Silco can’t help but let a satisfied breath of a laugh pass his lips. She’s fast to turn it back on him, but that’s good. It means he’s gotten through. Recovery hadn’t been easy after that … dinner party; death had been a hair away from him for long hours, until that encroaching darkness shied away in favor for the buzzing sound of his own flickering pulse.
He knows Jinx shoulders guilt for it. But he was prepared to fight that guilt for every step it encroached.
❛ I do, infact, clean my room. It can’t be helped that this phantom in the night comes in and draws all over my desk, and maps. ❜
He reaches, lifting up his mug whats scribbled all over the bottom in neon blues and pinks, as if to make a point about the mess of his office. He sets it back down, and leans back in his chair some, getting comfortable around the bandages under his vest.
❛ What’s made you doubt yourself? ❜
Of course, she carries guilt over that night. she had lost control and killed yet another person who had done nothing but care about her. In that moment she truly lived up to her name, she even jinxed herself. She had lost control around him and that was something that she never wanted to do ever again. He was willing to give up his dreams for her and that was what she gave him in return?
She listens to him with a bashful shrug as he speaks of all the drawing upon his things. “Well, you have to admit it makes things a lot more pretty.” It was also a reminder that she was around.
She freezes when he asks of her doubt and bites gently upon her lower lip. With a quick gesture she snatches up the mug he’s set down and turns it over, tracing the tip of her finger along the markings while she sits herself upon him. “I just..hate..what I did.” Her eyes brim with tears that she tries to hold back. She had done enough crying over it already.
“I destroy anyone who gets close to me, and I don’t want that to be you. Not ever. Not again!” She shakes her head and places the mug back down, tilting her head to look at him. “You don’t know how sorry I am..” She touches her hand gently upon his cheek.
“I just sometimes wonder...how you could still care about me. How you could...trust me.” She dips her head and glances down.