To whom it may concern
I'm writing this because I want you to know that I still care about you. I promised you that I always will and I meant it. No matter where we stand. I wish you were honest with me about the way you were felt about me. I only wanted you to be happy. The nice things I did for you was because you were my friend. I didn't know that was such a red flag. I thought we were okay the whole time. I thought everything was fine when I visited you.
I just want you to know I took your words to heart. I'm trying to be a better person. And to be better at seeing signs. I'm so sorry I failed you as a friend.
I enjoyed every second I was there and I wish my emotions didn't get the better of me. It was an emotional week. I didn't know I would be hanging out with who you were crushing on. But it shouldn't have got me emotional. I wish I could take it back. I didn't know if you still liked that crush you talked about. But regardless, it shouldn't have happened. I told myself before the trip to not get emotional and if nothing came about I could finally move on. Meeting my fav changed that. I'm still very grateful to have met Taylor and you inviting me. But I feel like if that didn't happened, I would have left sooner and wouldn't have sent that text.
I was very much looking forward to coming back for that hockey game last month and maybe coming back for future Maisie tours. I'm so sorry I made you uncomfortable and that was never my attention.
You said you told me many times how you felt about me liking you and that we'd only be friends. Though I only recall one conversation. And you told me that you care about me deeply and that you loved me a lot. But yes I should have taken that as we'd only be friends. I'm not sure you said that to me, if I heard those words, I would have let go a long time ago.
I've been wanting to reach out and text you but have been respecting the boundaries you set. I'll regret losing your friendship for likely the rest of my life. I love you always!
