet #button poetry #quotes #depressed #quotes about depression

onlinecounsellingcollege

“Self love doesn’t mean that everyone will treat you the way you deserve to be treated. It means that you won’t let them change the way you see yourself; nor will you stick around for them to destroy you.”

— Unknown

quotemadness

“A bad relationship is like standing on broken glass, if you stay you will keep hurting. If you walk away, you will hurt but eventually you will heal.”

— Autumn Kohler

quotemadness

“I don’t just want words. If that’s all you have for me, you’d better go.”

— F. Scott Fitzgerald

i've come to learn that God does not answer prayers. for i have prayed while tears rushing down my face, and with a heartache that makes me think i'm literally feeling my heart break. i have prayed while screaming at the top of my lungs because the pain i have in my heart is too unbearable. i have prayed during all of the darkest times in my life, only to find that praying, never changed or stopped any of it. and people may follow that up with "Well it was Gods plan for you." and to that i say, then God is a cruel God. just as he has always been. God watched my step brother take my innocence away at six years old, he watched me pray every night for a year that it would stop. God watched as my mother let her unhealed trauma tear me apart and build me up again, he watched me pray that i would be enough as i was. God watched as people called me a "slut" and as people told me to kill myself, he watched me pray that it would stop because i did want to kill myself. God watched as a man laid his hands on me for the first time, he watched me pray that said man would stop or that i could find help somewhere. God watched my dad leave, he watched me pray that he would come back. God watched as he began taking not the people who have caused nothing but pain in my life, but instead all of the people who made my life worth living. God watched as I screamed in my car outside of the hospital for my mom to live, he watched as i ran as fast as i could only to see he took her before i could say goodbye. so i stopped praying. i stopped believing. i stopped caring. because why, am i wasting my time praying to a god who doesn't care if i live or die. because through all of this, i've learned that i have myself. and it's up to me to make sure i stay alive, that no "God" i pray to will help me.

#religious trauma #trauma #quotes #religion #running on empty #quotes about depression #loss #grief

adultswim5000

if my husband doesnt tear up when im walking down the aisle im turning the fuck around

notabadday

my husband definitely will because he’s gonna have to put up with me for the rest of his life and that’s enough to make anybody cry

raytoroapologist

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filthyprotozoan

what if everything is intentional. what if dancing with your friends matters as much as picking up groceries. what if you put color in your hair and a stranger feels seen. what if someone makes soup for you. what if tears are sacred. what if it’s all love.

filthyprotozoan

“is this toxic positivity” LOL fellas is it toxic positivity to find beauty in the little things? like jesus fucking christ relax i am literally not telling you to find happiness in every single thing im just saying theres some love in the world. “toxic positivity” i say this so genuinely go outside.