Anchi writes...

[unbotheredmuse]

@mehr.von.mia

[anxietyproblem]

[anjtee]

071221

Stressed is indeed the perfect word to describe me right now..

My job was doubled temporarily. I have a toxic colleagues, body issues, sleeping problem and a relationship.. might explain why my eyebags are showing 👀 It was indeed a tiring day for me like as always.

now im already tired of thinking for a more long caption but i have to end this now

Good night

[anjtee]

Learning to love yourself is the greatest love of all.

[anjtee]

What's for lunch?

Sisig and pork chop with extra rice 🍴

[anjtee]

I had arrozcaldo & special palabok for lunch on a saturday 💛

[anjtee]

So glad I already found my home person.

[etherealfaeri]

being a woman in your early 20s is just *existential anxiety* *impulse purchase* *anxiety over being perceived* *desperate need to feel connected to others* *guilt for no reason*

[anjtee]

Sorry but I wont buy the "I was busy" bullshit, if you really wanted to, you would.

[anjtee]

Is it me being annoying and clingy or is it you not doing what you should be doing?

[anjtee]

sunday is passing by so fast.. im scared

[inahiddenplace]

crazy that i’m only able to see life through my own eyes.. there’s over 7 billion other perspectives i’ll never be able to have.. over 7 billion stories i won’t ever be able to fully know. we all get such a small slice of the experience of life.. pass by strangers every day that we’ll never be aware of. what are they going through? what are they thinking about? i always wonder.. 

[anjtee]

deep

[unbotheredmuse]

why is being alive so expensive. i’m not even having a good time

[puralize-blog]

you don’t understand how hard it is to take a selfie when you’re ugly

[anjtee]

To my father in heaven, I MISSED YOU SO MUCH.

Papa, it's been 5 years since you left us and upto this day I still remember that day that I never thought I wouldnt see you again. I should've hugged you but I didnt. I should've cried but I didnt. Deep down I was deeply hurt but I never showed my emotion. I took care of you for years and even if we've been struggling financially, you always find ways to bring us food on the table. I remember I have no cellphone that time and you have 1,000 income on that buy and sell transaction, instead of keeping it to buy your medicines, you bought me a new phone. It was one of the things I didnt really realized before because I was too involved with other things.

One thing you said that I couldnt forget up to this day is to make people respect me. You want people to respect us the way they respected you. But they only respected you when you have the money but when we were struggling, they changed. I didnt realized this thinga before but I have felt your disappointments towards people whom you've helped when you were strong and financially stable. I know you were sick of our situation, when we have to lend money for food and for your medicines, seeing people disrespecting, I wanted to take all those pain away but its already too late. You're gone forever. Gone to soon. You should've saw me graduate, you shoudlve saw me land a job, I know you are so proud of me from heaven because I fulfilled your dreams.. nga naa kay anak maka human ug skwela...I'm sad I couldnt buy you anything anymore or give back to you after years of stuggles and sacrifices.

I still dream about you often. I randomly think about you and cry because I missed you a lot. Im afraid I would forget your voice soon but your face will always remain in my memory. You are forever loved papa. I hope you're happy wherever you are right now. I miss you everyday and the slight thought of you still makes me cry. I missed you a lot. I want to hear your voice. I missed when you randomly put your arm on my shoulder and tell me random things that I used to hate. I wish I couldve talked to you more and hug you before you left. There were so much things I kept regretting up to this day but I couldnt change anything anymore and thats the price I have to pay.

I missed you pa! So much..

[anjtee]

WHEN DOES MONTHSARIES STARTED FEELING LIKE A NORMAL DAY?

It is indeed a normal day for everyone but it is a special day for every couples. It's a monthly celebration of love although not everyone chose to celebrate monthsaries anymore as they prefer celebrating anniversaries instead. But when does monthsaries started feeling like a normal day? After a couple of months? after a year? Is it normal and just a part of maturity of the relationship where you already both know that you have each other even without making a big deal about your monthsary because you have more important things to do. The trust is already there and both of you believed that a one-day will not define your love for each other. On the other side of the coin, other couple makes sure to find time for this special day to celebrate their love, some couple celebrates it just like the first time because for them you shouldnt stop making each other feel loved even if youve been together for many years.

I already forgot when mine started feeling like its just another normal day. We never celebrated monthsaries like going out or exchanging gifts because of our LDR situation but we never fail to greet each other with long cheesy messages. Months passed, years passed, slowly the long messages became redundant and felt scripted, we often forget about it if its not because of the monthly reminder on his phone and memories/archives on my social media that would remind us of this special day. Today is our day, I forgot about it and just realized it after scrolling on my facebook memories, I waited for him to greet me to see if he remembers it and yes.. he also forgot about it. I was upset but guilty because I knew to myself that I also forgot it too.

Is this still healthy? I dont wanna make a fuss about it that much because I tend to forget about it a lot too but I know to myself that I love him and I dont want anybody else anymore.. In fact, I forgot often than him but I get upset for this one time he forgot about it. What a bitch!

To everyone, please dont stop making your partner feel loved everyday, even if its not your monthsary, even if its not your anniversary, even if its just another gloomy day.

[anjtee]

its either way