My Anonymous Life

I am a 17 year old girl living in Ohio. I'm not good at sharing my thoughts and feelings, so this blog is dedicated to them. I will normally blog about my weight, my long distance relationship, and my friends. Someone else was using my email on this blog, the previous title "Bittersweet." I am not that person.

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I am currently in a long distance relationship.

I met this guy online about three years ago. Don’t worry, we talk on the phone and skype and shit, so I know he’s real. Anyway, we’ve been dating for a year and three months. And we’re both in love with eachother. But he’s one of those guys who hates school and doesn’t even try. Which pisses me off. I mean, we both believe that we’re soulmates, but how the fuck am I supposed to have a nice life when I know that in the future, I will be worrying about money!? Now, some may wonder why I can’t be the breadwinner. I could, if that were necessary, but I just want to be a mother. I like to describe myself as a domestic feminist. Anyway, I just don’t know if it’s going to work out. And that terrifies me.

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I'm in a long distance relationship with a boy I met online. We met three years ago. And we started being exclusive a year and a couple months ago. We plan on being together forever. But sometimes I just wish that I hadn't met him and fallen in love with him so early in life. I only get this feeling like once every couple months. But sometimes I just want to mess around. But I know that if I do that now, I'd lose home forever. And small flings here and there aren't worth it.

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Im sorry, its just that there's still so much I don't know, some of which I'll never know, and I'm still learning, and I won't ever stop learning either.

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My current weight: 260.

I don’t look it though. I went to the doctor and she started the scale at 150. Which was flattering. But sometimes, I just wonder what it would be like if I never got fat. Would I still struggle to go shopping? Would boys actually like me? Would my boobs be as big as they are now? Would I do better in school? Would I have more friends? Would I still be a bitch? Would I still be covered in stretch marks? Would I be more easily accepted by the world?