so i actually did it, i said 'fresno is better than that'. cause I thought man the worlds fucked up right now but a city that has more of everyone else than white people, the white people should get it right. but my sister's boyfriend gets followed around by police cars -_____-; i feel like so messed up, I always thought we were a little bit better than the big cities cause we were so mixed. lately it just seems like white people are messing up everything, and I just want to dye my skin or stay in bed until all this is over. i don't want to use it as an excuse, I'd feel depressed any way, but i just feel so disappointed lately. I feel like I'm not doing a good job myself, with school or life and whatever. Then i almost got run over and my friends aren't taking care of each other and the world is still going to the dogs as always.
is it okay just to turn off the world for a while?
