Isn't it Ironic?

Just a secondary tumblr account venting feelings that nobody cares about.

[anonymoushopee-blog]

1/13/16

One thing about myself, you see, is that I like to be the person that brings someone else joy. I like to make people laugh, I like to give people things that makes them smile, I like to be the provider of joy. 

[michellepsychologist]

If you correct your mind, the rest of your life will fall into place.

Lao Tzu (via 72chambers)

[anonymoushopee-blog]

2016/4/1

Letting your guard down for someone is hard depending on the situations you’ve been in through-out your life or even the person you’re trying to open up too, but sometimes it can be very easy.. It just all comes down to one thing: trust.

And boy, oh boy, is it hard to trust someone all over again after they ruin everything. You break your walls down for that person , give them your all and hope, you pray to God things will be different and it’s not.

They take your vulnerability for granted and for what? To make themselves feel better? To make you realize what a piece of shit you are and break you down just to see if you’ll come crawling back again?

Think about it harder next time, buddy because you lost her for good.

[anonymoushopee-blog]

1/1/16

Well, it’s the start of the new year and that means the phrase “new year, new me” followed by numerous amounts of memes making fun of that phrase are going to be tossed around until late January. 

Although it is cliche and lots of people do say this a lot, I want a new me, but not in the “sexy” way meaning that I’m going to better my body so I can be a new eye source for boys, (not saying that i’m not gonna try to make my body look nicer) but I want to better my attitude and my look towards the world and people and situations. I want to be more understanding about the things around me.

I’m tired of seeing people judge one another for no better reason other than they don’t like the other person. You might be thinking well, isn’t that what someone does when they don’t like someone else? My answer is, no or that it shouldn’t be. I know very well we all judge the person we hate, but I think we should learn to keep it to ourselves instead of bringing it to the surface and embarrassing them or even yourself. 

You see. me and a once good friend aren’t on good terms anymore and she used harsh words to describe me with to one of our mutual friends and out of frustration, anger, embarrassment, I acted out and not only did I ruin her night, it also ruined mine by embarrassing me, too.

I want to better myself so things like this doesn’t happen again. I want to better myself so I don’t have to believe the foul comments from others because I’ll know who I am and have much I’ve grown since. And honestly, I can’t wait for the day to look back and see how much I did change as a person. 

Heres to 2016!

[anonymoushopee-blog]

There’s many things that scare us..

There’s many basic things in this world that scares us such as storms, bugs, the dark, clowns, loneliness.. the list can go on and on but the scariest thing to me- words. 

Now, I know if someone is reading this (probably not) you’re probably shaking your head or confused on why this might be a bigger fear than death or poverty. Well, from my experience, people are unpredictable in their acts of vulnerability that will make them have a random outburst of such nonsense that will eat you upside for days.

I’m sure we’ve all heard of the saying “sticks and stones may break my bones but words will never hurt me” but when does that saying ever come to play? When does that saying ever become true because frankly, I’m waiting for it. It’s like every word that spilled out of her mouth, every word is permanently carved into my brain for a never ending play back and there’s nothing I can do to turn the tape off.

I never thought I would be the person haunted by the words of a fellow friend- someone I used to count on and adore until one day all that changed. The friendliness and the jokes and the secrets faded out of our lives and reached the point of awkward glaces and turned heads. 

I never thought I would be the one to say this, but words hurt.