i'm from california

i strive to love deep & true. i'm a bull from a dragon year. you've been warned. Thru & Threw, CA "I must try as hard as I can to understand everything that anyone ever does." -Etty Hillesum

[americaisdead]

© tag christof

california. may 2018

[nocker2000]

Das Video zum Baumhaus

[cabinporn]

Craftsmanship & Critters — super creative process film from Julian Nocker:

I designed and built this treehouse during 3 summer holidays next to my architecture studies. It is the result of my dealing with wood construction, handcraft and space following the ideas  and concepts of the childhood treehouse and Japanese teahouses.

It is located in Salzburg Austria, on the exact same place where I had my first actual treehouse built with my brother and father.

I started the project out of the motivation to really build something. To continue where fictional design tasks at university normally end. The liberty of not having to know the exact outcome, of still making decision during the building process, of allowing mistakes to occur and learning from them considerably blurred the usual separation of planning and building.

In the end my treehouse also turned into my diploma thesis and already hosted guests from several countries! 

On my blog you can find pictures and video documenting the whole building process.

[dyskomike-deactivated20250901]

“You are so brave and quiet I forget you are suffering.”

— Ernest Hemingway, A Farewell to Arms (via soundgrammar)

[transpondster]

Letter to the Editor

[peace-love-colbert]

The Best Donald Trump Protest Signs From The London Rally | July 13, 2018

[catbushandludicrous]

[hedgehog-goulash7]

I empathize completely

[elegantsips]

Agnes Denes - Wheatfield – A Confrontation (1982)

[purplebuddhaquotes]

Most things will be okay eventually, but not everything will be. Sometimes you’ll put up a good fight and lose. Sometimes you’ll hold on really hard and realize there is no choice but to let go.

Cheryl Strayed (via purplebuddhaquotes)

[hannaoliviaway]

Central Coast in the springtime 👌🏼

[cancerninja]

Rarely, if ever, are any of us healed in isolation. Healing is an act of communion.

bell hooks All About Love - New Visions (via cancerninja)

[magictransistor]

Ansel Adams. Saguaros, Saguaro National Monument, Arizona, 1933-1942.

[racialized]

Ai Weiwei: Never Sorry

[anotheriteration]

i turned 30 recently. i correct everyone by clarifying that i actually turned 30 last year, and am now this year, embarking on my 31st year on this planet earth. so if we look at it that way, my 30s are a fucking rollercoaster. i don’t like rollercoasters. 

of course, i’m blanketing a year’s worth of experience. trying to force meaning into arbitrary constraints. time isn’t linear, nor is growth. 

i have been struggling with my depression lately, because, at its root, i am struggling with my ability to believe in myself and love myself despite my circumstances. i know, intellectually, that i am a valid human and a capable human. but when i can’t pay bills and can’t take care of myself with all my wacky needs then my mind begins to believe the logic, “well, if you were actually good enough, this wouldn’t be happening.”

which is the OPPOSITE of everything i believe in about the world, about who i love, how i love, what my experience knows to be true. it’s like i’m underwater,  weighters of my disbelieving thoughts tied to my ankles drag me deeper & i use all my strength to come back up to catch my breath, and just as soon as i do, back underwater i go. 

it’s a viscous cycle. 

i asked for help today. i decided to ask for help a bit over a week ago. it’s been a very difficult thing for me to do, especially to ask of it of this person. but i, after a weekend of major crying time, and debilitating depression, i was able to reach a stasis that allowed me to mediate, with the guidance of some crystals, and last week, i felt much more connected to the world and more open to receiving and giving love. 

there was this moment when i was laying next to my partner and i was struck with this clear thought, “if i valued myself as much as i value my partner, i would not be treating myself like this,” which still fits that terrible logic “if is was ___ then _____” but i took it more as the moment i realized the root of my problem, which is that i am not valuing myself. 

anyway, i guess what i am saying is, being poor is expensive and difficult, especially when you have mental health and physical health needs and i realize that i also have a lot of privilege navigating this experience-- i’m white, i’m read as hetero. we all have what we have, and am working on clearing the muck, because, ultimately, i want to enjoy and give life and love as much as i possibly can while i’m here. 

[aeropajita]

I’m watching a documentary on YouTube and the person who uploaded it didn’t edit out the commercials, but I’m glad they didn’t because I lost it at this one.

[i-was-a-naive--prolifer]

[strangeasanjles-deactivated2019]

Not all heros wear capes.

[wikdsushi-deactivated20201108]

I want to buy this woman a beer.

[diamondelight92]

This woman is named June Ayres and she has owned and operated Reproductive Health Services, which is currently the only clinic in Montgomery, Alabama, for about 30 years. May I suggest that you donate the price of that beer to The Linda D Foundation, which helps Alabama women afford reproductive services including birth control, emergency contraception, and abortion services? http://alabamareproductiverightsadvocates.com/thelindadfoundation/ You could also donate to the National Abortion Federation here: http://prochoice.org/about-naf/support-naf/ This gifset is from an incredible documentary called Trapped. You can find or organize a screening or stream it for free here: http://www.trappeddocumentary.com/ It’s seriously an amazing movie about some amazing people.

[breelandwalker]

This woman’s casual level of “Fuck You” herosim is exactly what I aspire to be in life.

[enoughtohold]

who is she

[regularlesbian]

woman seeking woman. i’m six feet tall, fashionable, and enjoy long walks through brackish estuary water off the coast of virginia

[estebanwaseaten]

She’s our most famous cryptid 

[theweddingofthefoxes]

The bae in the bay

[osheamobile]

The Chesapeake Bae

[helpmequitmydayjob]