SECRETs.

another part that remain in silent

[fuck2everything]

[randomxfeelings-deactivated2025]

Suicide thoughts come and go like a guest to me.

But I don't wanna die, just wanna get relief.

NF, hate myself

[dilemmaq]

I feel like making everything worse just by being me.

[exodusx]

[aonosora]

I Can't Carry This Anymore oleh Anson Seabra

Its getting harder to keep a smile in front of those people.

Its getting harder to act like everything is okay.

Its getting harder to stay sane when all those thought never getting off.

Its getting harder just to stay alive.

[quotemadness]

“Alone had always felt like an actual place to me, as if it weren’t a state of being, but rather a room where I could retreat to be who I really was.”

— Cheryl Strayed

[aonosora]

I thought its already over, but... here I am, waking up from the same nightmare that I had since years ago. And the most painful thing is what left behind after those nightmare still make me sick, numb and empty.

[aonosora]

After so long time, they come back to haunt me with all those nightmare. Will I ever get free from them for my whole life??

[katasanti]

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[aonosora]

me : why you want to die?

me : cause people push me on my death.

[aonosora]

A DOLL

You said its my choice, I can pick the one that make me happy

but every choice that I make you always became unhappy

You said its my life, I can do what I want

but you always disagree with whatever I did

In the end, I need your approval in everything that I’m gonna do

In the end, you always the one who control everything in my life

 Rather than being as your child, I am more suited to be your DOLL

[aonosora]

Despair

“ ..... I hate it, I hate it, I don’t want it anymore, I don’t want it, someone, somebody ... Help me!!”

“ ..... Here, someone, me, somebody.... Help Me!!!” 

Here I am trying to screaming asking for help, but I could not voice out my words. Just in the same as before, my sobbing is swallowing my words. 

It was always the case, I was crying all over. Help me, someone help me. Please, rescue me from here. However, that voice did not reach anymore.

Yes, that’s it.

That’s why I am dead.

My words did not reach anyone.

All my thoughts were crushed.

Alone, I died alone ...

Out of breath, my voice that resonated through the place where I was standing has regained it’s silence without anyone noticing.

“ ..... Here, someone, me, somebody ... Help Me!!!”

Alone, I died alone ...

[anxietyproblem]

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[aonosora]

How are you feeling?

Dead

[aonosora]

Its not like I can't or never trust someone before. Its cause I get betrayed many times that lead me to never trust someone so easily

[aonosora]

Why they never let me having my own choices in my own life, they always interfere with all of that. This is my own FUCKING life

[anxietyproblem]