It Doesn’t End, Does It?

This is where I come when things are bad and no one cares

[anhedonic-audhd]

What is the point of living when no one gives a fuck about you

[anhedonic-audhd]

“I’m sorry things are bad right now”

“I’m so sorry this is happening to you”

Hey- go fuck yourself. I’m sick of people saying this shit to me only to be unwilling to help me?

Sorry it’s bad?? If you were sorry you would do the things you said you’d do for me so it wouldn’t be this bad

Sorry it’s happening to me? Laughable considering YOU are the one who was the catalyst for it all.

[anhedonic-audhd]

The fun part about making a gofundme is seeing how little the people in your immediate vicinity share it or interact with it 🫤

I suppose you need a social group or support network to really see any benefits from a gofundme and I do not have that

[anhedonic-audhd]

I wish someone cared about me and I didn’t have to go through this alone

[anhedonic-audhd]

I don’t like how you act towards me and I don’t like what you think I am and sometimes I think that means I don’t like you

[anhedonic-audhd]

Remember kids don’t talk about being suicidal too often or it means you’re actually not suicidal

[anhedonic-audhd]

You know things are going well when your therapist doesn’t want to get off the call with you and makes you add a therapy session the day after Christmas bc she knows you want to kill yourself

[alex-0-0-0-0-0-0]

[helloyellow17]

This made me laugh harder than it should have

[anhedonic-audhd]

Got pretty damn close to killing myself yesterday.

The calm as I woke up. The determination. The joy. The loneliness. The resentment. The anger. The resolve.

Somehow it all felt the same in the body. Numb but powerful. A disconnect that brought a drive I have never experienced.

I was ready to die. I was HAPPY to die.

But I didn’t do it. And I don’t know why I didn’t do it.

I don’t remember why I stopped.

I’m not sure I’m glad I did.

[anhedonic-audhd]

I can’t believe after all this time I learned that most of my brains “problems” or “quirks” have just been AUTISM all along?

Like fuck I’ve been looking at the wrong brain manual for 27 years?!

What could I have done if I had known??

[thelatestkate]

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[lifeafterpsychiatry]

Make sure you don't accidentally punish people for communicating their needs and boundaries. When someone cares enough to have the uncomfortable conversation, that's a compliment and a clear sign that they are invested in the relationship. Yes of course it's uncomfortable to hear that something you've been doing has been upsetting someone you care about when that was never your intention, but people generally only bother to have these conversations with the people they want to keep around - the people they trust to care. If they just didn't like you, they'd probably just try to avoid you. So make sure you don't make it into a more punishing experience than it has to be. Try to see the care and the trust behind the criticism, even when it triggers uncomfortable emotions. It's a good sign that they're there telling you.

[deletingmyself]

(by Seele An)| Hangzhou, China

[melonlthawne]

[anhedonic-audhd]

Why do people always decide they hate me but are still cool with my roommate? When we share predominately the same opinions and shit??? I’m just louder about it. (Welp- I probably just answered my own question as I type it out, huh?)

[anhedonic-audhd]

I have never felt so fucking isolated lmao

[anhedonic-audhd]

One of my new neighbors coughs and hacks super loudly like 24/7 and it’s starting to really bother me

Like not only is it super overstimulating it is kinda gross to hear someone coughing to the point of puking/gagging multiple times a day :/

P sure they puked outside of our apartment a while ago and just let the puke sit for weeks :(