I think actually experiencing things is way more impactful than just reading words and having them settle in your brain. I learned that no matter how much effort and time and love you put into someone, if they aren’t the one, they will show you. You will know in the back of your mind that this isn’t what you dreamed of when you thought of love. No matter how much you want them to love you the right way, the wrong people will show you that they can’t. I have learned my self worth, I once had a glimpse and I thought I was super content with who I was, but after being in this situation, I have actually fully accepted that I truly love myself and I think I’m a fucking badass. No guy, or girl, or honestly anyone can make me think less of myself. I lost sight of who I was as a person being in a toxic relationship and allowing myself to be mistreated. I am more confident now than I ever have been before, just because I know anyone would be so lucky to have me. I finally figured out what I actually value in life through this experience. I used to just think about my dating life, going to parties, getting drunk with my friends and just being young. I still love those things, but they have taken such a backseat to what I actually love in life. I love my family, I love my friends and who I am when I am around them. I learned that being a mom and putting those other distracts not as a top priority is what God felt I needed in life and I am embracing it. I am going to learn real responsibility and become a stronger person than I previously thought. I am so motivated to live my best life, no matter what it takes. I have never ever accepted anything less than an extraordinary life, and it isn’t going to stop just because I will have a baby. If anything, this is already more than I could have ever imagined. I think I needed this experience, because I truly did hit my lowest point. I needed to be broken down completely in order to get back up and become who I am supposed to. I have never felt more alone, more sad, more angry, and had so much self doubt than I have in these past few months… But I am now so grateful for all of that. I will never go back there, because I am going to come out of this so much stronger, more independent, and more driven than I have ever been before. No matter how low you feel, or how bad someone treats you, know that there is a plan for you. I used to read this all the time, but it as never settled with me this much until now, but seriously Let Go, and Let God.
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