the scars can't hurt you

& THE BRUISES WILL F A D E

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HOLY mac n cheese !!! yes, hi, hello friends. got a crazy writing bug. won’t be going back to un/dyne bc i feel like her story with me is wrapped up nicely but i miss my little bean!!! may or may  not pursue getting back into things here but tbh i just really miss all you amazing humans! ♡

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MAN, life has been wild. tbh i’ve just being living day by day doing my best. there’s a lot of personal shit going on but work is ok and usually peaceful though there is someone in the building who used to be my best friend so seeing her every once in a while is... difficult to say the least, but hey! like i said i’m doing my best even after a few scary days of thinking i needed to go back to the hospital. i pulled through in the end so yay for that! 

i guess i wanted to pop in and just say hi. i miss you guys a lot and i hope you are all doing super well and living your best lives!! it always gets pretty lonely for me when i’m not online hanging out with y’all but socializing is exhausting lmao. i hope that maybe some of you think of me sometimes and some memories make you smile! cause i def do the same. dunno if or when i’ll be back to write ella or maybe someone else a little more consistently but ilu all and wish you all the best!! i’m not really on discord often but if you feel like adding me to keep in touch it’s sky#0851 ♡ 

can’t express how much i miss you lovelies. ♡♡♡

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muffled sky noises in the distance.

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tiny little update for you guys before i leave for work : as always i apologize for my lack of activity there are often times i want to write but just do not have the energy to . recently i asked my doctor to switch my meds because my other ones seemingly stopped helping and i was in a super dark place for a couple months however ... these don’t really seem to be helping much either . my mood swings are even worse on these like i’d rather be numb than deal with that shit . i’m overall just really frustrating with life and wanna die lmao but ;; gonna get on truckin’ i guess . supposed to go back to my doc next monday and talk to him about stuff so i’ll probably start trying new meds again .

tl;dr     life sucks it’s really hard right now so i’m sorry             for my absence but i am trying to focus on myself 

[anxiisms]

new alice song means fresh reminder of ella’s voiceclaim

[lonely-pink-rose]

1-800-pls-don't-yell-@-me

[darkermoonnow]

[thatlove]

[bloodonthehorizon]

Hiding it can only get you so far

[livingstills]

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bydur ;

kermit the frog, there u have a good fc

ohmygod can’t believe i didn’t think of that u are an angel thank u

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i’ll literally marry u if you find and icon fcs for my ocs

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casually kisses her gf's cheek

     they’ve been together so long one would think ella would be USED TO small shows of affection from the one she holds dear — oh no , she is still very much embarrassed and giddy please excuse her .

[rapturefell]

v gently runs her fingertips over exposed inked flora decorating his neck . ‘ the addition is really nice , by the way . ’ hhhHHHMMMmm......

// * @anxiisms.

HE CAN’T HELP BUT SHIVER AT GENTLE FINGERTIPS, her touch, the barest kiss of petals that run along cinnamon skin.  admittedly, it’s still a bit tender, which only adds to the shudder that slides down his spine, the flutter of clouds along raised hairs of the nape of his neck.

❝ is it?  … well, if i didn’t like it, i wouldn’t’ve gotten ‘em…. ella–that kinda TICKLES, to be honest– … c - can you?  ❞   (  stop, before you do something you’ll regret!  )

[destroymylife]

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melmalum‌ . ° ☾

✩ - [ starter. / @anxiisms ]

✩ - [ Interesting, that the softness of humanity would find itself in the roughness of what they built, cradled in steel and asphalt, held against the bosom of midnight and the unkindness that so dwelt within its depths - but always had it been, a point of intrigue born in a man with a similar spirit so padded with the insulation of a heavy mask, crooked grin a misnomer. He was little more than a bartender himself, a human wandering into the same dark places their forebears laid the plans for, but a kind heart and a simple life lived could not undo what earned him his place among the dregs. But was it a pretentious sort of philosiphizing that brought him to this otherwise pointless conclusion, or mere hypothesizing? One could only tell. Still, it was irrelevant, seeing that, as of this moment, there was nothing that could give the night-and-day nature of this piece of the city away. ] ✩ - [ “Lookin’ a ‘lil lost there, swee’heart. Lookin’ f’somethin’, somewhere?” he crooned, a lone brow lofting. He tilted his head, a lazy grin pulling at the corners of his mouth, an effort set forth to assist and usher her in the right direction. ]

     form turns slowly at the sound of another , not so much surprised by it , but curious as to what made it look like she is lost . not all who wander are lost — at least that’s what they say . nevertheless , it’s more possible than not that her features expressed a look more spacey than she may have realized . 

     eyes must glance up in an effort to meet his own noting just how tall he is though not uncommon ( especially in males ) a stature over six feet always seems to baffle her despite being on the seemingly taller side of a woman’s average height . ella offers a smile in return though in comparison something much smaller and softer than the one the stranger offered — casual conversation is not her strong suit .

     ‘ not really . nothing in particular anyways ... why ? do i seem like i’m looking for something ? ’

[1st-1]

Release the aliens @nasa