[shisasan]

February 15, 1930 The early diary of Anaïs Nin, 1903-1977

[shisasan]

Albert Camus, The Misunderstanding (1943)

[showings]

“I craved and feared whatever I imagined real life was.”

— Lillian Fishman | Acts of Service

[metamorphesque]

 — Lullaby for Myself, Vahan Teryan

[text ID: Finally it's dark, / a peaceful night. / The stars telegraph: / Nothing lasts but light.]

[metamorphesque]

― Fyodor Dostoyevsky, The Brothers Karamazov

[funeral]

The Reincarnation of Peter Proud (1975)

[metamorphesque]

— A Prayer, Antoine de Saint-Exupéry 

[text ID: I’m only asking for strength for my days. Teach me the art of small steps.]

[feral-ballad]

Trista Mateer, from Aphrodite Made Me Do It; “Personal reflections on gender”

[Text ID: “sucking the dirt out from under your own nails just to taste where you came from / without ever having to go back there”]

[daweyt]

— Frank Bidart, from “Half-light: Collected Poems 1965-2016; ‘The Third Hour of the Night’", published c. 2017

[stlowens]

Sylvia Plath, from The Unabridged Journals

[metamorphesque]

Toi Derricotte, “November”

[text id: oh soul, / i feel cold and unused to/  such space as breath and eternity / around me. /  so much room in silence]

[feral-ballad]

Mahmoud Darwish, tr. by Munir Akash and Carolyn Forché, from Unfortunately, It Was Paradise; “He Embraces His Murderer”

[Text ID: “I will never cease embracing you. / And I will never release you.”]

[feral-ballad]

Franny Choi, from Soft Science; “Shokushu goukan for the cyborg soul”

[Text ID: “I am / just trying to sleep. To feed. To fill / myself and grow larger from it. / Or: I am only trying to slither back / into my first skin. / Or: I am only trying to remember how it felt not to leak.”]

[shisasan]

𝙴𝚍𝚐𝚊𝚛 𝙰𝚕𝚕𝚊𝚗 𝙿𝚘𝚎, 𝚃𝚑𝚎 𝚁𝚊𝚟𝚎𝚗, (𝚘𝚛𝚒𝚐𝚒𝚗𝚊𝚕𝚕𝚢 𝚙𝚞𝚋𝚕𝚒𝚜𝚑𝚎𝚍 𝟷𝟾𝟺𝟻)

[shisasan]

𝙾𝚌𝚝𝚘𝚋𝚎𝚛 𝟹𝟶, 𝟷𝟿𝟸𝟷 𝚃𝚑𝚎 𝙳𝚒𝚊𝚛𝚒𝚎𝚜 𝙾𝚏 𝙵𝚛𝚊𝚗𝚣 𝙺𝚊𝚏𝚔𝚊, 𝟷𝟿𝟷𝟺-𝟷𝟿𝟸𝟹

[ID: The wonder, the riddle of my not having perished already of the silent power guiding me. It forces one to this absurdity: “Left to my own resources, I should have long ago been lost.” My own resources. END ID]

[shisasan]

𝙾𝚌𝚝𝚘𝚋𝚎𝚛 𝟹𝟷, 𝟷𝟿𝟸𝟾 𝚃𝚑𝚎 𝚎𝚊𝚛𝚕𝚢 𝚍𝚒𝚊𝚛𝚢 𝚘𝚏 𝙰𝚗𝚊𝚒̈𝚜 𝙽𝚒𝚗, 𝟷𝟿𝟶𝟹-𝟷𝟿𝟽𝟽

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