自殺しそうな

blessed with beauty and rage

[antukin]

i forgot what this felt like.

it’s been almost two years since i’ve stood this close to a body of water—close enough to hear it move, close enough to watch the surface hold the sky like it had nothing to prove.

and maybe that sounds dramatic, but something in me went quiet the second i got here.

for the first time in a long time, my chest didn’t feel tight. my thoughts weren’t clawing at each other. i wasn’t replaying old conversations, old wounds, old versions of myself i still grieve.

i was just... here.

breathing.

and maybe it makes sense. maybe the part of me made of tides and feeling and too much heart was always meant to find its way back here. maybe that’s what happens when a girl with too much water in her soul finally stands in front of something that understands how she moves.

i’ve spent so much time surviving on land—pretending i’m harder than i am, quieter than i am, less sensitive than i am.

but near the water, i don’t have to perform strength.

i just am.

calm.

clear.

okay.

and god... i didn’t realize how much i needed to feel okay.

for a moment, i wasn’t yearning for anyone.

i was just finding my way back to myself.

[qvotable]

One day, the sky will crack open and the stars will pour out in waves of moonlight- and there is your love.

Unknown

[mourningkite]

Underground is a weird place

[twinsfawn]

baby i could treat you so good you just have to get past my strange and off-putting demeanor and my kubrick stare and my inability to behave like a human and the 40 layers of icy fortress walls i have up and answer my riddles three

[vexheart]

Being sensitive is a strength—it means you feel deeply. But unkindness? That’s a choice, and a sad one.

[qvotable]

You have to meet people where they are, and sometimes you have to leave them there.

Iyanla Vanzant

[insidestory1]

I find it very offensive that the more unwell you are, the more things you have to do to maintain your health. Things like following special diets, going to medical appointments, making big and important decisions about what treatments to use. At the same time, the more unwell you are the less energy you have to do all of these extra things. It seems grossly unfair.

[novacm-deactivated20260406]

(person who learned from childhood to make themself as small and unimportant as possible to avoid being a burden) yeah its okay we dont have to do my thing if you dont want i dont mind

[louisegluckpdf]

anxiety will have you thinking things like "will everyone hate me if i order coffee at the coffee shop" and "will people think i'm crazy if i work out at the gym"

[antukin]

i love being lied to because now i just got a reason to do some horrible shit

[prinz-myshkin]

Bothersome beast, comforting friend

[neckkiss]

The Hours (2002)

[mournfulroses]

D. H. Lawrence, from a letter featured in The Selected Letters of D. H. Lawrence

[armandology]

fuuuuck i just realized that the future idealized version of myself cant exist without current me being the catalyst for change and doing hard things. has anybody heard about this

[vexheart]

[what-even-is-thiss]

You know for the first 18-ish years of your life everyone your age is mostly doing the same things and then all of a sudden every year for the rest of your life somebody your age is getting divorced while somebody else just learned what a leaf is and you have no idea what’s going on or what you’re supposed to be doing

[qvotable]

You are worth finding. Worth knowing. Worth loving. You and all your one million layers.

Danielle Doby