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𝒕𝒉𝒊𝒔 𝒊𝒔 𝒐𝒖𝒓 𝒐𝒅𝒚𝒔𝒔𝒆𝒚…

[antonbun]

@ 𝒂𝒏𝒕𝒐𝒏𝒃𝒖𝒏 — marisol ౨ৎ she/they ౨ৎ 22 ౨ৎ latina

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NEW! asap — osaki shotaro (oneshot smau)

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and then there is you — anton lee

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focus — park wonbin (smau)

[antonbun]

hey! short update lol, life’s been kinda crazy lately

i’m in korea for my last round of auditions, which is held this thursday TT

i’m really nervous, but i hope things go well! i got a lot of time to prepare and i think i’m ready, i don’t wanna say i feel confident but i think i’m more prepared for any possible answer i get :-)

wether i pass or not, i’m glad to have gotten the opportunity for this! so i hope whoever’s reading this also is grateful for all the opportunities life gives us

i hope you’re doing well!! love you!

-🍀

MY CLOVER ANON!! HI!!

i’m so glad ur doing well!! i know i’m answering this a little late, but i hope ur audition went smoothly <3 keeping u in my thoughts!! love u!

[antontual]

RIIZE 라이즈 'II' Trailer Still Dreaming

[antonbun]

hii 👋🏻 i was wondering if you have a permanent taglist? i absolutely love your smaus and i’d love to be tagged in all your posts >.<

hi!! yes i do!! of course i can add u <33 now that i’m settling back in and completely moved, i’m hopefully gonna be able to jump back into posting :P

[antonbun]

i’ve been soooo inactive recently i’m so sorry gang 💔 i’m in the process of moving 😭

[antonbun]

hihi!!

not sure if you’re active, it’s been a little bit since my last update >.<

it still feels like things are moving too fast unfortunately, i’m leaving later this week and i’m still working on packing.. i had to quit my job unfortunately without putting in a 2 weeks since the company wants me there so soon, so i’m sad if that left a bad impression on me :-(

i’m nervous leaving home, i’ve never had to be so far from my loved ones on my own for however long this will last, and i admit that i’m scared. i just pray things go well for me and i don’t look back with regret if i’m able to move forwards

i’m trying to keep my head up for all the good possibilities, so wish me luck !

i hope i can give more updates on my traveling soon

don’t forget to eat and drink lots of water today, love you!

- 🍀

my clover anon!! i’ve missed u!!

i know how scary being away from family is, trust me. i moved basically cross country by myself back in august and i’ve never been away from my family for this long so it was a HUGE adjustment. but i know all these months apart will be worth it once i see them again!! so that’s how u should see it too!!

i’m wishing u all the luck in the world and hoping for nothing but the best for u my clover anon <3

hope to talk again soon!

[antonbun]

i do have a similar take, i don’t think he was trying to be straight up racist, but he definitely isn’t educated enough for someone who is one, grown, and two has/had a big international fan base. they just started gaining their popularity again and it’s not smart to market in different countries and not be educated. it’s also sad how people are using this opportunity to be straight up mean and try to piece parts of things he’s said in the past and create a narrative for it, like his black shadow nickname. it’s very hard to believe what the exact meaning of the word is when many different people are saying many different things, like how it’s an offensive term but it’s also a word with triple meaning?

no exactly, i was talking about this with my close friend and we were discussing how so many people took the opportunity to jump him and now the entire internet hates him. i agree that he isn’t socially aware enough as a 25 year old man who was JUST in latin america. he definitely has some learning to do from this and has a lot to prove to fans now. but again, i don’t think his intention was to be racist or hateful. like i mentioned previously, colorism is a bad habit that a lot of idols have to break - especially bc they have not just international fans, but fans of color. kpop isn’t just an industry within korea, but worldwide and i think idols should be responsible for understanding that.

[antonbun]

hi everyone, i’m not sure who has and who hasn’t seen what’s been circulating w eunseok today, and while it’s not my place to speak on it considering i’m not a part of the affected community, i will say that colorist/racist remarks are not tolerated on this blog. i hope he says something soon bc as someone who has supported him since way before he even debuted w riize, i’m extremely disappointed. there honestly isn’t an excuse he can give, and i can’t even accept an apology bc i’m not the one who he was offensive towards, but he’s a grown man who is very well aware of his audience and what he says. until then, i will no longer be writing for him.

[antonbun]

i just wanted to touch base on this as i’ve talked about the situation a lot with my friends. i’m in no way shape or form trying to defend eunseok, bc again he is a grown man. he should know better and i’m still very disappointed. but as i’ve gotten more context and read multiple perspectives on the situation, i genuinely and honestly don’t think his intention was to be racist. i’ve seen that the word he used definitely requires context in the situation which it’s being used, and didn’t become used as a slur until much more recently, and not many people actually use it as such. it’s more commonly used as a cute way to say someone has like been out in the sun all day. colorism is a really big issue in korea. it’s an ideal that is ingrained in the entire country and has been ingrained for who knows how long. i’m not excusing it, bc as an idol it is ur responsibility to be socially aware of these kinds of things, but i can also see why it’s hard to grow out of a mindset when practically your entire culture/country is built around it. i’m not saying it’s okay, bc trust me, as a latina i have seen my own share of colorism in my life, but i also don’t think he was trying to be an evil vile person. he made a mistake that, unfortunately, will follow him for his entire career, but all he can do moving forward is be open to educating himself and showing that. i’m not here to say u need to accept his apology bc u are well within ur rights not to. i personally do think that he should make a more formal statement speaking out to the affected briize, as well as calling out those who took this as an opportunity to be openly racist - though i don’t really trust sm with this bc i’m sure they value their k fans more. i do think what was said was wrong, but i also don’t think he meant it in the way everyone sees it/sees him.

[antonbun]

this whole situation is so embarrassing and disappointing ☹️ eunseok is ALL over my room and he isn’t even my bias, again just disappointing n i can’t imagine how the community directly effected feels

no it really is. as sad as it sounds, when idols do stupid things like this, i’m usually not surprised. but EUNSEOK??? i’ve spent so many years in his corner and it feels a little like a slap in the face. i guess it’s true when they say u never actually know ur idols :/

[antonbun]

hi everyone, i’m not sure who has and who hasn’t seen what’s been circulating w eunseok today, and while it’s not my place to speak on it considering i’m not a part of the affected community, i will say that colorist/racist remarks are not tolerated on this blog. i hope he says something soon bc as someone who has supported him since way before he even debuted w riize, i’m extremely disappointed. there honestly isn’t an excuse he can give, and i can’t even accept an apology bc i’m not the one who he was offensive towards, but he’s a grown man who is very well aware of his audience and what he says. until then, i will no longer be writing for him.

[antonbun]

asap

pairing: osaki shotaro x f!reader

content: oneshot smau, fluff, humor, swearing, cousin’s friend!taro, reader is wonbin’s cousin, bin gotta be the most irritating person in this icl, kys/kms jokes, mentions of bodily functions (throwing up in a good way), typos prolly, the usual antonbun stupidity

synopsis: in which wonbin is the worst best matchmaker ever.

౨ৎ note: not sure how funny i find this one on a scale of focus to zero, but i wanted to do one of these for each member + hani so here it is :D

౨ৎ perm taglist: @tmrwsuns @luvkeiiii @dollyriri @twentyonemars @strawikus @rixieisfreaky @tonddosstar

© 𝒂𝒏𝒕𝒐𝒏𝒃𝒖𝒏.

[antonbun]

holy shart things are moving teeww fast for me 🥹

just got off a work shift after being on call with my parents and having to go over my break time because i was buying my flight ticket to korea and getting lectured because my parents werent very happy with the fact the company isnt providing much </3

anyways.. it feels like i literally JUST passed(which i did) and it feels like things are moving so fast.. i’m supposed to be there within the next couple weeks but they said they hope to see me within the next week?? idk i’m kinda nervous, i have to get my own place to stay and everything

i’m kinda nervous that this will just end up as a waste of money and time if i dont pass? but i dont like thinking of things as a waste so i guess these will just be memories i made while walking down my path

i hope these msgs sent into your inbox also become nostalgic for me, like how anton said hehe :-) i loved my fangirl life and maybe i’ll have to learn to love an idol life too..??????

wish me luck!! ill be updating u on my travels.. love love love from clover!

- 🍀

IM WISHING U ALL THE LUCK IN THE WORLD MY CLOVER ANON!!!

i’m sure it’s so scary bc everything is happening so fast but i’m pushing out positivity into the world in hopes that everything goes so smoothly for u! i’ll be (im)patiently waiting for ur next update!! love u my clover anon :33

[antonbun]

ur replies are always the sweetest sending these anon msgs literally makes my day😭😭😭😭😭😭😭😭😭

thank u for supporting me regardless of not knowing who i am…. but i will make u proud!!!!!

figuring out this round 3 flight and travel situation is so scary but im glad to have people supporting me :-) so i’ll make the most out of this opportunity heh

love u !!!!!

- 🍀

CLOVER ANON 😭😭😭😭😭😭 ur asks literally always make me so excited to open tumblr like genuinely even my roommate knows about u

i’m lowk living vicariously through u rn bc fun fact i had an audition w hybe back when they were doing the auditions for dream academy way back when but i never went bc my parents were too stressed out over the travel aspect since it was in vegas

love u the mostest and i’ll be here waiting for ur next message!! <3

[antontual]

WONBIN for ARENA HOMME+ CHINA (MAY 2026)

[antonbun]

computa: how to hop on that

[antonbun]

hi!!!!!!

this feels like a crazy new update counting the msg i sent only a few days ago???? but big news heh

since im anonymous im hoping this is okay to say because im not really supposed to anything haha….

i passed my second round of a private audition i got the offer for, from a pretty well known company, meaning i have to fly to korea for my last round 😣 i have no clue what to prepare myself for or what i should be expecting but i’m too scared to expect i’m gonna pass my last round and start training, so i won’t say that yet and i’ll continue to be extremely grateful for this opportunity, whatever results i get from this

this feels kinda weird talking about something so massive on a fanfiction writers page but since i’m not allowed to talk about this anywhere else it kinda just has to be here.. LOL

but for now, i’ll stay as clover anon for as long as i can, and hope you and whoever’s reading this will unknowingly support me in the future (if that future comes true)

- 🍀 (maybe this emoji is actually lucky.. lololol)

CLOVER ANON OH MY GOD???? THIS IS HUGE 😭😭 i’m so happy for u and i’m sending all of my positive energy in ur direction!! i feel so emotional for some reason?? i think it’s the fact that ur so trusting in me and that u feel safe enough to confide in my inbox 🥹 anyways i hope all good things continue to come ur way and i’m always cheering u on!! <3 please feel free to stay my clover anon as long as u’d like

[antonbun]

hey, where are you from? if you don’t mind me asking

like ethnicity or like where i live..? 😭

[antonbun]

just read your sungchan smau, went to check out your other work, and immediately got distracted when i saw your lasagna post 🤤🤤🤤

LMFAOOOO MY LASAGNA i’m gonna make a plate with love for all my followers 🤍