I'm really timid

Hi! I'm a sunflower main, I go by she/her. This is a spam/vent account. Really bad anixety.

[anxious-sunflower-lesbian]

Should've done this before buttttt

Hi! I'm Sunflower. I'm obvs a lesbian. I enjoy PVZ, mweor and other all pet sims, debate, discussions, research and yadda yadda.

As a warning, I do post triggering things here such as:

suicide

selfharm

hate

venting

pretty much everything lol

don't come here if you're just going to get triggered over something that's common in vents

[anxious-sunflower-lesbian]

i promised myself i wouldn't fucking cry again over you. But I am. Oh my god you have no clue how much you hurt me. Jut talk to me. I don't know what i idid wrong to deserve this. I'm so tired of breaking your stupid punishment first. i wish i never had sleepless nights over you, but it looks like I'm not going to rest tonight, all because of you. you child

[anxious-sunflower-lesbian]

im so tired

[anxious-sunflower-lesbian]

whats your toyhouse so i can block you (not related to the furry drama, just personal reasons)

? I don't feel comfortable doing that, I'm sorry. /g I have no clue who you are, and IDK if you have some other motive.

[anxious-sunflower-lesbian]

oh my god, i hate being a lesbian sm. I hate being a queer. I hate how my sexuality is constantly a topic, I hate how I can never truly show it without being questioned, or sexualized. I hate it so much

[anxious-sunflower-lesbian]

im peeling my skin, my eyes, nails, hair, scalp to the bones until i can stop feeling because WTF

[anxious-sunflower-lesbian]

Can we please talk about the "Don't Say Gay" bill that was passed through the house committee in Florida? It's an issue

To those who have no clue what I'm talking about, Florida is trying to make it where LGBT+ discussion won't be allowed in schools.

This is harmful to LGBT+ students for so many reasons and I see no one talking about this

[anxious-sunflower-lesbian]

i am not afraid to confess I ugly cried at the last ep of Dogcraft (Page's Rainbow Bridge)

[anxious-sunflower-lesbian]

Being a daughter is never feminine enough for some parents. If your interests are feminine they'll ignore it so they can push feminine things onto you and push you to like them even if you have no interest in it. You are pushed outside of things you love just because you're a daughter. The opposite of being a son.

[anxious-sunflower-lesbian]

lol

I've been really struggling w/ my feminty and my parents got me after-shave, colonge, and dredoent, however you spell that stuff, for men...

[anxious-sunflower-lesbian]

I feel like we as a community don't talk about how many kids feel pressured to fit into the LGBT+ community to not 'look' straight. By that I'm primely talking about these chronically online kids who genuinely believed that high majority of lesbians wear goofy earrings, bisexuals all have bobs and fannels, stuff like that.

You don't have to spend over 200$ on shein or on some other fast fashion website, to look LGBT+ You are who you are. Do what you want.

I'm sorry if this is just rambling but irl, I don't ''look'' like a 'lesbian', as put to other people. I've been assumed straight or bisexual after telling the same people I'm a lesbian hundreds of time. Yet the kid that spends so much money on 'tiktok' fashion trends is always assumed LGBT and correctly,,,

Idk if this makes sense,, but TDLR; there is no look to being apart of the LGBT community

[anxious-sunflower-lesbian]

Just a Few Reminders - From a Lesbian

-A person with a masculine body doesn't have to be butch/vice visa

-Please just say lesbian. It's not a dirty word. We don't need a million phrases/words for the word lesbian

-Just because you're GBT+ doesn't mean you can't be homophobic to lesbians

-Fetishizing =/= flattery

-Not every lesbian wants to live in a cottage for fluff states

-A lesbian is still a lesbian even if they don't fit tiktok stereotypes

-Lesbian and gay solitary was a key for LGBT history

-Not all lesbian think the same

-We need more lesbian representation

[anxious-sunflower-lesbian]

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I’m quite literally a suprioir honer roll student, accecpted into a trvael program for my grades ad I feel nothing. I feel so fucking numb; I don’t even fucking understand the firist thing of anything they taugt me. I just follow. I only get good grades so I don’t end up being a nobody and depressed, but now I’m fading to become that: I’m not going to be anything. 

[anxious-sunflower-lesbian]

I feel like shit. I really want to get to a therpaist just 2 see what I fucking have. Eevrhtyhing is so out of place, order. Nothing makes esne and Im out of place. I’m not suppose to be in this spot. Everyone is not making sense and I hat ethem so much why won’t time just stop. I need a break. Please.

[demigodgooglesearches]

me: maybe i dont have misophonia

someone at break: chewing fucking OBNOXIOUSLY

me, blocking my ears and literally about to cry out of rage, FIVE seconds away from DECKING their face: c- co ,,ol

[anxious-sunflower-lesbian]

How do I show this to my school without showing this to my school. If a student is TRULY struggling in math, why can’t teachers at least help them directly? What happened to some good old *actual* teaching? C’mon. At least explain for five minutes before sticking students in front of a screen. From my experience, xtramath does the same thing to me and doesn’t explain anything. 

[anxious-sunflower-lesbian]

i dont understand

im so good with the hw but I cant do the test right i awnan die