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hishima sakazuki roleplay blog, as told by dove. sideblog to wickedremind. super duper private & primarily friends focused. spoilers untagged. est august 30, 2021

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my god i really did make this blog, write gay shit and then dipped, huh?

#ooc.#in my defense i was at d!sneyland but #persnaps i try and do some shit here #i really do like writing mr regular man

i’m probably never gonna make a starter call here but you’re always free to throw stuff my way if y’all want your lawful gay stepdad.

#ooc.#im already kinda overwhelmed with fret’s stuff #& this is a low priority blog so i’m not gonna swamp myself #but i’m also having fun writing him so i’m putting this out here

ACTIONS SPEAK LOUDER THAN WORDS.

They might have rekindled their lost connection, but Shiba still can’t help but feel a little hesitant around Hishima. He has a lot to atone for / he knows that much / but he can’t help but feel that Hishima continues to look at him like he might a bug. It goes without saying that Shiba can read Hishima’s expressions better than most, and while they might not CHANGE much, there’s still an element of steeliness there in those irises. How does he go about this without sending him away… again?

“I cannot do this without you,” he says in a direct appeal to Hishima’s ego. Now that Kubo’s influence has disappeared, Shiba doesn’t cling to his pride as much. “I wish you would not look at me like that. Like I am…beneath you. Are we not partners?”

a bug ready to be squashed is not quite the words hishima would use for shiba at present. were the reaper to express how he views his former partner, a kicked puppy would be more likely to be used. perhaps shiba has finally become one with his namesake, looking dejected & pathetic as he begs at hishima’s feet for some display of approval. hishima’s never been particularly fond of dogs, but even he cannot help but find a sense of pity for the man before him.

❛ you are not beneath me, ❜ he answers plainly, stony expression unwavering. hishima crosses his arms over his chest, taking a small step back to allow himself more space between himself & shiba. ❛ ... you never have been. but my forgiveness must be earned. if you truly wish to atone, show me you’re going to put in the work to make this right. empty promises mean nothing to me, old friend. ❜

he does not intend to hold the past against shiba forever. but if he were to give him a slap on the wrist & act as if nothing has changed, everything that had burned to ashes from shiba’s actions would have been for nothing. contrary to popular belief hishima is a forgiving man. however he will not forget. he refuses to.

#wordhost #threads.#verse: post canon.#this dialogue made me laugh bc it really does read like trying to make a broken marriage work

i’m not using icons so i’m just posting these as a means of letting y’all know my hishima has melanin.

#ooc.#the tweewee cast is too pasty im js

hishima wears his single glove to cover up severe burns on his hand from a fight between he & shiba, around the end of their relationship. this fight occurred sometime after shiba had been put under kubo’s influence & to quote him things got “too heated” on both ends & hishima was accidentally injured in the process. it’s this instance that causes hishima to ultimately give up on trying to keep shiba from losing himself. at this point he’d just kinda accepted there was no point in helping anymore. the shiba he knew & loved was gone.

even when being honest about how things with shiba went sour, hishima doesn’t speak about this incident & even wears his glove to hide traces of it. it’s not something he’s ashamed of or anything & will take it off if need be. but hishima prefers to not live in the past & found himself unable to move on looking at his hand all the time.

#headcanons.#burns //#idk if reapers can get marks like that but idc this is my house now

really excited to give y’all whiplash in how i write fret vs how i write hishima

#ooc.#THEYRE LITERALLY SO DIFFERENT IT GIVES /ME/ WHIPLASH

"my most beloved hishima died three years ago. alas, sometimes i can still hear his voice."

despite knowing full well shiba is aware of his presence as he speaks to the group of players, hishima remains quiet. shiba's blatantly trying to bait him into approaching with such thinly veiled lies of his passing. though the reaper wonders if his old partner is aware of the irony in his words. does shiba know that it's himself who died all those years ago? he who burned himself alive in the flames of his own ambition. he who rose from the ashes of the man hishima has once loved like an arrogant & foolish phoenix.

does he know hishima mourned him? still mourns him to this day.

but no, shiba. it is not him who died that day. only a piece of himself, a piece of his heart burnt to a crisp in that fire. & hishima won't surrender the other half of it now. not ever. but even as he lives, he still moves as silently as a phantom as he vacates the premises, leaving nothing but their memories together to haunt shiba.

#asks.#wordhost #i bet you thought i was gonna answer this in a jokey way #HAH!#verse: canon.

real talk tho, real writing here might take a min until i figure out his voice

#ooc.#he’s close to some of my muse types so idt it’ll be SUPER hard #but i’m nothing if not a perfectionist </3

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