I....am a friggin dinosaur..unicorn..thing

Pan, genderfluid, weird, and have a daddy. Thats what I'm supposed to put here right?

[theerraticace]

Please reblog if you think that “they/them/theirs” is a valid set of pronouns.

[gone-to-oregone]

I hope I’m valid, lmao

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Dude i know all my shit is pretty depressing so should I just like start posting memes and shit?

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Dear Love Of My Life,

Looks of love are frantic.

Wooed by sycophantic

Behavior contorted by panic.

God, this feels so manic.

But not too bad, it feels just.

Encased in trust.

Will you be my protagonist?

My hero, my shining knight in fairy dust?

Chase away the evil,

Avoiding the upheaval.

Don't let this be medieval.

My soul is your retrieval

You find it in the darkness and bring it back to light.

Before you came around, everything felt so benight,

But now you're here, you seem to ignite

All that is good and loving and bright.

So thank you, darling, for all that you've done.

I love you, baby, for showing me the sun.

This maybe cheesy, but honestly you're grate, hun.

Sorry for the shitty pun. 😂😂

(Yes, I was half asleep when I wrote the ending. Enjoy)

❤❤❤❤❤❤❤❤❤❤❤❤❤❤

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Just Tell The Truth

I always feel so alone

But you certainly don't have to atone.

Its my fault these feelings aren't shown

Numbness burns inside me

Like a fire, might let it find me.

I don't want to be here, pmease remind me,

Why am I like this? Its not the real me.

I bury all of my issues

Because fuck your pity, fuck the tissues!

I'm fine, theres no need to be confused.

I swear, I already paid my dues.

I don't want your sympathy.

Try to learn some fucking empathy

Or do you simply lack the ability?

To care about someone other than you?

Don't lie to me and say there are few.

I know that there aren't, that in fact I do.

Just tell the truth, it's way overdue....

You don't love me and especially not her,

You won't admit it but I know you concur.

Is it possible there's one you prefer?

Doubtful, but nothing is for sure.

It's just a question, don't get defensive.

The things you say aren't comprehensive!

The confusion makes me hypertensive,

Why do you make me so apprehensive?

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Shadows, Shadows

Hiding in a bathroom stall,

Kind of wishing I could end it all

Why do I always feel so small?

Throwing myself against a wall.

Shadows, Shadows, growing tall

Give me advice so I don't fall.

Hurts so bad I have to crawl.

Leave me alone, I swear I'm fine.

Theres blood on my hands, I think its mine.

How weird how bright it can shine,

Something so dark, so easy to confine.

Shadows, Shadows, you're so divine

All my feelings intertwine.

They make me feel so able to opine.

No, don't leave, the numbness is shocking,

Anxiety starts knocking

All my feelings unlocking

Voices, voices, they're screaming, cocking.

Shadows, Shadows, you're only mocking?

I'm in a ball on the floor rocking,

I'm not crazy, my emotions are just socking.

I'm not crazy, don't say things like that.

The voices will call you such a brat.

The shadows give you a caveat

To not talk to me, I'm only a doormat.

Shadows, Shadows, please tell me their truths are flat!

I know I'm not crazy!

...but this was a nice chat...

[killowave]

[mae0x]

wow being alive is… uncomfortable

[nerverfeelagain]

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[dankmemesreasonforliving]

[memes-that-get-reported]

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Try Me, Bitch

*supposed to be slam*

Oh, you're happy? In love? That's cool.

But do you know how to make your girl drool?

Do you know how to get her hot and bothered?

If you said yes, your vision is clearly altered.

Quick kiss, light hug, is that what she likes?

Listening to you go on and on, something about motorbikes?

Shit, really?! That ain't what she told me!

But thats not important, right? On that we agree.

You said y'all kinky, she likes it when you whisper.

She said you vanilla, she'd like a new abuser.

She satisfied? I think not!

Why do you think she comes to me without a second thought?

You think you're a sex god,

The way you fake that shit, I do recall.

But its scary what you might overhear,

Not from me though, after all....

Who is fucking who's girl here?

[anxious-and-afraid-emo-blog]

Anxiety

*possible trigger warning*

Are you scared of me?

I mean, I wouldn't say you shouldn't me...

After all, I'm the one who holds the key

To your heart and your soul, don't you see?

You'll try to come after me, but

I don't remember asking for your input!

Can't you sense that there's something afoot?

Course not, your eyes are covered in soot.

How do you expect to get me when I'm inside you?

All I'm trying to do is strike fear into

Your dreams and hopes etc. Its all impromptu.

Wasn't planned, but I got you crying everyday, its a new

Reason. I put in the bad thoughts in which you argue!

But you know I'm right, and that scares you right? Boo!

Aww it's cute that you think you've reached a breakthrough,

This is the part where I make you cry and get your ads chewed

By your dad

For having feelings? I guess thats bad.

Put on your mask, now they've all been had!

'Cause they don't know that you're still fucking sad!

But hey, at least they can't be mad...

[anxious-and-afraid-emo-blog]

My Dreams

I see you there, standing in my dreams.

I see you..trying to make me cry...it seems?

Please, I'm in no mood for your schemes.

But I don't want you to go yet, it bursts my seams.

I want to hate and banish you from my mind!

But the hurt you cause makes me feel a little kind...

I love you still, as much as I wish I didn't,

But it's not your fault, just an accident.

I see you in my dreams, sneaking about,

Please, talk to me, instead of running out!

This is the only place I see you anymore...

Why does every thought of you have to start a war?

Why can't I accept this, that it's over now?

Because I want you back, just tell me how?

I'll do everything and anything you ask!

I know I sound desperate but I don't want "us" to be the past.

I see you in my dreams but please don't leave!

You're my only reprieve....

In here we're happy and together again,

But waking up makes me cry and it burns my skin.

Please....don't leave...

Me again

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Not The One You See

*slam about generfuidity*

I need a drink, do you agree?

Cuz this side is a different me.

Don't look on the surface, please,

Hiding is my expertise.

You won't find me hiding there.

Or here, or there, or anywhere,

I've been here the whole time!

Surprise, bitch, it's showtime!

Harry Houdini couldn't do it better,

While wearing a fucking crazy sweater,

And padded walls.

Deck the halls

With atomic bombs

This is my sitcom

Cut the lights, cut the cameras,

I gotta check my agendas

Testosterone? Wish I had it.

Earbuds in? Can't live without it.

Is this real? I highly doubt it.

You told me to be myself!

Hate what I did with it and put me on a shelf!

Doesn't stop me, I'm super virile.

Try again to call me a girl,

I'll kick your ass and make you choke

On my dick, then you'll know!

To shut the fuck up, bitch

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Fuck Self-Assessment (Sorta slam)

*possible trigger warning*

Blow it out, watch the smoke,

Imagine different ways to make yourself choke.

Its not a game, its not a joke.

I wear the aura of death like its a fucking cloak!

I doubt you know what the fuck you're saying.

In my opinion, you're better off praying,

To the God you don't believe in, keep disobeying.

Lying, saying you'll change, now you're playing.

Why does it matter what I say on paper?

Nothing ever fucking comes true!

If it did, I'd be in the newspaper,

For telling the world, "I said screw you!"

Done trying with the stupid place,

Simply breathing feels like a high-speed chase.

Wait, I need to sit down to assess...

Assess myself, find the source of distress.

But why? Change my mind, I'm fucking fine!

I think I'll continue to confine.

Confine all my emotions and bury them.

Not today, time to condemn.

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High is a Curse

*possible trigger warning*

The drugs are strong as fuck,

Nothing makes sense.

I can't think straight, I'm dumbstruck.

The high is too immense.

I hate it so much though,

What's worse?

Watching the hazy lines flow?

Or be stuck within self-hatred's curse?

Two different realities,

Neither being healthy ways to cope.

Plauged by abnormalities?

Or be given a false sense of hope?

I can't be fixed, so stop fucking trying!

I'm not broken, there's nothing to rebuild.

Why doesn't the act work on you, that everyone else is buying?

Fuck it! Feelings will be killed.

False hope refilled.

Yes, I know I am unskilled,

But hopefully this time I'll be stilled.