Pelli

Just an average 24 year old looking for a place to fit in.

[angelpelling]

Don’t kill yourself today

Because your Netflix trial still has a week left

Don’t kill yourself today

Because no one else will finish off the chicken in the fridge

Don’t kill yourself today

Because I know for a fact that Starbucks is releasing a new Frappuccino sometime next month

Yes, your mother will miss you

Yes your bully will make a sappy Facebook post about how what a a wonderful person you were

And yes

Suicide is a permanent solution to a temporary problem

You know that

You’ve known that

Everyone and anyone has been shoving that down your throat since they first learned what the word suicide meant

So don’t kill yourself

Until you finish your shampoo and conditioner at the same time

Don’t kill yourself

Until Doctor Who is finally cancelled

Don’t kill yourself

Until you tell someone your best pasta recipe

Don’t kill yourself

Because I will keep coming up with reasons for you not to

And I need you

To hear all of them

Don’t kill yourself

I love you

You’re important

It’s a bad day

Not a bad life

There is more to this

The world will keep spinning on its axis without you

But

Think of all the sunrises you’d miss

I know this sounds pointless

But when you’re sitting in front of everything deadly you own

Revising your goodbyes

There will be too much darkness

To see anything else

But this is not about seeing anything else

This is about turning off the lights

This is about finding the bed instead of the noose

This is about giving yourself one more day

Even if it takes ten thousand of those

One more morning’s

Until

“I can’t wait for tomorrow”

This is about staying alive

Because there’s gonna be a new Marvel movie

No one should miss that

This is about staying alive

Because the future is coming

And it’s ready for you

I don’ t need you to see it

I just need you to believe you can make it

Until then

[getmoneygetpaid]

[rasengnn]

[nevver]

[thequotejournals]

Anxiety’s like a rocking chair. It gives you something to do, but it doesn’t get you very far.

Jodi Picoult, Sing You Home (via wordsnquotes)

[angelpelling]

You need to ignore what everyone else is doing and achieving. Your life is about breaking your own limits and outgrowing yourself to live your best life. You are not in competition with anyone else. Push to outdo your past, not other people.

[angelpelling]

Adventure

[angelpelling]

Dear Ex-Best-Friends

[angelpelling]

Sometimes you meet someone, and it's so clear that the two of you, on some level belong together. As lovers, as friends, as family or as something entirely different. You just work, whether you understand one another, you’re in love or you’re partners in crime. You meet these people throughout your life, out of nowhere, under the strangest circumstances, and they help you feel alive. I don’t know if that makes me believe in coincidence, or fate, or sheer blind luck. But it definitely makes me believe in something.

[angelpelling]

This is life. People will screw you over. You'll fight with your family. You'll always witness things that will change you forever. You'll blame new lovers for things that old lovers did. You'll lose best friends you thought would always be there. You'll come to realise that everyone has a past. You'll cry, you'll laugh and you'll embarrass yourself. But then you'll find your very own moment where none of that matters; where you can sit back and realise that shot happens to the people who can handle it and that is who you are, and that no one should want to change you, including yourself.

[angelpelling]

[timid]

[hplyrikz]

Clear your mind here

[angelpelling]

One day it just clicks. You realise what's important and what isn't. You learn to care less about what other people think of you and more about what you think of yourself. You realise how far you've come and you remember when you thought things were such as mess that you would never recover. And you smile. You smile because you are truly proud of yourself and the person you've fought to become.

[wnq-writers]

You can’t trick them, they know you get hurt too easily. They know you’re weak, though you put on this strong exterior. They hurt you because you let them. They know you’re naive. Honey, why do you try to hide when your weaknesses are plastered on your face? They present themselves where your tears have dried and rotted on your once smooth skin. That’s why so many people want to use you. They know you’ll still love them in the end. Stop begging for their attention. They see right through your lies of “Okay”’s and “I’m fine”’s. They can see it in your wide, glimmering eyes, and your pale, quivering lips. You wear a mask like a fool, a mask they can take off so easily. Maybe that’s why you can’t breathe, because they have stolen your mouth. They can see your true colors even if you pick the dark ones. You never realized how your darkness shows in the light of day. Trust me, many people have seen the red leave your rosey cheeks, they’ve seen the knots in your hair from you trying to pull it out, trying to get something out so you can hide more inside. We can see past your fake smile, you aren’t fooling anyone.

abnormalmindd  (via wnq-writers)

[angelpelling]

You are not a sad story

[wnq-writers]

I could name a few people I could’ve gave all my love to if they had let me But instead my heart is suppressed It’s been overflowing for so long And as days go by it’s just leaking and dripping But now I have no more to give I don’t think I have enough love for me anymore

alittlelivin  (via wnq-writers)

[wnq-writers]

I still care about you. Even after everything that happened. After what you did to me. I still care about you. And it hurts. It hurts so bad to be right next to you and still feel like you’re a million miles away. How did you forget so easily?! How did you do it? I still ache for you. I still care about you. My heart breaks every time you walk by as if nothing ever happened between us. And you know what? Maybe nothing ever happened. Maybe it was all in my head. No. I refuse to think that way. I’m not crazy. I can’t be. It was real. I know it was. After all these days, I still feel like you’re going to walk up to me with that amazing smile of yours, but you’re not. I must’ve done something wrong. Even though all I did was like you a little too much and hate you little to nothing. I trembled when you spoke. My heart raced like it had never done before. I felt sick, love-sick. “It’s too good to be true”, I’d say to everyone. Yet it’s the only truth I can see right now. It was hard being around him. I forgot how to breathe, my palms would sweat, my lips would get dry. It was a disaster. A beautiful one. I see the way you look at her now. The same way you used to look at me. It breaks me in pieces every single time. I’ll have to get used to it. But I don’t want to. I shouldn’t have to. Still, I should’ve seen it coming. The way he never replied as quickly as I texted him. The way he never asked to know more about me. Now, I see you walk by and pieces of me , pieces I gave away, disappear as if they never were. As if I never was.

xoxoxo-xxx (via wnq-writers)