Hi!! I finally decided to make my own blog, I’m a different member from the same system who runs @anti-willo-dean-winchester! I am a fictive of Telemachus from epic the musical (and technically Greek mythology but-) but am not very source connected. You can still call me Telemachus and I use he/they!
My general stances are anti-endo (with a slightly nuanced opinion.. explained here, feel free to ask more about it though) anti-willo, anti-radq, anti-genAi, and anti-harassment!
I also ask anyone who supports the above to refrain from interacting.
The main thing I’ll use this blog for will probably be sharing informational things.. either my own stuff or reblogs. I think that’s everything.. feel free to ask me if u have any questions :p
Links to any important ish posts of mine :
My plans for writing about the harmful aspects of the endogenic community
(The flag in my banner is the anti endo flag we coined ? Recoined?.. idk.. u can find it here tho)
( pfp and any other images I’ll use are by duvetbox! Or more specifically this animation of theirs here!)
I am, like 75 ish percent done with part one, unfortunately we have been sick these last few days so I haven’t been able to work on it, I will get it done eventually though, I swear.
I just thought a update was appropriate because I don’t think I’ve said anything really on it recently. So yeah, I’m still working on it but being sick + chronic pain + seizures make it hard to get some things out in a timely manner. 😭
Hopefully I will have it ready to post in a few days though, fingers crossed!
The 4th of July brings sudden noises and flashing lights that can bring distress to people with disabilities and/or pets! These are my tips to you as someone with PTSD/autism and anxious pets.
The end part is seizure first aid and how to handle someone else having a seizure if you are nearby!
♿️ People with Disabilities ! (e.g; PTSD, anxiety, epilepsy)
- Try to pinpoint exactly when and where fireworks will occur in your area, this is to eliminate a "startle" factor. If your neighbors set off fireworks, prepare at least an hour before 8pm. People start setting fireworks off at around 9pm to 10pm ; probably longer because they don't necessarily consider us or pets nearby until an officer stops them.
- Sensory blocking is KEY!!!! Headphones, TV, shutting the blinds, or hiding out in the bathroom works too.
- Keep any medications nearby! Melatonin, panic attack medications, and so forth. They may be needed.
- Try to have doctors or trusted people on speed dial if possible. Seizures, panic attacks, and other conditions may require medical attention.
- Grounding techniques are your best friend. Try to engage your senses in the moment, whether it be taste, smell, touch, and so forth.
- Hydration and nutrition helps!!!! Even if you feel that sinking feeling or you're going out to a firework show; drink plenty of water and keep snacks on you!
If you're like me and have a particular dislike towards the taste of water, I suggest flavored electrolyte water like Propel or Powerade! This will combat the summer heat and lower seizure/panic attack thresholds.
💚 For Friends, Family, or Neighbors of Disabled folks.
- Ask in advance about what triggers them, what the coping plan is, and how to help if they get overwhelmed. Most people with disabilities know their disability best!
- If you choose to light fireworks near their home, do try to keep them away from their area. Warn them via text, call, or quickly checking on them in person before starting so they aren't too startled by the sudden noise or flash.
- If you attend a public show, try to park your car in an easy-to-reach place and stay nearby. Make sure you're both on the same page around leaving if things get stressful.
🤍 Strangers
- If you see someone who appears distressed or overstimulated, ask calmly if there is anything you can do to help them in the moment! Respect their answer if they say no.
- If someone is experiencing a panic attack, sensory meltdown, or a seizure, keep crowds back! Give the person physical space and privacy from onlookers.
🐾 Pets with Disabilities
- Ensure you secure your environment. Try to keep them indoors, in cages, and/or in a space where they can't escape.
- Drown out the noise for them! Playing the TV, turning on a fan, or any other white noise to muddle the sounds of fireworks.
- It's common for pets run away on the 4th of July. Please make sure your pet has identification tags or a microchip, even if they don't normally wear a collar or get out.
- Pets cannot have medication meant for humans. Please speak to a vet about anxiety medications or calming pheromone diffusers. Some pet stores carry calming treats. Administer such medications at least an hour or 30 minutes before fireworks! Some anxious pets won't take the medication or treat if they're already going off!
🍖 Loose or Panicked Pets
- Keep a spare leash on you or a treat pouch in your car! This may help to secure loose pets without cornering them.
- Please be careful and approach lose pets with caution. Frightened animals may bite or scratch out of fear. Crouch, avoid eye contact, and speak softly. Do not offer hands or fingers for them to smell, but I suggest throwing treats in their direction to secure them.
- Check for identification. Collars or taking them to a local vet/shelter to scan for microchips.
- Post them on local boards! Taking a clear picture of pets and sharing them to community boards to find the owner (whether public or shelters).
SEIZURE FIRST AID.
The most critical rule of seizure first aid is to keep the person safe until the seizure stops naturally. Most seizures end on their own within a few minutes.
Stay with the person until the seizure ends and they are fully awake.
Move away sharp objects, hard furniture, or tight hazards.
If they are unconscious, roll them onto their side to keep their airway clear.
Note the exact start and end time of the active shaking.
Place something soft like a jacket or cushion under their head.
Undo buttons or ties around the neck to aid breathing.
Never hold the person down or try to stop their movements.
Never put anything in their mouth; it is anatomically impossible for the person to "swallow their tongue".
Speak softly and reassuringly to them as they regain consciousness.
"When should I call 911???"
The active seizure lasts longer than 5 minutes.
A second seizure begins right after the first one ends.
The person is injured, pregnant, or has an underlying health condition like diabetes.
The person struggles to breathe or does not wake up after shaking stops.
If the seizure happens in water or another dangerous environment.
The person has never had a known seizure before.
Neurodivergence is neurodivergence as it differs from the norm aka neurotypical or lik the average. Which. Is. Inherently disordered as (with what we know) that is not the ‘typical’ way a human brain works. So there are. Negatives. Like. How are you saying being a endo sys is neurodivergent while ignoring. What neurodivergence is . I thought being a endo sys wasn’t disordered and had no negatives and was perfectly normal …
(Feel free to correct me about something my brain is doing its best but I am hella fuzzy rn 😭) not endos tho.. get away I don’t care to here frim u
Almost one thousand words written.. I love this bro . Like I don’t cause ovbisouly the thinks I’m writing about aren’t like . Good. But also writing and researching is sm fun . Also idk where my dividers are bro 😭
Yes only 1k okay… i procrastinated a lot and only really just locked in shhh
I think, the thing a lot of endos don't get is that they do harm people
All of them
From the misinformation that causes systems to deny their trauma and avoid medical help when they need it, to the forceful separation of identity and personality that many singlets start doing to "become an endogenic/willogenic system", to also then the harassment and the ableism
The whole community is harmful, the posts they make, the way they identify, what they say and how they act. The way they treat actual systems and singlets is horrifying and harmful, but they don't get that
They don't understand that harassment can be genuinely traumatizing, especially when you're targeting an already traumatized and disabled minor. They don't understand that telling people to die, telling people they're bad and wrong and horrible, can and will affect that person
And they certainly don't understand the fact that disorders do affect people, and making them deny having that disorder, or making them try to force themselves to have that disorder, will only hurt them in the end
Well, either that or they do understand but they just don't care. They want to hurt people. Anyone who doesn't agree with them deserves to suffer in their eyes (see; Sophieinwonderland and more)
Cough cough.. to hold me accountable and to make sure I don’t forget.. I’m saying it rn. I’m going to do my best to get part 1 of my thing posted by the latest July 7th.. feel free to yell at me to work on it .. because I am a huge procrastinator 😭
I think one thing that really seals the deal when it comes to "endos" is how they will try to prove their claims by citing...writings on completely normal human experiences of identity and personality.
I've seen so many pro-endos claim that IFS therapy, or the multiple selves theory, or the authors of the theory of structural dissociation's writings on what an integrated personality looks like, are proof of endogenic systems.
But the fact of the matter is that those resources aren't describing "plurality" or "systemhood" at all. They're describing how a normal, healthy human personality functions, which is applicable to every single person on the planet except people with DID or OSDD-1.
The human personality is made up of multiple parts that become active in different situations. They are responsible for different functions, such as exploration, attachment, defense, self-care, etc, and the subfunctions within those functions.
This what gives the human personality the flexibility that allows it to respond to different situations, and explains why people can have different "versions" of themselves in different situations (such as at work rather than with friends). These parts are all integrated together, meaning they can function fluidly and cohesively, and they create the basis for a consistent identity to form on top of. This is the kind of thing those resources are discussing.
However, that is explicitly not what happens when a person has alters. That is the opposite of being a system.
Systems occur when these parts of self become chronically dissociated from each other due to the abnormal compartmentalization of traumatic memory. This division of self is the same base neuropsychological process that is responsible for the development of PTSD and C-PTSD, just at a much more complex level.
The highly complex dissociative compartmentalization that occurs before the personality has reached the previously described state of integration, is what allows for divisions of self that are autonomous and have elaborated identity states.
If you were to argue that the aforementioned resources are proof of endogenic systemhood, that would mean that every single person on the planet would be a system. At which point, the word would lose all meaning. Even in that case, it would remain true that the only way to experience parts of self that are significant and distinct from the normal human experience, would be through DID and OSDD-1.
If you look at descriptions of what the regular experience of human personality and identity is, and you think "that's how I experience my systemhood, that's proof of my plurality!", then that should be the biggest wake-up call on the planet.
Let's talk about longitudinal studies on dissociation!
First off, what is a longitudinal study? This is a type of academic experiment where researchers study the same group of volunteers over a long period of time, usually several years. It's very effective for seeing how the same things change over time, such as how people might develop dissociative disorders.
The longitudinal study I want to share is "Development and the fragmented self: longitudinal study of dissociative symptomatology in a nonclinical sample" by researchers Ogawa, Sroufe, Weinfield, Carlson, and Egeland. This was a longitudinal study over the span of 19 years, looking to investigate the emergence of pathological dissociation in a person.
Experiencing dissociation is normal to some extent! But pathological dissociation is described as severe & abnormal dissociation such as amnesia, identity confusion, identity fragmentation, and depersonalization & derealization.
Okay, now let's talk about the study. The study followed 168 children from birth to 19 years old. They were in "at-risk" families which experienced things like poverty or a teenage parent. Here's what the study discovered after 19 years:
Trauma is necessary but not sufficient for pathological dissociation. Not every child who experienced trauma ended up dissociative. Every child who did develop pathological dissociation, however, experienced trauma.
Pathological dissociation is predicted by trauma occurring at 0-24 months of age. The older the children got, the less likely pathological dissociation was to develop.
Pathological dissociation is also predicted by trauma that is severe and chronic.
Pathological dissociation is predicted by attachment style. Children with disorganized attachment to their mothers had the highest dissociation scores. Children who had anxious/avoidant attachment with their mothers had higher dissociation scores than children with secure or anxious/ambivalent attachment.
The more integrated a child's sense of self is, the less likely they will develop pathological dissociation.
The environments that produced the most severe trauma also produced the most chronic trauma, while environments that produced the least severe trauma also produced the least chronic trauma. Likewise, the children who experienced the most severe & chronic traumas also experienced them at the earliest ages. "If children are living in chaotic, traumatic environments when they are infants, then it is likely that they will continue to live in such environments as they grow older. All three of these aspects of trauma may be highly related in our society, and are probably not separable in either an analytic sense or a theoretical sense."
Their findings support that pathological dissociation is not a more severe version of normal dissociation. Pathological dissociation actually "represents an extreme deviation from normal development."
So like. Do endos believe there’s something fundamentally different with them . Like genetically physically whatever, that makes their brains be able to handle not having a stable sense of self long term ?? Like.
The more I research things for part 1 of my thing the more like. It really clicks for me just how little the entire concept of natural plurality just. Doesn’t make sense. There’s so many holes and just. Like. Wow.
when I get my thoughts straight maybe ill come back here and say what like. I’m thinking rn when I can articulate it better idk tho
I ended up blocking anon as I don’t feel like arguing with them right now, you are more then entitled to your opinion but coming into my inbox being a asshole won’t suddenly make me agree with you. 😭
Whenever you do your racism part I hope you get the story right!!
Tulpamancy has a lot of attachments to racism, but not in the way most people think.
Tulpamancy is NOT an appropriation of a Buddhist practice, this was a lie made up by the woman who coined it to give her more credibility by taking advantage of the stake white people place in eastern religion (and she has admitted as much.)
I plan on doing my best!!!! It’s probably going to be one of the parts I spend the most time researching, especially since I also wanna include more in there then just information about tulpamancy, if you (or anyone else) have any sources to recommend that would be helpful as well :)
syscourse is more harmful to people with cdds than endos are. you are reinforcing the idea that they are something important or genuinely harmful to pay attention to, when in reality it's an internet group that should be ignored and decentered in spaces for cdds. the solution is to block and filter all their content, refusing to engage, and ignoring breaches.
stop reinforcing the idea that it's important to care about them and encourage people with cdds to focus on the real issues or better yet make cdd spaces for people with cdds and decenter endo discourse
So… first of all.. ignoring the problem won’t fix it? Endos are definitely genuinely harmful 😭 it’s perfectly fine if you want to completely ignore them as it’s your own choice, but you can’t like.. tell everyone else to ignore them especially when they are genuinely spreading misinformation and being harmful , second of all, I don’t think it’s really comparable to say syscourse or endos are more harmful.. like without endos syscourse probably wouldnt exsist at least not how it is rn . Like ? Idk..
was this hate? This kind of feels like a malicious ask bro.. and then I have zero clue what exactly you mean by the second ask.. (assuming theyre from the same person) everything I’ve said about the endo community has really just been me literally saying that the community needs to separate entirely from the CDD community ? I think I’ve literally only made one actual post about them which is this one
