aggressive coyote's blog

a coyote's vent blog.

[angry-coyote]

main blog: @fallenrain40

pronouns: it/its + ask

about: THIS IS MY VENT BLOG. while there was primarily a focus on being nonhuman, when i started this, this blog will be used for non related venting as well. I have self diagnosed BPD, suspected OSDD, and suspected NPD traits, so those will all be discussed. Please be cautious before following.

tags: #coyote growls (vent posts), #coyote yaps (happy vents!)

other info: I am demisexual, neurodivergent, mentally ill, plural, and a polytherian, otherkin, and fictionkin . look at my main blog for more info.

despite the theme of this blog, I'm a very sensitive person to the very same things I might post about, so please interact gently.

graphics can be found here

[angry-coyote]

i dont like this push to define exactly what therian HAS to mean for someone.

physical therians have always existed.

spiritual therians have always existed.

a mix of those two have always existed.

other kinds of therians have always existed.

[angry-coyote]

please dont go yet.

[angry-coyote]

i miss the way it was

[angry-coyote]

so i guess im just evil huh? evil for not wanting something. evil for the way i personally feel towards it. yeah. yeah lets fucking tell everyone they all have to enjoy something that hurt them before. yeah

[angry-coyote]

everyone disappears NOW. i see how it is

[angry-coyote]

i swear

[taxidermycanine]

being a wolf therian is feeling threatened when you look me in the eye. be careful, i bite. even if i dont want to. i bite.

[angry-coyote]

everyone disappears NOW. i see how it is

[angry-coyote]

i love feeling like no one gives a fuck about me 😂😂😂

[angry-coyote]

removed the og post abt how I felt abt the choosing to be therian thing cause, idk. it's not that i don't think you can choose your own identity or that it would be less valid or anything because it really doesn't hurt anyone. and i hate the idea of anyone feeling invalidated by me. the only part that has bothered me is seeing how many people recently have been saying "therian isn't REALLY believing you are an animal" or "we know we're human!", that believing it's a choice could make this idea spread faster. and as i'd said, there are plenty of terms in the alterhuman community that can be used, it's not like we are denying they exist. so, i dunno. like... if you did choose to be an animal, then that's cool and valid but it is very different from what's going on with me so i do feel that using the same word for those experiences could then give people a false idea of what i mean when i say i am a therian. i mean, i could use a different word myself, except there isn't. a different word for my experience that means an identity that i didn't choose. but there is otherlink for chosen identities and i feel like it would be great if more beings used that. i don't know. its not like anyone has to listen to me. i'm just yapping about how i feel and trying to understand why i and others feel this way

[angry-coyote]

watch my art flop because nobody gaf :)

[angry-coyote]

IM WORTH NOTHING

[angry-coyote]

I KNOW IM WORTH NOTHING TO YOU

[angry-coyote]

IM NOBODY AT ALL !!!!! DO NOT LOVE ME DO NOT LOOK AT ME DO NOT ACKNOWLEDGE ME!!!!! IM NOTHING SND I WILL ONLY HURT YOU BECAUSE YOU COULD PUT THAT EFFORT INTO SOMEONE WHOS ACTUALLY WORTH ANYTHING AT ALL

[angry-coyote]

IM NOBODY

[angry-coyote]

i wish i didnt have intrusive thoughts about hating humans as a whole- i can understand why stating humans to be pests is a very, very bad thought process- so the only reason i can imagine that i have those thoughts is because of trauma, which ik my nonhuman identity is somewhat rooted in. i latched onto canines at a early age because i was made to not feel human, by someone at some point. but knowing that doesnt change what i am now. but i can have intrusive thoughts i disagree with.