'Cause making love to you might drive me crazy

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She had fully expected to hit the ground, but by some small miracle she was instead in the hands of the very person she crashed into. At first, it took Blythe a second to realize what had happened. Chocolate orbs glanced over her hands in his, before she finally managed to peer up to him. A full foot taller, she would have to assume, and easy on the eyes. There was no way her luck was that good. Despite the sundress she wore and the waves in her hair, she was not the type of girl to get scooped up by a guy she crashed into. Still, a smile stretched across her features. “I’m okay, may have knocked the wind from me a little bit but I’m sure that’s not the last time that will happen”, she spoke and even then it sounded wrong, mentally slapping herself as a flush creeped over her cheeks. “Thanks for the save, by the way. At least now I can look acceptable when I get kicked out of my sorority”, she spoke softly, her hands drawing away from him.

Blythe was already taking small steps away from him, knowing she was running far too late for the event. But something stopped her, maybe it was the fact she wanted one last look at her savior before she wandered off to another doom. Or maybe it was an idea that crossed her mind. “Are you doing something tonight?”

The girl that ran into him was tiny but really cute, he felt relieved that she was at least okay even though it wouldn’t be his fault at all if she was hurt. He still didn’t want a girl to be hurt because of running into his body. “Well as long as you’re okay.” He chuckled softly in response. “No problem..” He trailed off with a bit of a frown. “You’re getting kicked out of your sorority? Damn that sucks, good luck though.” He said to her as he started to walk away only to pause when she spoke again. “Uh..I don’t have anything planned. Why?” The confusion was evident on his face, he wasn’t sure why she was asking about his night if she was gonna be having a terrible night. He wondered for a moment if she was trying to find a way to ask him to be a shoulder for her to cry on later when she gets canned from her sorority, which would be an odd request for a stranger.

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This was so stupid. She felt so stupid. Why would this be a requirement to join a sisterhood? Blythe could remember the nights her mother would whisper stories about the best friends she made in this sorority, the adventures they had growing together. What she couldn’t remember was anything about needing to have a boyfriend to make it through initiation. She was fucked to say the least, seeing as she was across the country at school. There was no one here she knew and no one who could help her. On top of the fact that she had never been on a date in her life. 

Her boots clicked against the ground as she walked down the street towards the sorority party. She Had taken the long way through campus, trying to avoid the flow of her fellow pledges and their boyfriends. Maybe she was just trying to prolong the inevitable. The second she walked through those doors, she was done. Blythe must have been lost in her thoughts, because before she knew it, she was falling back into the campus lawn. “Oh, shit, I’m sorry, I wasn’t watching where I was going.”

Classes were done for the day, he didn’t have to go work at his dad’s shop so he was free to do whatever he wanted. Only problem was, he’s been here for three years now and literally only has one friend who is unfortunately busy tonight so he now doesn’t have any plans or anything to do. Damn his shyness, one would think at the age of twenty-one he would have finally shaken it but he still typically doesn’t talk to people unless they address him first and even then he’s still somewhat shy until he gets to know them. He was in the process of just going and meeting his mom for dinner at his restaurant since he was dressed in a nice pair of jeans and a button up shirt when he felt something hit his body he turned to quickly grab at what hit him. Catching the girl’s hands, he quickly pulled her back up to her feet just before her bottom could hit the grass. “It’s okay.” A soft chuckle fell from his lips as he smiled a little at the girl. 

“Things are hectic around here the first few weeks so I’m use to getting ran into.” It was true, he was ran into by at least four people yesterday. “You okay? Felt like you kind of hit me hard.” He asked after a moment of silence. 

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That was really all that Shiloh could hope for. It was what she had realized in her little escape and isolation act, that she couldn’t really be alone. She didn’t want to be alone, not when she had finally found someone she could really be with. Shawn was her best friend in the whole world, but he was also her soul mate. Being without him was easier, but it wasn’t better. Love was hard work, but its what made life worth living. And if her time of mourning had ruined that for her, she wasn’t sure what she would do. She was just thankful he was willing to give her another chance. “Good, I was sure you would of rented my room out by now”, she teased, happily leaning into his grasp. “Sounds perfect”, she nodded, taking the lead into the restaurant. They were sat outside, facing the light ocean breeze. “I think I could live here forever if it wasn’t crazy expensive.”

As they were seated he was quiet for a few moments, enjoying the ocean breeze and listening to her as she spoke. Finally, he pulled himself out of his head to let out a laugh. “It’s hilarious you thought I’d want to live with anyone else. Before you even moved in I wasn’t all too serious about having a roommate. I was cool with you because we grew up together. I wanted you to be my roommate. Wouldn’t want anyone else sharing my home after you.”  He leaned in to kiss her cheek before moving to open the menu, looking it over. “Maybe if we win the lottery we could live here. Or I somehow come into some insane fortune.”

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“Oh, snorkeling, I’ve never done that”, she laughed, knowing it was a pretty basic thing every tourist should experience. And with as many travel stories as she had done in her career, it should of been something she already conquered. Shiloh let her mind wander to the short time they had left on their impromptu vacation, suddenly feeling sad for the end to be coming so soon. There was still so much left to do and she wasn’t sure if she was ready to come home yet. She was afraid of how she will be walking into the Munchery for the first time or seeing her family for the first time. “Shawn? Am I welcome back in the house?”, she asked finally, peering up at him as their feet carried them out of the villa and onto the path to the front of the resort. “I know I kind of moved myself out with everything, but I would really like it if I could come back home.”

“Shit, really? Looks like we’re doing snorkeling then, babe.” Considering they lived by the beach he was actually surprised she’s never done it. After slipping his shoes on he walked with her out of the villa, his brows furrowing at her sudden question only to let out a soft laugh. “Of course you’re welcome back into the house. You were always welcome to it. Did you think I’d just say nope, can’t live with me again?” He asked in an amused tone, his arm slipping more around her waist so she could lean against his side as they walked. “I would love it if you came back home, Shi.” Leaning his head down, he kissed the top of her head, moving along the path near the boardwalk that led to the little shops and restaurants not too far off from the resort. “This place sound good?” He stopped in front of one that was slightly busy but still had some seating along the boardwalk that was available. 

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“Not necessarily, but it wouldn’t hurt your case”, she teased. Shiloh had a feeling that Shawn was in the same boat as she was when it came to the physical aspect of their relationship. Shiloh had that sense of longing, they had all these years together but were never together. There was a lot of ground to make up and Shiloh couldn’t help but regret not having this from the start. What mattered was that they were here in this now and they had their chance to thrive. “We will get you some food, for sure”, her laugh echoed quietly as she tapped on his abdomen. They both were in need of refueling after the night they just had. “We haven’t done anything on the water yet, actually. Mostly just adventuring into town”, she thought out loud, pulling away from Shawn long enough to draw her sundress back over her bathing suit. “But foos first?”

“I’ll be sure to keep that in mind then.” A smirk played on his lips at her response, his head shaking in amusement. As he stayed close to her he just let his hands absentmindedly move up and down her back, listening to her as she spoke. When she mentioned food he brightened up a little more, he was definitely starving so with that being the first thing to do he was already happier. “Good, I’m a man, we need our food.” Pausing a moment he thought back to what they have done and realized they really haven’t done anything on the water yet. “Well we can do some swimming and I saw jet skis available for rent, have some fun on those. Maybe even do some snorkeling.” He suggested, he hasn’t done any snorkeling in forever so it certainly sounded like it would be fun. Letting her go, he let her get herself situated before moving his arm back around her waist and moving towards where his shoes were. “Food first for sure, gorgeous.”

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“You can flatter me all you want, maybe then you would get more nights like the one we just had”, she offered up. Even when they weren’t in the greatest of places, slowly coming back to the strength their relationship used to have, Shiloh knew they had a long life together. Many vacations, many nights to never forget, and everything else their future could possible have in store for them. These simple touches and kisses were what fueled her, what brought those walls collapsing back down around her. Shawn had done something no one had ever proven, he was there even when she didn’t let him. He proved he would always be there. “A cruise could be fun, maybe even one to Alaska or something. I heard they’re pretty great”, she mused, knowing it would all be possible for them one day. “But now, on this vacation, what would you like to do today?”

“Oh really? So I have to be extra flattering to get more nights like that, huh?” He asked playfully. One thing Shawn knew was that this, what they had, was forever. There was no doubt in his mind that she was his soulmate, his mom always says there’s a time for everything and maybe every relationship they have had hasn’t worked out because time was waiting for the perfect moment to put them together during a time in which it would blossom. Shawn is definitely a firm believer in fate and to him, this was fate. Everything he has ever felt deep down just makes sense now that everything has fallen into place with her and he sure as hell isn’t going to mess it up or just ignore it. “Those look beautiful, I’ve seen brochures on Alaska cruises. Definitely an option, babe.” A smile started to form on his lips as he thought about what they could do. “Eat for sure, then maybe some swimming. What haven’t we done yet? There’s so much to do.”

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The redhead rolled onto her stomach, peering up at the taller man. Vacation looked good on Shawn, happy looked good on him. She couldn’t remember the last time he looked this relaxed in their life. Even when they went to stay in the cabin, there was an element of stress that sat in them both. But here, there was no worries left back home to keep them from letting go and enjoying what time they had here in their floating villa. Shiloh knew she was wrong for running away when things got bad, when her heart hurt too much to function. And yet he still came here, he still was here fighting for what they had found in each other. That was something she was never going to be able to forget. Love that strong isn’t something you find in your backyard. “What can I say? You get very flattering when you’re drunk. I’m just glad we don’t exactly have neighbors to hear us”, she teased, rolling off the net to move closer to him. “I am, mostly just been laying here and relaxing in the quiet”, she confessed, hands moving to rest on his hips. “We need to vacation more often.”

He really did need to go on more vacations. He had the money he needed to put down for his own garage and he was already pre-approved for the loan for it as well. He could fix the building up himself and had plenty of friends that were in construction that could help out too. He was sure even her brother, well the guy she calls her brother, could help out too. They could use the rest of his savings for more trips that aren’t to a cabin, even though that trip was pretty fun. A soft laugh fell from his lips when she spoke. “I’m very flattering anyway but maybe I just like to flatter you more.” He winked at her, moving closer to her as her hands rest against his hips. “Thank God, they would have been trying to kill us or get us thrown out of here.” Smiling, he leaned down to lightly brush his lips to hers before pulling back. “It is pretty quiet here, I’d be down to vacation more often though. Maybe even take a cruise.” He suggested as he brought her against him.

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The days were growing easier, something she didn’t expect to happen. There was a lot that Shiloh hadn’t expected to happen in her life. She hadn’t expected to fall in love with her best friend and the boy next door. She didn’t expected to lose the strongest person she knew to cancer. And she certainly didn’t think she’d be spending her bereavement in Bora Bora with that boy next door. 

Shiloh relaxed back against the netting that hung over the water, her eyes shut long enough to enjoy the sun. The shadow that passed over her face only brought a smile to her face. “So someone is finally awake from their nap?”, she asked with a playful laugh.

Everything with Shiloh was slowly getting better, that much Shawn could definitely tell. She talked more, she opened up more, and she was smiling more. He knew that she still had that pain there from the loss of her father, she would have that for a long long time. But he could tell the pain was fading some. It was great when they started to explore the area and do little excursions just to have some fun while they were there. Hell, this is the furthest he has ever been out of country or the furthest he has ever gone period so he will definitely be making the best of the trip there. The night before he ended up getting more drunk than she was, not even figuring out how that even happened. The drinks were too damn good and they were having fun so they just kept coming for him. By the time they were in bed he was drunk and she was frisky so she definitely wore him out. When he finally came out the sunlight hurt his eyes a bit but he wasn’t as hung over as he should have been, smiling when he saw her. “Yeah, I was more drunk than you last night and you wore me out so I definitely needed to sleep in. Enjoying the day so far?”

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Hearing about her father felt like a sucker punch in the stomach, something she wasn’t ready to face yet. All of this was something she wasn’t ready to face. Shiloh had always been with her father or alone, that was it. Now Shawn was in her life and she knew that meant forever, potentially. It scared her, on top of being in mourning, her only instinct was to run. “I had to be by myself”, she whispered, fighting the tears that welled in her eyes. “I needed to be by myself and I knew you wouldn’t let me”, she whispered, moving to take his fingers in her own. “I don’t want to talk about this right now”, she whispered, her hands only moving to rest on his chest.

His free hand moved up to her cheek as he listened to her, his fingers gripping hers gently when she took them into her own. “I just want to be here for you. Even if that means not talking about it at all. I just want to be with you.” He breathed out, leaning forward to gently press his lips to hers before pulling back to rest his forehead against hers. “I hate the thought of you being alone in your darkness when I’m perfectly willing to share the darkness with you and light a candle when you need it.”

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Shiloh knew she should of been more apologetic, knew that he was right and that she had been a down right asshole. But it was his very words that stopped her from feeling much of anything besides shock. “You just said you love me”, she pointed out, fingers grabbing onto the comforter. For months she had that gut feeling that this was what it was, that there was a mutual feeling of love for one another. But she never had the courage to say it out loud, and he didn’t say it either. Until now. And the longer she sat there in shock, the longer she realized that she had been the one to say it first. “I said I love you”, she whispered, more to herself, as if searching for anything to keep her grounded in what she was supposed to do now.

Shawn watched as the shock seem to appear on her face at what he said. Yes, it was the first time he had said it and it wasn’t the way he wanted to say it but there was no taking it back. But she did say it first, which is probably why it made it easier for him to finally say it without any fear of running her off. “You did.” He breathed out as he stepped closer to her. “And I do. Pretty sure it’s always been obvious. Even more certain that’s why your father hated me, he knew it was there before I did.” He moved to kneel down in front of her, resting his hand on the comforter beside her hand. “I’ve loved you for a long time now, that’s why I’m pissed you just left and didn’t let me be here for you.”

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Shiloh’s natural instinct to spit fire back was burning on the edge of her tongue. She wanted to point out the fact that the only reason that he chose her was because the leggy blonde left town. She wanted to point out the fact that she had loved someone else long before she loved him. But she had at least a right mind to keep her mouth shut because she knew it would all be a lie. That she loved him from the moment they met as children and that they were twisted together by fate. So she remained silent, looking up at him in defiance. “Maybe I am dealing with my shit in my own way. Maybe work is just what I need. Some girls sleep around when they lose their father but I can’t because I’m too stuck in love with your ass that I can’t. I’m stuck in a blackhole and I refuse to drag you into my darkness. You should be thanking me for sparing you this pain.”

“I can understand people deal with shit in their own way. My specialty is burying it and occupying my mind twenty four seven. But you’re not dragging me into shit. Everyone has darkness, Shiloh and maybe I want to be in yours.” His voice rose slightly, trying to get a reign in on his emotions for a moment. “You didn’t spare me any pain, you gave me pain by just breaking everything off and taking off on me. All I wanted was to be there for the girl I fucking love and all you did was push me away and run off into international waters without even saying a word to me after breaking it off. We’ve known each other since we were kids, you should know by now I don’t just walk away and I sure as hell don’t let the people I care about go through things like that alone.”

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Shiloh was no fool and Shawn had been her best friend much longer than he had been her lover. She recognized the way his nostrils flared and the curve of his brow. He was beyond angry, he was trying to push his rage out of his system and failing. She had done something that was almost unforgivable, she had pushed him to his limits. She almost broke him. For a long time, she just looked up at him as she fought the tears away. Finally her eyes tore away from his as she reached up to wipe the single tear away from her cheek. Shiloh had witnessed the way his father’s death had hurt him, but she never took that into consideration. “I don’t know what you expect me to say, Shawn”, she said stubbornly, turning to look up at him again with defiance in her eyes. “I’m not much in a talking state of mind”, she confessed with a bite in her tone, the tension only seeming to build between their bodies. 

Her stubborn side was always obvious, he knew he would probably be greeted by that part of her. Always the stubborn ass that he had to fight through. Of course as she did exactly what he thought he felt his muscles in his body tighten from frustration, his eyes narrowing slightly as he took in a deep breath through his nose. “Talk, don’t talk. But cutting and running isn’t a solution either especially when someone who cares about you as much as I do is trying to be there for you.” His tone came out a bit cooler than he intended but the agitation was already settling deep in him, his shoulders feeling tense, his whole body actually tensing up the more they spoke. “And what state of mind are you in? Trashing your relationships and throwing yourself into work instead of dealing with your shit?” 

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Shiloh was so lost and so broken that the only thing that made sense was to push Shawn away. He deserved someone whole and someone who wasn’t carrying so much on their shoulders. Her feelings and desires didn’t matter, no she was trying to protect him from the darkness that was slowly taking over her entire being. But him standing here now was ruing that plan, opening him up to her sorrow and darkness. “You shouldn’t be here”, was the first thing that came to mind, because he wasn’t. He should be at home with his family, taking care of himself, and doing what was right for him. Not chasing his nightmare of an ex girlfriend, though, she wasn’t really an ex.

The red head stepped away from the doorway, letting him cross through the thresh hold. God, she missed him. She missed feeling his arms around her or the taste of his lips. Shiloh missed seeing his smile and being with him, but it wasn’t right or fair. Her wanting to draw him to the bed and quench those thirsts were not fair. So she remained silent, stepping into her hotel room and taking a seat on the edge of her bed. What else was she supposed to do.

If she even tried to close the door and leave him there without talking to him he was going to be pissed and most likely bust the door, but he was keeping that part of himself reeled in. Not letting his emotions get the best of him was the best idea right now. When she moved out of the way, he stepped inside, dropping his bag close to the door and watching as she moved to take a seat on her bed before moving to stand in front of her. “I don’t know what’s going on in your head but talking to me is the best option. Not pushing me and everything else away, Shiloh. I’m trying to be here for you and you’re making it difficult by running off. I’ve been worrying like crazy, wondering if you’re okay because deep down I know you’re not and you’re here working your ass off when you should be taking time off. Trust me, I have spent a little over ten years of my life working my ass off instead of dealing with my emotions. I know how much it fucks a person up because I’m fucked up still.”