this is me trying

Unstable idiot

[crehate]

anya grapes

[sevenminutelull]

[forever90s]

[aphelion-x]

[wishing-for-deathx]

Everything feels like rejection and it makes me sick

[sa-dnesss]

“I feel like I am so far behind in life that I will never catch up. Everybody is doing so many things with their lives and I am just here.. achieving nothing. I wonder if that’s all I will ever be, nothing.”

—

[badlydrawneverything]

[aphelion-x]

I am sad

[nydialilian]

suddenly, awake ⭐️‿⭐️⭐️

https://nydialilian.com/project/suddenly-awake

[dizzociating]

sometimes it takes a long time to really realize all that madd took away from you. i mean years, decades…

looking back on my childhood, teen years, and even early 20s, i’m starting to see all the things i missed out on cause i was just too busy spending all my time in my head. all the memories i won’t get back. all the memories i never got to make. maybe things wouldn’t have been much different even if i didn’t have madd, but now i’ll never know, and i’ll have to spend the rest of my life without answers.

like with any addiction, madd can really fuck with your perception of things. it can keep you in rose-colored glasses for a long time. it feels like it’s giving you so much, but then years later when you look back you realize it took way more than it gave. and what it gave you was only temporary. but what it took… a lot of that you can’t get back.

[aphelion-x]

[mrspider-deactivated20221213]

it took till i was older to really realize the gravity of why (even though i knew it was wrong) but uh dont make fun of peoples teeth. ever. if theyre crooked, if theyre missing, yellowed etc. dental care is becoming more and more inaccessible to anyone below the upper middle class in the US. when people are under intense stress, depressed or dealing with a physical disability, dental hygeine is easy to drop and difficult to maintain. if someone only has 600 dollars available for healthcare, i cannot name many that would treat their teeth before their body.

insults of someones body or appearance have never been in my taste, but the older ive got the more ive realized how short sighted and cruel it is to make light of the entire weight of someones life shown in their face. without even considering why it might be like that in the first place.

[poetic--elixir]

Art is to console those who are broken by life. —Vincent Van Gogh

[aphelion-x]

Think I’m just useless and weak

[aphelion-x]

you are loved, no matter what.

-

M.

😔♥️

[aphelion-x]

Me @ myself: okay but can u not tho

[aphelion-x]

Is anyone else like dead or