Esaul @antireverence - Tumblr Blog

I love being with someone that just doesn't drown in sorrow the same way I do. It keeps me out of it and it makes me embarrassed to romanticize my sadness so much.

It must be nice to not live like an inferior fuck hahahhahahhahahahaahahhahahahhahaha

Okay, see?

I would actually be so fucked if anyone read this blog

Turn off your phone and don't even think about a notification right now. You're still in the healing process.

The things that once fulfilled me in life just isn't doing the same, that's how I've felt since... I don't know, it's been so long......

What would normal, mentally stable me be doing? They would not say anything crazy, rush and go to sleep, they will just find something to do and take the silence and wait time waiting for a response for a message and they will not burn themselves over it, so that's the action I have to proceed with so my partner doesn't get drained again!

I currently have no fulfillment in my life outside of my partner!

I don't want to think I don't want to do anything! I'll just freeze for hours and think again!

It could be worse! I could go back to how I was before!

I'm not thinking straight. How do I make myself think straight?

I've been telling myself to stay in one place and stay quiet to not make brash decisions, but I guess that just makes me look like an unmotivated wad of meat. I mean, two things can be true

And how do I cope now? Well first, I'll have to figure out what the problem is, let's do that

OH MY FUCKING GOD I ACTUALLY MADE MYSELF TWEAK AGAIN

I THINK I SHOULD LET MYSELF BREAK AGAIN (but quietly this time)

I CANT THINK STRAIGHT TO MAKE MYSELF FEEL BETTER

Fuck not again

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