I am lost....

and you found me...

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I miss him

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[rofflow]

[mindyourheads]

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2.15.11

Most people got to spend their Valentine's Day with whoever they are dating. My boyfriend is a soldier though. So this V-day I spent it at home while he spent it in Iraq. It was depressing. I miss him. And I wish more than anything that I could hear his voice. It would've been the best present ever.

[anonymous-heart-blog]

my soldier is a smartass :P

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2.11.11

skype is what's keeping me going right now. it was 12:30 am but I got to see him before he started his day. I miss him terribly. I'm so happy I got to see his smile though. I love my soldier. <3

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2.9.11

He was online today...and because I slept in I didn't get to talk to him. I feel awful. I want to talk to him. I want t know that he's ok even though I already know that he is. What I really want is for him t be back here. I want to be in his arms. I want to stop having nightmares that keep me up all night. I want him to be safe.

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<3 <3 <3 five months....

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my soldier <3

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I miss him so much. I know I'm falling....

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2.4.11

Well Jared just dropped me off. I cried like a little girl. I know it upset him that I was crying but I couldn't help it. I tried not to but the more I fought it the more I cried. I hate this. It's not fare. I wish we could've spent more time together. I know I'm going to be a wreck for awhile...I'll get better though. I'll just be counting the days til he comes home. I miss him already as sad as that is....

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2.3.11

is it selfish of me for wanting him to stay? I honestly would give anything to have him stay. I have only gotten to spend two weeks with him. It's not fare. I swear it's like Dear John. I never thought that it could happen in real life, but it has. I'm not in love with Jared, but I feel myself falling. And he leaves tomorrow morning at 8:30. What am I supposed to do for five months? I know I'm going to be worrying myself sick about whether I'll get to talk to him or whether he's okay. I know that my family and Whit will make sure that I don't go crazy. And I plan on going and seeing his family whenever I get the chance to. It's just going to hurt so much when he leaves.

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2.2.11

I'm hoping today will be as amazing as I've got it set in my head. I'm so excited to spend time with Whit, Thomas and Jared. Mostly Jared. He leaves on Friday. I really really don't want him to leave. It scares me knowing that he's going right back to Iraq. I really wish he didn't have to. I would give anything for him to not have to go. But I know I can make it five months. I want to be with him. I want more than anything for it to work. There is just something different about him that draws me to him. I'm not sure what it is yet, but it's there.